Hey guys (and gals!),
First off, Happy Easter, if you celebrate it, and if not, happy Spring Break, and if you have neither, than happy random-day-in-April. It's a thing, look it up.
If the two week break without any warning was any indication, um, I kinda have something to tell you guys. I feel really bad about it, but keep reading and hopefully you'll see my reasoning.
I'm putting this story on hiatus.
Why? Well, to put it quite simply, this story, from the start, has been very forced. It was my attempt at pleasing the masses, and not only have I failed at that, but I've also failed myself. I was trying to make everyone happy- I can't make that happen because person xyz begged me not to, I can't have that scene because then person abc might stop reading- and in doing that, this story has turned into a monster. This is not the story I set out to write, nor the one I wanted to. This is the product of a demanding fandom, and a weak will on my part. This story is heading downwards into a pile of shit, to put it bluntly.
And I don't want that to happen. I don't want to slave away at something that is now almost physically painful for me to write. School is freaking hard, and I can't maintain a good story on top of that. I got into a fight with one of my best friends the other day because I'm so stressed out right now, and I've been bitching at everyone else in my life for no apparent reason. You guys really don't want me writing when I'm like this. I'd be letting both you guys and myself down if I tried (which I have, believe me).
That being said, I'm not discontinuing this. If in the summer, when I have more free time, I have a sudden burst of inspiration, then hell yes I'll continue this. But my self-confidence is dragging, my writing is lacking, and my free time is dwindling away. I want to write my very best for you guys. I don't want to continue writing this half-assed fanfic and feeling freaking miserable every time I upload a new chapter.
However, I am in no way giving up writing for this fandom. Look on the bright side- now I can actually churn out one-shots at a decent rate! I've got a hell of a lot of unfinished documents and finally some free time on my hands, so be on the lookout for some new one-shots soon. Also, in the summer, I'm going to be writing non-stop, and I've got plans for like, a 15k one-shot as well, so yay for that.
I'm sorry, I really am. I know this isn't what you wanted to hear, those of you who are still reading. And I thank you all for sticking with me for this long. Thanks for your reviews, your PM's, and even your faves and follows. I've made some really great friends over the course of this story and I'm glad that even though this fanfic has turned out to be a bust, I still got to meet you guys. I know that this story isn't uber popular- not by a long shot- but I love and appreciate all of you readers nonetheless. You're loyal and encouraging and don't deserve to have me bail out on you, and for that, again, sorry.
I'm not sure when I'll be up and writing again- I'm going on a Disney Cruise for the first time in my life starting Saturday, and that means I'm missing a week of school (also, I'm offline from 4/26/2014 to 5/3/2014 with no internet and no way of talking to any of you guys) and will have a hell of a lot of catch-up work to do. Also, exams are looming, and same with final projects. But I will continue writing. This fandom is great, and I don't plan on leaving anytime soon. But I'll always be around on Tumblr and if you need someone to talk to, you can message me there or PM me here or even drop me an email if you so desire (theepicalauthor 'at' gmail 'dot' com). I'm always here if you need.
I feel really bad about this, but it's for the best. Again, it's a hiatus- there's always the chance that I'll return! But for now…
Thanks for reading,
-Jace ;)
PS: Bitch at me in the reviews if you so desire. Go ahead- I don't mind.
PPS: Search the tag 'life updates' on my Tumblr if you want a full explanation of all the crazy shit happening. You have been warned.
PPPS: Just wanted to say... thanks. Thanks to all of you for sticking with me for this long and for all of your kind words. I love you all.