April ..1939 ..Kyle ... Still feeling a bit sore but this is my first entry since I was attacked but I'm now strong enough to write in this diary at last gives me something to do I guess as I'm still stuck in bed
Now a few weeks ago I got the fucking crap beaten out me by Craig Tucker and his fucking gang of assholes what had happened that I'd gone to the store for mrs Marsh as she was busy so I agreed to help her out and go to the local grocery store that Jews can go to and I decided to take Ike with me at first he didn't want to go but I bribed him. With the promise I'd buy him some candy if he came. and plus I wanted the company someone to talk to and help me with the bags I guess as Stan was helping his dad but I promised we run straight their and back so we wouldn't be long so going to the store was no hassle we seen no one so we went in and got the groceries and paid for them I got Ike his candy and he helped carry the bags that weren't that heavy anyway but when we left the store to head home those assholes were waiting on us I told them all just to fuck off and go home as I wasn't in the mood to argue with them and Ike and I walked on quicker to get back to the house but before I knew it I was being pushed to the ground and sat on and the crap being beaten out of me and I couldn't get up Tucker and Tweek were sitting on me the others stamping. On my legs and kicking me only Butters didn't do anything but he was yelling some insulting names and he was like a look out person yet no one did come to stop them or help me I really thought that they'd kill me
Then the next thing I felt my hair being pulled by the roots and to my horror I felt it being cut those fuckers were cutting my hair and I couldn't stop them as they were pinning my arms down and they hacked off my hair to the scalp also I noticed that Ike had gone and I was more scared for him than myself now because I knew those bastards would hurt him too and I hardly felt them undress me they stripped me completely naked even my underwear was gone then they all urinated on me and kicked me into the gutter saying that's where you belong Jew scum in the gutter before they ran off
I really thought I was going to die I was numb and cold and lay on the ground and I was vulnerable to further attacks then I just closed my eyes as they where so sore but I couldn't open them again as they'd swollen up but in the distance I heard Ikes voice screaming Kyle Kyle then more voices like Stan and our families then I felt a jacket going around my shoulders and being lifted up and carried back to the house where Dr Goldberge checked me over and tended to my injuries and I'd learnt how badly hurt I'd been and that I had to stay in bed Stans been with me all the time I heard him talk and read to me and felt him hold my hand he's been so sweet that was a few weeks ago now my bruises are fading and my eyes are open again but I'm still confined to bed but oh God my hair or what's left of it is a total mess butchered to the scalp practically mum says when I'm a bit better shell tidy it up I'll probelly need it shaved off to even it up but it grows so fast anyway so it's no big deal really
April ..1939 ... ( Kyle) ..Fuck it thise is getting so fucking damn worse now when will it end today we heard that the Jews who are in Polland are now loosing their homes and being forced to live in special assigned areas and mom says it will come here eventually it's just not fucking fair but so far here all the Jews are still living in their own homes and Stans dad says if the worst does come to the worst that they will hide us and my dad agreed he says that no one is pushing us into little Jew houses so now sadly I don't think we will get our own house now well not till all this carry on dies down and I don't see it dying down soon
Was looking back at my entries from last year in my diary when I was in my cosy little room looking put at the synagogue. From my window and wanting a bike for my birthday so much has changed since then and I feel iv grown up so much in that year not just in height now were homeless and the bike is gone and worse still so is our beautiful synagogue but we have our lives and that's more than importent than a house or a bike I learnt a valuble lesson that night possessions are nothing compared to your life being alive is the most importent thing their is and the lives of your family possessions can be easly replaced not your family I'm going to be 12 next month and all I want for my birthday this year for all this to end and for us to get back to normal and the Jews to be left in peace but some how I doubt it sadly
...( Stan)...
I noticed that poor Kyle has been feeling down a lot for the last few days I really don't know if it's due to all that's happend and what he's been through with Tucker and that or all that's been happaning with his pepole as what's happaning with the Jews is upsetting him those are his pepole and he really feels for them but what ever it is I'm really worried about him I wish he'd tell me were all worried about him I guess and Ike has been asking what is wrong with Kyle I told him I honestly don't know wish I did but I hate seeing Kyle like this ir breaks my heart
His injuries are recovering well the bruises on his face are almost gone now and the gap in his teeth is to be fixed soon as his dad has a Jewish friend. who's a dentist also I think that his hair has grown a tiny bit too so when it's tidied up he might not need to get it all shaved but Kyle having his hair really short like this shows off his lovely face and neck and his cute ears Oh god I'm at it again having feelings for Kyle like this but fuck it he is so beautiful and the way he moves is so gracefull and being with him practically 24/7 isn't helping much eather as it makes me want him more
May 1939 ( Kyle)... feeling a bit better but oooh my bloody damn mouth is throbbing my dads friend who's a dentist gave me a filling to repair the broken tooth and just let's say he isn't very gentle I had an evil thought of biting his finger for the hell of it as he hurt me and now I can't even feel my mouth hope I don't bite my gums or tounge as that feels rubbery but the pain is starting to kick in and it's a dull throb fuck it I hate dentists
Also dad had a suprise for me today my gold star of David has been fixed new gold clasp put on it so mom put that back on me again and it's safe under my sweater I'm glad to have that back and so glad I didn't have it at the time of the attack or it have defently been stolen I love that pendent and later mom tidied up my hair she thankfully didn't shave it but cut it really short. so I have no curls just now she was even crying as she cut it I told her not to cry everything will be okay and my hair will grow back thick and curly. In no time she said she couldn't help it she loved my curls they looked so pretty I had to laugh
Later dad asked me what I wanted for my birthday as its really soon I said I don't know really which is true I honestly don't know what I want I'm really scared to ask for possessions as everything I have I end up loosing it and what I'd really like which is peace I don't think I'll ever get that. I don't see it happaning sadly
Also I really don't know if I'm imagining this or not but iv seen Stan look at me a lot it's kinda hard to explane really but call me crazy it's if we'll its if he's wanting to hit on me I wouldn't mind really I think it's really sweet I'd Stan finds me attractive despite the way I look just now infact I'm really flatterd by it all
... ...( Stan) ...
Kyle got his missing tooth repaired today do his smile is back to normal but he's still a bit sore and kinda numb and also later his mom tided up his hair so he's got a really short cropped style no curls but they'll grow back soon no doubt and he looks cute with the cropped hair also he was happy when he got his pendent back a new clasp put on it so that's back where it belongs so despite the pain in his mouth he's a bit more happy it's good to see him smile
OMG also I think Kyle is on to me and knows that iv been looking at him maybe iv been letting my feelings show for him too much oh God he'll hell be discusted by me and will. never come near me again I know that he has really high morals and boys having feelings for other boys like I am is strictly forbidden hell hate me for shure now what will I do I want to tell him but I can't he probelly thinks we're nothing more than super best friends I mean we are but I had no idea that things would end up like this
May 1939 ( Kyle ) ... More and more countries are isolating their Jews from non Jews this is getting worse it seems also one of the other women who visited us at the time of the vilonce and escaped the fire when we lost our home has killed herself she was under a lot of stress and depression. So sad and her husband is devastated and I heard that 3 other peole who lived near by have also died killed themselfs we beleive this makes me feel so depressed I don't even want to celebrate my birthday now I feel bad that I'm happy and their not we should all be happy really
Mom is trying to cheer me up the best she can and said that I have grown another inch and a half since I came here Stan and I have our height measured against the wall and marked I'm almost 12 but you wouldn't know it I look so much older and I tower over Stan and my mom too now I'm gonna be really big that's for sure also I think I might be entering puberty soon as I reckon I'm. the right age but iv not really noticed any changes in my body yet and my voice hasent broke and iv no body hair yet but I guess that will all come in time it will be strange becoming an adult I think hope I'm a good one
...( Stan ...
Kyles been acting kinda strange recently looking in the mirror a lot and touching his throat I thought he had a sore throat working on but he said he's looking for his Adams apple and he's also been touching under His arms and his cock area too he didn't know I'd seen him do that but he said later he thinks he's entering puberty but hes not sure yet he's checking for the signes but I stood at the door as he examend himself and seen him naked that's 3 times now 2nd was when he was beaten up everyone seen him naked but now he was in the privacy of the bathroom but the door was open a bit and I just couldn't help myself omg looking at him I was so turned on I dont know how to describe it really seeing that ivory soft flesh that was like an Adonis I wanted to touch it but I couldn't as I don't know how he'd take it omg this is so fucking wrong but it takes my mind of what Tucker did to him
The bruising on Kyles flesh has gone now and his skin looks flawless like it should be in the end I had to leave the bathroom as I was so tempted to go over and touch Kyle maybe even ...dare I say kiss him and that is so a huge no no kissing a Jew is enough to get you shot and a boy having feelings for another boy oh fuck huge no no but seeing Kyle takes my mind briefly off all that's happaning with Tucker his gang and fucking Hitler that's for sure.
Oh that's the latest. Thing talking about hitler he's still making all thae dumb rulles and hounding the poor Jews and denying them the right to live in their own homes but dad says no one will hound Kyle and his family out and into these Jew houses or Star houses some call them but what ever names they have their all the same and I'd hate to loose Kyle of he was forced to live else where
Thats that chappy don't hints of yaoi here that will come like Kyles puberty lol so stay tuned for more