Sorry for the long wait but RL has been kinda hectic misxed with writers block, i just couldn't find the words to finish this chapter but now should be back on a more regular update :)

Rather than sit and listen to what I know will be a long winded apology from Alice about how she should have seen it sooner, and the looks of pity and anger from the others I decide to head up to my room. I know they aren't angry at me just the way Edward reacted, he was the only problem how could he say I don't belong and that I am just a burden, whilst that may be true I am only human after all Carlisle would have said something, if not him Rose has never been shy about telling me what's what.

Why can't everything be simple? I hate knowing what has happened to this family and knowing it was because of me that there is a divide yet again how is a girl supposed to react? I do the only thing I can, I cry, I cry for myself, for Esme, and for everyone else in this family that are hurting because me and Carlisle are together. Why can;t they all just understand you can't help who you love, it just happens!

I don't know how long I cried but I suddenly noticed two arms surrounding me from behind, just holding me, rubbing soothing circles on my arms, that at some stage had wrapped around myself. "I'm Sorry Carlisle" the arms squeezed me firmly but gently,

"You have nothing to be sorry about Bella, it was all on Edward, he never should have said the things he did."

Turning in his arms I wrap myself around his body finding comfort in his embrace, but something niggles in the back of my mind whilst I think over everything that happened today, "Carlisle, what happened to Irina? Why did she disappear like that?" I felt his whole body tense before he answered me, "She ran, we don't know where she went or why but she didn't stay around long after you appeared," Because of me, thats why she ran isn't it? Because she thought she could finally have you, then to see me, she realised she missed her chance to have you again."

Silence surrounded us as we just held each other close, I breathed in his scent as he peppered kisses over my hair, we were both lost in our own thoughts about it all, one thing kept playing on my mind though and Carlisle picked up on this as he whispered "What has you worried Bella?" Could I voice my concerns and worry Carlisle, he would want to know but I don't think I can tell him, our whole relationship was still reasonably new I didn't want to rock the boat. "Bella?" OK, I might as well tell him he isn't going to let it go and he can always tell when I'm lying, "She's going to cause trouble for us isn't she? I mean you said she was always trying to come between you and Esme, there's nothing to stop her trying with us, except she has a whole lot of stuff she can bring up, like mine and Edwards history, the fact I'm still human and that you were with Esme for over seventy years, that I'm younger than you, the list is endless." I couldn't stop it as my voice rose in pitch till I was hysterical, then once I started thinking about it the possibility of losing Carlisle made the tears I had thought were all dried up start falling again. God! I'm such a mess all because of one vampire, who wanted my mate.

WOAH! Where did that thought come from? Did I really just think about Carlisle being my mate? I mean I know I said it to Edward but that was just venting wasn't it?

"Bella calm down sweetheart, everything will work out, Irina can't come between us with anything from the past because there are no secrets between us, we both know the other so well, that nothing she can say will hurt either of us, you have no reason to think that it will. I love you and you love me that's all that matters, nobody else's opinions matter but ours" and he leaned down and kissed me so sweetly I couldn't help but respond, deepening the kiss, our tongues dancing a dance as old as time together.

Carlisle rolled onto his back taking me with him as I straddled his body, never breaking the kiss, his hands went into my hair holding me to him kissing me deeper and sweeter than he ever had before. My hands ran down his sides feeling the muscle rippling under my hands as I found the buttons on his shirt, undoing each one at a time as Carlisle's kisses changed into a passion he had never shown before, in all the time we had been together we had yet to take that next step, both being worried for different reasons, Carlisle was worried he would hurt me, and me worried I wouldn't be enough. Even with all of our reassurances we still had yet to get there together, but that was all about to change. As I was about to pull away from the kiss to remove my shirt, he rolled us over so I was beneath him, kissing me and holding me so softly, but it gave me the perfect opportunity to finish removing his shirt from his shoulders as I pushed against the material Carlisle obliged with a soft moan I barely heard, "Bella..." it was a sound I had dreamt of.

His kisses grew gentler and longer, moving down my neck and back up to the soft skin just below my ear, it was so soft I wouldn't have felt it except for the fact that his tongue followed it and left a very erotic trail down to the valley of my breasts that he had managed to clear of clothing whilst I had otherwise been occupied. He tore at my bra leaving me completely at his mercy as his eyes flickered over my now partially naked body making me feel wetter than I was before just from a glance!

"CARLISLE, BELLA. COME DOWN WE HAVE A BIG PROBLEM" Alice shouted up the stairs, I knew it was for my benefit but still couldn't she choose better timing! Closing my eyes I couldn't move and neither did Carlisle I just stayed exactly where he was above me, when I opened my eyes, I could see he felt exactly the same as me, desperate for each other yet knowing that it had to be important for Alice to interrupt us. I reached up to kiss him gentle and he deepened it, exploring my mouth with his tongue, and mine battling his neither conceding but both winning.

We drew apart knowing that if we didn't get dressed and down stairs to find out what was going on Alice would be up here with everyone in tow!