Chapter 10 "Happy Like A Fool"
Disclaimer: SM owns the sandbox and the sand, we are just playing in it with our own toys.
A/N: Welcome back! Jake is a happy boy, be prepared to smile through most of this chapter. You've been warned.
When you're happy like a fool
Let it take you over
When everything is out
You gotta take it in
Oh this has gotta be the good life
This has gotta be the good life
This could really be a good life, good life
"Good Life" - OneRepublic
JPOV
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I am fascinated by how Ness' mind works. This isn't a new thing for me, but now that she knows about the imprinting, I can now fully appreciate her. I don't have to worry about hiding the fact that everything about her amazes me, including her lightning fast mind. It quickly jumps from one subject to another. Sometimes from serious to playful, other times, it's the opposite. Ness is the smartest person I know; I might be a little biased, but I think she's even smarter than her multiple-degree-holding father and grandfather. She is insightful, caring and beautiful; she blows my mind every damn day. I'm one lucky bastard.
My focus on her is an attempt to calm down; my nerves are still on edge after the dinner with my family. My girl handled it well, not that I had any doubts about that, but I didn't like the things Paul said in front of her. I really wanted to pummel him. Some days I wonder how Rachel puts up with him. Then I remember that she's just as mouthy as Paul. I love my sister but man does she drive me fucking crazy sometimes. Tonight was definitely one of those times.
I glance down at Ness' hand in mine. Hers are so pale and slender compared to my own. I've missed touching her this way, even in all the innocence it holds. There is nothing sexual about holding her hand but it's so electrifying to be able to do so again without hesitation. It feels like a huge weight has been lifted off of my chest; I no longer have to hold myself back around her.
Glancing out at the ocean in front of us I listen to the soft sound of Ness humming. Something in me says she's tired and needs to go home, but I'm selfish. I don't want to give up this time with her and I know when I take her home I won't be able to stay. Based on what she told me, Edward would "prefer" I not stay with her. I get it, but it's going to be very difficult for me to let her go. Especially now that I've had her in my arms two nights in a row.
Wanting to make sure Ness has a say in things, I whisper softly, "Do you still want to work on your car tonight, or should I take you home?" While we normally work on the Mustang on Sunday evenings, this weekend has been a lot for both of us. I can tell she's worn out, but I can't help grinning when I hear her response.
"Mustang, definitely. I'm not ready to go home just yet."
I start my car without hesitation and point it toward the shop. She has been helping me make pretty steady progress on the Mustang for almost a year now. I bought it on a whim after Embry told me about Lillah and her father rebuilding Lillah's Camaro together.
When I showed Ness the Mustang all those months ago, she seemed excited. Apparently it's a hobby she picked up from Rosalie, who taught her a lot about cars. As far as I can tell Ness has enjoyed herself, and I've definitely enjoyed getting to spend the time with her. Most of the time she sits and talks to me but others she gets her hands dirty too. There have been a few times we've been so busy at the shop that Ness has pitched in and helped me with an oil change or two.
I grin at the picture that puts in my mind. She always wears a pair of coveralls and they swallow her tiny body whole. I can't seem to take my eyes off of her when she has them on. As if she can read my mind, the first thing she does when we enter the shop is pull on a pair. When she turns to face me, she smiles expectantly. All I can do is stare like a big idiot; I just can't help myself. Because, I am a big idiot, but also because she's breathtaking.
My girl bounces over to me and takes my hand, swinging it back and forth. "What are we working on tonight?"
"Um," I scratch the back of my head and look over my shoulder at the car, "I don't know, carburetor, maybe."
"Ok! Just tell me what you would like me to do."
I clear my throat and drop her hand to walk toward the Mustang. "That's a bit of a loaded question," I say without thinking.
Based on her giggle, she obviously heard me. Damn. Glancing over my shoulder I see her grin at me then bite down on her bottom lip. I take a deep breath and turn back to the car, lifting the hood to get to work.
Leaning against her elbows onto the side of the fender she props her chin in her hands, just watching as I start to remove parts. We keep a radio in the shop and Ness starts humming to the song that is softly playing. I ask her to hand me tools when I need them but other than that we don't speak. To my surprise, the silence isn't awkward; the wall she had been putting up to keep me out is nowhere in sight. She is relaxed, finally able to be herself again.
Glancing up to ask her to hand me something I'm startled to realize she's gone. "Ness?" I call her name and look around, spotting her behind me. She's sitting on a bench and smiling. It's odd; I'm not sure what she's up to. "What are you doing?"
"Just watching you. You look so intense when you're working on something. It's kind of- hot." Her face glows red as she speaks.
My spine snaps straight and I look away from her quickly. Unable to keep my eyes off of her for more than a second, I quickly shift my gaze back. "What did you do with my Ness?", I laugh, shaking my head at the drastic change in my imprint.
Her brows scrunch together and she looks confused, "What do you mean? I am the same Ness I've always been."
Turning her words over and over in my head I consider how to answer her. "You are the same, but you are different too. You're far more open to telling me your feelings and thoughts."
"I thought that was the point of not keeping secrets, telling each other everything."
"It is, but this new openness is the exact opposite of how you've been acting lately. You use to tell me everything, but as I started pulling back I could feel you becoming more reserved."
Her head drops down to look at her hands. When she looks back up her cheeks are bright pink, "I couldn't exactly tell you that I liked you."
It's silly, but hearing her say that just makes me so fucking proud. The grin on my face is huge as I lean back against the car. "You like me?"
"I guess I kind of have to, since you went and imprinted on me." Her smile is blinding, it illuminates her entire face. I'm so lost in her beauty I don't hear what she says next.
"Jake?"
"Yeah?" I close my eyes, trying to regain focus. "Sorry, what did you say?"
She gives me a soft smile, "I said, that still doesn't explain why you think I'm a different person."
I run my hand along the back of my neck, trying to figure out what to say, how to explain the difference to her. I have no fucking clue other than I'm not sure what she's going to say or do next. "You're just different. It's not bad different though. You're surprising me by the things you say and do. How about helping a poor human out? Give me some warning before you say things like how you think I'm- hot." I can't help shaking my head at the absurdity of this conversation.
She throws her head back and laughs at my request. "I could probably do that," she says, walking toward me. Instead of coming to me, she returns to her spot against the fender and begins fiddling under the hood of the car. Now it's my turn to appreciate the view in front of me.
I should really have my ass kicked for checking her out but I can't help myself. Ness has subtle curves but they are well hidden under the coveralls she's wearing. Her hair is pulled back in a low ponytail but there are strands hanging around her face as she looks down into the area the carburetor is housed. My eyes drift down her back and I run my hand over my face as I glance away from her ass.
This is going to be harder than I thought. My rock hard cock pushing against the fly of my jeans makes me almost laugh at the double meaning of my own thought. My dick might not have a problem with me checking her out, but there's still a part of me that keeps thinking my desire for her is wrong. I know it isn't but years of keeping myself in the 'friends' frame of mind is hard to break. The only way to move past that is to start acting on the urges I've pushed away for so long. I guess our earlier kisses are going to help out with that.
Forcing myself to move, I step behind her, placing my hands on her hips. She doesn't hesitate, straightening up to lean back against my chest. Her immediate response relaxes me and I wrap my arms around her. We stand there until she begins to sway slowly back and forth in time to the music, her ass just barely brushing against my cock. I place a kiss on the side of her neck.
When I pull my mouth back from her sweet skin, she spins to face me, her arms lacing around my neck. We stand there looking at one another, both of us smiling like a pair of lovesick fools. And I know I am, love sick, that is, I just haven't told her yet.
There is a hint of laughter in her voice when she speaks. "I'm going to want you to kiss me now, and I'll most likely say something that might shock your genteel sensibilities."
A thrill runs through my body when I realize I can prove her wrong; by showing her. Without a word I lower my face to hers, my nose brushes against hers before I start peppering light kisses along her cheek, making my way to her lips. I slide my mouth softly against hers then suck her top lip into my mouth. She moves closer to me, pulling our bodies together tightly.
Her taking the lead, pulling us together is just another sign of the changes in her. That tinge of weirdness pops into my mind; not so much about kissing her, but the intimacy of this moment. I'm kissing my best friend, but she is so much more than just my best friend. She's the woman I am meant to be with for as long as we both exist. She is my other half. Maybe it isn't just Ness that has changed.
I'm pulled from my thoughts by the slight pressure of her lips against mine. She tastes sweet from the lip gloss she wears. I'm so glad she doesn't wear that other sticky shit on her pouty mouth. I would still kiss her, but she is so beautiful; she doesn't need all of that extra stuff.
My hands move from her hips to cradle her face and I slowly end the kiss. "You're trying to make me lose my mind, aren't you? Have you been talking to the other girls or something?"
"What?" she laughs and I watch her tongue move across her lips nervously. "No! I've been with you all day, remember?" She sighs softly, "I can't help that I want to kiss you every second I'm with you. You're intoxicating, Jacob."
I grin at her, tucking a loose curl behind her ear, "Intoxicating, huh? I don't think I've ever been described that way."
"Well, get use to it, I'm going to describe you in lots of other ways in the future." Her grin is sassy and that tells me more than anything how very happy she is. Seeing her this like this fills my heart with joy.
"Are you? Can I have a teaser?"
My imprint looks thoughtful before speaking again. "I suppose you can have a teaser." Standing on her tip toes so she's closer to my face she begins, "You are deliciously handsome."
I grin at her and she nods her head, like I argued with her or something. Like I could argue with her; she has me wrapped around her finger. Always has. "Also, you taste delectable."
That one has me a little more alert. Did she just say I taste delectable?
"You're all spicy and sweet. I love the taste of your lips, I can't imagine what the rest of you tastes like."
Damnit.
Shit.
Fuck me.
I'm quickly losing my ability to keep control of this situation. Visions of her mouth on my neck, moving down my chest, my stomach, and continuing lower. There goes my dick. I step back a little, separating my hips from hers before she has the chance to notice what's going on.
Taking it slow, we want to take things slow. As much as I want to go further I know in my soul it isn't right. We don't have to rush toward sex; we have all the time in the world to move in that direction and I want to take it slow. I want to woo her and hope that she falls in love with me. I don't even care if that makes me sound like a pussy. The need for her to feel as deeply for me as I do for her is too strong to care about my position as the Alpha male.
Ness steps with me, not letting me get too far. "Too much?" she asks in concern.
"Um, just, intense. Visions of you and your mouth and-," I shake my head and clear my throat, refusing to continue because that certainly won't help my current situation at all. I need to derail this topic of conversation. "Let's get back to work on the 'Stang."
I don't miss the flash of disappointment on Ness' face as I step toward the car and get back to work. She doesn't seem too upset because she does stay next to me, helping me for the next hour until I realize it's late. I need to get her home. The last thing I want is to piss off her parents so they start giving her curfews and shit.
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Frowning, I look at the big white house as I pull up the driveway. I'm not ready to drop her off yet. I'm hopeful I can at least get a goodbye hug in before Edward pulls the "Dad" card and makes me leave. I'm going to do my best to be nice to him when we get to the cottage, avoid getting into a brawl. I'd give anything to hold Ness in my arms as she sleeps tonight, but I need to keep the peace with Edward so I can continue to spend more time with my girl. Having this day with her has completely changed my world. An hour here or there isn't enough. I need to be with her as much as possible.
"You wanna go see Lillah and Hallie tomorrow morning? I don't have to be at the shop until late, to take over for Seth." I won't even deny that when I say his name I growl a little. Ness smirks when she hears it. What the fuck ever. I'm not going to try to act like I'm not jealous of their friendship.
Squeezing my hand a little she tugs it toward her lap. "Yes, of course! I would have liked to have visited her longer before, but I didn't want to overstay my welcome."
We're now parked in front of the cottage but neither of us makes a move to exit the car. I think she is just as reluctant to face her parents as I am.
"You could never overstay your welcome, Tathut. Lillah loves you and I'm sure she'd be happy for the company. I bet Embry freaks every time she or the baby sneezes." I grin over at her and she has a funny look on her face. When I lift my eyebrow in question, she shakes her head and smiles.
"Yes, you're probably right. Do you think he'll calm down now that the baby is here?"
"Um," I give her a look that asks if she's serious right now, "I think he'll be even worse."
Her blooming smile and giggle make my chest ache. "I tend to agree with that assessment."
"I like Lillah," I tell her in a grave tone, "I hope he doesn't drive her insane with his hovering."
Ness shakes her head "Aw, Jake, he loves her. There is nothing wrong with him worrying about his wife and baby girl."
I nod my head in understanding as we exit the car. When Embry first imprinted, it was hard on him, wondering if he could really allow himself to be happy with someone. He had no family to speak of, after losing his mother to cancer. It wasn't until recently he found out who his father really was. Of course, that revelation meant he also found out he has a brother, Sam. I'm happy for him, having found his half brother and now, a wife and new baby. I know without a doubt that Ness' words are true. Embry loves his family with every part of his being.
It's on the tip of my tongue to tell her I feel the same way about her when we approach the front door of the cottage. I push that thought aside as I realize my time with her is quickly coming to an end.
Ness bounces over a few large rocks that are embedded in the ground, like stepping stones. I watch how quick and light she is on her feet as she spins in a circle, her arms above her head. She's beautiful, with her wild curls swirling around her torso and a giggle on her lips. When she twirls around to face me her hands move to her hips and she grins at me.
"You are so beautiful," I say quietly and shake my head in amazement. It's not the first time I've noticed, but it's the first time I've said it since everything came out. The way her face lights up makes me want to say it to her every second of every day. Her body bounds back toward me and leaps. I wrap my arms around her waist, easily catching her when she slams into me.
Her lips move against my neck, her words muffled. They sound something like, "Thank you my Jake," but I'm not sure if that's what she actually said. I inhale the sweet scent of her hair, allowing my free hand to play with the ends of it.
"Go on a date with me." I blurt the words out without thinking about them. I hadn't intended on doing anything like that just yet. With a sharp intake she lifts her head so she can see my face. Her head bobs up and down before she wraps her arms around my neck again.
I don't know how long I stand there just hugging her before she drops to her feet. She looks up at me and I place my fingertips on her smooth, pale cheek. As my eyes watch the movement of my skin on hers I don't realize someone is approaching until a throat clears.
Pushing Ness behind my back I turn quickly, looking for the person that has intruded on our privacy.
"Dad."
"Edward."
"Jacob. Ness. What are you doing out here?" His amber colored eyes dart back and forth between Ness and I as she steps from behind me. Edward doesn't look at her too long though. He's more interested in glaring at me. I almost wonder if the look on his face is pain. Because I pushed Ness back to protect her?
"I was just dropping Ness off. She joined me at a family dinner then we worked on the Mustang together."
He continues to stare at me, then a smirk turns up the side of his mouth. "Congratulations to your family."
I relax a little and grin, thinking about my sister's news. I've become so accustomed to thinking of other things when I'm around Edward that I didn't realize that would be what he'd get out of me. "Thanks Edward, I'll be sure to pass that on to Rachel and Paul."
He nods his head then looks at Ness once more, "Your mother and I would like to send a gift to Lillah from the family, if that would be acceptable to Embry."
Ness steps around me to face her father. I can feel the tension in her body and I know she is still upset with him. "As long as it's nothing too outrageous, I'm sure they would be pleased with a gift for Hallie."
Edward nods and looks around awkwardly. She told me that she left things on good terms with her parents, but it looks like things are still tense between them. I'm almost tempted to take pity on the man; it is partly my fault that they are at odds. When Edward eyes me again I decide I don't feel so bad for him. Shoving my hands in my pockets I stand and wait quietly.
"I guess Bella will talk to you about something for the baby then, Renesmee."
Ness nods before leaning into my side. The way Edward tenses, I know he hates seeing her this close to me. Well too damn bad. I grin when he growls and shoots me a glare. Ness' hand touches my forearm and I have to bite the inside of my lip to stop the smirk from showing on my face. She's sending me 'messages'. Flashes of us kissing, mostly. I have to think of everything but what she's showing me to keep Edward from reading my mind.
I glance down at her and she's grinning. She knows what she's doing. Sneaky little half vampire. She's determined to get me into trouble. If I didn't know better I'd guess she wants her father to see- I shake my head and look away from Ness before my mind begins to wander. Things will be a lot easier for both of us if we don't let him see how quickly we are moving in our relationship. The last thing we need is for him to find out about the kissing. Not to mention our conversation in the car. That one still throws me for a loop.
Abruptly Edward's head jerks around. He's looking toward the cottage. I'm guessing Bella is inside and probably pushing her thoughts at him. It's crazy how she can do that now. Just like the way she pretty much shields Ness twenty-four seven. Thank goodness she's mastered that part of her gift. No doubt Ness feels the same way. She's not into sharing her thoughts unless she wants to; not even with me.
Given the developments of today though, it seems she's changing her mind on sharing with me, which is very exciting.
"I'm going to head inside. Don't stay outside too late, Renesmee. Since you and Jacob have been together all day, I think it best he not stay tonight, a night apart won't kill you."
Edward doesn't give Ness the chance to say anything before he walks away and disappears into the cottage. As her father passes me he gives me a frown and a side-eye glare. I just shrug when Ness looks at me questioningly. I have learned to ignore his moods over the years.
We are both quiet as we watch him make his way toward the cottage. Ness breaks our silence first.
"You want to go on a date with me?" Her voice sounds surprised, though I don't know why, given what she now knows. I nod my head and watch her closely. Even though I think she agreed before, she never actually said yes. I wait to see if she will accept my offer or turn me down. Surely she won't, will she?
I hadn't thought about that possibility and I honestly start to panic a little as I watch her face screw up into a thoughtful expression. When her mouth spreads into a bright smile I begin to relax a little bit. Her giggle washes over me and erases the rest of my uncertainties. Pressing her hand to my cheek, she speaks softly into my mind, "I would love to go on a date with you. Our first real date."
I can't help chuckling; we've gone about this thing a little backwards, first kiss then first date, but I don't care. Neither Ness nor I are what you'd call "normal" anyway.
I reach a hand out to her, pulling her toward me but being cautious knowing her father is lurking nearby. "I'll start making plans and will let you know when to be ready." I tell her in a low voice as she wraps her arms around my torso. Hugging her closely I rest my chin on top of her head. She smells so good, so sweet. "I should let you get inside."
Her voice is barely a whisper when she speaks, "I don't want to."
"I don't want you to, either, but we should respect your father's wishes," I remind her, even though leaving is the last thing I really want to do. I'd stay huddled outside the cottage all night if I could get away with it. I would be even happier if I could sleep outside her bedroom door. I am a stalker now. Unfortunately, the last thing I want or need to do is piss off Edward even more. Things are tense enough as it is and I don't like Ness being upset or at odds with her dad. Even if he is an overprotective asshole.
I start to pull away and the scruff on my chin gets tangled in a few strands of Ness' coppery hair. Placing my hands on each side of her face I brush her hair down and back out of her face to look down at her. "I'll see you tomorrow, right?" she asks on a whisper.
"Of course." As if I could ever tell her 'no'. Not really, anyway. I'm weak when it comes to Renesmee Cullen. "Thank you for spending the day with me, Ness."
She smiles sweetly and I place a kiss on her forehead before reluctantly dropping my hands. When she frowns at me I give her a look of confusion, waiting for her to tell me what she is unhappy about. "What?"
When she begins to nibble on her bottom lip a little, her eyes darting to my mouth, I realize what she's thinking about. "Ness, we can't kiss on your parent's doorstep," I whisper while leaning as close to her as possible. I have high hopes that Bella is distracting Edward inside but I can't be sure. I definitely don't need him listening in as I kiss his daughter, especially given how quickly things get out of control when our lips meet. Like I told Paul, I want to keep all of my body parts and appendages. I'm kind of partial to them.
As soon as she realizes I'm right she nods her head and hugs me once more before backing up a step. "Call me tomorrow?" I don't know why she looks so nervous when she says this. Of course I'm going to call her. Probably sooner than tomorrow. I can't handle any more separation, especially with the whole her going away to school thing still lingering. We haven't gotten around to talking about that yet, I realize.
"You'll hear from me, I promise. Ness, you are never getting rid of me." Her smile is blinding when it moves from her lips to her beautiful brown eyes. "Behave yourself, don't piss off your dad any further," I grin and wink at her, my hands curling and opening repeatedly as they hang at my sides. I really should go but I am desperate to stay. Instead of standing there and staring at her I pull her into one more tight hug, kissing the top of her head softly and whispering into her hair, "Good night."
Backing away I climb into my car, keeping my eyes on where she stands, watching me watch her. My eyes flicker up to the rear view mirror more times than they are on the driveway as I drive out. I look back until I can't see her any more. Maybe I should feel lame about my sappiness, but I don't care. The entire way home I play our day over and over in my head. I love her so much it makes my heart do crazy things.
Dad's truck is in the driveway when I get home. I'm surprised to see it there. Even more surprised that he's sitting in the empty living room with the TV blasting. He's staring intently at the screen, acting like he's not here checking up on me. It's like I'm still a teenager, but he didn't even do this then. He must be worried about something for him to come over this late at night. "Dad?"
"Jake, listen, about what happened at dinner-"
"Please don't, Dad. I don't want to talk about it." I give him my best smile, "It's fine. Nothing for you to worry about."
Dad shakes his head, "Paul-."
"Is an asshole," I finish for him. "I get it. I'll talk with him tomorrow. Go home, get some sleep."
"Fine." He gives me a smile, "How was the first day of officially having an imprint?"
I don't hesitate in my response, "Absolutely amazing."
He grins at me, "Good to hear, son."
"Now get out of my house, old man. I'm going to crash. I'll see you in the morning."
I help him into his truck then aim for my room, yanking my shirt off and discarding it as I fall on the bed. After being cramped in Ness' double bed for the past two nights, stretching out on the new king size mattress feels odd. Even though she's never seen it, this bed feels empty without her here.
Running a hand over my face I catch the faint smell of Ness on my skin. I groan and roll over onto my side, trying not to think about the fact that I can't be with her right now. I really wish I hadn't left. I'm tempted to phase and go watch her from my spot, but I know that won't help. Also, it's kind of creepy.
Reaching for my cell phone I flip it open. I pull up her name and stare at it. Snapping it shut I shake my head at myself. I'll see her in the morning and she needs rest after the way the last couple of days have gone for her. Placing the phone off to the side I try to get comfortable so I can get some sleep myself. I'm planning on phasing in the morning so I can get a good run in before picking up my girl. My girl. It's still so hard for me to believe everything is finally out in the open. It's crazy that I can now tell people she's mine. It feels like I should still be hiding it because I had to for so long.
Rolling over onto my stomach I slip my arms under the pillow beneath my head. It's flat and lumpy in places. Even though the bed is new, I haven't bought anything other than sheets. I've been waiting for her to make the decisions, pick out what she wants, once I tell her about this place that is. I want her to make this her home, our home, when it is time. Until then, I'll deal with the flat, lumpy pillows of my youth.
Thinking of this bed and Ness in the same thought is probably not a good idea. It's so easy to picture her here in this house, putting sheets on the bed just before I push her back against the mattress. She will complain that I'm messing up the clean bedding as she pulls my lips down to hers.
Yeah, must get my mind off of that.
I try to concentrate on just her smell, hoping that will ease me into sleep.
An hour later, I'm still awake. My phone ringing causes me to jump out of bed. I pull it to my ear without even checking the caller I.D.
"What?" I growl, prepared to bolt from the house and phase if needed.
"Jake?"
My whole body freezes when I hear her voice. "Ness?" I ask for confirmation.
"Hey," she says on an exhale. "Are you ok?"
"I'm fine," I choke out, too surprised by her call to elaborate. "Are you ok?" I suddenly realize the time and worry for my imprint kicks in.
"I'm fine." Before I can press her for what is going on she whispers, "I can't sleep."
My laughter feels almost maniacal as relief floods my body. "I understand, I can't sleep either."
"Is this normal?" Her voice sounds so worried that I find myself desperate to run to her, to comfort her, but I know I need to stay where I am. If I go to her it will just make things with Edward more difficult.
Sinking back into the bed, I lower my voice to a whisper that matches hers, "As far as I know, yes, it's normal."
"It's worse tonight." She sounds like she is on the verge of tears.
Forcing myself to stay where I am, I do my best to comfort her from afar, "Have you tried drawing? That usually puts you to sleep."
"How do you-?" She gasps then laughs, "The window. Right." She's quiet for a moment then asks shyly, "You haven't seen my drawings, right?"
"All I saw was you pulling out sketchbooks each night, never what you drew. You haven't shown them to me, so no, I haven't seen them." I pause, then whisper, "But I'd like to, when you are comfortable letting me see."
"I've never shown anyone my drawings," she sounds like she is lost in thought now. I'm relieved that she seems calmer now, but I'm still worried.
"You don't have to-."
"No," she cuts me off, "I'd like to show you my drawings, someday." She giggles softly, sounding shy, "Um, they are mostly of you."
A grin spreads across my face. I wish she was here. I'd like nothing more than to see the blush I imagine is coloring her cheeks right now. "Is that so?"
"When I draw, it's like I'm emptying my mind onto the paper. I've- you've been on my mind a lot lately, so...," her voice trails off but this time I'm not as worried; my girl sounds happy.
"You are always on my mind, Ness. That's why I can't sleep, I can't stop thinking about you." Being this open and honest with her is scary, but it feels so good to finally be able to tell her how I feel.
"I can't stop thinking of you, Jake. Also-," she hesitates.
"What? No more secrets," I remind her.
She chuckles, "It's not so much a secret, just embarrassing to admit." She takes a deep breath then whispers so softly I can barely hear her, "Today with you was perfect. I'm afraid to fall asleep. What if all of this was just a dream?"
"I promise, it wasn't a dream. You are my imprint, Ness. But if you are worried, call me when you wake up, I'll remind you of that fact again in the morning."
She sighs happily, "You promise?"
"I promise to remind you every day of our lives that you are my imprint." It's on the tip of my tongue to tell her how much I love her, but I can't, not over the phone.
My words seem to appease her for now. She laughs softly, "I like this plan."
"Me too."
Even though she tries to hide it, I can hear her yawning. "Close your eyes, Ness. I'll be there to see you as early as possible tomorrow morning."
"What if I have nightmares?"
I can hear just the hint of fear in her voice. This must be why she keeps waking up in the middle of the night. "Call me."
"You need to sleep too, Jake." There is an edge of concern in her voice that makes me smile. It's odd to have someone worry about my sleep, but nice at the same time.
"I'll probably be awake. I have my fair share of nightmares too, Ness." I hesitate for just a moment then decide I should tell her. It's only fair that she knows. "It's part of imprinting, Tathut. When we are apart, we have nightmares about the one we are missing. That's why we both slept so well the last two nights, no need for nightmares when we are together."
She sighs, "Jake, then you should be here." I don't have to imagine Edward's hiss of anger, it comes through the phone loud and clear.
"I don't think that is such a good idea. Soon enough we can be together forever, Ness. Until then, we can survive a few nights apart."
"I guess." She sounds sad again.
I honestly don't want to come between her and Edward. I'm hopeful he'll come around to things, but it's going to take some time. Until then, I need to be on my best behavior, and that includes sleeping alone for a little while.
"We can still talk on the phone," I offer. "I can stay on until you fall asleep."
"I'd like that." She's quiet for a moment then I hear her ask softly, "Would you tell me a story? A legend?"
"Sure." I go through the legends in my mind and land on a personal favorite. "How about Raven and Bear?"
She giggles but I can once again hear a yawn being suppressed, "The Bear because of Uncle Emmett?"
"Of course." I grin into the phone. "Ness, before you fall asleep-," I want to tell her I love her, but I hold myself back, "good night, sweet dreams."
"Good night, Jacob."
I launch into the story of Raven and Bear. Before Bear has even finished cooking the meal for Raven, Ness' breathing has evened out into the steady rhythm of sleep.
"Good night, my Ness." I press the end button on my phone. Rolling over, I make sure it's as close to my ear as possible so I can answer it. If my imprint needs me, I will be ready for her. My eyes close of their own will and I fall asleep without thought.
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A stream of light blinds me as the sun rises. I blink and squint, surprised that I actually slept as 'late' as I did. It's the first time in a long time I haven't been up in the middle of the night. When the memory of my phone conversation with Ness filters through my mind I relax. Talking to her just before falling to sleep was the best surprise I've ever had. Aside from imprinting on my girl, that is.
God. She has me spellbound. The funny part is, I seriously don't mind a bit. I would do anything for her.
I grin and climb out of bed after checking my phone. Holding it in my hand as I walk toward the bathroom I consider sending Ness a quick text. I don't want to wake her up if she's still sleeping, which I hope she is. Changing my plan I decide to phase and go for a run then text her when I get back. It looks like it might be a nice day today, an odd rain free one. Taking a deep breath of crisp air I head to the edge of the woods. As soon as I'm in my wolf form I start to sprint; stretching my body to it's limits. Burning up some excess energy.
When I get back and enter the house I head straight for the shower. As I turn the water on and let it heat up I decide to go ahead and send Ness a message.
Good morning my beautiful girl. Hope u slept good. ~J
After placing my phone on the bathroom sink I strip down and step into the steaming space. I bow my head under the spray and let the heat seep into my skin. It's so nice not having to worry about other people needing the hot water before it runs out. I can take my time and just stand in my own shower, the hell with anyone else. Fucking awesome.
When I finish up and begin to dry off I hear my phone alerting that I have a message. Hastily I jerk my clothes on while flipping my phone open to a text. I should feel like a pansy ass for being so giddy over a friggin' text message.
Hello my Jake. I slept very well, thank you. I can't wait to see you today. ~N
My heart stutters a little and I shake my head at myself. There's no hiding how much I care for Ness. I hope she knows this even though I can't exactly tell her the extent of my feelings yet. Sitting down on my bed I quickly pull on socks and my old hiking boots. The morning run and anticipation of seeing Ness has my adrenaline pumping. My plan was to pick her up later this morning, give her time to sleep in, hang out with her parents. But I can't wait any longer. I need to see her now.
Leaving house now, sweet girl. Be there soon. ~J
The smile on my face can't be wiped away by anyone or anything. I climb into my car, wishing I could take the bike but knowing Edward would have a fit if I did. Some day soon I need to take Ness out for a ride again. It's been a long time since I've had her arms wrapped around me as we drive to nowhere. My mind wanders as I drive to the cottage to pick her up. Even though it was just a few hours ago when I left her, I am desperate to see her face again. To hear her voice. It's amazing how things have changed in the past day. I'm so thankful I don't have to go back to the way things were before.
When I pull up in front of the cottage she comes bounding through the front door, leaving it flopping on its hinges behind her. I barely manage to turn the car off before getting out to meet her. She leaps at me and I catch her, just like I always do.
"Ness," I mutter into her hair while I squeeze her body in my arms. Her head fits beneath my chin perfectly as we hug. I'm so glad she isn't upset with me about keeping things from her. Now that she knows I don't think I could have stayed away from her, even if she hadn't wanted to see me. I definitely deserved some of her anger, though I'm not going to point that out to her.
It surprises me that one of her parents hasn't come outside yet and I realize that it's probably still so early they might not be around. They still go "hunting" a lot. Gross.
Loosening my grip on Ness I lean back so she'll look up at me. She looks rested, which is a relief. I know it's probably too early to be here, but I'm so glad I rushed over. Even though we were both sleeping in the hours we were apart, that time away from her felt like an eternity. Everything seems right just holding her in my arms.
"Morning, Jacob!" I hear Bella just before she and Edward break through the trees.
Before Ness or I can say anything Edward grumbles, "Definitely too early. I'd prefer you wait to visit until Bella or I are here."
"Edward! Jacob can see Ness any time he likes. They don't need to be supervised constantly." Bella chides him, rolling her eyes before turning back to me. "Are you hungry Jake? I could make you two some breakfast."
I glance down at Ness, asking her instead of directly answering Bella, "I was actually thinking of taking you to the diner for some breakfast, if you want."
Her brow wrinkles and I watch as she bites her lip. The flash of her mom's hopeful face in my head shows me what she is concerned about.
Twisting my head slightly I glance up at Bella. I give her a tight smile and hope she understands what I'm trying to say without speaking.
"Oh go, I don't mind. That actually gives me a chance to pick up a present for Lillah and Embry. Ness mentioned you are going to visit them today. Will you head out straight from the diner?"
"That was my thought," glancing down at Ness, I lift my eyebrows in question, "if that's ok with you?"
She lifts her hand from its resting place on my arm to my face. Even though her hand is gentle against my cheek, she shares her excitement with me along with shouting two words into my mind, "Of course!"
Bella clearing her throat redirects my attention. Glancing up, I can't help smiling. Bella smirks and shakes her head. She picked up that smirking thing from Edward. "That's fine. I'll drop the present off to you at the diner."
I nod my head, appreciative of her understanding about wanting time with Ness. Bella takes Edward's hand and leads him into the house. He glances back a few times, but she drags him away.
Chuckling, I turn back to Ness, pressing my lips against her forehead. "You ready?"
"I just need to grab my bag and tell them bye," she whispers softly against my ear. My eyes drift shut briefly as I soak in the feeling her breath creates in my body.
I follow her into the house., when she heads for her room to grab her bag, Edward gives me the stinkeye. I know better than to even think about following her. Bella asks me a couple of questions about Lillah and Embry's baby, but other than the basics like her name, I'm unable to answer.
Ness comes skipping out of her room, answering all of Bella's questions as she gives her a quick hug and a kiss on the cheek. Pressing her hand against Bella's face quickly Ness moves on to her father. She hesitates for just a second then leans forward and kisses his cheek too. She presses her hand to his face and he sighs. "I love you too. Have fun," with a glance at me, he adds, "and behave."
Ness grabs my hand, linking her fingers between mine as she smiles at her father, "We will, Dad. Don't worry."
Edward squints his eyes at me but doesn't say anything else. I know it's not her behavior he's concerned about. Taking that as my cue to leave, I quickly get us out of the cottage.
Ness places her lips against my cheek when we're settled in the car. When I twist my face to her, she quickly finds my lips. The kiss is soft and brief, but it still thrills me. "Good morning," she whispers, "I missed you."
"I missed you too my beautiful imprint."
Her face blossoms as her cheeks turn a soft pink. Brushing my thumb across her lips I can't help my own big smile, "I promised I'd remind you of that every day of our lives. Consider it your reminder for today."
"Jake-," she stops herself. Her hand moves to my cheek, and she whispers a soft, "Thank you," into my mind. Surrounding those words are emotions that make my heart swell; happy, excited, nervous, and something else. I can't wait to ask her about that something else, but for now, I'm just going to enjoy our time together.
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A/N: How much do your cheekbones hurt? Happy Jake makes us all smile. Go ahead, admit it. Don't forget to hit that review button. Jake loves the love.