A/N: Omgosh I am sooo sorry for not writing lately! I have been soo super busy with school and then a couple weeks ago I started having sever upper stomach pain...ended up going to the hospital and everything :( Anyways. Hope you forgive me and enjoy the story!

Everybody always sings about it
How they're never gonna live without it
We don't even have to talk about it
'Cuz We're livin it out

That's what makes it love
That's what makes it a love song
That's what makes it love
That's what makes it a love song

~ Love Song by Miranda Lambert

In the days after my run in with Bella, Jacob had seemed to withdraw from the pack and myself… it wasn't a feeling that I welcomed. He was cold and distant, the only time I saw a soft spot in that cold hard demeanor of his was when he was interacting with the twins. That night wasn't one that I could easily erase, no that night would be permanently etched in my mind.

Bella was killed 3 days ago to be exact, the Cullens took it hard which is understandable, but at the same time they had took it in stride and tried to move on from the horrible mess also known as "Amelia's Life". I'm sure it sounds strange, but I looked at the crazy veggie vampires as a part of my extended family. If it wasn't for Carlisle, I wouldn't have two healthy and beautiful babies, if it wasn't for Emmett I probably would of gone insane while I was on 'bed rest'… damned bed rest I had told them multiple times where they could stick that damned thing. Each time Emmett would laugh, call me 'Squirt' before threatening to tie me to the bed, and no, not in a kinky way, which would in turn earn him a dangerous growl from my hot headed imprinter of a wolf. Sighing I looked down into the now cold soapy water I had been trying to wash dishes in. Seeing as how it was only me and the babies staying in our house most of the time now the meals weren't that big so I only had a couple dishes here and there. Pulling the plug I watched the water go down the drain before moving over to the basinet looking down at my sleeping angels I couldn't help but smile. A woman couldn't ask for better newborns, they were always happy, of course they had their fussy spells but they were few and far in between, as I dried my hands with the towel I looked down at Nate and Lee-Lee; a nick name Paul and Jacob had given to Notalee before everything went to hell.

After the attack Jacob hadn't been the same, he was either pulling double patrols, talking with Sam about patrols, or working overtime at the mechanic shop. It's like some unspoken rule had been passed that he was no longer allowed to speak with me. I won't lie, it hurt. This hurt worse than knowing he was with Bella… Being the smart person I am, I came to the conclusion that Jacob blamed me for him having to kill Bella. Now that the whole thing was done with, he blamed me. Picking up a now awake Lee-Lee I smiled down at her cooing softly, she was defiantly a Daddy's girl but she always wanted her mommy when she first woke up.

"Good morning baby girl, are you hungry?" I asked softly settling myself back against the chair as Notalee turned her head to the side searching for my breast I smiled moving to free my breast from the confines of my clothes as I slowly started to rock back and forth. Breast feeding wasn't glamorous, the bras were hideous… but spending this time with my babies was something I wouldn't change for the world. I smiled down at Notalee as she hungrily latched on. She was such a little piglet.

I chuckled as I gently pushed some of the black hair back out of her eyes. "I think I should have named you Piglet, Lee-Lee. Your always hungry."

"Like her father." I looked up smiling as I saw Paul leaning back against the doorframe. I pulled the nursing blanket over my shoulder shielding myself as Paul pushed off the frame and walked over to us he smiled as he sat down.

"Mornin' Paul." Paul had always been able to put me at ease, reaching over he gently placed his hand on top of mine giving me a knowing look which I tried to ignore. Damn it. Why could he read me like a book?

"Are you alright?" He asked softly leaning in a little, I only nodded my response moving the blanket back to look down at Notalee who had stopped feeding, she looked up at me with her big brown eyes giving me a toothless smile. Man she got her daddy's smile… she could melt my heart instantly.

"Amelia…"

"Can you hold the blanket up? Notalee's done nursing." Paul nodded moving to hold the blanket in place as I moved her up to my shoulder starting to burp her she looked over at Paul and instantly started cooing. I watched as Paul's eyes turned to the little girl a smile tugged at his lips as his eyes softened. Paul leaned in gently touching Notalee's nose.

"Mornin Lee-Lee." She only cooed louder which made me smile, she was going to be the louder of the twins, it's funny how their personalities were already developing.

"Want to burp her?" Paul's eyes flew up to mine and smiled.

"Could I?"

"Of course, just remember easy pats to the back…" I said after Paul reached over getting her situated on his shoulder. I turned around adjusting myself as I walked over to check on the still sleeping Nate. Lee-Lee would be the outgoing, trouble making baby while Nate would be the cool, calm, and laid back one. I smiled reaching a hand down to gently lay it on his chest. I know its crazy but I do that randomly throughout the day to make sure that they were still breathing… it's a momma thing. Paul looked up at me as he gently patted Notalee's back.

"Amelia…" Second time he calls me by my name I know its not going to be good… I turned around to face Paul arching a brow.

"What?"

"Are you alright?" I couldn't help but laugh as I rolled my eyes hugging my arms around my middle.

"Just peachy Pauly. I was attacked by some blood thirsty vampire who my fiancée use to screw, he killed her and now he is no where to be found. It's like I've caught the plague and he wants nothing to do with me." I turned to look at Paul taking a deep breath. "So no Paul, I'm not 100% alright but I'll be fine." I said moving over to take a seat at the table my head resting on my arms, Lee-Lee was now contently blowing bubbles on Paul's shirt but he didn't seem to mind. Paul reached over running his forefinger down my cheek.

"Jacob never had sex with Bella, Ami. Trust me we saw everything they did together, and they never did that." I sighed closing my eyes before moving to stand, I had to clean something… I had to do something. Walking into the living room I went over rearranging the pillows on the couch, Paul walked in behind me laying both of the babies in the crib we had in the living room. When I didn't look up he walked over grabbing my arm to turn me around.

"Amelia listen to me, Jacob blames himself for you getting hurt." I turned to face Paul tilting my head back to look him in the eyes. Damn I hated how freakishly tall these guys were.

"That's bull Paul. He knows it wasn't his fault." Paul sighed pushing a hand through his hair, I knew he was getting aggravated but I didn't care.

"Amelia, you're his imprint. The whole **ing point of being the imprinter is to PROTECT your soul mate for **'s sake!" Paul said. Starting to pace as he raked his hands through his hair again, a trait he had when he was ** or aggravated. I stood there watching him a little surprised by the way he was talking to me. Paul had never talked to me like that…ever. I arched a brow watching him as I crossed my arms over my chest.

"Well he can't protect me from everything Paul. I am a human, I'm clumsy. I fall, I get hurt. I use knifes I sometimes get cut. What's he going to do? Go burn down every tree I could trip over and put all the knifes away? This is life Paul. I'm going to get bumps and bruises so he's going to have to live with it."

Paul stopped pacing to turn and shoot me a death glare… oh crud that looked kind of scary. I was starting to see why the guys don't push Paul Lathoe too much. He turned to me walking over to gently grasp my shoulders the anger seeming to fade from his face.

"Teddy, it was a **ing vampire. What part of that do you not understand? You don't get little bumps or bruises from a leech. She. Was. Going. To. Kill. You." He said slowly pronouncing each word for added emphasis. I licked my lips holding my head up

"But. She. didn't." I said mimicking him.

"Thanks to Hawk! What the hell were you thinking going outside? She couldn't have gotten in… she was just playing head games with you." I stopped, alright he had a point… she couldn't have gotten inside of the house, I never invited her in but hell I wasn't thinking about that. I was protecting my family.

"I was protecting my family Paul. Get **, yell at me, break something… hell go ahead and phase. But I will not, and I repeat, I will not be sorry for trying to protect my family." Paul sighed pulling my into his chest as he gave me a bone crushing hug.

"I wasn't expecting you to Amelia, but damn. Going head to head with a leech isn't the smartest thing you've ever done." I smiled into his chest returning his hug.

"I know… but you know me. I never have been known for my smarticles." Paul chuckled. I liked making people laugh, it was nice.

"You not telling me anything that I don't already know." He said laughing causing me to growl softly.

"Hey! Don't be a jackass." Just as I was pulling out of his arms Jacob stepped into the room his arms crossed over his broad chest as he glared at the two of us.

"What the hell is going on here?" I rolled my eyes turning to look at him. This Jacob reminded me of the Jacob I had known last year, Paul kept a protective arm around my waist as I looked at Jacob who was in the process of staring Paul down as he walked toward us.

"Well?" He asked turning his eyes on me.

"Well I was getting ready to take Paul upstairs and have my way with him when you so rudely interrupted us." I said sarcastically waving a hand in the air as I turned around to walk away from the two angry wolves.

Not liking my answer Jacob let out a dark growl. "Amelia do not tease me like that." Paul shot me a 'what the hell look' I couldn't help but laugh as I rolled my eyes.

"Oh so now you want to come back home and act like everything's alright? Like you haven't been ignoring me for last three days? … Get over yourself Jacob. Paul came over to check on me I'm assuming, since you've been so terribly busy with 'things'." I knew my words couldn't hide my thinly veiled anger or sarcasm, as I grabbed up a dish rag moving over to clean the now spotless counter. Sometimes I wondered what I had done in a past life to ** off the Gods, I mean seriously?

"Really Amelia? Your going to play that card?" I heard Jacob's voice from behind me, I wasn't really sure when he had moved… damn mutt.

"No."

"Then look at me." Damn him and his 'alpha tone'. Turning around I crossed my arms over my chest looking up at Jacob. He could be so infuriating sometimes.

"What?"

"You're pouting."

"You're being an **." Jacob chuckled, yes the ** actually laughed at me. This wolf could ** me off more than anyone I have ever known.

"No, I'm not. I am doing my job and protecting you." I couldn't help but laugh at that one, I mean really? Come on now.

"Alright." I have better things to do than stand in my kitchen and fight with an ill tempered wolf all day long. As I went to move, Jacob reached out catching my arm.

"Amelia." The different tone of his voice made me look up at him, Paul had disappeared into another part of the house taking the twins with him. Jake stepped closer, pinning me to the counter as his hands moved to rest beside my waist effectively blocking my escape route. "I don't want to fight with you." He said dropping his head to nuzzle my neck, man I wish he wouldn't do that.

"Jacob, stop. You've been acting like a class A jerk for the past three days, your not just going to come back home and pretend like everything is alright." I said pushing against his chest… of course he didn't move. Looking down at me Jake arched a brow before rolling his eyes pushing away from me.

"Why the hell are you so dramatic all the time Amelia?"

"Dramatic? You're the one who disappeared for three freaking days, the one who barely spoke ten damned words to me so don't you dare try to say I'm the dramatic one in this situation Jacob Black!" I said glaring up at Jacob before walking over to the opposite side of the kitchen, I needed space. Jacob stood there watching me crossing his arms over his massive chest as he stared me down.

"I don't like the thought of my imprint volunteering to become some leech's midnight snack."

"Well get over it Jacob, it happened. I did it. End of story."

"If Hawk hadn't been around you would have been killed Amelia, do you understand that? Bella would have killed you." Jacob said starting to tremble just a little. I sighed looking out the window trying not to look at the angry man in front of me.

"But he was, and she didn't."

"She very well could have Amelia! Do you not **ing get that? She would have killed you… Bella could of easily taken you away from me…" I heard his soft words break. Looking back to him I saw a look of sadness and fear on his face. This big, bad man was actually scared of something. Taking a step closer to Jake, I chewed on my bottom lip as he looked up, watching me.

"I can't handle loosing you Ami. You're my entire world. I know it sounds cheesy but I can't live with out you." Jacob said moving closer before taking me into his arms as he pulled me tightly into his chest. "I can't live with out you…" He said softly moving to press his lips into my hair, the tension in his body seemed to disappear when I wrapped my arms around his waist laying my head on his chest.

"I know you think it was stupid Jacob, but to me I was doing the right thing at the time. If I had it to do again, I wouldn't change a thing. I was protecting you and our children. Don't ask me to apologize for something that you would do." I knew without a doubt that Jake would of done the same thing without a second thought, so why was he so ** off that I would? Men with their testosterone kill me…

"I'm a shape shifting wolf Amelia, I am stronger and faster than you. I can hold my own, you on the other hand… a vampire could kill you so easily. I know it sounds sexist but please Amelia, leave the vampire slaying up to me." I could almost see that smirk on his face. Sighing I nodded, if he wanted to play the knight in shining armor I would let him… for now.

"Alright, alright. Whatever. It's not worth the fight." Stepping back I couldn't help but smile upon seeing the happy smirk playing on my imprinter's face. He was so sexy when he did that…

"Are you two love birds done fussing? We have to get over to Sam and Ems for dinner… I'm starved." To add emphasis to the words, Paul's stomach let out a loud rumble I couldn't help but laugh as Paul smirked bouncing Lee-lee in one arm while holding Nate in the other. "Told you. Now come on before Quil and Seth eat all the damned food again." Jacob smiled moving to lace his fingers with mine as we walked out of the house locking it for good measure before walking to the cars.

To say the house was noisy was an understatement. I sat at the table in between Paul and Jacob laughing as Seth and Embry both jumped for the last roll, Seth being the unlucky kid he is took a nose dive off the other end of the table while Embry happily clutched the roll to his chest. Luckily for me Jacob pulled me out of the way just in time for Seth to go flying by.

"Watch it mutts!" Jacob said tucking me protectively under his arm as Seth rubbed his nose looking up from the floor.

"IT was EMBRY'S Fault! The jackass pushed me!" My eyes widened as I looked at Seth, to me Seth was the baby of the pack. And as the baby he shouldn't be using words like that. I turned to face him, arching a brow, Seth looked down at his feet, something that I would normally find to be cute but not right now.

"Language Seth."

"Sorry."

"Man he's ** whipped and he isn't even getting any!" Brady, one of the new shifters said apparently he was still learning his manners. He looked up startled when growls erupted from Jacob.

"Watch it pup, don't make me put you in your place so soon." Jacob said shooting Brady a death glare, one that even made me shiver.

"Dude! That's Jacob's imprint, so unless you want to get the crap beat out of you, keep comments like that to yourself." Collin said slapping Brady upside the head as Hawk chuckled. Oh did I mention, we have a new member of the pack. Seems like Hawk is working his way back into the pack, Sam had easily welcomed him back into the pack Jake… well Jake's a harder sale. But I for one, am glad to see Hawk. Sensing my gaze on him, Hawk looked up at me and smiled before sending a little wink my way. Returning his smile I moved closer into Jake's side, he looked down giving me a wink before stuffing another pork chop in his mouth. These men eat like rampant pigs. Leaning up I kissed his cheek before standing up.

"I'm going to go check on Emmie and the babies." I said excusing myself, Jake nodded before wrapped his arm around my waist brining me closer to his side he smiled. Sitting down he was still almost as tall as I am, leaning down I gave him a soft sweet kiss which he gladly returned before smacking my bottom causing me to jump. I could hear the guys chuckle before Paul spoke up.

"Easy killer, we have pups in the room." Of course I blushed, damn Paul and his embarrassing ways! I quickly untangled from my wolf before briskly walking out of the room… my cheeks a million shades of red. Paul would pay for that one.

Walking into the living room I smiled at the scene before me. Emmie and Kim were sitting in the floor amongst pillows, blankets and soft toys, each playing with a baby. Leaning against the door frame I watched the oblivious duo with Lee-Lee and Nate, they didn't even hear me come in.

"When are you going to have a baby?" Kim asked Em who was blowing a raspberry on Nate's stomach, she stopped and looked up at Kim with sad expression coming over her face.

"I don't know… we've been trying for over a year… maybe I'm just not meant to have a baby Kim." My eyes widened at my sister's admission, this was the first time I had heard anything about my sister having problems trying to conceive. I literally felt my heart breaking for her. Kim gave Ems a soft sad look as she rested a hand over hers.

"Don't worry Ems, it will happen. Maybe it has something to do with having to wait until the Alpha had his own litter or something… you know like in the legends or something." Kim said looking up to see me standing there her eyes got wide. I made a move telling her not to say a word as I moved over behind Sam's huge chair hiding me from my sister.

"Maybe… I don't know. I just know we've tried for over a year and at the time Sam was the alpha. It just doesn't make sense."

"But not the rightful alpha, there's a difference sweetie." Kim, she was always the one who was trying to make sense out of everything. Emily nodded as she looked down at Nate touching his small button nose.

"True… I just, I don't know… I feel empty, I feel like Amelia is living my life." I couldn't help but wonder what the hell that was suppose to mean. My head tilted to the side as I listened, I know this is considered snooping, but I didn't care. Emily sighed as Kim shifted, she was uncomfortable but I didn't care.

"What do you mean?" Kim finally asked. I love that girl, but she has no future in a private detective work setting.

"She has a family, something I have always wanted." Ok, so Ems is sounding a little selfish… I can understand this. I have always been the supportive sister. "I mean Jacob didn't even want them, so why does he get to have everything handed to him?" Emily said. What?! "I mean what did they do to deserve this?" Alright, that is it. The gloves are officially off.

I started to get ** as I stared at Emily, what the hell was her **ing problem?

"Excuse me?!" I couldn't take it any more, I had to say something. This was completely ridiculous. I could see Emily tense when she heard my voice, she turned around to face me looking like she had just saw a ghost.

"Amelia! How long have you been there?" I rolled my eyes.

"Long enough. What's your problem Emily? Are you that unhappy?" I asked trying to keep the hurt from my voice, no matter what, she's my sister. I stared at her for a minute as she sat there looking like a guppy.

"I… I didn't mean it like that Amelia!" Shaking my head I stepped further into the room.

"No Emily, I think you meant it exactly the way it sounded. I don't know what your **ing problem is. But until you can fix your attitude I want you to stay away from me and my 'unwanted' family." I hissed moving down to pick up my babies sending her a death glare when she went to speak. "Shut up Emily." I spoke quietly, but my voice didn't lose the anger as I walked into the kitchen finding a stunned pack of wolves, Jake and Paul were already standing up.

"I'm ready to go home." I said quietly trying to keep the hurt from my voice as Jake walked over to me pulling me into a soft hug careful not to hurt Notalee and Nathan. Paul grabbed the car seats and diaper bags.

"Come on Teddy, let's go." Paul said walking over I gently placed each baby in their seats. Sam stood up but quickly sat back down when Jacob shot him a look. I wasn't sure what the hell had just happened… but I knew this couldn't be good.

I had never known my sister to be envious of me… but listening to her words earlier I could of sworn she was almost angry at what I had with Jacob. How could she be? She knew how much I had suffered in this relationship. And she's angry because now it has been fixed?! I sighed walking out of Sam and Emily's house, not quite sure when I would see my sister again.

Special thanks to my love Psycho for being a wonderful Beta!