DISCLAIMER: I own nothing but Jillian and Julianna. All characters belong to Mark VII and NBC Universal.

When she arrived home, she found Johnny sitting in the kitchen, a cup of coffee in front of him.

"Hi. How did it go," she asked as she sat her purse on the counter.

"Great. We went outside and walked around and she played in the grass and the sandbox. We went to town and got a baby swing for the swing set and she fell asleep in the swing. She just fell asleep after her dinner. I gave her the pureed food you had in the fridge for her. I heated it like you told me and she seemed to enjoy it," Johnny said.
"Well, I'm glad your day went well. Will you be able to watch Jill while I go to Beth's funeral," Julianna asked.
"About that...I thought about asking your friend Katrina to come and watch Jill so I could go with you," he said.
"You don't have to do that, Johnny," Julianna said.

She went to the fridge to get something to drink. As she reached for a glass in the cupboard, Johnny's hand went to her shoulder.
"I want to support you. I want to support Bob. I can't imagine what that was like for you to have to tell him she was dead. What it must have been like to work on her. I want to be there for you," Johnny said.
Julianna turned to her husband.
"I'd like that. I'd really like that. I don't know if I'll be much help to Bob during this whole thing," Julianna said, tears pricking her eyes.

Johnny said nothing, he just pulled her into his arms and held her. He was willing to bet she hadn't grieved over the loss of her friend, the emotion of coming home and dealing with him taking priority.

He closed his eyes and wished things were like they were before she left. He wished he could move past what happened. He felt Julianna pull away and he let go.

"Thank you. I'm going to bed. What time is Katrina coming over," she asked.
"She'll be here at 8:30," he said.
Julianna nodded and went upstairs. As she got ready for bed, she cried. She cried because she was grieving. Not just over the loss of her friend, but of the relationship she had with Johnny. Could they ever fix it?

Julianna stumbled into the house, the grief of the funeral almost too much for her. Johnny thanked Katrina and paid her for the day. Jillian was sleeping in her room and Julianna stood at the door to her room, watching.

Johnny came up behind her.

"You OK," he asked.
Julianna nodded. She turned and went into her room, Johnny following and leaning against the doorway.

"I didn't know what to say to him. I didn't know what to say to Chrissy," she said as she sat on the bed.

Johnny entered the room and sat down next to her. "No one does. The important thing is to offer support for them. You know that Beth is going to live on in Chrissy and Bobby. It's just like you told Pam after Drew died. She still had Kelly. Kelly's a part of Drew and Pam needed to concentrate on that," Johnny said.
Julianna, who'd been looking at the floor, brought her green eyes to meet Johnny's brown ones. "I'm sorry," she said, before the tears erupted again.

Johnny gathered her up. "I know. I'm sorry I acted the way I did," he said.
"You had every right. I was wrong. I was so wrong and I'll never be able to give you back what you've lost. I'm sorry for that. How you can even look at me is beyond me," she said.

Johnny tipped her chin up and smiled. "You're not bad to look at and my anger's fading a bit. I don't like what you did, but I think, in time, I'll forgive you for it," he said.

Julianna said nothing. She refused to believe everything would be back to normal and she and Johnny would be a family again.

"Why don't you take a nap? This was an emotional day for everyone. I'll call Mike and tell him we'll be there tomorrow," Johnny said.
"You're coming, too," Julianna asked, shocked.
"Yeah. I was invited, right," he asked.

Julianna nodded.
Johnny smiled and left the room. Julianna got off the bed and changed her clothes before lying down on the bed and falling asleep.

They spent the rest of Johnny's time off getting into a schedule. Katrina had agreed to watch Jillian for them when they were both needed to work. Katrina moving to LA had become a godsend for Julianna and she was glad Johnny trusted the choice Julianna had made when it came to care for their daughter.

When Johnny went back to work, they fell into a comfortable rhythm. Julianna cooked dinner on the nights she was home and they had eaten together as a family. It was almost like they were a complete family.

Three months after Julianna returned to LA, Julianna realized they weren't.

Johnny came into the den where Julianna was picking up Jillian's toys.

"Are you working this weekend," he asked.
"No. Do you need me to do something," she asked.
"Just wanted to make sure I didn't need to change my plans. I don't want to ask Katrina to come over on a weekend if one of us is going to be home," he said.
"Do you have plans," she asked.
"Um...yeah. I'm going out," Johnny said.
Julianna tried not to sound disappointed. "Really? That's great. I'll be home this weekend, so have a good time," she said.
"I'll come home after my shift, but I don't know if I'll be back before my Monday shift, so if you don't see me, don't worry," he said.
"I won't," Julianna said. She wanted to ask him who he intended to spend an entire weekend with and remind him he was still married, but she didn't. She thought if Johnny was going on a date for the weekend, he was probably going to file for divorce at some point. She was going to have to start looking for a place to live. She knew the house down the road was for sale and she thought she might be able to convince the Martin's to let her buy the place so ill would be near the horses and things at Johnny's house.

She went upstairs and brushed her hair, getting herself ready for bed when she caught her ring in the light. Sighing, she took the ring and put it in the jewelery box, right next to her engagement ring which Johnny had put in there when she left.

'You did this to yourself, Julianna Grace. You have no one to blame, but yourself,' she thought to herself, but it didn't lessen the hurt knowing the man she loved was moving on, without her.

Johnny got himself ready for bed and thought he'd hurt Julianna's feelings by revealing his plans. He had a right to go out on a date, didn't he? Especially since the divorce papers were filled out, he just needed to file. He wouldn't even be thinking about it, if his date wasn't pressuring him to cut ties with Julianna.

However, Johnny wasn't sure he wanted to cut ties with her. They would have to be in contact because of Jill, but Johnny was wondering if they might be able to try again. He knew if he hadn't hurt Julianna with his announcement that he was going on a date, finding out his date was Pam, would probably crush her.

Johnny didn't know what to do. He'd been spending a lot of time with Pam and was wondering if there was something between them. He was hoping to find out this weekend.

The weekend was passing agonizingly slow for Julianna. Johnny had left around 8 Saturday morning to go on his weekend getaway and she hadn't said a word. She planned to spend the day with her brother and his family. She was excited to find out that Barb was pregnant again and Mike was excited about having another child.

She had taken Jillian to Mike's house, so glad to have her brother in her life again. Her parents had visited the previous weekend and Julianna had enjoyed the time with them. Everyone was glad she had brought Jillian home to be with her father, but Julianna knew she had a ways to go to repair the relationships with her friends and Johnny.

Her parents were living in San Diego, taking care of her aunt who was dying of cancer.

She was joined at her brother's by the former crew of Station 51. Everyone had been shocked at Julianna's departure and reappearance, especially when she came back with Johnny's daughter. Each woman, with the exception of Sara who didn't know Julianna well at all, had given her an earful about what she had done. And, Julianna had accepted it. She would do anything to let everyone know she had been sorry for what happened and knew it was wrong.

"Where's Johnny," Mike asked his sister.

"He's on a weekend getaway," she said, putting Jillian into the playpen for her nap.

Mike looked at his sister. "A getaway? You mean a date," he asked.
Julianna nodded and went back outside to join the rest of the group gathered at the house.

"He's dating? You're not divorced," Mike said.
Roy heard the conversation and listened to Julianna's response.
"I'm sure he's going to file, especially if he thinks it's someone he wants to be with. It's fine, Mike, really. I'm upset and heartbroken, but I deserve it. I'M the one that screwed up our relationship. Not Johnny. I'm going to take a look at the house just down the road from the ranch. That way Jill will be close to both of her parents and things won't change too much," Julianna said.

Barb went inside to check on Timmy and Jill, since she was in Timmy's room. She peeked into the playpen and was alarmed at what she found. She rushed down the stairs and onto the patio.

"Julianna! I think something's wrong with Jill," she said.