Bella POV
As much as we didn't want to leave Renee after she'd woken, we did. She wasn't going to be lucid for long and in that time, we knew it would be best that she have Phil by her side.
Edward and I sat with Tanya in the family room while Alice and Jasper took the time to try clean up and get something to eat. Alice, happy that Renee was fine now, seemed to bounce back and was hell bent on getting out of the sweats she'd been wearing and into something far more 'Alice'—for lack of a better term.
Oh.
How was I going to explain Edward to Renee?
Had I mentioned Edward in any of the conversations I'd had with my mother? I'm sure I had, but its not like the two of them have actually met in a formal capacity. I know their meeting now won't even hold a candle to when Charlie met Jasper for the first time, but this is different.
I'm pregnant. Edward's my fiancé and Tanya will be my daughter.
Would she freak?
Would she be unhappy?
Would she think I was too young?
That this was too soon?
Would she hate me?
Shit, what about Jasper? He's been engaged to Alice for like a year now and he hasn't met Renee. Not through lack of trying, he just spent a lot the past year travelling from job to job so he could make enough money for him and Alice to enjoy their honeymoon properly.
At least Renee won't be meeting a bare assed Jasper mid-thrust with her baby girl, right? Because that's the introduction Charlie got. Nope just an insta-grand baby and one on the way.
"Bella?" Edward said, shaking my arm.
"Hmm?" I answered, still a little caught up in my thoughts.
"Look at me."
Turning my eyes to look at Edward it was impossible to miss the worry so plainly painted across Edward's features. I couldn't help the frown that covered my face.
"You're miles away, Bella. Talk to me, please? I want to help, but I can't when I have no idea where your mind's at."
I grabbed Edward's hands, pulling them into my lap. I started tracing patterns across his knuckles as I tried to work through everything in my mind.
"She doesn't know who you are, Edward—or Tanya. She's my daughter, and my own mother doesn't even know her. You're my fiancé Edward, not just my boyfriend, my fiancé. And…and she's pregnant. I'm pregnant and so is my Mom, our kids are going to be the same age. Tanya will be older than her Aunt or Uncle." I think I was crying, or very near tears.
Edward sighed heavily, pulling his hands from his he pulled me onto his lap as he wrapped his arms around me, cradling my head to his chest as he rocked me slowly. "Bella, it'll be okay." Edward soothed. "She's your Mom, she knows how busy you've been. It's not like I'm Joe Shmoe straight off the street. Baby, she's heard about me, us. She's seen pictures from the show, I'm sure she's heard from someone, somewhere, about Tanya. It'll be fine, Bella and even if it's not, I'm in this for the long haul. You and me, forever. That's what the ring on your finger means, Mrs Cullen."
I sunk into Edward, nodding my head as he spoke. He was right, I knew that, but…I don't know, maybe it's the hormones or something, but I was still worried.
"Hey Baby?" Edward asked after a few minutes.
"Yeah?" I said, turning my head to look him in the eye.
He shocked me, as he leaned down and brushed a quick kiss on my lips. Confused, I looked at him, eyebrow raised. I mean, if he was going to kiss me, he could have kissed me properly.
"I was wondering," he said softly, leaning down so his forehead was leaned against mine. "Well, maybe while we're here, if maybe we tried to in to see if we could try and get you an appointment for a checkup today?"
I couldn't help but smile, I was scared, but he was so cute! I was worried, mostly because I didn't want the home test to be wrong. I mean, did that happen? There was such thing as false positives right? Or was that false negatives?
Instead of saying no, because as scared as I was, I did still want to know for sure I asked to see Renee first. I wanted to make sure that she and Phil were okay and that they were happy about this baby?
Edward and I just missed the doctor when we walked into Renee's room on the heels of her doctor who'd just left, but either way, my mom seemed to be in high spirits as she gave ne a massive smile when I walked in the room. Rivaled, of course, by the massive one she gave Edward who followed after me, Tanya asleep in his arms, her head resting against his shoulder.
"Bella and it's Edward, right?" Edward nodded, kissing Tanya's forehead.
"That's Tanya." I smiled as Edward stood at my side so I could press a kiss to Tanya's cheek. I won't lie, I didn't miss the way my mom's whole face lit up when she saw Tanya.
"So how long have you been sleeping with my daughter?" Renee asked, completely unabashed. Me on the other hand, I think my eyes about popped out of my head as my whole body flushed from embarrassment.
"What? Mom!" I screamed, turning to Edward and making sure Tanya was still asleep. She was, though she did bury herself deeper into Edward's shoulder.
"Oh grow up, Bella. I almost died. I'm simply living vicariously through my daughter, besides, you've got a glow about you so clearly he's good." It was my turn to snicker as Edward blushed. That's not to say I wasn't cringing, because believe me I was, I just also had a brief opportunity to mock…and I took it.
Renee wasn't one to waver when she wanted information, it made lying to her when I was younger a mission.
"So, tell me. I'm your Mom, Bella, you've nothing I've never seen before." Unless she's had Edward, I'd beg to differ.
"Mom, stop. You'll wake Tanya and she's far too young for Edward and I to have that conversation with her."
It took me all of a second to realize the slip I'd made when a beaming smile spread across her face. She's not an idiot, I mean she does stupid things sometimes, but she's far from idiotic. She'd caught the implied meaning when I'd mentioned Edward and I, and Tanya in the long term.
"Edward, is there something you and my daughter would like to share?" No, nothing at all.
"Ugh." He stumbled, looking to me for help. I considered not telling her, but we couldn't have her finding out from someone else by accident.
"Edward asked me to marry him and I said yes." Her smile looked smug, like she knew it was inevitable or something.
Hello, she only just met Edward and a sleeping Tanya.
We talked to my mom for a few more minutes and she was kind and polite to Edward, but I could see there was something else she wanted to say. Something she wanted to say to me, alone. I mean, I'd tell Edward eventually, but she clearly didn't want to say something that would offend him. Well, that's what I chalked it to anyway.
"Hey, Bella!" Alice called from the waiting room where she was sat in her typical Alice attire, her small feet in red soled shoes as she sat with her feet in Jasper's lap.
"Yeah?"
She patted the seat beside her, shifting so she was facing it. I looked at her and then Edward who bent down and kissed my forehead before turning to leave. He was probably heading to the cafeteria. Jasper stood too, following after Edward.
"What's so important, Edward and Jasper had to leave?" I asked quickly, in an attempt to get a word in edgewise before Alice steamrolled the conversation.
"Well," she hesitated, "I did something, and I'm not entirely certain how you'll take it."
Second to sleeping with Edward, I'd forgive her anything. Well, as far as I'd considered anyway.
"I may have talked one of the OB's into fitting you in for a checkup during lunch."
Oh.
"Why?"
I don't know why, but I really wanted to know why Alice would have done that.
"Because Moms' being pregnant and not knowing made me think about your pregnancy, which you only found out about because I thought I might have been pregnant. I just, I wanted you not to be blindsided for once. That's all."
"Thank you." I said sincerely, as I opened my arms and hugged her tiny frame to mine.
What else was there to say other than 'thank you', really?
When Jasper and Edward and Jasper made their way back, Tanya was awake. Her little finger was wrapped around one of Edward's as he bent down and walked her toward us. She ripped her hand from Edward's when she saw me and ran toward me—well, to the best of her ability at least.
"Mama!" she cheered, I got up to meet her as I noticed her feet moving a little too fast. Good thing I did too, her feet caught on…I actually don't know what and she fell into my chest with a soft thud.
"Careful Baby." I tried to soothe as I wiped away the tears that started. "You're okay. No tears remember, you're Mama's big girl." She nodded her head, blinking a little.
I was happy she settled down quickly, because we had an appointment to make.
"Is she okay?" Edward asked when he was standing in front of the two of us. I nodded my head, but it didn't stop him from giving her a quick once over
Taking to his feet, Edward gave me a hand up, he went to lift Tanya up, but she wanted to walk. When he started heading back to the cafeteria I shook my head. Heading towards the reception area Alice said we needed to be at.
Alice had filled in all the forms, which troubled me a little. How did she know my social security number?
"What are we doing, Bella?" Edward asked with masked enthusiasm.
"I guess you and Alice think similarly. She managed to get an appointment for us today. Which means—,"
"Swan, Bella?" A nurse called, cutting me off.
We filed in after her, my stomach in knots and Edward's hand firmly held in my left as I lead Tanya in front of me.
Edward took a seat in the corner, sitting Tanya in his lap as the nurse went through motions while I tried my best to be a good patient. The nurse was quick and polite, she left with a smile, telling us our doctor wouldn't be too long.
I tried my best to remain positive as we waited for our doctor. Edward and I spent the time talking to Tanya and asking her about her day. I'm fairly certain she has no idea what we're asking her, but her response is always hilariously animated. She can only say a few words that actually make sense—Mama, Daddy, Food, Sleepy; stuff like that, so imagine her sentences.
The doctor must have walked in mid-conversation as we heard an older tinkering laugh. Our eyes shifted to the door to see an older woman in a lab coat, holding a clip bored. Her eyes were kind, as was her smile.
"Mr and Mrs Swan, if I may be so bold, you're daughter is stunning. You're quite the picture." I smiled, abashed.
I adored how often people thought Tanya was mine.
"Thank you," Edward smiled, "but it's Mr Cullen and Miss Swan. We're engaged." The doctor just smiled, amending something in her notes.
"Okay, well, I'm Dr Mayer, but please just call me Joan. Your sister tells me you took a home pregnancy test that read positive." I nodded my head.
"Now, false positive results are uncommon, but not impossible, for many number of reasons. So, I'd like for you to take another urine sample test, which comes back with results quite rapidly. Depending on the result of the urine sample, I'll talk to you about your options then, okay?" I nodded along mutely.
I'd never really thought about a false positive before. They're uncommon, but everything about me was uncommon. I was that 0.1%!
I was on autopilot as Joan directed me to the bathroom, a plastic cup held firmly in my hand. If Edward sensed anything was wrong, he didn't let on as he dutifully waited with Tanya in his lap. They seemed content to play their clapping games as I left the room.
It felt awkward going to the bathroom when I knew that people were waiting on me and my pee, but eventually after psyching myself up, I managed and was returning the sample to Joan.
She left the room in haste, promising to return as soon as she could get the results, which made me wonder briefly what Alice had used as a bargaining chip to get this appointment.
It took fifteen minutes—though it felt like hours—for Joan to return and in that time I'd convinced and unconvinced myself that I was pregnant a dozen times. Edward talked me down, then calmed me down and then had to assure me that every thing would be okay. He had a weird look on his face though, so I wasn't really sure how much I could trust him. Tanya, well, she just sat with me on the bed and played with my hair.
She'd have been sat on my lap, but I wasn't wearing anything under my gown, so I thought better of it.
"Bella, may I call you that?" Joan asked when she reentered the room. I nodded my head, my eyes failing to meet hers as I waited for her answer, provided of course, she had one.
"You're pregnant, as far as the urine test goes. Your Hcg levels are elevated, which gives me plenty of grounds to say you're pregnant. What I'd like to do is take your blood pressure, and I'll test the blood we retracted earlier just to make sure everything is okay and that you're not carrying anything that's transferable to your baby. After that's all out of the way, because I've checked over your chart and neither of you have stated a history of heart disease or any other genetic conditions, I'd like to try for an ultrasound and then we may even get to see your baby. How does that sound?"
Great. Excellent.
I think I answered verbally…maybe. I did nod my head though.
My blood pressure was fine, I still hate blood pressure cuffs though and my blood test results wouldn't be available for a little while. We went through my last period, which I'd actually forgotten the exact date but Edward remembered, and then she was squeezing recently warmed gel onto my stomach and spreading it around with the transducer, after an internal exam Edward briefly walked Tanya out of the room for.
She moved it around a little bit, pressing it down into my abdomen and pressing buttons before she moved it again. I didn't want to look at the monitor, mostly because I didn't know what I was looking at.
So instead I watched her move the transducer around my stomach, I was a little shocked to see a small bump protruding. How could I have missed that, how could Edward? I mean, he was the touchy feely type? Was I that oblivious? Were my jeans tighter? I didn't think so, well, not noticeably. I don't think.
I actually wanted to rub my hands a long the bump just to see if it was real, or firm? Did it feel like fat, or like I was boated?
I was so lost in my head I'd missed what Joan had said until I heard Edward gasp. My eyes shot to him quickly to see them trained on the screen. The image wasn't very clear, but whatever I saw, there were two of them.
"Sorry, I forgot to ask this earlier; are their multiples in either of your families?" I shook my head, because as far back as I could recall there weren't any twins or triplets or anything.
"No…I don't think so." Edward answered, bringing me back to the screen.
"Huh, well, there's always a chance you're carrying multiples Bella, given your age also, and I think you may be further along than either of you have anticipated. Look here—" she pointed at the screen, as continued to watch she changed a few settings or something and then I could see something thrumming in the center of the blobby shapes.
One hand reached out for the screen while my other gripped Edward's. "Is that?"
My eyes sort out the shapes, as I tried my best to make out things. Arms, legs, a head. I think…?
"It appears that you are carrying multiples, Bella, and given the development of your babies I'd estimate you're actually around the fourteen to sixteen mark. You're in your second trimester Bella, that much I can tell with certainty."
Second trimester?
My babies?
"Wait, you said babies? I thought you were just checking before?" My head shot to Edward's mildly panicked voice before turning back to Joan.
Her face seemed…amused? Like she was waiting for us to deduce what she'd said. "Yes, we do have to check, but I could already see two babies before I asked." She traced things on the monitor: hands, feet, heads, before addressing their size against their development.
My babies were small, too small and so was I, but they were alive and appeared healthy-ish—if you didn't consider their size and mine.
Two days ago I didn't even know I was pregnant, and now, I'm finding out that not only am I pregnant, I'm carrying twins. Two babies!
Edward gave my hand a squeeze drawing my attention back to him, he had tears running down his eyes as he looked between the screen, my stomach and my face. 'I love you', he mouthed and all I could do was nod my head. If my uterus wasn't already full, it would have been a flutter seeing Edward being so sensitive, actually I think even then it was still a flutter.
"Well, that's the end of your first checkup. I'll get you a few images ready and have your chart updated for your regular OB/GYN and I'll get you a prescription for some prenatal vitamins as well as grab you some pamphlets. You've missed a lot of the woes of the first trimester, but it won't hurt to make sure you're prepared for what remains of your pregnancy. It's been lovely meeting the three of you, and I wish your family well, I'll make sure to have everything sent over to your regular OB."
We were having Christmas babies and I was actually super excited about that. Wow, I was still having trouble trying to process everything, but at the same time I was so happy and excited, but mostly overwhelmed. Fourteen weeks, I missed my own pregnancy for fourteen weeks.
The light periods I thought I'd been lucky to have were actually just spotting which is normal, apparently.
Edward and I were both lost in our heads as we walked back to Renee's room, Tanya lazing with her head on Edward's shoulder. She wasn't asleep, but she wasn't completely awake either. When we walked in the room, I wasn't surprised to see Renee flipping through pages of some homemaker magazine, nor was I surprised to see Alice doing the same with a fashion mag.
I actually watched the two mirroring the other for a solid minute easy, stupefied by how in tuned they seemed to be, yet completely unawares. Tanya yawning on my shoulder brought me back, and seemed to alert Renee and Alice of our presence.
"Hey, how're you feeling mom?" I asked, tripping over myself a little.
"Well, looks like you're taking real good care of my baby girl, Edward. She's got that post coital glow about her." holly cue the blush, even Edward was blushing as I shot my eyes to him.
"Hey, it's not just you Bella. You're man's got a shit eating grin on his face, it just screams 'I fuc—," Alice's hand clapping around Renee's mouth, thank you Jesus, cut her off before she said anything else.
"Mom, I think Bella's come here to talk to you—not about her sex life either." Alice tried to reason. Renee eventually just huffed in response before settling back into her bed and looking at Edward and I rather expectantly.
Just as I figured out what I was going to say, Renee said her last piece. "Wait, wait. I just wanted to say that Charlie was right."
Confused, I looked to Alice but she shook her head. She had no idea what Renee was talking about. Hell, I was beginning to think the woman needed a CAT scan, just to make sure she hadn't knocked a few screws loose or anything.
"Dad was right about…?" I prodded.
"Edward. He was right about Edward being good for you." She must have caught the look on my face and continued. "When I spoke to your father a little over a month ago he told me a bit about Edward and how he thought he was good for you. He went on about you getting sickly thin—anorexic, his word, and how you always looked tired, but then he said you always seemed happy so he wasn't too worried. Then he said you started filling out when I talked to him a couple of weeks later and that he was sure it had everything to do with your boyfriend—Edward."
Charlie noticed! Charlie can't even find his lures on the top tray of his tackle box, yet he noticed me getting thinner and than gaining weight again? I didn't even notice, hell, Edward didn't even say anything.
"I didn't know dad paid so much attention." Alice chimed in, in an attempt to get me talking again.
"Uh, yeah?" I offered, looking at Alice who was mouthing 'tell her' at Edward and I.
"Mama?" Oh shit! Turning to Tanya, I took her from Edward, pulling her into my chest. Edward looked at me completely blank. He didn't know what to say now either. I figured Tanya would sleep through all of this, clearly, her screwed up schedule is getting to her.
"Bella?" My mother asked, her tone stern. Motherly.
"Mom, I told you about Tanya, right? Edward's daughter. Um." I paused, watching some recognition flash in her eyes before they narrowed on my left hand. "Right well, Edward asked me to marry him and I said yes—oh, and I'm going to adopt Tanya as soon as I'm able, so you have a granddaughter and two more grand kids on the way."
I was actually shocked at the look on my mother's face. It was…well, it wasn't what I expected. She looked, upset, not sad—just not happy. If I'm being perfectly honest I expected her to be happy for me.
"Can everybody leave please, I need to talk to Bella." Renee eventually said, far too evenly for my comfort. Edward touched my elbow, but I nodded my head, he needed to leave. I didn't want him to be in here, because to be completely honest I didn't know what she was going to say or do. She'd already up and screwed my expectations.
"Are you sure?" I just nodded my head, even though I was so far from sure, but I didn't need him to know that. I tried to hand Tanya off to him, but she wasn't letting go. Edward sighed, but left after brushing his thumb across her cheek and then mine.
It took a couple of minutes for everyone to file out and Tanya was holding on to me for dear life and refusing to look at my mother. When the door finally shut behind Alice, who'd been the last to leave—and the most reluctant, there was a pregnant silence that hung in the air.
Even I refused to meet her eyes.
"What are you doing with your life, Bella?" she asked, more than a subtle hint of disappointment colouring her tone.
"What?" I couldn't help but bark out. I regretted it quickly as Tanya seemed to manage to burrow herself further into my chest. "I doing exactly what I want to do with my life. I'm living it with the people I love."
"No. You're moving too fast in your relationship and taking on a ready made family with a child who's mother may turn up and rip her away from you at any moment. To top that all off you're only twenty-one. You're too young to be thinking about marriage let alone entering one when a child is involved, and now you're bringing two more into the mix. Bella—,"
"What, mom? Bella, what? You've already ripped apart every decision I've made in the past six months to shreds. What else do you have left to say? One minute you're happy for me, you think Edward's good for me, because he is. Now, now that you know why, you want me to change that." I sighed, rubbing Tanya's back as I turned towards the door.
"You know what, think what you like. Do what you like, I'm happy for you. I'm happy you'll be okay. I'm big enough to admit that, but until you can reconcile the choices I've made—all of them, not just the ones that suit you, just leave Edward and I, Tanya and my children alone."
I didn't look at my mother, I couldn't bring myself to do it. How could she say such a thing? About Edward, about Tanya! I wanted her to be happy for me. I was happy for her.
I just shook my head, turning to the door, but as I went to reach for the handle, someone was pulling it open.
"Bella?" He asked, a knowingness reverberating through his words.
Oh fuck.
"Hey Dad."
