Hey guys! Whatsup today? :D hope you guys are doing good. The song this time is She Had the World by Panic! At the Disco. This song is so good. I definitely recommend looking it up. Any-who, this was a request by BlueRoseRabbit. So here you go!
"Must you leave again? Right now?" Elizabeth's sad eyes were looking up at her fiancée, begging him not to leave her again.
"Elizabeth, you must try to understand. It's for business, the queen…"
"I don't care about the queen! I want you to be here with me, Ciel!" she cut him off, her voice loud and on the verge of tears. Ciel looked frustrated, but worried too. This was so hard for him. He wanted her to be happy, but what it was going to take to make her happy was more than he could give. She wanted his love, and he didn't have enough of that left for her.
He pulled her into a firm hug, holding her tight into his chest. He lowered his head so his lips were next to her ear.
"I won't be gone long," he whispered. "And I know you will still be here when I come back." He pulled his head up and placed a firm kiss on her forehead. He stepped back and looked at her. He smiled sweetly, and she tried to return it, but couldn't as a tear escaped from her eye.
"I will be back," Ciel said as he motioned to Sebastian to get ready to leave. Paula trotted to Elizabeth to try and calm her. Sebastian opened the door for Ciel, and as he walked out he looked over his shoulder at the blonde girl he would be wed to someday. Her head was in her hands and Ciel knew she was upset. His heart snaps a little bit every time she cries, and its worse when he knows it's his fault.
Sebastian and Ciel walk from the front door of the Phantomhive manor to the carriage, where Sebastian helped him up into it. A few moments later Sebastian came around the other side and climbed in cattycorner to Ciel. Ciel heard the carriage driver whip the horses into a steady run and the carriage started in motion.
"Lady Elizabeth truly loves you, lord." Sebastian said causing Ciel to look at him.
"That is none of your business, Sebastian."
"My apologies. It was just an observation."
Ciel turned his head to the carriage window and looked out at the landscape before him.
"Do you love her?" Sebastian's voice broke the silence, and Ciel turned his head towards him, face full of anger. He opened his mouth as if to say something, but when he met eyes with his butler he sighed and closed his eye.
"I don't know."
Sebastian, who was very happy that he was able to cut through his master's rough exterior, smiled. "Why do you suppose that is?"
Ciel sighed again and rested his hand on his cheek and looked out the window, his eyes looking far into the horizon. "She is beautiful. She is smart, and funny. She would make a wonderful wife one day. She could make any young man happy. But I…I can't love her."
Sebastian froze and looked at Ciel, as if he was shocked at his response. He listened as Ciel continued.
"I'm not the kind of person who can love a girl like her, Sebastian. I want her to be happy, but I can't. She can't be happy because she doesn't have me." He turned his head to look at Sebastian whose eyes were still frozen on him. "She has the world. She can do anything she wants, she has all that money, she has everything. Yet she still isn't happy. All because of me."
The silence in the carriage was eerie, and when Sebastian broke it, it made Ciel jump a little.
"Humans are very….interesting."Sebastian said quietly.
Ciel Chuckled very quietly and turned his head towards the window once again. "That we are, Sebastian. That we are."
How was it? It got kind of sad sorry about that. Oh well! I hope that BlueRoseRabbit liked it! Don't forget to put in another request if you like! Bye!