It took seven weeks for them to complete their IVF treatment. Seven weeks of stress and doctors' appointments to get to the point they were at now, sitting in the doctor's room to see if the treatment had worked.
Lee sat with his arms leaning on his legs, hands clutched together and his foot tapping the floor impatiently. He just wanted to get the results so they would know what their next step was, whether it was buying baby clothes and beginning the nursery or deciding to adopt. He just needed to know, he hated the uncertainty. Staring at the white wall in front of he read the same poster over and over again as his foot continued to tap and his nerves begun to rise.
Lucy was faring much better. Her nerves had pretty much reached their limit and she could feel her hands shaking as she placed them underneath her thighs to try and stop it. It wasn't working though, the more she tried to stop the shakes the more they increased. Lucy closed her eyes willing for her nerves to settle but it was pointless, she knew it wouldn't until she knew the results. And Lee's foot wasn't helping.
"Lee, please stop it," she muttered with slight frustration. Lee sighed and stopped his foot. Instead he let his finer tap his other hand, it didn't make any noise and it wouldn't irritate Lucy.
"Sorry," he mumbled.
"Thank you," Lucy sighed with slight relief as she opened her eyes, them going to the same poster Lee was staring at.
They both jumped as the doctor walked through the door, his face expressionless as it gave nothing away. Lee and Lucy had no idea what to think as he gave them a small smile before going to sit behind his desk, clicking a few times on the computer screen before turning to face Lee and Lucy completely, a grim expression on his face.
"I'm sorry…" He begun as Lucy zoned out she knew it was a long shot but she had still clung onto the opportunity of it working. She felt Lee's hand close around hers as she kept the tear at bay. Right, so the next step it was. Lucy needed to speak to her mother first though, get her input on the whole situation.
Lee also knew there was a small possibility of the treatment working and to hear it hadn't broke his heart a bit. They'd just been pushed back a step further and he didn't need that, they didn't need that. It was tough reassuring Lucy all the time and he knew she found it tough to reassure him when he would become doubtful and begin to question whether or not they should carry on if it was going to cause all of this hassle. Although, he knew the results would be worth it but it was draining.
"…you could always go through the treatment again," the doctor suggested at the end of his explanation as Lee turned to Lucy, he was pretty sure he could find the money in his savings and his income was starting to build up but Lucy was shaking her head.
"If we do, doctor we won't be able to afford to bring up a child," she muttered with slight regret, "we just can't afford it."
"I'm sorry to hear that," he muttered as Lucy gave him a weak smile before standing up, tugging Lee up by his hand before they both took their turns shaking the doctors' hand whilst saying their thanks before they exited the room.
Breathing a heavy sigh as he exited the room Lee leant against the white wall as Lucy came to stand in front of him. Taking hold of his hands, she leant up on her tip toes to give him a kiss, a silent reassurance that she was ok and that everything would work out in the end. One parted he let his arm encircle her as he leant his chin on top her head, kissing it before closing his eyes, as Lucy let her arms wrap around him.
"It's going to work alright, isn't it?" He heard Lucy mumble into his shirt as he nodded his head.
"Yeah it is," he wasn't going to promise because he couldn't guarantee anything and that killed him inside. He would love to tell his wife that in the end she would get what they want but he can't and he wasn't going to say promised he can't keep.
"I'll book an appointment with social services later," Lucy informed him as she leant back from his embrace, Lee nodding his head in agreement, "Can we go and see mum and dad tomorrow?"
"Yeah, ok," Lee would normally argue with going to see her parents but he knew he shouldn't because of the situation. If Lucy needs to see her parents then he would grant her that, even if he has to deal with his father in law who was still finding it hard to warm up to Lee, despite their chat in the police van on their wedding day.
Letting his hand slide down her arm to intertwine with hers he began leading them out of the hospital and towards the car park in silence, hoping that things would eventually be ok because he didn't how they would be if Lucy can't have a child. Lee was left pondering the possible outcomes the whole way home.
