You were my only companion. Why were you the one to come visit me, such a solitary and terrifying creature? I was locked in a cage by my own mother, but you somehow gained a key. Just why did she decide to give it to you? Did she think you could possibly tame the beast in my heart?
Impossible.
So much hatred rests in my heart that the very act of washing it out seemed too far. But with you... I felt as though I still had a chance. Through the weeks, you became so very dear and treasured to me. You were my friend. My only friend. Even with your childish blonde hair and funny green eyes, you became an object I could find happiness in.
I loved you so much. So very, very much that it hurt me. Could you even comprehend such a deep and painful love? I don't think so. I don't think that I myself even could begin to. Why couldn't you see that? You were my only escape from her, my only light in a life filled with so much insanity and crimson. Even so, you acted as though we were mere friends. So laughable. So plainly simple. And so painful.
That longing created in my heart soon became a ravenous hunger. You would not show me the attention I craved, and that made me slowly start to hate my friend. My only friend. Your green eyes that would accompany a laugh filled me with a hatred I had never known. My love for you progressed so far that only resentment was left.
So I did the only thing I should have, right? Filled with so much anger, I devoured you in the way I had always wanted to. I wiped out any light that happened to cut into my world, covering it with a thick crimson that could hide any pain. Only then did I remember the one thing that had influenced me ever since meeting you.
A painful, deep, and scarring love.
One that I could now never have.
And that only makes it hurt deeper.