I'm so sorry it took so long! I've been running around like a lunatic for holidays and school and everything else going on in my life right now.

Warning there is a little Yaoi but not hardcore. Well have a good time reading I guess.

Ivan's fist went right through the wall as he roared angrily "AFTER ALL I'VE FUCKING DONE FOR BOTH OF YOU! YOU BOTH STARTED USING BEHIND MY FUCKING BACK! WHAT THE FUCK IS THE MATTER WITH BOTH OF YOU!?" He bellowed angrily as the girls sobbed and cried watching as the large man scrame and destroyed things.

"L-little brother please! Calm d-down!" Kat was bawling her eyes out. She had backed herself against a wall as Ivan kept flipping and hitting things. He flipped the coffee table clear across the room. Natalia at this point was feeling the effects of the drugs in her system so she was just blinking and twitching trying to process what all was being said to her and her sister.

"HOW LONG!" Ivan suddenly got into Kat's face. "How long have you both been using behind my back!? Don't lie to me!" She shrunk down as he slammed his hand hard against the wall, enough to crack it where his hand was pushing so hard it left his print in the wall. Ivan's eyes were full of rage and hurt as he stood there. Kat just couldn't bring herself to look her own brother in the eye.

"When you started leaving to go see Matthew...I...I just tried it one day and I like it...I'm so sorry!" She started crying harder. When she tried to wrap her arms around Ivan for a hug he stepped away. He could feel his chest crushing itself and his breath seemed to be taken away, his own sister had started using because he was out of the house with Matthew. Ivan looked to the floor shaking from pure will not to hit her or to start crying himself. "Brother...I'm s-sorry." She tried to step and hug him again.

His hands pushed her back enough to make her stumble and he turned his glare on her. "No...don't even..." He turned and walked back out of his home slamming the door behind him. He started walking but he knew right where he was going, the local bar and club.

Kat slowly slid down the wall and cried into her hands. Natalia looked over at her sister with wide eyes. "Where did the bear go?"

XOXOXOXO

Ivan slammed his shot glass onto the counter and glared at the poorly cleaned plastic table with a venomous hate. He listened as the pool balls cracked loudly in the far side of the bar and watched the men and women there mingle and drink as the smell of tobacco smoke filled his lungs.

His bottle of vodka seemed much more comforting than some of the women who had attempted to talk with him 'innocently'. He bowed his head a little as he started working on his fifth shot. He was sober enough to know everything around him and still think properly. There was a soft tap on his shoulder and he stopped pouring his shot to look up and glare violently.

"Excuse me...but...do you mind if I sit with you? you seem to be the most sober person here" A blonde with bright blue eyes and glasses looked at him. Ivan blinked slightly, this man looked almost exactly like Matthew.

"Da, have a seat if you would like..." He nodded to the chair across from him and he finished pouring his shot. He set the bottle down and took the alcohol down in a single gulp.

"Hey, is something the matter? I mean it's none of my business but you look like you've had a hard time...and you're drinking like a horse that needs water." The blonde gave a smile and rested his arms on the table. Ivan looked over the man before him. The blonde hair was a little shorter and had a cow lick but was the exact same color and the eyes were bright blue instead of a soft purple but they still had the same purity he saw in Matthew's.

"It's more of a personal thing but...I guess it couldn't hurt to talk to somebody. Sorry, but do I know you from somewhere? You look really familiar."

"I don't believe so. My name is Alfred Jones" He grinned from ear to ear holding out a hand for Ivan.

"Ivan." He slowly took the hand in a firm shake then let him go.

"So is it family troubles? Maybe a girl?"

"It's family..." He slowly started filling his shot glass again.

XOXOXOXO

Ivan hiccupped and slapped his hand on his knee. "An' then she jus' try t' hug me 'nd I ran out cause I w's s' mad! She knew! She knew I h'ted dr'gs 'nd she 'nd my 'ther sis'er were j'st...J'ST USING TH'M!" He was shitfaced drunk. Alfred had listened to every word said by the big guy and frowned at how drunk he was.

"Hey, they have a spare room in back you can stay in, I'm friends with the owner. Come on." He helped the drunk off his feet and walked holding his hand so that he wouldn't fall. Little did he know Ivan was focused on their hands.

'It feels like Matvey...It looks like Matvey...It sounds like Matvey just louder...It has to be Matvey trying to just let me hear him better...' He was so drunk he was mistaking Alfred for Matthew.

"Here we are." Alfred opened the door and smiled. As soon as the door shut behind them Ivan's lips were pressed hard against his. The taste of vodka invaded his mouth as Ivan's tongue was forced against the others teeth. Alfred's eyes shut tight as first in disgust and he about pushed him away until Ivan started sucking lightly on his bottom lip. Alfred couldn't hold back the moan as he started frenching back quickly. Neither cared how sloppy the kiss was as they fell back onto the bed and started removing clothes.

XOXOXOXO

Ivan groaned in pain as he slowly started waking up with a splitting headache. He shifted and stopped when he felt a hand around his waist and a face cuddled into his chest. Smiling softly he hugged Alfred with his eyes still closed. He didn't remember the night before and he just figured that he had went to Matthew's and gotten a little drunk.

"Good morning." Alfred yawned out and cuddled closer. Ivan's eyes shot wide open. That was not Matthew's voice. He realized he was naked and he sat bolt upright.

"What happened last night?!" He was panicking.

"Huh? Oh, you got drunk and I took you back here and was going to put you in bed but you sort of jumped me and it felt good so I wasn't going to stop you..." Alfred stretched some and sat up himself. Ivan was freaking out now staring wide eyed.

"Oh my god! I cheated on Matvey! NONONONONONONO!" He was running like a chicken with its head cut off looking for his clothes.

"Who's Matvey?"

"H-his name is Matthew! He's my boyfriend! I didn't mean to!" He sat on the bed crying into his hands. Alfred rubbed the back of his neck awkwardly. He leaned and started rubbing up and down Ivan's back.

"Hey, it will be okay. You don't got to tell him. What he doesn't know won't hurt him..."

XOXOXOXO

Matthew sighed quietly as he got out of his car in front of another bar. He was starting to get really worried about Ivan since his sister Kat had called babbling and crying about how Ivan had gotten mad and stormed out. Every bar he had checked so far had held no sign of the larger man anywhere. Nervously, he walked in and looked around the room.

The place was pretty messy since, after all, it had been a weekend so everybody had probably been hammered. There were glass bottles broken and cigarettes ash all over the tables, a few employees were quietly sweeping or tending the bar for the one or two customers that had came in for some beer with a quick snack.

"Um...Excuse me...I'm looking for someone. A friend of mine got pretty upset last night and I was told that I would most likely find him in one of the bars." Matthew timidly asked a man who was cleaning glasses behind the bar.

"Sure what did he look like maybe I could help a little, but sorry if I didn't see him kido." The man set down the glass and cloth he was using to lazily lay against the counter.

"He's a really tall man with a large nose, silver hair, purple eyes, and has a Russian accent." Matthew held his hand up to where Ivan's height would be.

"Big guy wear a light pink looking scarf and tan coat?" The guy raised a brow. Matthew smiled and nodded quickly.

"That would be him."

"Yea he got hammered last night and one of the owner's friends had to help him to the back room...Do you want a drink? You look like you've been running all over."

"Yes a water would be nice...Which room is it?" He smiled, glad he had finally found where Ivan was. He was handed a glass of water and the bartender pointed to the left at a hall.

"Last door on the right. If he is gonna throw up the bathroom is the first on the left."

"Ok thank you so much." Matthew carried the water with him, Ivan was going to honestly probably need it more than he was if he was going to have a bad hangover. He found the room and smiled as he grabbed the doorknob and simply pushed it open. "Ivan? Hey big maple I've been looking all over town for-" He froze mid sentence and went wide eyed.

Alfred froze with his hands still on Ivan's back and Ivan's head shot up, neither were dressed and both looked absolutely mortified. Matthew stared in pure horror as the glass slid from his fingers and shattered on the ground. Alfred jumped up.

"Matty?! Bro!?" Alfred suddenly realized it wasn't just any old guy named Matthew, it was none other than his brother that he hadn't seen in years. Ivan scrambled pulling pants on in almost record time and slung his shirt on not bothering to button it.

"Matvey! Please I can explain!" He reached out to Matthew but suddenly Matthew turned on his heels and bolted sobbing hard. "Matvey!" Ivan took after him running as fast as he could trying to catch up to him.

Matthew wasn't slowing down as he actually ran past his own car and down the road at full sprint. He could hear Ivan screaming his name behind him but he could tell he was getting closer. He jumped over giant holes in the sidewalk so he wouldn't trip and he tripped on a curb about four times. He saw an intersection up ahead but no cars were there so he ran faster knowing if he could hit a straight run without corners he could easily outrun Ivan.

"Matvey!" Ivan kept yelling as he tried his best to catch up to the crying and angered lover. He couldn't lose Matthew, he was the only thing now in his life that made him happy besides his sisters and now they were on drugs making him sad to see them.

Matthew heard the screeching tires before he saw the car that had seemed to come out of nowhere. He went wide eyed as he realized his lethal mistake. The next thing he knew he had been slammed full force by a car going thirty miles an hour in the side making him flip onto the hood, hitting the windshield and then rolled off, tumbled, and skidded about fifteen feet when he was thrown off again when the driver hit the brakes. Ivan heard the short scream and the squealing tires. Ivan let out his own scream when he saw Matthew laying motionless on the pavement.

'What is this...hurts...It all hurts...' Matthew thought to himself as he laid there looking at the gray cloudy sky, or maybe it was the pavement, he couldn't tell since his vision was foggy from both his glasses being knocked off and being on the verge of unconsciousness. 'I can hear something...What is that?...' A figure went down next to him and he could just see the blurry outline but he couldn't tell who it was. It sounded like he was under water, the sound coming from the person sounded muffled and far away but he could tell he was screaming.

"Matvey! Matvey, stay with me! Please Matvey, don't die! I'm sorry! I love you! I love you, please!" Matthew tried to focus on the far away voice.

"Ivan?...Is that you?..." He rasped out and Ivan started crying harder.

"Stay with me Matthew! Please don't go!" Matthew slowly felt like he was weightless as he felt himself being lifted slightly. He was fading out and blue and red started to flash in his vision over Ivan's still blurry face, then everything went black.

Ivan cried as he held Matthew's hand as long as he possibly could before they took him into the ambulance away from him. Ivan ran all the way back to the bar and got into Matthew's car. He started it up and took off as fast as he could to go after the sirens.

Holy crap. I'm really sorry if something is messed up on this cause now some reason it wont let me edit or tell me if I have a grammar Issue on here. if you see something I need to fix please tell me so if there's a word that is like "I don't belong here" tell me! Anyway review and stuff if you like it. Thanks for reading.