~Choices In Life~
So, here's the next chapter people~! Oh yeah! Somehow, I feel pumped up to write this fanfic even more. Wonder why though? Well, maybe it's because I've changed the storyline a bit? Or a lot? It's true though that I've changed the storyline. I made a new one. Because the old was was washed ashore somewhere in the house. Hahahaha~! My writing on that paper is all...gone, along with the old storyline.
Btw, I'm free! OMG! The last paper is finished! Argh! And I'm free! I've got 3 month of free time until my results came out. Woohoo~! And then another 3 month to get into a university! Haha, after this fanfic, maybe I'll go do that fanfic in asianfanfic...I've ignored that fanfic too long...as well. (=.=)
Chapter 9: A Special Place
Madoka stare at the letter she put on her desk. She had opened it but did not have the courage to read it. She was scared. She was scared of what Ginga had wrote. He could have wrote that he was dissapointed in her attitude before. Or maybe he is still angry about what had happened...but then again, if he really is angry, why bother writing a letter? Madoka suddenly had the courage back to her. Just when she's about to read it, she remembered what Yui said long ago,
"Have you forgot that he'll promise to send letters?"
Now that she remembered, Ginga is the type to keep his promise to people, no matter how conflict his relationship with the person. She lost hope. Ginga might wrote the letter to her just because he had promised her. What if he is still angry about it? Madoka slowly put down the letter on her desk before letting out a sigh.
"Why do I always think so NEGATIVE!?", Madoka yelled as she messed her hair. When she calmed down, she decided to take a bath only to see Ryuuga leaning at her door frame, arms crossed with one of his eyebrow raise. Silence surround the two until Madoka's face turns bright.
"D-Did you...just saw that...?", she ask quietly. Ryuuga just nod his head. How embarrassing, she thought. When she realized that Ryuuga is still at her door frame, she knew that he wants something.
"A-Anyway, do you need something?", she ask as she regain her composure.
"I'm hungry..."
"..."
"...I'm serious..."
"Okay, okay. I'll go make something. Why don't you go take a bath while I prepared something?", she said as she got up and went towards the kitchen. Ryuuga just followed her from behind.
"Don't you need help?", he ask and Madoka stopped her tracks. Did he just offered some help? Okay, that is so unexpected. Ryuuga would never offer help to anyone and seriously, ANYONE! Madoka looked at him. She wanted to ask whether he was serious in offering help but decided to put it aside because he might get pissed.
"Don't worry about it. I can do it. You must be tired from taking care of my house while I was away. Not to mention you were all alone. Just leave the cooking to me while you get yourself clean!", with that she pushed Ryuuga from behind to his room and then she went to the kitchen.
"Hm, what should I make today?", she ask herself as she stood there. After a couple of seconds thinking, she decided to make spaghetti. She then checked in some cabinets for the ingredients and when she had gather them all, she began cooking. As she cooked, she did not realized someone came into the kitchen.
"So what are you cooking?", a voice ask which surprised Madoka. She turned around to see Kyouya at the dining table.
"H-How did you came in?", she ask, still with that surprised face on.
"You got a spare key right? I took it.", he told her and went to her refrigerator to drink.
"Ah, is that so?"
While Kyouya sat at a dining chair, drinking his water, Madoka thought for a while and remembered that she did have a spare key. Which means...
"You just took it!?", she exclaim which surprised Kyouya that he choke on his water.
"Did you have to surprise me!?", after that, the two of them continue to quarrel with each other that they didn't notice Ryuuga just passed the dining room, muttering to himself how noisy can those two can be. After quarreling and eating dinner, Madoka went to her room and stare at the letter on her desk. Just by seeing the letter scares her.
"I'll just read it tomorrow with Yui then. I might be okay if she's with me... Ginga wouldn't mind waiting a reply for another couple of days right?", she told herself as she went to the bathroom to take a bath.
"So what you're trying to say is, you wanted to read the letter with me so that you're nervous feeling would disappear and at the same time, you wanted my opinion as well. Is that right?", Yui ask, leaning back at her chair. Madoka and Yui are both at the basement in the shop. Madoka told Yui about the whole thing when she got the letter. Yui had to listen since this is like...Madoka's biggest problem out of all her other problems. The main problem right now is whether Yui agree or not.
"Yeah, something like that...", Madoka mutter as she lean against her work table with the letter in her hands. She really hoped that Yui would agree to help her out since she is too nervous about this thing. She looked up to see Yui looking back at her with a soft stare. After that, she let out a sigh.
"Fine...It's not like I can do anything to ignore you.", Yui went to the refrigerator to prepare some drinks since she knew that this might take a while. When Madoka heard what Yui just said, somehow she let out a bright glow of happiness as she looked at Yui. As Yui prepares something for them, Madoka hugged her from behind.
"Oh, thank you so much, Yui~! Thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you~! I don't mind saying it many times! Oh my god, THANK YO-", before she could finished her sentence, she got chop by Yui on the head.
"..."
"..."
"Did you have to chop my head so hard...?", Madoka ask, whimpering far away from Yui while rubbing her head. Yui look at Madoka to see her childish teary face and she glare.
"I wouldn't chopped your head that hard if you didn't tackled me from behind!", Yui exclaim.
"It was a hug!"
"I DON'T CARE!"
After a several minutes of arguing with each other, they finally settle down. They sat right across each other, drinks in hand and facing each other. Madoka took a sip of her drink before she place the glass at the table beside her and took the letter.
"Alright, here goes.", she said to Yui so that she knew that she is about to read the letter. What happens next is...
"...what should I do...?", Madoka mutter to herself. Yui just raise one of her eyebrows when she heard what Madoka just muttered. She just stare at the letter and look gloomy.
"What?", Yui ask but Madoka ignore her.
"...I'm still scared...", she mutters to herself again. Yui knew where this is going. She knew very well that Madoka's mind is currently blank. Which means, she will talk to herself until she is satisfy with what she thinks.
"Great, god help me. I think I'm gonna face with that stupid situation again.", Yui messed her hair and look at Madoka from the corner of her eyes. She looked lifeless like a doll. Along with the talking to yourself just adds more similarity to a doll.
"...What I'm gonna do...?", Madoka ask herself.
"Um, Madoka? I think-"
"...What if he didn't honestly wanted to write a letter to me...?", this time she looked up to see Yui but she still looked lifeless. Yui just stare at her with an uncomfortable expression.
"I don't think that's actually-"
"OR WORST! This letter is just blank! Oh my god! I wanna die!", Madoka exclaim. By hearing that last sentence, Yui snap and chop Madoka's head again but harder than before.
"Ow! What was that for!?", Madoka ask Yui, anger builds within her but that anger dissipates when she saw how deadly Yui's face was. It was very scary that Madoka was lost at words. It was Madoka's first time to see such expression. She looked entirely different. As if the Yui in front of her, is not actually the real Yui.
"Listen here. Just because of your fear towards such small things, you didn't have to say things like dying! You might have said those negative things but you actually didn't want all those to come true right!? What's the point of hope's existence if no one could believe in it? Think about it Madoka! There's lot of other people out there with no hope yet they still believe in it! Why can't you do the same?", Yui gasp out for air after saying all those things. Madoka was speechless. She could not believe what Yui just said. It really was unexpected. Yui let out a sigh and sat down. Madoka did not do anything. She just sat at her seat in silence.
Did she just scold her for real? Like, scold her really hard? It was the first time. They usually scold each other playfully but this time, it was a serious one. Madoka clutch her skirt as she remembered Yui's expression. She was scared. Who knew that Yui could be like that? Yui on the other hand saw that Madoka start to tremble a bit.
"Took you by surprise? Wow, didn't expect that you would take my reaction so seriously~", Yui's tone changed from serious to teasing. Madoka look up to see Yui smirking.
"...W-What...?", Madoka ask, softly. Yui chuckle and pat Madoka's head.
"God I swear, you're getting slower and slower as times pass. Hahaha~!"
"You were acting the whole time!?", Madoka ask. How embarassing. She could not believe that she was tricked. Well, this is Yui she is talking about.
"Hahaha, my acting talent is getting better and better~! Hahahahaha~!", Yui just laugh whole heartly and went to the refrigerator. Even so, what just happened before was really unforgetable. When Madoka look over to Yui, she saw that her expression changed. She looked so...sad. Especially her eyes.
"Excuse me!? Miss Madoka! We want to use the bey stadium!", a voice spoke from upstairs and Madoka quickly reply.
"Coming! Um...well then, I'll go handle those kids first. After that, we can talk. Is that alright with you...?", Madoka ask and Yui just nod her head while leaning at the refrigerator. As Madoka went upstairs, she could not help but think of what Yui's eyes were giving out. Guilty? Sadness? It really bothers her but decided to let it go first.
"...I'm such an idiot...", Yui mutter as she place the cold glass at her forehead to cool herself.
After a couple of hours working, it was time to close the shop. The atmosphere between Madoka and Yui were tense that even the kids in the shop could tell that something was not right. Good thing that Kyouya, Ryuuga or whoever she knew did not came to her shop. It will be a mess if any of them came at the time like these. As Madoka close the door and change the sign from open to close, her mind went off to what happened before.
If she asked about the letter again, would Yui hate it? Madoka look at her from the corner of her eyes. Yui is rearranging the bey parts in one of the shelf. She looks normal as if what happened before did not happened at all. She knew that if she still can not brought out courage from herself, she will never get help or had the courage to read the letter. She took a deep breath and face her.
"Hey, Yui. Can we discuss-"
"About the letter?", she cut her off which made Madoka flinch. Is that somewhat a sign that she does not like it? Even so, Yui went to the basement leaving her behind but stop her tracks when she realized that Madoka still stood in front the shop entrance.
"Well? Are you coming or not?", Yui called out for her and Madoka realized that she stood there, not doing anything.
"C-Coming!", and after that, she followed Yui from behind until they reached the basement. Maybe she should not be bothered what just happened before. Yui looks normal already or maybe she did just acted? Whatever, she thought. In there, they sat at the couch together and Madoka took the letter. She looked at Yui and she gave her a nod. Madoka took out the letter and open the folded paper. In that letter, she saw a fully written letter. It really filled the whole paper. Madoka could not help but smile.
"Glad that it's not empty?", Yui ask with a smile. Madoka smile and nod her head.
"See? I told you not to lose hope just because you think it'll turn out bad.", Yui told Madoka and she pat her head.
"So, just don't lose hope no matter how imposibble the situation is okay?", she ask and Madoka could have swore that the smile Yui gave to her is the warmest smile she ever saw. She had never see Yui smile like that. It was her first time seeing that smile. Madoka nod her head and smile back. She thinks that they have made peace. No more awkward atmosphere around each other.
"Alright, I'm going to read it. You're listening?", Madoka ask Yui and she just nod her head.
Dear Madoka,
How are you? I hope you're fine and healthy! As for me, I'm fine. Don't worry about how I'm doing. I'm currently staying at a small village called Cresent Village but hey, you know what? The village may be small but even they have a bey stadium! Isn't that awesome!? I might stay at this village for like 2 or 3 weeks so you can just send back a letter to me.
So, I've been bothered by what happened before, during our meeting. To be truth, I was worried you know? You're reaction wasn't like what I expected to be. I thought you might be happy to come with me on an adventure. You know, it might be fun together and it'll be easy for me to count on you if my Pegasis is in bad condition. I don't have to worry about my beyblade if it's you who fix it. It'll be easy for me if you're around. Then again, I might be too rush. I didn't think about your situation. You might have some problems that I didn't knew.
Since we're writing letter to each other now, care to tell me your problems? What made you so angry about my invitation? I've been bothered by this thing ever since I left the city. It would at least calm me down if I know the reason why. It's pretty late at my place so I'll end my letter here. Hope to get a reply from you as soon as possible but if you're too busy to write back, I'll understand.
Your friend,
Ginga
Madoka smile and look at Yui, waiting to hear her opinion about it. Yui seems to be thinking deeply that made Madoka kept silent until Yui let out a sigh.
"So then, what are you going to do now? Write back right now?", she ask. Madoka still kept silent. She wasn't sure though. Truth is, she was still surprised that Ginga was not mad at her. Not that she hate it but she was glad. What bother her is what Ginga wrote at the 2nd paragraph.
'It'll be easy for me to count on you if my Pegasis is in bad condition. I don't have to worry about my beyblade if it's you who fix it. It'll be easy for me if you're around.', that sentences bothers her. Does that mean he only wanted her to come with him just to take care oh his Pegasis? Madoka grip her skirt in anger. She could not help but feel frustrated. Why? It was all because of Ginga. He never even thought about her. All he thinks about is his beyblade and she will be the one that fixes it. She will ONLY fix his bey whenever his bey is in bad shape. That is all about her to him.
'That's what I hate about you Ginga...', she thought. Yui just look at the Madoka from the corner of her eyes. She let out a sigh and went towards the refrigerator when Madoka still kept silence.
"What...what should I do? Should I tell him what my problems are?", Madoka spoke up. Yui just look at her. She could see that Madoka is desperate. She was scared.
"It's probably best if you don't.", Yui replied. That answer took Madoka by surprise.
"W-Why?", she ask, surprised by what Yui told her. Why would Yui suggested that?
"Think about it Madoka? All this time, you're the one that had to lose and he's the one that got away easily. Get what I'm saying?", Yui ask, looking at Madoka. Madoka on the other hand, look down on the floor. What did she meant by that? She was confused and Yui can saw through that.
"What I'm saying is, you're giving him too much chance Madoka. Think about it. If this continues on, you'll regret it. And I know this may sounds cruel but...", Yui look away. Madoka could tell that she was hesitating. To be honest, even she wish that she did not have to know.
"If you keep this up, he...would probably think that you're useful like a tool..."
"Eh...?", Madoka could not find the words. She was too surprised. Ginga might think of her like that? It can't be. Ginga is not the type to treat people like things. That's not like him...but then again, if she think logically, the way Ginga always told her to fix his bey as soon as possible, isn't that the same as treating her like she's one of his personal things? When she thought of that way, it does hurts. It hurts her feelings.
"Does that mean...I've did a mistake? For always listening to him?", she ask softly as if she didn't want to know the answer though the answer she would get is as clear as water. Yui didn't say anything but nod. She knew it. The answer is too obvious. She let out a sigh and smile.
"I guess you're right Yui. I really did make a mistake. What an idiot I am...", she whisper softly to herself and look down on the floor. She get it. She understood now. Why should she told Ginga her problems through a letter and not face-to-face? Even Yui and the others knew this problem of her, face-to-face. And she even done that with Kyouya recently. She made up her mind. Yui went closer to her and pat her head.
"Hey, it's fine. There's no helping it. That's how we, humans are. We always make mistakes. Just remember this thing Madoka." Yui caught her attention. Madoka remained silent as she waited for Yui to go on. Yui let out a sigh and smile at her.
"I'm always here for you.", she told. That sentence warmed up Madoka's whole body. Especially her heart. Such simple sentence but somehow it made Madoka so touched. Never in her life she thought she could feel this kind of warmth again. The last time she felt was the time she was with her family. She felt like she could tear up any moment.
"And not just me. Even Dunamis, Benkei, and Ryuuga. Even that idiotic green-hair kid is.", she added up and Madoka couldn't help but giggle.
"Well it's getting late. I should probably get back now. Thanks Yui! I couldn't have realized this without you!", Madoka said with a smile and left the shop in Yui's care not before she tell her something else. Something that she's been hiding in her heart for a long time, ever since she knew Yui. She stopped her tracks and face Yui with the biggest smile she could made.
"Yui, you're the best sister I've ever had!", Yui was surprised to hear such gratitude from someone...especially Madoka. After seeing such surprised expression from Yui, Madoka left the basement and went up, leaving the shop to Yui's care. When she was not in Yui's sight, she smile. She had never got such great gratitude from someone for a long time. Sister huh?, she thought. Then her mind suddenly went what she told her about making mistakes.
"Everyone makes mistakes Madoka. No one can escape it...", she got up and look at her own hands which turned to a fist, sad expression on her face.
"...even me..."
Ryuuga was surprised when Madoka came back from home, enegetic. Or maybe, TOO energetic? Whatever it is, it really made Ryuuga worried. Well, come on. Who the hell would be so freaking energetic after working? Unless if that person is a workaholic then maybe it's reasonable but Madoka is not that kind of person. She's more to the loafing type.
'Mind you to not say that in front of her unless if you really wanted to get beaten to pulp.', Benkei's warning still roams in his mind, fresh as if it's just been recently told. Madoka did not mind about Ryuuga's curiousity about her sudden lively attitude. Her focus today is as clear as crystal. Nothing will stop her, unnoticed that she made Ryuuga freak out.
Kyouya came back home soon after Madoka finished her cooking. They all ate together and unexpectedly, Madoka finished first. Ryuuga was not surprised, or at least, he doesn't even know how to react to her unexpected actions anymore. Kyouya was new to it and just eyed her suspiciously when she told them to rest up and all those usual things like take a bath in a lively manner. When she was not on the two male's sight, Kyouya ask the white hair male.
"Care to tell just what happened while I'm not home?", he ask. Ryuuga had his eyes closed and a moment of silence pass until Ryuuga opened his eyes back and look at the green-hair male right across him.
"Firstly, I have no fucking clue what the hell happened. Secondly, I am fucking creep out by her unexpected behaviour and thirdly, I'm going to bed.", he got up and went to his room, leaving the confused Kyouya about what just happened to everyone these days.
"Yes, finished! Alright, I still have time. I can make it!", Madoka cheer to herself and she put her letter in an envelope. Madoka smile to herself as she made her way out of her room. As she opened her room's door, she saw Kyouya standing in front of her room and looked like he was about to knock her door.
"Something wrong Kyouya?", she ask and Kyouya snap back to reality. Good thing he didn't knock her instead. He let down his hand and shoved it in his pockets.
"Just want to tell you that I'm going out for a while. Is that okay with you?", he ask. A light bulb appear in Madoka's head when he said that.
"Perfect! I was about to go out too. And now that you're mentioning it, I think we should go together~!", she said. Kyouya was surprised. Why would she wanted to go out at the time like this? That's when he saw a letter in her hand.
"I take it that you're going to the post office?", he ask and Madoka nod. She made her way to the living room where she took her jacket and put it on.
"Oh, by the way, where's Ryuuga?", Madoka ask as her eyes wander around the area. Usually, he would be sitting at the sofa, watching the tv.
"Uh, he went to sleep.", Kyouya told her and open the door for them both to go. Madoka just went outside and then the both off them went to the post office. As soon as she safely post the letter, she let out a big sigh. Kyouya didn't understand why was she so relieved after putting the letter in the box. He wanted to know but somehow let it slide. What's important right now is to take her back home. There's no telling where she will go or what will happen to her if he let her go back alone.
"Come on. I'll send you back home.", Kyouya said and was getting ready to head back when he noticed that Madoka wasn't following him. He look behind to see her looking at the ground.
"I...don't want to go back for a while. Can I stick with you for a while?", she ask. Kyouya remained silent and then he let out a sigh.
"Why?", he ask. Madoka look up to see his face. He must be worried about her...or so she thought so.
"I just need some fresh air. You know, like letting out my stress and clear my mind about everything that happened today...", she told him as she walk the opposite road that leads back to her house. Kyouya was confused by that statement and he followed behind.
"Did something happened today?", he ask though he did not have to guess what really happened.
"Well, I just had a little talking about Yui and basically, that's all."
"I knew it.", Kyouya mutter. Madoka look at him and ask what did he just say and he just said nothing. As the both of them walk together in silence and without any clue of going somewhere, Madoka decided to break the silence between them.
"Hey Kyouya. I've been wondering where you've been while I was working yesterday and today. You've been hanging outside a lot and I couldn't help but wondering.", she ask. Kyouya remained silent before he decided to tell her about it.
"I just paid a visit to a certain place that I haven't went for a long time.", he told her as simple as possible. Madoka was interested in knowing that place he mentioned. Was it his old secret hideout? Or maybe a bit more secret?
"Hm, I see. Interesting. It must be nice since you went there a lot and spend almost a day there.", she said, looking back at the front. Kyouya look at her from the corner of his eyes. She seems to be really tires. Guess she really needs a break.
"Hey, want to see that place?", he ask. Madoka stop on her tracks when she heard that offer.
"What...?"
"I asked you, do you want to see that place I'm talking about?", he ask again, this time a little annoyed because he had to repeat his own offer. It took Madoka a while to nod her head and after that, she followed him. They didn't talk to each other when he was leading the way. When she look around herself to see where they are, she was surprised that they're at the Bey Park.
"Isn't this the Bey Park? Is this the pla-"
"No. It's over there.", he cut her off and pointed to the forest direction. Madoka wasn't so sure if Kyouya hit his head or what, but nothing interesting, peaceful or beautiful ever cross her mind in the forest. Before she could even said anything, Kyouya went towards the forest and Madoka had no choice but to follow him. The forest was thick and the darkness doesn't help her in tracking Kyouya. She was scared. She seemed to lose sight of him as soon as she took a couple of steps in the forest.
"K-Kyouya? W-Where are you?", Madoka ask, hoping that he would hear her. Even so, it seemed like nothing made a response.
"K-Kyouya? I-I-It's not funny at all-", her words were cut off, again when she felt someone gripping on her wrist.
"Don't stray away from my sight. It'll be a pain in the neck to search you later. Come on. It's right about here.", he said and pull her along with blush at the sight of Kyouya pulling her towards somewhere. Somehow, she did not understand why her heart was beating so fast. Was it because Kyouya touch her? But this wasn't the first time he ever touch her. Maybe, it was something else? Her face turns bright red at the thought but when they got out from the forest, she forgot all about it and gasp.
It was a beautiful meadow. She never knew this place exist. It was her first time seeing this place. It was small but the vast green field made it looked wide. Right in the middle of the vast field, stood a single huge cherry blossom tree where the petals looked like it dance with the soft wind. Madoka was speechless. She couldn't find the words for what she is surently seeing. Kyouya continued walking toward the cherry blossom with Madoka behind him, still with that surprised expression.
"So yeah, this is the place. Surprised to see a meadow beyond the forest?", he ask, smirking at her. He found it amusing to see Madoka's surprised expression.
"Y-Yeah. I didn't expect it to be a meadow. Well, after all, you didn't looked like the type to be into this kind of scenery...", Madoka flatly told her green-hair friend beside her.
"What's that supposed to mean?", he snap.
"Hahaha, it's nothing! I was just joking.", Madoka raised both her hands in front of her as if to calm him down. Kyouya let out a sigh and stopped his tracks when they both arrived beneath the cherry blossom. Madoka spread her arms around, walking around beneath the tree as the petals fell down on the ground. Some of the petals drop fell into her palms and some stuck on her hair. Kyouya couldn't help but smile at the sight but quickly hides it when Madoka turn around to look at him.
"Hey Kyouya,", she call out to him.
"What?"
"Thanks for bringing me here! I'm glad that you brought me and told me about this place!", she thanked him with the sweetest smile. Kyouya could feel his face start to heat up but quickly hides it by looking away.
"No need to thank me. Keeping this place to myself sounds selfish so...you get my point.", he told her, arms cross. Madoka giggle. She knew what he tried to say. He wanted to share this place with his friends. He didn't want to be the only one to know the existance of this place.
"Besides, you're the first person I've ever told about this place.", he told her more. Madoka was surprised. She was the first? Why wouldn't he told this place to someone else other than her?
"Why me?", she ask. Kyouya remain silent as he watch her from the corner of his eyes that is until he spoke up.
"Knowing you, you probably had a rough time with your problems and work which can made you stress out. So I thought that maybe you can come here anytime. I know that this may sound weird since it comes out from my own mouth but," he cut off his own words and face her fully.
"Whenever you need someone you wanted to talk with, I'm always here.", he said, stood there with his usual attractive smirk. Madoka could feel her heart skip a beat when he said that. Indeed it sounds weird for Kyouya to say such things but then again, maybe after a long time seperated with each other, he became to realized the importance of friends. Madoka smile and nod her head. After that, the two of them decided to go back home. As they walk together, Madoka stare at him for a long time eventually annoyed him.
"What?", he ask, completely annoyed by her stare.
"I never had the chances to say it properly but now I can say it without hesitation. Thank you Kyouya. Thank you for being my friend.", she told him and Kyouya look away,blushing, saying that it's getting late and they need to go back home. Madoka just giggle at his behaviour and follows him from behind. They finally exited the forest and quickly went towards Madoka's house without realizing that someone was spying them from the shadow.
"Hm~, now this is interesting.", the figure said and came out from the shadows which turns out to be Yui.
"I really should do something to get them together. Sorry Madoka but I just had to do it~", Yui said playfully, planning something for Madoka and Kyouya.
That's it for this chapter! Now I know that this chapter is a bit confusing but I was in a rush because the next chapter is like the most usual thing that everyone can guess. What? You want to know? Okay, here's the clue:
Pretty sure you guys know it already. Hahahaha, if you can't guess it then there's something wrong with you. Just kidding. Hahahaha~!