Halfway home, Jasper pulled over to the side of the rode and said "do you trust me?"
"Of course I do, Jasper."
He got off the bike and took my helmet off of me and helped me from the bike. "I found this little spot that is very special and I have never shared it with anyone. Its a little ways in, do you mind if I carry you?"
I nodded my head and he picked me up and carried me bridal style. It felt so perfect in his arms. I had been carried by other vampires and never felt at home in their arms. Even in Edward's arms I didn't feel like I was a part of him and I wanted to marry him at one time. When Jasper finally stopped running, he said "Close your eyes, please"
I closed my eyes as he put me down. He covered my eyes with his hands and turned me around leading me a few steps. "Okay Isabella, open your eyes." I slowly did as he asked and was in awe of what I saw. In the middle of the forest was a little stream with a waterfall starting it. That was beautiful in of itself but what really made it breathtaking were all the flowers around it. There were at least ten different types of vibrantly colored flowers. "Wow. This is absolutely stunning. How did you find this place?"
"My Bella, I need to talk to you about your birthday party and I know you have forgiven me but there is more I need to share with you. Can I please talk a little without interruptions?"
Jasper looked so tormented that I decided not to speak and just nodded but I did send him all my trust and love and support for him to feel. I noticed that he relaxed a little so I know he felt my feelings.
"On the day of your birthday, I had wanted to hunt but Alice refused to let me which was so weird but I thought that she knew what was best so I listened to her. When you cut yourself I was fine until Edward smelt it. His desire coupled with everyone else's was too much and I snapped but I thought that I was the cause of everyone else's thirst because of my projecting. At least that's what Edward led me to believe. I ran away from the house and found this area. I stayed her for about a month only leaving to hunt. I stayed hidden under the waterfall when anyone came to find me. They obviously didn't really try hard to find me otherwise they could have. "
Jasper took a breath and looked into my eyes. "Isabella, I know you loved Edward so I will stop now if you want to keep your memories intact. What I have to say may change your memories. What would you like?"
"Jasper." I said reaching out and grabbing his hands, "I did love Edward but I loved him as a child loves their first crush. I have spent a lot of time realizing that and I know that you need to keep talking." I kissed his hands and continued holding them as he continued.
"After a month I found the courage to leave and went back to the Cullen house only to find it empty" he continued. In mine and Alice's room I found all of my stuff in boxes with a letter from Alice on top. Basically she asked for my forgiveness and said that she was sorry but she did what was for the best for my future. She explained that it was Edward's thirst which set us off and that nothing was my fault. She also told me not to find you because you need time to heal and that in the future we would find each other and I could explain myself."
He took a break from talking and grabbed a flower, sniffed it and then handed it to me. "These flowers were not originally here. Every year I come back here to plant a new type of flower in honor of you. I felt that since I couldn't talk to you directly I could make a shrine to you in a way."
"Jasper you are a magnificent man. I always forgave you but now I absolve you of everything. Nothing was your fault. Everything happened for a reason and I believe that our lives are better than they would have been had we not went through what we did."
"Bella, you know I have felt all of your emotions all day and I want you to know that I feel the same way. But I want us to be able to sleep on our feelings tonight and maybe I can take you out to lunch tomorrow."
"Jasper I agree that we need to think tonight and I would love to go to lunch with you tomorrow."
Jasper then held out his arms and carried me back to the motorcycle. We put on our helmets and hopped back on. I held even tighter to Jasper on the way to my house. When we arrived at my childhood home, Jasper helped me off then gave me a tender kiss on my lids. "Goodnight my sweet, sweet Isabella"
I gave him a hug and grabbed my teddy bear and headed inside