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"Liv, you okay," Elliot asked.
Sitting down as she stared into space Olivia said, Yeah...yeah I'm okay."
"Olivia, don't lie to me," Elliot begged.
"Okay, I'm not okay. Jesus Elliot what the hell is going on here? Five dead girls whose first letters of their first names spell out Jenna? What the hell is this?" Olivia asked.
Rubbing her back Elliot responded, "I don't know baby, but I'm gonna find out I promise."
Standing from her chair, Olivia decided that she couldn't let this guy get her head. Elliot's life is on the line and she will be dammed if she will let this bastard hurt him. Cragen had Munch and Fin checking on any male relatives that Jenna may have had. Elliot and Olivia informed their co-workers that Annette Fox had never mentioned anything about Jenna's father and they never asked, as it wasn't pertinent to her rape case. They always just assumed he was either dead or not in the picture at all. They tossed around the idea of an uncle, brother or just some random whack job.
"I'll be right back," Olivia said as she made her way to the cribs.
Elliot watched the woman he loves walk away. He knew she was hurting, on the verge of possibly cracking. He didn't know what to do for her. She had been through so much, worked so hard to get past what happened with Jenna and now this. He was starting to feel like this girl was going to haunt Olivia for the rest of her life.
Elliot knew Olivia needed some space, some time alone to think, but the thought of her up in the cribs hurting; blaming herself all over again was too much for him. He made his way up to the cribs slowly opening the door. He quietly shut the door behind him and saw Olivia sitting on one of the cots with her face in her hands sobbing.
Elliot quickly made his way over to her kneeling down in front of her. He took her hands to pull them away from her face.
"Liv, look at me," he whispered.
Shaking her head no she said, "I can't Elliot. I can't do this, please leave me alone," she responded softly.
"That's not gonna happen Olivia and you know it. There's no way I'm leaving you." Elliot told her as he gently took her hands in his.
He watched as the tears rolled down her face. His heart broke for her. She had been through so much in the past year and worked through it, finding her way back home to her life, to him. He couldn't lose her again to that one horrible night.
Olivia bowed her head refusing to make eye contact with Elliot. She didn't want him to see the weakness in her that she felt. She couldn't let him see that she was just about to give up on everything, walk out of the station and never look back.
"Liv, talk to me. Tell me what you're thinking, please," Elliot begged.
Wiping the tears from her face, Olivia began to explain to Elliot that this is just another way of someone telling her that she can't be happy. She's not allowed to be happy because of what she had done to Jenna. She told Elliot that she was poison and would be better off without her.
Elliot tried to explain that what happened with Jenna was not her fault. It was a good shoot and she had been cleared. Olivia shot back stating that although in the eyes of IAB it was a good shoot, she still took the life of a teenage girl, whose mother had just been murdered, who she promised to help through that horrific event.
Elliot was beginning to feel that there was nothing he could do or say that would make Olivia believe that what happened that day wasn't her fault. Elliot didn't want to make Olivia feel worse or hurt her in any way but he needed her to understand. He began to talk of their time at the safe house. He reminded her of everything she had told him. Her journey for the past year, finding peace with what had happened, making him understand why she left and finally how she made him realize he was still in love with her. He went on to explain that he finally had her back in his life, and there was no way he was going to let her give up and blame herself for any of this.
"Elliot, I was kidding myself thinking I could have a normal life, a life with you after what I did. It's just not gonna happen. We're not meant to be, that's the bottom line. The sooner we both accept it, the better off we'll be," Olivia said almost robotically.
"Olivia, this is not you talking. This is your guilt talking again, guilt you shouldn't even be feeling. I don't believe we aren't meant to be together. After you being gone for a year and me being a bastard when you came back, we still somehow got through it and found our way back to each other. I'm not losing you Olivia!" Elliot said his voice becoming louder.
Olivia got up off the cot and walked past Elliot. He grabbed her arm turning her around brining her body flush with his. They stared at each other for at least five minutes without saying a word. Olivia tried to move away but Elliot's strength was too much for her. He wouldn't let her go.
"Elliot, let go of me," she pleaded.
"Liv please don't do this," he said moving his head closer to her lips until they touched lightly.
He wrapped his arms around her waist as the kiss became more frenzied and passionate. Her arms found their way to his arms where she rubbed his biceps up and down until she settled her arms around his neck, playing with the hair at the nape of his neck. She moaned at the contact. Elliot began to move her backwards towards the cot she was originally sitting on. Never breaking contact with her lips, Elliot gently laid Olivia on the cot bringing his hands to her face, where he brushed her hair out of her face and wiped the tears that fell from her eyes. He kissed her cheek running his lips and tongue down to her collarbone and back up again until their lips met again.
His hands flew to the zipper of her pants where he went to work on them. He felt her shimmy out of her pants giving him access to her throbbing core. Elliot tugged at the hem of her shirt running his hands up her abdomen to her breasts.
"God, Elliot," she groaned.
He reached behind her back, unhooking her bra giving him full access to her breasts. He took the full breast in his hand tweaking at her nipple until he felt it harden. Olivia felt herself becoming wetter and wetter with every touch. Olivia took her hands and went to work on Elliot's shirt. She worked the buttons slowly and methodically driving Elliot insane. Every once in a while, she would run her hands up and down his chest peppering him with kisses anywhere she could find bare skin.
Elliot took his hand and inserted two fingers into Olivia eliciting a scream that he quickly quieted by crashing his lips to hers. He knew anyone could walk in on them at any moment, but he didn't care. He was too far gone and wanted her too much. He moved his fingers around inside her waiting to hit that spot he knew would drive her insane. When she grabbed the mattress on the cot and tried to ball it into her hand, he knew he found that spot. Olivia arched her back wanting more contact from Elliot's magic fingers. He slowly and painfully, as far as Olivia was concerned, slid his fingers in and out of her. Closing her eyes, Olivia threw her head back trying to stifle the moans she wanted to let out so badly.
She looked up, staring into Elliot's beautiful blue eyes. She went back to work on his shirt finally putting her hands under it at his shoulders and slowly pulling it off him. She stared at his body for a minute before leaning up and going to work on his bare chest again. Olivia's mouth and tongue on his chest was eliciting moans and groans from Elliot she had never heard before.
Finally unable to take anymore foreplay Elliot ran his hands up and down Olivia's leg slowly pulling her panties down and completely off her. He threw them over his shoulder not caring where they landed. He knew their time was limited, as their co-workers would be wondering any minute where they were. He lined up his rock hard erection with Olivia's dripping we core and slid it inside her. Olivia moaned in ecstasy at Elliot being inside her again. She felt every time they were together like this that everything would be okay, although in her head she knew that wasn't the case. She didn't care right now; she just wanted to feel something good, and everything about Elliot being inside her felt good.
Elliot began moving at an alarming rate, sending Olivia quickly over the edge. She tried as much as possible to keep her moans and groans to a minimum but Elliot was too good of a lover for her to keep completely silent. Once again, he silenced her with a kiss which was wet and hot and sent him over the edge, spilling his seed inside her.
When they were done, Elliot rolled off of her both of them still panting. As he reached for Olivia, she quickly rolled herself off the cot and immediately began putting her clothes back on.
"Liv?" Elliot questioned.
"Elliot, I'm sorry I don't want you to think that what just happened changes my feelings on anything. I'm poison. You're life is in danger because I shot Jenna, and I don't have the right to happiness, especially not with you. I'm sorry," Olivia tried to explain.
"What the hell are you doing Olivia?" Elliot said speaking loudly.
"I'm going to work this case and find out who this bastard is and then I'm leaving. I'm leaving SVU, leaving New York and leaving you. It's the only way for you to be happy and safe," Olivia stammered.
"Olivia, you're not leaving me. I won't let you," Elliot stated matter of factly.
"Elliot, it's not up to you," Olivia shot back.
"So what was this? One last roll in the hay for good times? One last good fuck before you blow me off and run away from me again?" Elliot said with disdain in his voice.
"Jesus Elliot it was sex, get over it," Olivia stated.
"Sex? That was just sex to you? Wow, you really can be a cold-hearted bitch when you want to be can't you?" You told me you were sorry you left me, it was the biggest mistake of your life and now you're going to run again? You have any idea what it took for me to trust you again, to let myself love you again? Go Olivia, have a great fuckin life but can you promise me one thing before you go?" Elliot asked.
"Anything," Olivia whispered.
"Promise me you will never again come back into my life after you walk out. Don't call me, don't come see me and for the love of all that's holy don't ever tell me you love me again. You've hurt me for the last time Olivia. You want out? You got it. Work the case and then get the hell outta my life," Elliot yelled as he walked out of the cribs slamming the door behind him.
Olivia sat back down on the cot where she had just made love to Elliot, curling herself up into a ball and began to sob. She just continued to mumble Elliot I'm so sorry, I do love you, I'm just good enough for you anymore. You deserve better. She said it over and over until she truly started to believe it.
Elliot stormed downstairs and asked Munch and Fin if they found out anything about any males in Jenna's life. Munch and Fin could clearly see that something was bothering Elliot. They asked what it was, but he denied anything was wrong.
"Where's Liv?" Fin asked.
"Who cares," Elliot mumbled.
"What? I didn't hear you." Fin stated.
"I said I think she's upstairs, I don't actually know," Elliot responded.
Just then he saw Olivia coming down the stairs and walking toward him. She went to say something to him but he immediately walked away not giving her a chance to.
"Munch, I asked you anything on any male relatives of Jenna's?" Elliot said annoyed.
"As a matter of fact I did find something. It wasn't easy I had to go through many records while you two, pointing at Elliot and Olivia, were off doing God knows what," Munch began to explain.
"Munch! Did you find anything?" Elliot yelled.
"If you'd keep your shirt on I will explain what I found. Turns out Jenna does have a father, but he's been in prison for the past ten years. He wasn't easy to find because his last name isn't Fox. Fox, it turns out, is Annette's maiden name which she went back to after she divorced Jenna's father and he went to prison," Munch explained to his co-workers.
"What's he in prison for?" Olivia asked.
"WAS in prison for would be the correct phrase Olivia. He was release a month after Jenna…he got out…" Munch began to say but couldn't find the words.
"Jesus Christ Munch…you're trying to say he got out of prison a month after I killed Jenna right? Christ just say it, everyone here knows what I did," Olivia said stotically.
"Okay, a month after Jenna was killed her father, Hayden Davide, was released. He was at Sing Sing. Armed robbery and attempted rape. No one knows exactly where he is right now. He was a pretty model ex-con after he was released according to his parole officer, but a few months ago he began acting erratically. He started missing his weekly check-ins with his PO and has no fallen off the grid completely," Munch stated.
Running his hand down his face and sighing Elliot said, "Great so we have no idea where this psychopath is right now is that what you're saying Munch?"
"Yes, Elliot that would be what I'm saying," Munch responded.
"Okay, I want an APB out on this guy and want all of you talking to anyone who has talked to this guy since his release from prison," Cragen interjected.
"What about Elliot's protective detail?" Olivia asked.
"Yeah, I changed my mind about that, ain't happening and please don't act like you give a shit either Olivia," Elliot said to her.
He saw the hurt in her eyes at his words and felt horrible, but he couldn't help it. She had just slept with him and then dumped him again. He was sick of the games and being jerked around.
"Elliot are you sure?" Cragen asked.
"Oh I'm positive," Elliot responded.
"Elliot can I talk to you alone for a minute," Olivia asked.
"Oh sure, Liv there's nothing more I want right now then to talk to you," he said dryly walking into one of the interrogation rooms.
Olivia walked in after him closing the door behind her.
"What are you doing Elliot? You promised me you would take the protective detail," Olivia asked.
"Yeah, well you promised me you wouldn't leave me again so I guess we're even. Is that it? We have interviews to do," Elliot said in a tone Olivia had never heard him use with her before.
"Elliot you don't understand…"
Elliot cut her off stating, "Oh you got that right Olivia, I don't understand anything anymore. I don't think I want to either. I'm done with the roller coaster ride you've had me on for the last year. I have loved you, lost you, got you back and fell in love with you again. You've screwed me literally and figuratively for the last time. I'm done Olivia. Let's get back to work," Elliot said walking out of the room leaving Olivia standing there dumbfounded and shocked at how much she's actually hurt him.
Olivia walked out of the interrogation room, walking by Elliot to grab her coat.
"I'll be back in a few guys, I need some air," Olivia told them.
Elliot watched her walk toward the elevators and his heart broke. He knew he loved her and she was doing all of this out of fear and pain. He knew he couldn't let her go without a fight.
She walked to the elevators and stepped on. Just as the door was about to close Elliot jumped into the elevator.
"You here to make me feel a little more shitty than I already do?" she asked him.
"I came to apologize for the way I spoke to you. I was hurt. I still am, but I shouldn't have said some of the things I said to you. I'm sorry," Elliot stated.
They arrived at the bottom floor and they both stepped off the elevator.
"Do you wanna walk me out?" Olivia asked.
"I wanna make things right with you Olivia," Elliot replied.
"El, you need to know what happened in the cribs was not just sex. I love you. I always have, I always will. I just feel like I'm some kind of jinx right now. Jenna's dad is out there and wants to kill you because he blames me for his daughter's death. I feel like if you are away from me, you'll be safe," Olivia said trying to explain her thinking to Elliot.
Shaking his head, Elliot said, "Maybe I would be safe, maybe I wouldn't but what I do know is that I'll never truly be happy without you and if you're honest with yourself Liv, you won't be happy without me," Elliot stated.
Brining her hand to his face and stroking his cheek Olivia said, "You're right, I won't be."
She hesitantly moved closer to Elliot not sure how he would react. She was pleasantly surprised when he reached out for her grabbing her and pulling her to him. He hugged her so tightly, she thought she might break but she didn't care. She knew she came so damn close to blowing it with Elliot just a half an hour ago. She hugged him back and began to cry.
"Elliot, I would have never been able to leave you, I hope you know that. You're part of me, the best part of me. I love you," she whispered into his ear.
Cupping her face in his hands, he told her "It's gonna be okay, we're gonna get this guy okay?"
"Yeah, we'll get him. I'm gonna walk for a bit. You mind?" Olivia asked.
"No, no you go ahead. I'm gonna go get a list together of who we're interviewing. We'll start when you get back okay?"
"Yeah, we can do that," she said smiling as she kissed him and told him she loved him.
He watched as she walked down the steps of the stationhouse. About fifty yards ahead Elliot saw a man approach her with what looked like a gun. Elliot immediately ran down the steps towards Olivia, his gun drawn. He watched helplessly as the man pushed Olivia into a car. He drew his gun, planning to shoot out the tires, but couldn't get a shot off. He immediately recognized the man from Munch's picture, it was Jenna's dad Hayden Davide, and he just kidnapped Olivia.
A/N: OH NO! Okay who caught what I did with the name of Jenna's dad? I couldn't resist LOL sorry to all who still watch SVU!
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