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Natsu

I woke up and realized the rain has stopped. I looked around to see the packed streets with car on Christmas night and still I have no idea where the hell am I. Some part of me want to lie on the sidewalk forever, but I know it makes me look like a homeless person which I don't want to. Before I decided to stay forever sitting on the sidewalk, I'm on my feet and limping down. I finally get to the restaurant row as I can tell that I'm hungry as hell. I rested my body on the restaurant glass next to me and turn myself to look inside. My knees can't bend very well, as the people around me start looking at me like I'm some sort of people who didn't have money to get something to eat. I squint my eyes and narrowed my gaze to the center view from the big glass window. Red hair? Could it be Erza? I squint my eyes even more as I can see the red hair girl is sitting in front of the blue haired boy, it must be Jellal and Erza! I sighed in relieved as I keep looking at them hoping they have this sense of feeling that someone is looking at them. After a couple of seconds that feels like years, Erza finally turned around, probably because Jellal told her that there's a creep who's looking at them from the outside. I can see she's gasping at me as she quickly stood up and ran outside to meet me.

"Erza," I managed to grin.

"Natsu what the hell?" she yelled as she made her way to me and helping me to stand straightly. "You're bloody. What happened?"

"I got caught up into something, I think it's some punishment from God."

"Why?"

"Because I cursed and mad at God. But I said I'm sorry" she nodded in agreement.

"He accepted your apology?" she asked, grinning at me.

I shot her a crooked smile. "Yeah, I think so. He led me here, which is some kinda miracle don't you think?" yeah I do start on believing in miracles again after seeing Erza.

"Miracles happen. You said it yourself" I nodded at her. "I was just having some dinner with Jellal before coming to your house, but I didn't expect to find you got beaten up here…" she trailed off as she chewed down her bottom lip. "You wanna go eat with me and Jellal?"

"Yes"

Joining dinner with them was seemed to be a good idea before, but now, not so much. I feel bad and awful for interrupting their lovely Christmas dinner. I didn't say that much during the dinner as I keep quiet to myself, keeping myself noted to not ruining things for them and try not to make them centered at my injured self. Soon after we finish the dinner, Jellal drive me home with Erza, since she's still planning on coming to the Christmas party.

"I'm sorry for ruining your dinner" I mumbled to myself from the back seat.

"It's Christmas Natsu, it's fine" Jellal said, turning to look at the messed up me for a second. I didn't respond and it's the same with Erza as I let the ride back home continue in silence. As the silence grows more thick I found myself feeling horrible.

God, I really need to give Dan a payback.

I'm allowed to aren't I, God?

After we said goodbye to Jellal, he start to drift off away. When I entered my front door, I get to meet my mom figured running towards me and there's a lot of yelling as she keep yelling at either Gray or Dad to get some first-aid-kit. I try to keep telling mom that I'm okay but she continued screaming as my wound getting cleansed.

I told them the whole story after Mom finish taking care of my wounds. "I'm sorry for ruining your Christmas" I murmured looking at Gray, Erza, and Wendy who circled around me.

"Thanks to that bitch she ruined our Christmas" Gray snickered.

"What is wrong with her?" Erza commented.

"Oh my god" was Wendy responses.

And I feel bad right away, for making Lucy look bad in front of them. But I didn't mean to.

"Why she didn't want to come to meet me?" I ruffled up my hair as I looked down. "I don't exactly know what went wrong, but it seems it's always my fault"

"That's your problem. You care too much for her" Gray noted.

"Now it's my problem?" I retorted at him.

"Yeah. Just stop caring about her, and you too, will stop suffering from her"

"That's not really the best thing to say at the moment Gray…" Erza looked at him with her best concerned look, yet. "Maybe we just should stop about this whole thing and start for our Christmas party, okay?" she seemed to pity me, for the first time ever in my life, Erza pity me…

"Where is everyone else?" I asked.

"I told them not to come" Gray answered. "I thought things just going to get explode when you come home" he added.

Erza sighed and starts showing her motherly figure. "It's better this way right? The three of us just like the old times" she smiled warmly, mostly at me as she caressed my back lovingly.

"I still want Lucy to come" Wendy mumbled as I look at her. I want to agree with her so bad and say it out loud, but nothing came out from my mouth.

"So she can ruin Natsu's feeling again? So that she can fucking ruined our Christmas party?" Gray scowled at Wendy, as I sulked down.

We didn't say anything at Gray's comment as I can tell he's mad at her, and so am I. But I do nothing about it nor I make a comment about it.

At the end of the night, I know exactly that I don't get my miracle like I want it to be, but I still have the best Christmas ever. I spent the time with the one I love, who clearly loves me back, which is enough for me. And somehow I realized, that I've been wanting too much about Lucy this and Lucy that, while I have the whole group of amazing people surrounded me.

After we exchange Christmas present, both Erza and Gray went home. Mom insisted me to take a rest, but I found myself sitting on the dinner table with my gaze staring outside through the clear glass window.

"Natsu" Dad called me from across the table.

I turned to face him, directly. "What?"

"Uh," He looked at me. "Do you need any advice?" I raised my eyebrow at him, "you know, at girls…Lucy?"

I shook my head. I can't understand Lucy, and I bet dad can't either as I believe he only doing this just because he wants me to feel better, or mom insist him to talk to me. "No, not really" I mumbled.

Dad sighed in relieved. "Good. I don't know how to do that"

"Figured" I smirked.

"You know, there's plenty of fish out there, I bet one of them is just like Lucy"

I want to scream at dad for comparing Lucy to some common people or fish as in metaphor, but I didn't. "You know I'm suck at fishing" I commented as he only smiled at me.

It's New Year Eve already and I'm feeling better already too. I got Dan a payback and I feel really glad by doing something bad to him, which I really want to since he began to disturb Lucy's life. I thought everything was going to start just fine and better in my life. Not until Lucy ruined my evening of relaxing at home.

I got the text from Lucy that reads,

Natsu, it's been a long time. I hope long enough for you to be able to forgive me. I know that I should really talk to you instead of a text, but I think the current me is more wiser and better in writing than talking, you know exactly I'm suck at talking, I hope you still remember that about me. I want to tell you about why I didn't come to meet you before… and I don't know. The only thing I know is that I'm sorry, I really do. I know Gray called you that time, because I was in front of him. I'm so afraid of him that time because he's so mad at me for not coming to see you, which I really feel bad about. I'm so afraid that Gray hates me, but I know, everybody hates me, right? He did a lot of yelling at me on Christmas night but I'm fine with that, because I know he was only trying to help and being a best friend to you, and after you read this you really shouldn't have to get angry at Gray, he did the right thing.

After Christmas, Erza and Levy came to see me. I don't really know what to say at that time, but Erza say the most painful things, and I kinda hate myself for it.

Erza demand me to tell you the truth and here it is,

Do you know how hard it is to act like your best buds when clearly I like you? Sometimes I don't get it, of why I have to like you in the first place, but the more I think about it the more I fall in love with you. Sometimes I found myself nervous around you, like when you smile my own universe in my mind stop, I don't know why but it keeps happening to me. I have this tingly and annoying feeling towards you, but I know that I loved you in my own fucked up way.

I'm fucked up I know but I'm really sorry, for everything, and I was hoping that I could meet you. I swear I have the best intentions, because I really miss you. Can we at least be friends?

I found myself running towards Gray's house.

"WHAT IS IT YOU FLAME HEAD?" He yelled when he burst the door open. "CAN YOU AT LEAST PUSH THE BELL ONCE?"

"Lucy asked me to meet her" I blurted out.

"What?" he scoffed. I know he didn't believe what I just said, but when I showed him the text I just got from her, his eyes turn wide.

"What should I do?" I panicked.

"Don't go" he stated, simply.

"Why?"

"Because when you asked her, she betrayed you"

"Yeah. But I'm not that mad at her now" I retorted. "Why you yelled at her anyway? Is it really necessary?"

"Hey! She told you herself right? I was mad okay?! That bitch ruin your feeling of course I'm mad" he yelled. "And what with this all so suddenly, I thought we looked past Lucy problems now"

"Yeah," I breathed. "Not until she fucking text me telling me to meet her"

"Why do you really want to meet her anyway?" Why is he being so negative towards Lucy? And why the hell do I still keep positive about Lucy when I really shouldn't have?

"Because she's the ticket to my happy ending, get it?" he shook his head. "You know I thought my life is about to end badly after she betrayed me, but looking now, she asked me to meet her and maybe I will finally get the ending I always wanted"

"I still don't get it" he hissed.

"Think of it as a movie. You know how happy-endings movie always have this part that when it's about to reach the end, somehow the director showed us the darkest hour of the characters? But then suddenly everything is ok and finally it's a happy endings?" he nodded. "It's something like that. I really think this is going to be my happy ending" I paused. "I know I should stop thinking about her, but you know, I just can't"

"What do you think she want by seeing you?"

"Uh, fucking apologize and explain everything to me?" it's not a question but it feels like it did.

"That's not possible, are you high" he joked.

"It is possible. And for now, possible is enough" I pressed firmly as I made up my mind and reply to Lucy text.

Meet me at 7PM on the river side.

"Did you just text her that you agree to meet her?" Gray point his index finger at my phone, I nodded. "You text her? Seriously?"

"I really think it's the best thing to do at the moment" I gulped as now Gray only glare at me.

"You see, I found you weird. How come you trust your feelings when sometimes it just disappear like that?"

"I don't trust. I know, Gray"

"Whatever. Good luck though"

So I ran towards the direction of the river side.

I stood at the bridge above the river as I stare down to the river that have this thin layer of ice on top. I really want to drop some rocks, to penetrate it, and break the ice and finally make a black hole that parts of me really want to jump over.

I have no idea why I thought about that.

I glanced at the clock and it past 7PM and I really forgive Lucy for coming late if she really planning on coming.

But she did.

When I look over to the side, there she is walking towards me, with her both hands shoved into her long coat pockets, and I found myself staring back at the ice. I can feel Lucy's coat brushing lightly against my jacket as she stop and stand still next to me. Looking at the ice, I can see Lucy's reflection and I wonder if she wishes to throw rocks on it too, to break the ice.

We stay like this for seemed like hours when it's just a couple of minutes, in silence.

Finally Lucy throws a rock, breaking the silence. I can feel my face get really cold to the point I almost can't feel my ears and nose.

"Don't ignore me and disappear from me like that" she said as I turned to face her directly.

"You told me to. You even said that you never want to see me again"

"You are the most stupid person I know. You shouldn't listen to what I'm saying"

"Okay. I won't."

"I'm surprised you came" she give me a slight annoying smile, like somehow she still can't believe that I'm here, waiting in the cold just to meet her.

"I'm not you" I countered.

"Why did you came anyway? I thought you hate me"

I think she can't even sort her priorities right. I thought she's the one who ask me to meet her, and all I was doing is just meet her. Ignoring her first question, I answered the second one, "No, I don't hate you"

"Liar. I thought you like it when I'm not your responsibilities anymore"

What the hell does she want? "Okay. I hate you! Is that what you really want to hear from me? Really Luce?" I breathed. "I hate you for everything. I hate you for telling me to get away from you, to make me have this stupid apart-time thing, and suddenly I hate you because you tell me you love me when you're drunk! You can't do that and not talking to me about it Luce! And I try to make it right by asking you to meet me but you didn't, and I fucking hate you, but even though I really, really hate you to the point I can't even comprehend, I just can't hate you fully in the end" I looked at her as I paused and swallows several times, catching up with what I really want to say. She stays in silence. "And yes, I'm sorry for complaining so much that you're such a pain in the ass and how I have to take care of you all the time, but even though I hate it that you somehow become my responsibilities, I realized that even someone who is annoying and pain in the ass like you will still need someone to care about you, and I don't know if you realized this or not, but you already make my life centered around you. And when you did you really shouldn't throw it away, like you make me centered at you but you fucking leave! You just can't!"

"I hurt you, I know and I'm sorry, is that what you want to hear Natsu? If so then I'll say it again, I hurt you and I'm fucking sorry, okay?" she starts to cry quietly, as she quickly wipe the tears with the back of her hand.

"Okay," I paused, "is that it?"

"No! I fucking love you, you happy?"

I found myself froze, having trouble at what words that should really come out from my throat.

Oh god... I'm sorry for the cliffhanger...