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Okay, today my exams have officially started, and I haven't even written the next parts, so I'm very sorry to have to say the next parts will be coming... slowly... but surely! I AM finishing this story!
I don't think it will take more than 3 chapters - Bella, Edward, Bella - to finish the story, but it's possible that it'll become five, I'll see!
It is possible that I'll be posting another one of my short stories during my exams, since writing often helps me sleep. I've got two stories that need to be typed. One of which really needs a lot of work in my opinion. I'm not sure if I'm ever posting that one! I'll see about that too ^^
But back to the chapter underneath! I hope it's not a disappointment. I'm not too happy about it :( Once again. I'm predictable xD
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Edward Point of View
As soon as Alice spoke again, my focus was once again on the conversation she was having with my Bella. "You're confused… Why?" I could very well imagine how adorable Bella must've looked in that moment. She was exceptionally adorable when she was confused. Of course I didn't want her to be confused, but I could understand why all too well. It was my fault, once again. Did I ever cease to have negative effects on her? I had nearly gotten her killed on countless occasions. I had hurt her so many times, each time even worse than the last it seemed. What was next? Was I going to cause her such an enormous amount of pain that it would kill her? Literally?
I knew, if she would take me back, even despite all I'd done to her, she would want to become a vampire. She would want to go through the pain of the change, far worse than anything she could ever imagine. But I just didn't know where I stood at the moment, and even though the uncertainty pained me, I knew I deserved far worse. I was the cause for my pain. But what was far worse than that, was the knowledge that I was responsible for her pain too. And that was something that could've easily broken my heart, had it been possible. I had almost forgotten the question Alice had asked Bella, until Bella answered it.
"I… What… He lied?" I could hear the disbelief in her tone. It was in this sort of moment that I wished for the ability of reading her mind more than in others. What did she think I lied about? And why did she sound so incredulous about that? I always told her I wasn't as perfect as she thought I was. True, it pained me to lie to her almost as much as it pained me to see that she believed me without a second thought, but I knew it was something I just had to do. I couldn't not give her the chance at a normal life that she deserved. I knew the way I did it was wrong, but it was the only way I could think of.
The silence between them seemed to last an eternity. I knew Alice wouldn't be thinking nice things towards me at this point, so I decided not to look into her thoughts. "No Bella. That's not what he lied about. That's the lie itself. He could never stop loving you even if he wanted to." How right she was. But that was something I needed to talk to Bella about myself. So I went up the stairs to Alice's room. I knew Alice had heard me come up as soon as I heard her say "But that's something he needs to talk to you about himself." She knew why I chose that point to come upstairs, even if she didn't see it in advance.
She opened the door just as I reached it, leaving herself as soon as the door was opened. Bella looked at the floor as soon as she noticed me standing there. Her heart rate was unusually high for someone who hadn't performed any physical activity.
"I think it's time we talked." She just nodded, but didn't make a move apart from it. I however, didn't particularly want to have this conversation with most of my family listening in. I needed it to be just the two of us. "Would you mind if we went to your house?" I couldn't help the hesitation that crept in my voice as I spoke. I really didn't know what her answer would be. I didn't want to have this conversation in a house full of vampires who would hear every word. I would have preferred to go to the meadow, but it didn't seem suitable for the conversation we were going to have.
She seemed to be thinking about my request for a few seconds, but she gave a small nod. "I'll drive us." I wouldn't mind running, but the weather was changing rapidly, and I didn't think she'd want to anyway.