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A/N: Hey, sorry this took a little while, starting of Bella's depression, and all that good old New Moon stuff…Nice little thoughtful Carlisle chapter… Read. Enjoy. Review. (And thanks to those who reviewed last chapter… and to those who didn't… weak!)

Accidentally In Love

Chapter Ten

Dr. Carlisle Cullen

Those two days that I spent with Bella here, at the house were the best up to that point in my three hundred sixty four years. Though, those long nights and sweet memories with Bella were soon to disappear. It took only a few days after the majority of the family returned for Edward to come to me and ask me if we could leave. I tried to reason with him, but he just wouldn't have it. He was just so convinced that it would be the best for Bella if he, Edward, were to just disappear. I honestly couldn't agree more, but for what he was calling for the whole family would be leaving. I just couldn't have that. I tried my hardest to stop his way of thinking, but he was convinced, and so we were leaving.

I had managed to schedule some life saving surgeries for a few days after the set date was for us to leave. Therefore, I was staying behind for an extra couple of days while everyone else headed off in their separate directions. In those days leading up to the big abandonment it took all that I was not to announce to everyone that Bella and I were in love and I was staying for good. I couldn't though, my compassion made me weak. I would stay the few extra days, spend all my time with Bella, then go off and meet them in Africa, swearing to Bella that I would return. It was tempting to just tell them I would meet them and just stay there with Bella for all eternity, but I couldn't, not that way, it would kill Es, and I owed her more than that.

That night I sat alone in the living room, knowing that most of my family was, by now, halfway around the world and Edward was off seemingly breaking Bella's heart. I knew that the biggest line in Edward's speech to her would be announcing that ALL of us were leaving, including me. I couldn't wait to go find her after he left to tell her that I was staying for a few extra days. The age we had agreed on was twenty two, but I was willing to lower it to when she graduated high school, almost nineteen, so we wouldn't have to be apart too long.

Edward returned to the house at about eleven to notice me sitting on the couch and he couldn't smile.

"You're off then?" I asked, then added, trying to sound less concerned then I was, "Was she ok?"

"She was devastated," Edward replied, and I blinked, wanting to pulverize him for hurting her.

"You know we don't have to go about it this way," I said and he just glared at me.

"Carlisle, you know we do, if something ever happened to her? Would you want to live with me for the next few thousand years while we wait for the world to end?"

"No, I guess not," I said then added, still trying to be the good friend, though I already knew I failed, "But I also don't want to have to see you trying to be without her."

Which was exactly why Bella and I would be leaving and running away, and not running into either him or Es until a few hundred years from when we leave.

"I'll be fine, Carlisle," He said, "See you in a few days."

He was gone in a few seconds and then I was sitting there alone again. The room was dark, as we hadn't bothered to turn the lights on. I waited a few hours, knowing that Edward would be now halfway to Africa to meet up with Esme. I stood up, figuring if they hadn't found her yet, as it started to rain, I should probably go get her.

I headed, carless, straight to Bella's house first, figuring that she was there already. I went in through the window as I had heard her speak of Edward doing so many times, and saw her huddled on her bed, all wrapped up in her comforter. Charlie, by the sounds of his footsteps was downstairs.

She was sobbing, thankful that Charlie didn't hover, I walked over and wrapped my body around her and hugged her tight.

"I am here, Bella," I whispered into ear and she looked up into my face, while I wiped the tears and the hair out of her face.

"You're not leaving?" She said sniffling up and looking into my eyes.

"No, well not now," I said, "Everyone left like a couple hours ago, I had to wait before I came to see you, make sure they had already found you. I leave in a couple days."

My last comment made her turn and start crying into my chest. I gently stroked her hair and kissed the top of her head, just trying to calm her down.

"Bells," I whispered in her ear, kissing her temple then continued in a whisper, "I love you, if there was another way that I could think of… I'll be back. I'll always come back, remember that, Bells, I'll spend as much as I can with you in the next three days. Then, I'll be back on your twenty second birthday. I'll come back for you. Then we'll be free."

"Do I really have to wait that long to see you again?" said Bella as she sat up and threw her arms around my neck, and gazing into my eyes.

"You have to at least graduate high school, and I told Es I'd come meet her, I owe her that much, Bells," I said as I leaned in and kissed her lips, "But you stick it out this year, and I'll come back for you. I'll try to get here sooner, but-"

"Then by the latest?" she asked and I nodded.

"I would never be able to hurt you, Bella," I said as I laid further down, holding her head to my chest, trying to sooth her, "I WILL be back."

"Why do you have to leave?" she asked and I chuckled a little.

"Here I was thinking that my compassion was something you liked about me," I said and she shrugged the shoulder that wasn't pressed against my torso.

"I love everything about you," she said and I smiled.

"Then Bella, let me do this, so that I CAN be with you," I said softly then paused for a few minutes as she sighed and fell asleep, "And so I can be me, with you."

I knew if I just walked away without giving Esme any explanation at all, it would eat away at me until there was nothing left. I had nothing if not a very strong conscience that screamed at me whenever I did anything that messed up anyone else. Even when I was with Bella, it was dully screaming at me in the back of my head, I just ignored it. I knew that if I tried to ignore, or rather stop hanging around with her, and now stop sleeping with her, I would be a mess. It was such a huge part of me, it was like she now owned the majority of my heart. And, no pun intended, if I ever lost her, emotionally or physically, I would be dead inside.

I spent most the night thinking about how difficult the next few months would be for the both of us. Then, I figured it be less terrible if I could not think about it and wondered how I would occupy my time and not let on that it was bugging the crap out of me not seeing her.

"MMM," she groaned softly in her sleep, and that brought me back to the present, as she murmured, "Carlisle."

I smiled, thinking to myself how perfectly beautiful and adorable she was. I subconsciously pulled her tighter into myself, knowing that that one second had ripped at my heart, knowing that this would make it even harder for me to leave her in a couple days time. I made a mental promise that I would come back every few months to check up on her, maybe not exactly showing myself for the first few months, but then again if they were hard on her I may have to. Then again, Edward might've been right about the clean break, but I was too weak to be able to do that. Bella brought out my weakness as well as the best in me when we were together. We were soul mates, just born hundreds of years apart, fate had taken pity on us and let us be together, and for that I had to be thankful. Maybe this wasn't such the horrible curse I had made it out to be the last few hundred years, it had brought me to Bella.