(Tigertail's P.O.V.)
I sit for what seems like eternity, waiting for her to return. Being away from her this long is very rare, and I can't take it much longer. She is apart of my life, and that's that. I can't go to sleep, it will be too hard. I need to know she is safe every night before I sleep, to know she's there.
This isn't fair. She can't just leave me all alone like this every night! From now on, if Starclan has accepted her, she will be sleeping in the Medicine cat's den every night. She will never be able to be with me. We can't be mates anymore. We can't have kits together, or grow old together.
That's what sickens me the most, not having her by my side for the rest of my life! It's the scariest thought to think it will never be possible again. It isn't supposed to be like this, we are meant to be together, I know we are. But obviously, she doesn't think so.
I thought she loved me. No, I knew she loved me. But now I'm not so sure. She might not even care for me anymore! And this is when I get mad, bristling mad. If she doesn't care for me anymore, or even acts like it, then two can play at this game. She won't get a second chance after today. I'm through, forever. She won't get to have me anymore if I can't have her.
It's almost dawn and I see her approach. Just seeing her again makes me melt. But, I have to shake it off if I'm going to play it cool. She starts walking toward me and I stare at her, menacingly. She gets close and takes one look at me, and just like that, she looks away, frightened, and stalks away. I can't believe I just looked at her like that. It wasn't like me to do that. I feel sick now, and I hate her even more for ruining my life.
(Spottedpaw's P.O.V.)
I can't think straight. Why did he look at me like that? Sure, he can be angry, but now he is just trying to scare me away. And to tell the truth, it's working. He has never even attempted to look at me like that, not once. Whenever I am around him, he looks at me with loving eyes. And now, they were just filled with angriness and hatred. I can't believe what is happening to us. One minute we are inseparable, and the next, we aren't even friends.
I have to talk to him, soon. After I sleep for a while, I will go up to him and see what the fox dung is the matter with him. If he doesn't love me anymore, then fine. But, he can try to be friends or at least get along. I will talk to him at Sunhigh.
I walk over to the apprentice den to get some rest. After all, I only have a few more days till I'm officially a medicine cat, so I might as well spend it here.
I almost crash into Cedarpaw. I back away embarrassed, my head bent. I look up to see him with a friendly smile. "Hey Spottedpaw, where have you been?" he asks halfheartedly, although, I could see some actual worry in his eyes. Me and Cedarpaw have always been good friends, and the same with him and Tigertail.
"Oh, nowhere. Just out hunting and walking. I was trying to clear my head." I tell him, only half lying. He looks at me with deep sorrow in his electric green eyes.
"Why didn't you mourn for my mother? You know that it was very hard for me. I really wanted you by my side when I looked down on her motionless body. It broke my heart and I had no one to turn to. You're one of my best friends, and you couldn't even be there for me in my time of need. How could you Spottedpaw?" he asks me, his face a mask of pain. I stare at his desperate face, him looking for an answer. The truth. I can't bring myself to lie to his face, so I turn away.
After I don't answer him for a while, he speaks. He sighs heavily, "Spottedpaw, you weren't there for me. I'm sorry, but now I can't be here for you." He steps around me and walks away, leaving me there to stare after him. I'm bewildered at this point. Is everyone going to hate me?
A/N- Okedokee, I made a new chapter! =D Sorry about the whole Cedarpaw thing. I know I have never mentioned him being her friend, but she needs someone in the clan to be her friend right? She can't just be friendless! Haha. Next chapter to come soon!