Dear Diary, So I had stayed away from Loke for a full week. I've also not worked for that long, and it's not because of that because I trust my other spirits, but I have been in so much pain. I have stayed home the whole time to recover. Gray has stopped by a couple times bringing me groceries. I guess he feels guilty for my current state and he should. I still can't believe he fight with Loke over me. I have informed him that we are just friends, and nothing more. He agreed and admitted that the argument was more about beating Loke than me. That made me feel great, but whatever I am tired of arguing and fighting. Which is exactly why I think Loke showed up.
Lucy walked out of the bathroom drying her hair to find Loke leaning against her counter. " I didn't call for you Loke, so leave" she said as she walked past him. " You haven't called me for a week". Lucy peaked her head out of her bedroom door " Why would I call you when I don't need you?" And she closed the door. She leaned up against her door taking a deep breath. She really didn't want to deal with him, but she knew he wouldn't leave until he was done with her. She went to her closet to find something to wear when her door opened. " Get out Loke". " I want to talk to you" he said. " Haven't you done enough to me?" she asked. " Lucy I just want to talk". " Fine, can you wait until I get dressed?" Loke shook his head yes and left the room. Once dressed Lucy opened her door to see Loke, and Gray staring each other down. " Don't even start that shit" she said looking at them both. " Loke what are you doing here? Haven't you hurt her enough?" " Why are you talking about? That was you that did that ". " Both of you shut up, we are all at fault" Lucy told them. She started to rub her temples, she felt a headache coming on.
" What are you doing here Gray?" she asked. " I came to see if you needed anything from the store". Loke laughed " Sure that's why you came here". Gray moved towards Loke, but Lucy put a hand on his chest to stop him. " Thank you for asking, but no I don't". Gray moved his eyes to hers " Are you sure?" he asked. " Yes, I will be fine". Gray looked at Loke and then Lucy before bringing his lips to hers. Lucy felt Loke move behind her, so she broke the kiss with Gray and put a hand to Loke's chest. " You should go now Gray" she said trying to keep Loke away from him. " Okay Luce, I'll come by later to check on you" he said smirking at Loke. " Why did you let him kiss you?" " Why does it matter to you?" she asked. " You know he's just using you". Lucy rolled her eyes. " Not really using me, just trying to make you mad". " So why are you still here?" she asked. " I told you I wanted to talk to you". Lucy sat down, and patted the seat next to her. " So what do you need to talk about?" she asked once he sat down. " I wanted to find out why you haven't called any of your spirits". " I haven't called because all I've been doing is sitting here".
"By yourself?" he asked. " No Gray stops in when he can to check on me". " So are you and Gray together then?" he asked. " No, we are just friends". " You shouldn't let your friends kiss you, cause it makes you look" he stopped at the look on Lucy's face. " Makes me look like what?" she asked trying to remain calm. Loke knew he was in trouble, so he just kept his mouth shut. " Come on Loke, what do I look like?" she asked again. But he still wasn't talking. " Let me guess it makes me look easy, like a slut?" He still wouldn't say anything, and Lucy was losing her patience. " Let me tell you something Loke" voice full of venom. " I have had sex with two people in my life, both of them until recently I thought cared about me". " I do care about you" Loke pleaded. " No if you cared you wouldn't come here to help me with a big ass hickey on your neck smelling like perfume" she yelled. Loke flinched " It was a mistake". " Who was it Loke?" she asked already knowing the answer. " It was Aries" he whispered.
Lucy put her head in her hands, and tried to hold back the tears. " I'm sorry Lucy, I was just so angry, and drunk". " You had sex with Aries, the one that wanted me to die at her owners hands, so you two could be together". " Yes". " Just leave Loke, I can't keep doing this anymore". " Do you want to end your contract with me?" he asked. " Why would I do that?" she asked. " It would be better that way". Lucy could feel the tears slide down her cheeks " You don't want me?" " Think about it and call me when you decide" and he was gone. Lucy sat there sobbing for a few minutes before getting up, and getting the sake bottle. She didn't bother with the glass, she just drank from the bottle. As it got dark she didn't even get up to turn the lights on. She just sat in the dark trying to drink away her troubles. After finishing the bottle she got up to go to bed when there was a knock on the door. She opened it and seen Gray standing there. She pulled him inside slamming the door and pushing Gray against it. She knew it was wrong but right now she just wanted to forget Loke for the night.
Gray could smell the alcohol on her breath before she put her lips on his. He kissed her back pulling her to him. He nibbled on her bottom lip until she opened her mouth allowing his tongue to battle her own for dominance. Lucy broke the kiss long enough to pull his shirt over his head. Gray lifted her and wrapped her legs around his waist carrying her to the bed. He sat her down and started taking his pants, and boxers off while Lucy started pulling her own clothes off. Lucy laid back, as Gray crawled on top of her. He started to massage her breasts, and kissing her neck. He spread her legs with his knee, and got ready to enter her. " Are you sure you want this?" he asked. She answered by reaching down and grabbing his member guiding it inside her. They both moaned as he entered her. Gray bent down and kissed her neck as he thrust inside her making her bite his shoulder. Gray's thrusts were hard, and fast sending them over the edge in no time. Coming down off their high Gray had to ask " Why?" " I was hurting, and you were there" she responded. Gray got up and got dressed " I'll always be here" he kissed her on her head and left.
I might not have Loke, but at least Gray will always be my friend. If things were different maybe we could be together. I don't know what's going to happen next, but I plan on telling Loke everything. No more walking on eggshells. Love Lucy