I took a deep breath before starting my story. "I grew up with two parents who spent all their time arguing and ignoring me."
"Why'd they fight?" asked John.
"Money, work, when I got in trouble. That was the only time they'd pay attention to me and I used to get in trouble just for that reason. All I ever wanted was for someone to pay attention to me, to notice me. Then finally one day it happened. The guy I was crushing on, Buck, asked me to go to a party with him and I obviously said yes. I stole my mom's credit card, went to the mall, and bought the sluttish outfit I could find. When Buck picked me up that night and told me I was the hottest thing on two legs, I thought I would die. We got to the party and no sooner we were there Buck asked me if I wanted to go upstairs with him and yet again I said yes."
"All that for a guy named Buck?" asked John.
"Shut up and let me finish" I said.
"Sorry. Continue."
"We got upstairs and went into a bedroom. No sooner the door was shut he was kissing me passionately, his hands all over my body. At first I was scared, but then I got into it. He laid me down on the bed and began tugging at my top. I asked him why and he told me that he wanted me and he needed to have me right now. Those words were all it took for him to get my clothes off and take my virginity."
"You gave him into him that easily?" asked John "Why?"
"Because he made me feel wanted and that's all I wanted" I replied.
"So what happened after you and Bucky-boy did it?"
"We put our clothes on and he drove me home. I didn't hear from him all weekend and I was wondering if I did something wrong. Finally Monday came and I caught him before school. I asked him why he didn't call me and that's when he told me the words that changed my world."
"Which were what?" asked John.
"He told me all he wanted me for was an easy fuck and that is all I'd ever be good for- a one night stand of easy, hot sex."
"You're kidding!"
"I'm not. I ran away from him, not caring if I got in trouble for skipping. I was sitting in the park, watching the ducks swim in the pond when I heard someone call my name. I looked over and there was Buck's best friend Travis. He asked me if I wanted to go to his house and I asked him why. He told me that Buck had told him I was good in bed and he wanted to find out for himself. I said okay, went to his house, and fucked him. I left when I was done and then it hit me- sex got me noticed, sex was a powerful weapon that I had in my hands and could use to my advantage. From then on I fucked guys only once, then left. Soon I was known all over school. Girls hated me and guys who hadn't had me wanted me. After I fucked every guy in the school I dropped out and left home. I traveled a bit before joining the WWE and that's when I decided to start nailing the WWE guys and making a list of all the guys I had. You were the final nail on my list."
"And what would you be doing if we weren't together?"
"The TNA roster."
John was silent for a moment before pulling me into a hug. "I wish I would've met you first," he told me "I wish I could've saved you from all of that rejection and being used."
"John-" I began.
"I wish that we would've met sooner so you would've never gone through all that stuff. I wish that we would've met first so my love could've saved you."
"Believe me John, I wish we would've met first too."
"Thank you for telling me all of this. I feel so much closer to you now."
"You aren't mad?"
He shook his head no as he pulled me closer to him. "I love you Raven" he whispered.
"I love you too John" I whispered back.
"I promise you that I will never let you get hurt again, I will protect you and love you until there are no breaths left in my body."
"Oh John-"
He cut me off with a loving kiss, pulling me down onto the bed. I pulled myself closer to him, hands at his belt. He pulled away and said "Not tonight Raven. Tonight I just want to hold you in my arms."
"Okay" I said softly.
He pulled me closer to him, our hearts beating together and our eyes locked. Soon I fell fast asleep in the arms of the man I love.