I waited outside Peri's house for her to come after I agreed that she could come and we walked off in night off to Manchester. Seeing all the landmarks flash right in front of our eyes, I couldn't help but wonder.

-Peri's POV- Three Months Later-

Watching the day go by, I spent hours listening to the sounds of the birds and the shape of the clouds while wishing that I could be holding my babies. I haven't really come up with any names yet but I am hoping that the names are meaniful. Zsa Zsa is begging me to double barrel the kids' names and I believe that it is a good idea despite the fact that Tom might not like it. I haven't been back in Hollyoaks for a while and to be honest I am scared of going back there. Being ignored and feeling useless.

Everyone is dealing with their own problems that they have no time to even talk to me about mine. I felt like I was a burden on everyone. Hoping that I never have to go back, I haven't exactly told Tom that I am pregnant yet due to the fact that I don't want to tell him despite Zsa Zsa's constant urges. She is persuading me to tell Tom the truth about the children but right now I need to focus on them. Even if I decided that I wanted to go home it was going to be like how it was before. People think (Leela!) think that I can't handle responsability for things that I have done.

Thank godness that she is still in Greece on her course with Ziggy and will finish it a couple of weeks after their birth so I don't have to hear her moaning and complaining about safe sex and contraception. Do you know how it feels to have people discussing things behind your back? Tegan had cancer and nobody told me that. They kept it from me making me feel like I wasn't part of the Lomax family and they did the same with Ste's HIV.

Well if they didn't tell me the truth about their problems then I won't tell them about mine. I am not going to have these babies grow up in a bad, corrupted and messed up family like mine torn apart by lies. This past year has been a absoulte joy ride. I found out that my sister is actually in fact my mother, then I lose my foster parents, find my real dad, Tegan gets cancer, lose my dad, Ste gets HIV. They don't deserve to know the truth about the babies. Why can't we talk about things like a proper family instead of burying our emotions and pretending that they ain't there?

Tegan obviously has a thing for Ziggy because she is often eyeing him like he is a meal. John Paul obviously has doubts about being with Ste because of his diesease and because of his drug usage and his cheating. Ziggy obviously have doubts about marrying Leela because he is in love with Tegan and Leela is obviously having problems accepting the role as the provider but also as the head of the family. She is supposed to be looking after us but she is destroying this family instead with her lies.

She pretends like she is the victim in this story but she isn't. I was the one being brought up in a web of lies and I was the one who had to find out that way not her. She might have been denied the right to be my mother but I don't care anymore because history isn't going to repeat itself. I am not going to give up my children and be silenced like she was. Because these babies are going to be the making of me. I even made five books so that I could keep all their childhood memories in and me and Zsa Zsa found some cameras in the attic.

Before I believed that Tom shouldn't know but she has finally succeed. I told Tom to come over so that we could have a proper chat about what are we going to do. I have wanted so long for him to tell him but I didn't know what he would do or how he would react. But now I am pacing up and down and shivering frantically. Zsa Zsa opened the door and showed him the way in and I concealed my growing bump with a briefcase even though it was incredibly difficult to do so.

"I was going to call you actually." I said to him focusing on the photo of Zsa Zsa with her family above the fire place. I didn't want to gaze into his eyes because I knew that he would be upset with me for rejecting him. Rolling his eyes, Tom replied, "Ooh! Lucky me!"

"I am serious." I said to him seriously looking down to my bump. Tom was reluctant to listen what I had to say and he looked away from me disgusted probably. "If you were going to apolgise for ignoring all of my calls or avoiding me then don't bother."

"I wasn't going to, Tom." I replied stressfully. Normally we greet each other with kind warm hugs and embraces not this cold tension. It is like I can feel his hate because he can't even bare to look at me.

"Oh great! So you don't feel like you owe me an explanation to why you aren't at school or why you are living in Manchester." said Tom casually placing his hands in his pockets. "Because when you were making that decision, you didn't think about how it was going to affect our relationship. Oh no! You only care about the person staring back at you in the mirror."

"Are you always this rude? Tom, you won't even let me finish my sentence without disrupting me. I was going to explain but now you are acting up like a five year child then maybe you shouldn't have come." I replied harshly gesturing to the door. "Could you please leave right now? I really want to be on my own."

"Yeah because you forget that there was two people in this relationship. Not only you, Peri. I have feelings too and I am pretty hurt." said Tom calmly launching himself onto the couch. "I understand why you left now, Peri. You knew how much I fancied you and the feelings that I had but you couldn't love me back. I thought that we had something special."

"We did have something special and that isn't it, Tom. That wasn't the thing that I wanted to discuss with you. If you would just let me finish then I'll explain." I replied reasoning with him. "I left because of lies. I wanted to be with you, Tom so badly but I can't go back there not now."

"Why because I am a walking reminder of what we had? What because I am a living reminder of the sickest thing that you have ever done? You forget that it take two to jump into bed together." said Tom harshly pointing to me. "You were disgusted with what we did thinking that it was a mistake. That's the real reason that you left and you made me hate you by not going to school and not answering my calls."

"No that isn't it, Tom. I wanted to tell this for so long that I thought that it was killing me." I replied gently placing my hand on the top of my bump. "I love you, Tom."

"Yeah but that night that we slept together. We slept together and you hated the fact that we did it because you were disgusted that you did it with me. A loser." said Tom looking down disappointed. I was so scared that I was going to hurt them that I spent most days on the sofa watching television but to see Tom like that makes me want to give him a hug so badly.

Leaning against the sofa, I looked deep in his eyes filled with disappointment. "Tom, I don't regret that night not even for one slight second. Before, I admit that I was disgusted with myself but these things happen for a reason. I don't regret what happened."

"I understand that but it wasn't planned. It just happened so quickly that I could barely remeber what happened. But all I know that it happened and I don't regret it either. It's not like that night meant that so much to you anyway. " said Tom ashamed. "You haven't even mentioned it since it happened."

"Yes that is true, Tom but that night means more to me than anything in the world. It isn't only the time that we lost our vignity but also giving us miracles. It has been a hard couple of months for me. Very stressful and painful." I replied smiling weakly. I glanced at him but he didn't rise his head and he didn't even show any signs of emotions.

"Yeah it has been hard for you, Peri. Do you ever think that I have been scratching my head for months wondering why you haven't called or anything. Dylan and I waited for weeks and you didn't even tell me where you were going or how long you were going to be here for." said Tom anxiously cursing under his breath. Taking a deep breath, I wondered if he would be happy or pleased to find out that in a exactly four months he wil be a dad.

"I know and I am truly sorry but I couldn't stay back home or I would end up killing myself. I often feel angry, alone and isolated. Tom, please understand that I cannot go back there not now." I replied scared. Tom rose his head so that his eyes were meeting mine but I felt quite akward and looked away.

"Why? Because you don't want everyone to know about our little night. Peri, if you are going to dump then just do it quickly. Is that why you invited me to come here so that you could do it face to face instead of a simple text saying it is over. I don't want to be with you anymore. I thought that you loved me but maybe I was wrong. Were you using me to get to someone else? Did you feel forced to be with me or did you want to be with me because you felt sorry for me?" asked Tom standing up and pacing up and down worried. Hating seeing him like this, I stood up still concealing my bump.

"No I don't want anyone else apart from you. Tom, I have feelings for you and no one else. I wanted to tell you this." I replied flinging the briefcase on the sofa and showing him my bump bravely. Tom froze when he saw the bump growing at an immense rate. "I'm pregnant, Tom!"

Tom moved towards me and I thought that he would be angry but he gently kissed my forehead. "You, beautiful, clever and amazing girlfriend. Why didn't you just say that you were expecting my baby? Peri, I forgive you for everything. So how are you doing? Are you feeling? Are you ill?"

I pulled him into a hug although it really wasn't that close. Wanting to feel him closer to him, I rested my head on his shoulder. "I am so sorry that I didn't tell you sooner. I thought that you would freak out and reject me as well as our babies. The kids and I need you, Tom. We are having five kids."

Tom pushed me away a little bit and his jaw was open. "Five? How did we make five babies in one go. I am a little worried about how we are going to manage with five babies. I mean, we are fifteen years old and we have got our whole life ahead of us."

Moving closer to him, I knew that he was scared but I didn't care about the risks. "Tom, I know how you are feeling right now but I don't care about the risks of having these babies even if I don't make it out alive because they are going to be the most amazing, cleverest people that I know because they are going to be like me and you. We can do this."

"Five kids? Peri, is this some sort of joke? People don't normally have five babies in one go. How exactly did we make five kids in one go?" asked Tom scratching his head. "You can't be pregnant because we only slept together once and we didn't use protection."

"Exactly and I fell pregnant. At first, I wanted to get rid of my baby but then I realised that in some sick way that I love it. Because it's mine. I left to get some peace and quiet to think about my situation. To get away from my family. The peple who have lied to me about all their problems so I am not going to tell them about mine because they obviously don't trust me enough. " I replied removing my briefcase. "I don't want to force you into anything that you don't want to do. You don't have to have these babies."

"Of course I want kids in the future but think about it Peri we have nothing unless we loan from banks but then we would be in some serious debt. We need some sort of plan if we are going to make this work." said Tom anxiously. "We could get child benefits because they are babies and we are pratically kids ourselves."

"I am fifteen. This isn't exactly my life plan. Have some kids. Unmarried mother but these things happen and most of them happen for a reason, Tom." I replied smiling at it. "These babies are miracles, Tom that should be embraced instead of feared. I feared that I wasn't going to be a good Mother to these babies and went to have an abortion but the thought of getting rid of my baby sickenes me. I made a mistake and I have learnt something from that mistake. It doesn't matter how old you are or what you do they are still there and I want them to know their dad is going to be right by their side."

"A part of me is screaming saying that I should stand by these kids to give them the upbringing they deserve. My kids but another is saying that maybe we should think this through, Peri. We are only kids ourselves. This is a big decision to have kids and it doesn't only affect us." said Tom fiddling with his hands. "I am their dad and I am barely twenty years of age. We would be giving up everything. Our lives. Being carefree life."

"Yeah like our lives are carefree. I have an aunty who has cancer, an uncle who has HIV and my family is messed up. I don't want them knowing that I am pregnant, not yet." I replied calmly. "I want to be the Mum that mine wasn't. Be the parents that mine were't. Show my mother that she was wrong to give me up."

"So you are using these babies to point score with your mother." said Tom looking up at me for the first time. "Peri, I am scared that we might lose our spark."

"I love you, Tom and that is never going to change." I replied reassuring him. "Okay it might be a bit hard for the first few months but we could get over it together. You grew up without a Mum or Dad but this is your chance to prove to everyone that Tom Cunningham can be a great faher."

"I do want to be a dad, Peri." said Tom frantically. "But what if I do it and the kids hate me for it? What if I ruin their lives and they hate me for eternity?"

"Tom, all I know that there is these babies inside of me and I should feel scared but I don't because I know that I would make an amazing mother." I replied happily strocking my stomach. "These babies are going to be the making of me. I can feel them inside of me knowing that there is these people growing there. "