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I stood up from the bed annoyed, who the hell wanted to keep me up at night? I wasn't in the mood for anything, I just wanted to sleep and to forget everything that happened today. But apparently, that was not what life wanted from me right now. I groaned and stood up then opened the door.
''Look mom, I really don't want to talk right no-'', I shut up as I saw Jace standing at my door shirtless. He obviously just had a shower because his hair was still damp and he was staring at me with those beautiful eyes of his. Did I mention that he was shirtless?
Despite everything, I couldn't help but bite my lip and check him out. He may be an asshole, but damn his abs... suddenly my annoyance went away.
He noticed that and smirked then leaned on the door frame casually while I blushed, him obviously enjoying my embarrassment.
''Hm, I'm not your mom, but you could call me daddy sometimes'' he winked at me and I laughed shaking my head.
''In your dreams maybe.''
''Oh that definitely.''
Aaand I was blushing again. What was wrong with me? Normally I would wrap a guy around my finger in an instant. But then again, this wasn't any normal guy.
''So… can I come in?'' I snapped out of my thoughts and let him inside, then closed the door after him.
''I just wanted to apologize for the other day….with Magnus..'' he trailed off while scratching the back of his neck. I was quiet surprise to hear him apologize, since Jace Wayland never apologized. I think ever.
''I could see that you were hurt and I just wanted to tell you that…well.. I-I'm not good at apologies… I never had a girlfriend… but what I told you on Magnuses balcony was true clary…''
Out of this whole day, this was what I needed to feel better again. I went to him and stood in front of him.
''So you would consider me as your girlfriend?'' I said and couldn't help but smile. His cheeks turned red instantly.
''N-No I-I meant uhm… only if you wanted to… not to like force you to anythi-''
He never finished his sentence because I pulled his head down and kissed him harshly. It wasn't soft at all, but rough and wild, yet still passionate. I just loved the way his lips moved against mine and I couldn't get enough, so I pushed him on the bed and sat on his lap.
He put his hands on my waist while I put my hand in his hair tugging slightly at it. Maybe I needed some distraction. This was perfect for it, not exactly how I pictured my first time but as long as it is with Jace, I'm fine with it. I started kissing down his neck roughly and he moaned as I kissed his soft spot. I began working on a hickey when he spoke up.
''Clary?''
''Hmm?'' I trailed my hands over his delicious abs.
''Maybe we should stop…''
I froze then looked up at him.
''You're rejecting me?''
''What- no! I just… you didn't have a good day. I want our first time to be special you know?''
I looked into his eyes and mine started tearing up. I couldn't believe that I was crying. I never did and normally it would've been embarrassing for me but right now I didn't care. He noticed and hugged me instantly.
''Let's go to sleep yea?'' He said as he caressed my hair and I nodded weakly. This day was too long and I couldn't wait for it to be finally over.
Jace lied me down on his chest and told me stories about his adventures with Alec and Izzy until I drifted off into a deep sleep, in which there was only me and him and a better world.