So I kno yall wanted it only to be BPOV and JPOV but i after consulting my advisor and friend Michelle, i found out that it made sense to to write it. BTW if you guys want to read a super amazing, fresh, page turning Jasper and Bella story that is in progress right now...then you have to read Freedom's Rise by Michelle Amethyst . If you do not read this story then you will miss out. Seriously i've only come across really good Jasper and Bella stories and this one is definitely goin to be up there. Please read and review that story.

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Alice POV

I ran as fast as my small legs could carry me, while trying to hold down the doubts that beleaguered my emotions. After Jasper's second slip I knew that my patience with him was running dangerously low. My mind flickered back to that night. I was laying on my bed planning my trip to a fashion show in Milan; I had been waiting months for the date to arrive. Then it hit me; the vision of Jasper killing another innocent human. He has always struggled with our diet but I just thought that he would eventually learn to become one of us. The vision was so nauseating and repulsive, that I had to shut my eyes to avoid falling over. In the end we weren't able to get to the human on time…Jasper drained her until she wasn't nothing more than a limp ragdoll in his arms. The thing that hurt me the most was the fact that I missed my fashion show! I've tried to make things better, really I have but they only seem to get worse.

How can I tell Jasper that I don't believe in him anymore? How do I tell him that is the last straw for me? I love him with all my heart but I miss my old life, I miss knowing that I could leave him alone without envisioning casualties. I paused at an oak tree and stood tall. The feelings I had were threatening to make an appearance. I can't spend my eternity constantly worrying that maybe Jasper will slip. I silently cursed destiny for leading me to this path. No, I can't think that way. This path brought me to this family…my family. It is where I am meant to be. But I can't help but to think about what my life was like before Jasper. I was so carefree, independent and although I didn't have a family…I had my freedom and that was good enough for me. I violently turned away from the tree; I hated thinking about my past. Even though my life before was less stressful, the missing piece of became filled when I met Jasper. Since then, I feel like that pull is slowly loosening. Am I just supposed to give up? I can't just let my family slip from my hands but I can't continue being unhappy. So what do I do? Before I could answer my questions, I felt a presence behind me… Jasper.

He walked up slowly to me. I opened my mouth to speak but his hand went up to silence me.

"Now I believe it's my time to talk Alice." Was he serious? I was the one who was supposed to be mad. What about my life? Does he even know all of the things that I have given up to support him?

"But-" I whined; trying to tell him off.

"I'm warning you Alice, if you don't let me continue; you won't like who I am tomorrow." I couldn't believe that he was saying this to me right now. The Jasper I knew always was calm with me.

He loves me…how can I leave now? How can I give up? But how can I carry on? If Jasper doesn't get controlled soon then I'm going to leave him for a better life. If he could sense this then it would definitely slow down his process, I thought as I quickly shoved and masked my feelings. I needed to distract him from it, knowing how good of an empath he is, he'll be able to feel it. I thrust forward as much lust as I could muster to throw him off.

"Agreed?"

I collided with him with such a force, that I worried that he might realize it was all a guise. I kissed him with as much zeal as I could. Although it was rushed and aggressive, I'm sure that he would just take it as make up kisses. I licked his lower lip and he granted me entrance to his mouth. Thrusting my tongue into his mouth, I explored this mouth with vigor. This was wrong of me, but I need my life back. I miss my old life and this is the only way that I can get both. He pulled away and I panicked. I entangled my hands into his hair and began to push towards him.

"Alice we can't do this here." I stopped and grinned…Jasper was a genius; having sex would definitely distract him.

"You're right Jazz…our bedroom would be a better place." I whispered out seductively. (A/n it was too repetitive to repeat the sex scene so I'm skipping that part...thx)

I remembered that Rosalie, Emmett, Edward and I had planned to got Ultra Violet; the new club that opened in Seattle. I darted into the closet and began to rummage through my clothes. "Me too," I could hear her rummaging through some clothes on hangers.

"Are you going somewhere?" He called from inside of the room.

"Yes Rosalie, Emmett and Edward and I are going to a new club that opened in Seattle." I rolled my eyes as I felt him jump off the bed and into the closet.

"Can I come?" he whispered into her ear huskily, while wrapping my hands around my waist. Was he out of his mind? We were going to be in a dark crowded place full of humans, of course he couldn't come. I pushed his hands off of me and continued to get dressed.

"You know you can't." I hissed. "And don't ask why because you should know by now." I walked out in my favorite golden dress. It was short and showed my small cleavage.

"How do I look?"

"Sexy. "He stated plainly. Of course I did.

"I know right? Okay well I'll see you later" I said while leaving. Don't forget to spend time with Bella," I added before flitting down the stairs. Tonight I would enjoy myself and leave the rest to Bella.

BPOV

My hunger instantly disappeared after I heard from Carlisle's mouth that Alice could not see my future. It only fueled my dislike for her, but was unfair of me to feel that way. Could I really expect for her to see my future? A monster's future? No, my curse would never allow such a thing. I excused myself from their eating area and walked slowly up to my room. My life had once been so perfect; I had everything I ever needed and wanted. I remembered the night of my transformation. The pain was unbearable; it felt like my veins were being scraped clean only to have them painfully refilled again. I lay lifeless in the bed while my blood excruciatingly regenerated itself. My mother and father helped me through every day, not once letting me think of myself as a monster. But there was a time where my parent's love wasn't enough. I had once helped a young female vampire named Ella. She was so sweet and kind; I wondered how she was able to stay so calm about being a vampire. One day so caught me off guard crying. I was in my self loathing stage then and her words seemed to bring me out of that world. But who is going to give me those words now? I struggled to keep a hold of myself. I know I'm strong, I know I am. But when I was downstairs I thought that I had finally found a loop hole in my curse. I thought it could be the key to ending my enslavement.

Jasper and Alice must be back from their talk because I can hear the rustling of bed sheets. I close my eyes and try not to listen…it's not of my business. Well it kind of is if Alice plans on hurting Jasper. I hear a distinct moan of pleasure and can feel myself turning red. Of course I knew what they were doing but it does not mean that I wanted to hear it. I was happy for Jasper; his happiness meant a speedy recovery for him. I couldn't seem to shake the blush that grew on my cheeks. I have never been intimate with a man before. Although I've been living for thousands of years; I have promised myself that I would wait until I meet my one and we are tied together in matrimony. It might be impossible for that to happen though, I might never find him.

I reigned in my pain, this time I'm not going to let the vampire that I am helping, see me in pain. I hope that I was able to bring Alice and Jasper together. I'm not her biggest fan but Jasper is important to me now. What affects him affects me. And I refuse to let Jasper be unhappy, I need for him to be happy and if Alice is what makes him happy then I will do everything in my power to bring them together. I know that Jasper does not want my pity and I'm not going to give him any, but I understand completely what he is going through. I know I can't read his mind like Edward but I can see the struggle in him. I'm just hoping that he allows me to be there for him even when he doesn't want me to be there.

Sighing I flip over in my bed to a seated position. It was really nice of Edward to give me his CD player. Edward is someone else in this family, who after Jasper, I feel like, needs help. It must be hard for him to be surrounded by his brother's and their mates. I did not mean to steal Jasper's CD but I couldn't imagine not being able to listen to the music either. The music reminded me so much of him actually, even though I could not understand the words. I pushed the button that I saw Edward push earlier. The top of the device sprang open, this time not sending me into panic. Now which way am I supposed to put this thing it? I put in it and closed the top. I pushed the play button and waited to hear the music. I huffed and took the CD out. Was I supposed to put it in this way? I flipped it over and closed the top. Leaning in; I waited to hear the music that I had be longing for. Finally my needs were met as I heard the music escape from the tiny hole in the CD player. I moved slowly from side to side, let the music soothe me.

I heard a sound and flashed my eyes immediately. It was Jasper! I really wanted to know how his talk went with Alice, but I bet he is angry with me for taking his CD. Panic rippled through me as I hastily pushed the off button. I lifted up the CD but to no avail, it was stuck in some sort of clip. I pulled it up again still in panic. Suddenly I felt a cold hand on mine. I whipped my head up and looking into his amber eyes. He obviously struggled with being so close to me because he began to back away. I reached out and latched my hand on his.

"Jasper mad?" He smiled at me, so I figured that that he wasn't. He shook his head and allowed me to pull him to sit beside me on my bed. I handed over his CD.

"No Bella's" I tilt my heads in confusion and he smiles warmly. He points to the CD and hands it back to me. "Bella." I smile at his kindness.

I get up and place the CD into its protective case and then wrap it in one of my dresses; that way I know it's safe. I walk back to the bed curious to know it Alice and Jasper have made up, even though I knew what they did.

"Jasper Alice?" I interlock my hands like she did before. I notice that he cringes but I cannot see a reason for why he would.

"Yes," I've heard this word so much when the other's talk, so I'm guessing that it means yes.

"Yes?" He nods his head and I smile. I can't manage to smile too much because my hunger is causing me pain. My stomach makes a small noise and I realize just how much I need to eat.

"Hungry?" I frown at the unknown word and lean back against the headboard. "Do you want to eat?" I crossed her arms over my chest. I can't understand you, remember?

He patted his stomach and acted out eating. Oh he was asking me if I was hungry.

"Yes I want food…please," I spoke.

"Food?" I scrunched up nose in confusion. He continued to act out eating.

"Food," oh food!

"Food!" I smiled and nodded. "Food, Bella food," I pointed to my chest.

"Yes Bella food," I hopped off the bed and nodded towards the door. He laughed and followed me down to the kitchen.

He pulled out a chair for me and although I appreciated the jester, I think that now would be a good time to train. He walked over to their cooler and I followed closely behind. I was determined to continue our teaching, just because we were friends, it does not mean that I am going to stop training with him. He awkwardly moved around me; gathering ingredients to make something for me. He opened their cooler and pulled out a brownish ingredient that I quickly recognized as meat. I snorted out in disgust. In my family we only ate greens; it was considered a sin to eat meat of an animal. I was still attached to my old ways.

"I don' eat the meat of animals, it's against my beliefs." I nodded my head and crossed her arms over her chest, not caring if he understood or not.

"So you don't like roast beef?" I sighed. This language barrier was making things even more difficult. I must remember to talk to Carlisle about a book with translations.

"NO meat," I pulled the meat away from his hand, went to the cooler and pulled out a green lettuce. I was going to make him understand my vegetarianism by balancing the two in my hands. I held the lettuce lower than I held the meat to show its importance over the meat.

"Yes to this Jasper, no to this." I moved my hands up and down.

"You don't eat meat." I nodded my head cautiously not completely sure of what he said. He took the roast beef from me and put it away. I had not consumed blood in two whole days and it was killing me. I pointed to the thermos and he took it out for me.

I did not stop following him as he created a very interesting combination of ingredients. He tossed in some strange fruits but I didn't complain. He placed it on the counter for me and waited for me to sit. He wasn't going to wait until I was done; we would train while I ate. I pulled one of the chairs over to mine and waited for him to sit. I patted it and looked up at him expectantly. He didn't sit so I patted it more violently. He quickly sat but leaned as far away as he could from me. Come on Jasper! I rolled my eyes and pulled his shoulder to lean against mine. I sighed and began to eat. This was an amazing dish. I wondered just what it was he spritzed over it. I couldn't stifle the groan that escaped my lips when I ate some sort of nut. I finished slowly and prepared myself for the blood. Would Jasper be able to control himself while I drank? No, I'm not sure he'll be completely comfortable.

"Thank you," he smiled at me; obviously shocked by my new word.

"You're welcome Bella," I smiled but then began felt very tired. I would need to sleep soon to begin a new day tomorrow I pointed to the thermos. I need to see just how far I can push him; I knew that this would bring consequences and pain. If Jasper attacks me; it will hurt the both of us. His hands unsteadily moved towards the cap of the thermos. He tried to get up but I placed my hand on his though and pushed down. I looked to the blood and back at him. He didn't move so I grabbed his hands into mine.

"Open it Jasper, I know you can do it." I urged him on.

"I can't," I could tell that he was telling me that he couldn't.

"Touch,"

He untwisted in slowly; his mouth in a tight line the whole time. He finally moved his hands away from the thermos but they were still shaking. I slowly brought the thermos up to my lips; the whole time keeping my eyes on his. I could still feel him watching me as the cold liquid hit my throat with a cooling sensation. I closed my eyes; lost in the delicious taste of blood. I'm not sure where he snapped but suddenly the thermos was grabbed away from my hands. I opened my eyes to see him greedily gulping the blood. I stood up and tried to retrieve it from him but he was already done. I used all my power to send him calmness but I could feel him resisting.

"Jasper," I said in a firm voice. But he was too busy staring into me to notice that I had said his name. "Control Jasper I know you have control," I could clearly see his eyes go from mud yellow to onyx.

I knew at that moment that there was nothing that I could say, could bring him back. I slowly began to back away. He noticed his and a dark sinister smile formed on his lips. I know that I could not run fast enough to get away but I did know that I am stronger…but I'm not sure that my strength will stop him. He started to walk closer to me and I knew that he was going to attack me. There was nothing I could do but to just let him do it. He would feel guilty later but I know that it would help him to see me in pain. I took another step backwards to egg him on.

He charged toward me; knocking me down onto the floor. I winced as I felt my head hit something very hard. He did not look like Jasper…but truly like a monster. I hated saying it but it was true; Jasper wasn't there anymore, it was the dark Jasper that he had unsuccessfully tried to hide. I took one last look into his dark eyes before he ripped into my jugular. I suppressed my urge to scream as I felt my skin tear under his sharp teeth. My body struggled underneath his as I tried to push him off of me. He pushed even harder into the crook of my neck for more excess. My vision started to become blurred as the pain asphyxiated all of my senses. It was like being alive during surgery; the smarting sensation only grew worse. His hands traveled lower and I could feel him bending my legs upwards, as if to pump the blood into his mouth faster. The vacuuming feeling began as I began to feel my body becoming limp under him. My blood was running low which meant that soon the agonizing torture of my blood regenerating itself.

He didn't stop even when I knew that he was full. My kicking and muffled screams only seemed to fuel his thirst for my blood. I could feel my blood starting his process. The burning seemed to singe through my skin, finally allowing me to scream fully. I writhed under his body like a fish out of water. I made futile attempts to claw away but he was heavy and I was weak. I slowly opened my eyes open to see his on mine. He was watching me in pain. Suddenly he was off of me. I was too weak to lift up my head to look at him; my blood was still trying to fill my veins. My body spazzed a few more times before settling. The burning sensation slowed but the pain rode on. I tried to fight off the darkness that threatened to consume me but in the end I lost and I was swallowed by the darkness.

So Jasper attacked Bella! wow! I hope that i surprised you guys with that. What did you guys think was going to happen or what did you want to happen? Let me know in ur reviews plz! Nxt ch. JPOV . Will the rest of the Cullens find out? Or will Bella hide it from them? remember Alice can't see any of the future regarding Jasper and Bella!