Angela came by the next day to have Brennan describe the door man she saw the night she left and she reminded Booth he was there the day she came home from the hospital.
The doormen that were suppose to be on duty on those two days that Brennan remembers seeing this guy had called in sick and so there was a possibility that those shifts were covered by someone from another building. "Booth the way he talked, he knew you and me, not just so and so from apartment 12B. This guy knew us; he even asked if there was a change in our relationship. Why would someone that didn't know you ask a question like that?"
"Booth I will make sure Charlie has one of these as soon as I get into the office. By the way there is no staff today, we gave them today off, since we are leaving town we gave them a 3 day weekend, so feel free to use the house or the pool whenever." Angela hugged Brennan as she left.
She joined Booth in the kitchen as they fell into their comfortable couples's routine of cooking breakfast. She just stopped in place as she started to have flashes of what she could only assume was her forgotten memories. Her eyes darted around as if she was watching a something moving in front of her.
"Bones" she heard his voice, but it was as if it was far away as she continued to have these fast forward images racing through her mind. The images continued to flash and she would pick up pieces with words, simple words. Dad, Booth, home, Jasper, and it kept on.
"Bones" again his voice, but so far away. Finally she stopped on one image, him in a hospital bed his head wrapped, he didn't know her.
"Booth!" He was right in front of her. She raised her eyes to him.
"Bones are you okay?"
"Did you have amnesia?"
"No."
"I saw you, your head" she was motioning with her hand around her head "bandaged in a hospital, you didn't know me?"
"No, no honey, I had a tumor that they removed. I reacted badly to the anesthesia and I was in a coma for 4 days. During those days I dreamed you and I were married and we owned a night club called "The Lab". All of our friends worked there with us. When I work up I was confused on where I was and it had seemed so real, it took several days for me to realize you were not my wife. They believe the book you were writing and reading to me caused the dream. You deleted the book just before I woke up and just after you would have told me you were pregnant."
"I left you after you woke up?"
"Yes, do you know why?" He knew what she said at the time, but now he was wondering if there was more and if this new Brennan would let on.
"No"
"You said you knew I was going to be okay so you went on a dig while I healed because you always said I was the only FBI guy you would work with."
She looked down as something else started to flash through her mind. "I left because I was scared of you believing I was your wife, so I left you alone to deal with it." When she brought her eyes back up to his there were tears in them. "Oh God Booth, I am so sorry. I was scared of the feelings it stirred in me. I promise I will never leave you like that again."
"Hey, hey, it is okay, it is over." He held her to him, rubbing his back and stroking her hair. "It is okay babe."
"No it isn't. How could you love me, I was not a nice…"
"Stop right there, you are a wonderful person, you have the kindest heart of anyone I know, you just think different than others, but I love everything about you, from how you can aggravate me in a flash to how you can wash the angry out of me just as fast. I would not change a thing about you."
"Even now?"
"Even now" he kissed the tip of her nose. "So did you just have a memory come back to you, is that what all that was about."
"I had several things flash through my mind, like someone was showing me pictures in fast forward and that image was the last one and the only one I could really get a grasp on."
"Something came back, that is good."
"Everything that has come back involves you."
"I am not complaining" he joked. She smiled at him, he was right at least it was something and she didn't need to dwell on it.
After their breakfast, he checked the scores of the sports he liked, while she was in getting ready to go for a swim. She came out in her bikini carrying a towel. "I think I will go up and go swimming, I need the exercise."
Booth just stared at her, "Mind if I join you?"
"Meet me there." She grinned as she headed out the patio.
The next morning Brennan woke up and she was taking a shower and again she had images flashing through her mind, but these images were of skeletons, mass graves, boxes of bones, and tables with bones laid out on them. As the water ran over her she felt she was in a class where she was being shown a bone and the corresponding name was being said at her from a great distance. She finished her shower as the images and names kept flying through her brain. She quickly wrapped a towel around her and ran from her room yelling for Booth.
He was not expecting to see a dripping Bones standing in the family room when he came running to her. She seemed very excited about something and she looked very desirable. Stop it Booth, damn concentrate man.
"Bones, what's wrong?"
"Nothing is wrong Booth," she stepped up to him; he could smell her wet skin mixed with the scent of vanilla assaulted him as she moved to him. She lifted her damp hand and ran it across his face, "frontal bone" she slid her hand to the side of his head, "parietal bone", her hand slid over his cheek, "zygomatic bone, across his jaw, "mandible."
"You remember?"
"I remember some."
He forgot she was only in a towel and he wrapped his arms around her and lifted her up spinning her around. As he sat her down her wet hair fell across her face. He looked down at her as she used her delicate fingers to move the strands of hair off her face. He couldn't help himself he hesitantly moved his head towards her and she looked up into his eyes, then placed her hand on the back of his neck as he moved his hand up her back to cradle her head and they slowly moved closer till their lips meant. Their kiss was one of passion and surrender. It caused an explosive reaction causing the slow smolder to ignite into flames of desire.
Booth pulled back from her, both their bodies were trembling. He gently pushed her away as she clutched at her towel, her face flushed, her eyes begging him. "Bones" he just shook his head.
Putting her hand on the side of his face, "Booth, I don't know how I know this, but I do. I love you." She pushed herself against him and captured his lips again. She wrapped her arms around him, giving in to her primal urges. When she pulled away she looked at him, "Do you feel it?"
"Huh?" he brain was not comprehending verbal vocabulary.
"When I kiss you, I feel love, I feel want, I feel surrender. I feel something…something I can't explain."
He held her face in his hands and put his forehead against hers. "Bones, I..." he groaned as her hand slip down his arm, leaving a fire trail behind it. He closed his eyes and in one fluid motion he picked her up and carried her to her room.
He sat her down just inside her door, cupped her face in his hands and looked into her eyes. "I can't believe I am about to say this" he swallowed hard "Not now." He kissed her and left the room.
Brennan just stood staring a closed door unable to comprehend what just happened. He just walked away. He didn't want her; she just made a fool out of herself. She felt as if someone was tearing her heart out of her chest. She went and sunk down on her bed and cried until she could not cry anymore.
Booth went back to his room and sat with his back to the door. He hated the look in her eyes when walked away. Like he had just taken all her dreams and ripped them apart. He never wanted to hurt her, but he couldn't risk losing her if the other Bones came back and thought he took advantage of the situation and left him. God he loved her and wanted more than anything to be able to show her, not just sexually, but in everyway possible.
Brennan needed to get away; she quietly left the guest house for the main house. She just needed to think. She returned to the study that she and Angela had sat in, she curled up in a chair and she began to think through what she knew about Booth and her, what she had been told by Angela and Booth and what she felt inside. Even now thinking about him and the rejection caused a pain in her chest.
Angela and Booth had said very similar things, Booth had not denied wanting her. She knew he loved her, it was in every action. She loved him; she could feel it from deep inside. Maybe he didn't love this Brennan, maybe he loved the one he couldn't have.
But the passion between Kathy and Andy in the books had to come from somewhere. And Andy was clearly Booth, just reading a few passages; there was no doubt to her that he was Booth. So that means Kathy must be her, was she really that indifferent and cold. Booth and Angela had described her as view things differently. Were they just being kind? She dozed off in the chair thinking about Booth and what almost happened.
Maybe he and Charlie needed to trade places. Maybe being away from her would help both of them. Or maybe they could talk and draw some boundaries, that might work they were both adults, they could come to an agreement.
He exited his room and his eyes moved to her door, it was open. He checked there first, she wasn't there. She was not in the house or on the patio; he headed for the main house. She was not at the pool. He ran back to the guest house and dialed her phone; it went straight to voice mail. Booth think, she wouldn't go far, it is the old Bones that would just take off. But it still was Bones and the day she took off to come see Angela was for front in his mind.
Angela is out of town and that would be the one person she would go to, or home. He dialed Charlie.
"She has done it again, we got in an argument and she isn't here. Could you check her apartment that is the only place I would think she would go. Check mine too just to be on the safe side. I am going to search the grounds here. Call me if you find anything. Dammit Bones, why can't you just stay put when told to?"
It was late afternoon when Brennan woke up. She probably should talk to Booth. Just thinking about him caused the pain in her chest to return. They had to come to some understand to be able to cohabitate until they could put this case to rest. If they couldn't then they might have to bring another agent in to replace Booth and she didn't want that. As she finished resetting the alarm on the main house, she stared at the alarm panel. How did she know the alarm code?
When she got back to the guest house it was quiet, Booth wasn't anywhere to be found. She felt fear swelling up in her, he left. She walked into her room and there on the pillow was a note.
Call me as soon as you get this
Booth
Booth was almost to the park when his cell rang. The ring tone told him it was her.
"Bones, where the hell are you?"
"You could at least say Hello."
"Don't push me, where are you?"
"Home, where do you think I am? Why are you yelling at me?"
"Dammit Bones, what did I tell you about leaving without me."
"For your information Agent Booth, I went to the main house."
"And just how did you get into a house without tripping the alarm?"
"I used the alarm code. You made it perfectly clear this morning where we stood, I had…"
"Bones that doesn't give you permission to just leave…" he heard a click in his ear "Bones…Bones?" Of course she hung up on him; he looked at his phone, his jaw tensed as he flipped the phone closed. He flipped it back open to call Charlie and let him know she was okay.
When he arrived back at the house, her bedroom door was closed. He knocked lightly on it. "Go away Booth."
"Bones, we need to talk."
"No, I don't want to talk to you."
He tried the door, she locked it. "Open the door. I have something I need to say and I don't want to say it through a door."
"NO! Go away."
"I am asking one last time, open the door."
"Booth, just go away, I don't have anything to say to you."
The door came crashing open. "You are the most aggravating woman."
"I don't want to talk to you so you just force you way in to my room and you call me aggravating."
"You scared me to death today when I couldn't find you. I am suppose to protect you and you take off half cocked and don't tell me where you are going."
"You just rejected me; I didn't think I was suppose keep you informed of my every movement."
"I didn't reject you Bones; I just said no to…you know."
"Booth I am safe you can just leave now."
He turned to leave and stopped at the threshold of the door. He turned back towards her "NO" He closed the distance between them and grabbed her by the arms pulling her to him, his lips on hers, not soft and gently, but demanding and full of raw passion.
When he pulled back from her they were both gasping for air. "Don't ever think I don't want you Bones."
"But this morning? What do I need to do?"
"Baby, I am so scared that you will get your memory back and regret it, regret us.
"Seeley, Angela told me that maybe I got amnesia so that I could be a heart person for a while. She told me to follow my heart and not my logical brain." She put her forehead against his chin as she leaned into him. "My heart wants you. I know the pain you don't want to feel, I felt it this morning." She closed her eyes "Booth I love you and if…"she felt her head being tilted back and his lips on hers.
He pulled away from her, he wrapped on hand around her waist and the other he moved to cradle her head. "Bones, when we do this, we will be giving ourselves completely to each other. You will be surrendering to me. If you can't do that…stop me now."
"I don't want to stop."
He lifted her in his arms locked his lips to hers and carried her to the bed. He sat her down and they shed their clothing and slid between the covers. When she moved into his arms, his sharp intake of air got her attention. She looked up at him and she could see all the pent up desire in his eyes. He rolled her underneath him. He sat back on his heels and looked at the woman lying in front of him. His hands slid over her breasts and down her firm stomach to her hips. His eyes couldn't get enough of her. His eyes finding her again and locking into place while he hoovered over her before lowering his body down onto hers. "I love you Temperance" was the last thing she heard as his lips seized hers and he entered her, all she could do was feel. She could feel their love flowing between them. She was holding back nothing and what she got in return was so deep and so profound it engulfed her.
Booth could feel her surrender to him, she gave all of herself and it consumed both of them. He was sure if it was possible they were breaking the laws of physics, because their very souls were intertwined. He had never felt like this with anyone, not even the mother to his child. If it was possible, he felt the moment their souls join and began rejoicing. What he had told her about making love paled in comparison to what was transpiring between them.
After they laid spent in each others arms, her head on his chest and him lighting brushing his finger tips across her bare back. He stared up at the ceiling quietly praying that she didn't run when she got her memory back. "Bones you can't run from me when you get your memory back. What just happened between us can not be undone, there is no going back to what we were, we crossed the line.
"Booth I don't want to go back, I can't go back not after that. That…was…"
"Amazing. That was the true meaning of making love." He glanced down at her and gave her an evil grin. "So much for taking it day by day."
That evening they forced themselves into the kitchen to cook dinner, they were famished. Brennan had thrown a salad together and Booth had found some sandwich makings in the refrigerator. As he brought them over to the counter he leaned over and placed a kiss on her cheek. She turned, slipped between him and the counter and wrapped her arms around his waist and rested her head on his chest. His arms automatically came around her and held her to him. She leaned up and kissed him, that one innocent kiss re-ignited them; food was going to have to wait.
