10. Gabriella
"Hey what's wrong?" Dani asks me. I can't believe she can be so clueless.
"You don't know!"
She shakes her head and gives me a confused look.
"You slept with him!"
"Troy?"
"Yeah."
"So? It's not like you two are together."
"No you're right!" I look down.
"If you like him so much, then why the hell don't you do something about it!"
"Forgive me for not throwing myself at anyone like you."
She slaps me and I feel tears forming in my eyes.
"How do you think he feels about me? He's your best friend, I'm just your annoying little sister, he's older than me and I'm not sure he sees me that way. I don't want to get hurt."
"Well now you don't have to worry about that, do you?"
"I hate you!" I yell at her. "I can look through the slap, because you can't help it, that's just who you are! But you take everything from me and I'm getting tired of it!"
"Like what?"
"You steal my stuff and then you forget it somewhere and then I never see it again."
"Oh grow up Brie."
"When we were kids. I got the lead role in a play, and mom and dad were supposed to come watch. But you got in a fight with someone and mom and dad didn't show up. I was 8 and all I wanted was for them to see me. See me shine, but you took that from me. Just like you took me from my friends. I had the best friends at our old school. But we had to move because you got kicked out of school. No matter what it is you take it from me! Remember when you were 15 and you got to be on a fashion show!" She nods and I continue. "They wanted me! But they figured out I was only 13 and then they saw you! That was my shot D not yours, but you took it from me without even knowing!" I wipe away my tears. "Two years ago I was having fun with this guy, then you stole him and broke his heart, I never saw him again."
"Brie. That all happened years ago."
"Until now! You can't even help it it's who you are! But I'm tired of it! And now Troy!"
She is crying and all I can think about is that I'm happy I'm not the only one.
"He was never yours!"
"No he wasn't, but you knew I liked him, and still you went after him!"
"You never said anything!"
"Open your eyes! If you didn't see that, you sure are blind."
"You should have.."
I cut her off. "You know what? I'm done!"
"What do you mean?"
"I'm done with you. From now on we live together and that's it! I don't want you to speak to me. I just want you out of my life!" I scream.
"No." She begs. Tears storm down her face. "Brie you don't mean that."
"You're right I'm mad. I'm really mad, this isn't fair." I shake my head. "I can't do this anymore. It hurts too much."
"I never meant to hurt you. I didn't even know about the play or the fashion show.."
"But you knew aobut Troy!" I snap at her.
She cries harder and I know she did. I want to scream and cry and I want to be able to laugh but I can't it hurts too much. "I never thought you would be the one to break my heart!"
"Brie.."
I shake my head. "No. Don't speak. I don't want to hear what you have to say. Tell Troy I say hi."
"Why aren't you mad at him?"
"You knew, I believe he didn't. And anyway you are my sister. You should never hurt your family like that. And besides you do this all the time, and now I've had enough." I give her one last glance before I turn my back on her. New tears fall down my cheeks. It hurts more than I ever expected it to. I love her. But I can't do this anymore. It's too painful. I don't know what will happen with time, but right now this is the right thing to do. "And who says I aren't mad at him? But getting hurt by someone you love hurts a whole lot more. I trusted you."
"If this is what you want. But then don't come to me whenever you need advice or get in trouble or just want to talk." She leaves my room and I cry in to my pillow.
Had it been a stranger I don't think it had been bothering me that much, even though it would hurt no matter who Troy was with, but the fact that it was Dani hurt a lot. On one hand I still like Troy and on the other I'm really mad at him, but I think to myself that it isn't his fault. He didn't know. I should have told him, then I would have never been in this situation, which hurts even more than getting rejected by a guy. I hear my door open and I know Izzy is walking in. Not now I think. I don't want to talk to anyone. "What happened?" She asks me. "Dani stormed to her room, she didn't want to talk to me."
I wipe away my tears. "We got in a fight"
"About what?" she walks closer.
"Nothing you have to worry about." I tell her.
"That's okay, you are sisters, and sisters forgive everything."
I sigh. Why does my 8-year-old sister have to be so damn smart? "Some things you can't forgive Izzy. Some things go too deep, they hurt too bad."
"Like what?"
"A broken heart."
"She broke your heart?" She asks and I nod.
"But how."
"As I said you don't have to worry about it."
"You should forgive her."
"I can't Izzy."
"You don't have to forget, you just need to forgive."
"I wish it was that simple. Don't worry about me I'll be okay."
"You need to forgive her."
"I can't Izzy, the wound hurts too bad."
"She gave you a wound?" She asks surprised.
I shake my head. "Not literally, but she might as well have."