The truth was...
I had two daughters; Peri and Lily were both my daughters, but everyone knew Peri as my sister, including Lily; she was always auntie Peri to Lily. Mum brought Peri up as her own and it just stayed that way; Peri found out when she was fourteen but I told her it was easier if Sam was her Mum, but as Peri got older she became more insistent that I told people she was my daughter; including Trevor, Ziggy and Lily, and now it was just a big mess of lies. I was thirty with a sixteen year old daughter and a six-year-old daughter.
I tossed and turned; trying the get to sleep but no matter how tired I was sleep just wouldn't come. Looking at the clock on Ziggy's bedside table I saw it was nearly nine in the morning.
A knock sounded on the bedroom door followed by the call of Ziggy's name causing me to smile to myself.
"What is it Lil?" Ziggy mumbled sleepily from the floor.
"Can I come in?" she asked.
"Sure" Ziggy mumbled as the she pushed the door open.
"Mummy" she said, rushing over to give me a hug.
"Hi darling" I said as I hugged her back.
"Did you stay here last night?" she asked as she climbed onto the bed and sat beside me.
"I did"
"What? In here?" she asked looking around the room as Ziggy had seemingly fell back to sleep.
"Yes, Ziggy slept on the floor and let Mummy sleep in the bed, isn't that nice of him?
"Yeah, Ziggy's nice, I like Ziggy but not better than Daddy, I love Daddy" she paused and then looked at me with a worried expression "Did you and Daddy fight really badly?"
"Don't worry about it sweetie" I said, feeling my heart-break from what she had just said "How about you go get dressed and play with some of your toys Ziggy has over here for you?"
"Okay, but am I still allowed to see Daddy?"
"I will never stop you from seeing him" I told her quietly.
I watched with a sad smile as she ran off out of the room.
"Are you okay?" came Ziggy's voice from the floor.
"Yeah, I'm fine" I said giving him my best attempt of a smile.
"No you're not, you're shaking babe" he said getting up and making his way over to me, climbing on the bed and pulling me in for a hug.
"Zig..." I whispered.
"What is it? You can tell me anything"
"You'll hate me, you all will..."
Pulling away from the hug he lifted my chin up so I was looking at him "How could anyone hate you? It's impossible babe"
I gave him a watery smile as I felt my hot tears come; he was so sweet to me and I didn't deserve it.
"I don't hate you, I could never hate you..." he whispered as he stroked his thumb across my cheek.
Suddenly the atmosphere changed and I knew what was about to happen; I couldn't let it happen, we were friends.
Suddenly I blurted it out...
"Trevor isn't Lily Dad"
"What? Of course he is babe...
"No he isn't" I cried "I'm sorry" I repeated over and over.
"What are you sorry for?" he asked.
I looked down.
"You, you're her Dad, it's you" I cried.
"W...what, I'm... what?" he babbled in shock.
"You are Lily's Dad" I said before walking out of the room and going into the bathroom, shutting and locking the door behind me.
I slid down the back of the door as I started hysterically crying.