Hello! I'm so sorry for the lack of update, you must all hate me! Well here's my next chapter, I like this one. Please review and tell me what you think. Thank you!
He was on the other side of the glass window. For some reason he couldn't make himself move. He had been standing there for ages now. Well at least that's how it felt. Derek wanted so badly to be in the room with Meredith, to be sitting at the side of her bed holding her hand. But fear was stopping him from moving. Finn was in the room already, he was sitting at the side of her bed holding her hand. Derek didn't want to interrupt but he felt that it was meant to be him in there. He loved Meredith; he was the one who couldn't live without her. Memories were flashing before Derek's eyes, everything that made him love Meredith. Most of them happy memories, memories he would never forget for the rest of his life. He had to talk to her, even if she couldn't hear him; he had to be with her. He opened the door to Meredith's hospital room and quietly stepped inside. Finn didn't move, he didn't even look up. He looked just as Derek looked and felt, physically and emotionally drained.
"The doctors said there's a chance she might be able to hear you if you speak to her." whispered Finn.
Derek simply nodded. That's all he wanted was to talk to her, tell her what was on his mind. Apologise for all the pain and hurt he had caused her. Finn stood up and excused himself saying he had to get more coffee. Derek was so grateful to Finn at that moment because he looked over at the chair Finn had just been sitting on to see a full cup of coffee already there. Finn understood that Derek needed time alone to be with Meredith. Derek pulled a chair over and sat down next to Meredith. He gently gripped her hand and kissed it softly. He took a deep breath and began to speak.
"Mer, it's me, Derek. I know you can hear me Meredith. All I want is you to listen. I love you more than anything else in this world. God, I love you more than life itself. I am sorry for everything I have done in the past few months. When I picked Addison I was a coward, I picked the easy choice. But I realise now it may have been the easy choice but it was definitely the wrong choice. When you told me earlier today that you loved me I felt like the luckiest man alive. I wanted to jump up and down and scream for joy. Because I thought I had lost you forever. I think this shows just how important our love is and I just want you now to do one more thing for me Mer. I want you to wake up so you can tell me you love me again. C'mon Meredith you're a fighter I know you'll pull through. If that's not enough to convince you to open your eyes, this might be. When you wake up I am going ask you to marry me and we are going to have the most spectacular wedding because you deserve it. In a couple of years time, we'll have little Derek Junior's and Meredith Junior's running around our beautiful country house that we will get built. And we will live happily ever after, with no more pain or suffering. So Meredith please, please open your eyes to make all our dreams come true."
The tears were now streaming from Derek's eyes. That's everything he had wanted to say, it was now up to Meredith. He sat there staring at her, thinking about how lucky he was to have her. She was beautiful. He squeezed her hand just to let her know he was still there. He was about to speak again when he felt her squeezing his hand back. Derek jumped at the shock and squeezed her hand again. He didn't know if he had imagined it, but he was convinced she had squeezed his hand. There was no response this time from Meredith and Derek let out a heavy sigh. He was going crazy, he was now imaging things. He got up from the chair and began to leave the room. It was all getting to much for him. Derek had his back to Meredith as he headed for the door. He missed Meredith's eyelids fluttering open and her terrified look on her face. She didn't have a clue where she was but then she saw a familiar figure.
"Derek…"
The next chapter will also include Addison and Mark, I haven't forgotten about them. Please review, thanks again!