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Hey guys as I said this story isn't about any special version so if I wanted to write what I want I used them all

(In unknown past time)

It's late at night the little girl is sleeping in her bed ( there's a sound of screams, moans and laughs) the little girl waked by the sounds she looked around but no one's around even her parents light is off she came back to sleep.

Next night in the small apartment the little girl is playing with her toys with a sad face, it's near nine.

-"what are you so sad about?" her mother asked

-"nothing, nothing special" she said and shook her head

-" it's okay you can tell me" woman said with a smile

-"well I'm not sure but some night I wake up by sounds of someone screams and evil laughs"

Woman hesitated for moment then said

-"Oh, I'm sure you just see nightmares, anything else that's bothering you"

-"well yea, come to think come of it…don't you think daddy got weird these days? He changed, do you think he's sick?"

-" of course not darling, he's just tired from work don't overthink these stuff. So wanna play hide and seek?" woman said, little girl smiled excitedly.

(In the lair after Star's death)

No one's POV

It's getting one month, the hard silence in the lair is breaking everything, foods are getting more and more spoiled day by day in this whole time Leo and Raph didn't fight or even talked even one time. Everyone see themselves at fault for a special reason even if they don't, they are shameful cos they think they were too weak to handle it themselves and she had to protect them.

Mikey is in his room, all he does is too clean her room and break everything out again he packed all the present she gave her in all these years in one place so he can sit and look at all of them for hours.

-" Why? Just why? Why didn't you tell us we could solve it together, for years and years we wanted to know your secret to know what are you so afraid of, you didn't need to bear all the heaviness of this pain by yourself till finally it broke you, we could share the heaviness, couldn't we? You always told us how important family is, to work together…you said it is the most important rule, didn't you? Why did you break it?" Mikey whispered as tears flew from his eyes.

Splinter locked himself in his room, he is deep down into his emptiness, he's lost in the maze and illusion of the ideal way he made, a maze with a lot of paths that he must crossover one of them, paths of responsibility, secrets, security, lies, promises and in the time he chose the wrong path he broke the wrong lock and crossed the wrong path so now he's more lost in it. In the other hand after so long she told him the truth he couldn't break her trust just so suddenly but maybe if he had broken her promise she would be alive now. It's the second times he lost someone by a wrong decision he can't forgive himself, but they would find it out anyway one day no matter how much she trys to walk in shadow and hide that he killed her mother they would have find out but I'm sure they would accept it after all they fought him, Spkinter thinks about all of these while turtles are avoiding his existence in the lair they are so upset even tho deep down they all know this was what she wanted but still they can't accept it.

Raph is punching his punching bag all of his body his eyes his tongue are yelling by the power of his fist, he was very close to her, he felt that finally he found someone that can understand him and be with him without judging his aggressiveness, someone that had the same stubbornness like him.

-" Why did you think we will judge you? We all know what kind of human he is we know he is a crazy killer why did you hide it?" he said as he tried to stop his tears

-" I always knew how strong you are I can't believe that you reject Splinter's offer for leadership because if that stupid reason I can't believe you didn't accept it and kept all of this inside yourself, you were the person who always helped me when I was angry, you convinced me that it doesn't need to keep everything in myself too much that I can share my feelings with others you thought me this while you was breaking it this whole time you told to follow so I won't be alone so I won't suffer anymore….you said cos…cos you didn't want me to suffer like you did. WHY!" he yelled with all of his power and punched the wall, then he saw a rupture in his punching glow he smiled as his tears flaws

-" Hah! See these are those glows you gave me that day in first birthday we had together that day you told me to use it well, to train hard you said you're waiting for the day that these get too old to use so you buy another for…. So they are getting useless… WHERE ARE YOU NOW?! YOU PROMISED YOU'LL BE HERE TO GIVE A BETTER ONE A REAL NEW ONE YOU PROMISED ME WHY DID YOU RUN? YOU BELONG HERE WITH US?" he said as he cuddled the glow.

Leo is his room staring at his bloody katana he didn't clean it after the wolf gave it back to him. He's in a deep shock he can't handle his lost, he can't think about anything other than the fight he had that night with her.

-"none of these would have happened just because of my too high confidence, I lost her we lost her cos of her sacrifice she gone through so much and we went late got there late cos we listen to what she told us we were selfish. Now I understand why he choose her first cos we always trust her too much enough that we never doubt her but she rejected it and stayed in a shadow just as always and we never noticed how good she controlled everything from behind" he said as he looked at the dry blood in his katana.

Don acted weird he always locked himself in the lab and looking at a beer bottle that he found near the lab four days before the explosion

-" I could save her if I wasn't afraid the chance of succession was too law to risk maybe five or three percentage but it was still some chance but I was so afraid after that horrible future I saw that day I never had enough courage to go anywhere alone" he looked at the bottle and frowned

-" this was a clue for her existence but I was scared I couldn't tell others what I saw too cos in that dimension that Damio son send me Star was dead too and worse than that I had been gone for 3o years cos of what I saw I thought if she died it's possible that I've gone to search for her and never came back so I didn't go after it, come to think of that nightmare future I think I saw a wolf shadow there just liked the wolf girl we met… I wonder why was she there but this can be another reason for me to not to go look for her" he said and lay his head on the table and slowly fell sleep

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Hey guys! Hope you enjoyed I got very emotional while I was writing I'll post next chapter tomorrow or the day after that and I'll finally want to show the wolf identity in that on hope it wasn't boring

See ya