Beth's Direction Chapter 10: Beth's Gossip, a glee fanfic

It was the week of the musical. I was a little bit nervous for my debut. I didn't look too fat in my costume. I didn't have a lot of acting experience and I hoped that I wouldn't blow it. I knew all of my Gossip Girl lines, but I wasn't sure if I had my Georgina lines down pat. I was essentially playing the villain for the play. I really hoped that I would be able to pull it off. I knew that Georgina did end up getting pregnant in the show so maybe that was why I got the part.

I decided to practice the opening number, which I was going to be singing as Gossip Girl.

Some folks like to get away, take a holiday from the neighborhood
Hop a flight to Miami Beach or to Hollywood
But I'm taking a Greyhound on the Hudson River line
I'm in a New York state of mind

I've seen all the movie stars and their fancy cars and their limousines
Been high in the Rockies under the evergreens
I know what I'm needing, I don't wanna waste more time
I'm in a New York state of mind

It was so easy living day by day
Out of touch with the rhythm and blues
But now I need a little give and take
The New York Times, The Daily News

It comes down to reality and that's fine with me cause I've let it slide
Don't care if it's Chinatown or round the riverside
I don't have any reason, left them all behind
I'm in a New York state of mind

It was so easy living day by day
Out of touch with the rhythm and blues
But now I need a little give and take
The New York Times, The Daily News

I'm just taking a Greyhound on the Hudson River line
Cause I'm in, I'm in a New York state of mind

At that Callie came in.

"So how are you, my beautiful fiancée?" She asked.

"I'm okay, but I'm feeling nervous about the play." I admitted. "I'm kind of scared that I'm going to mess my lines up."

"I can practice with you." She offered. "You are going to do fine, though. I know you'll be great."

"So how do you feel about being the lead?" I questioned.

"If I ever wanted to break into acting, this would be a good place to start." She remarked. "So are you going to be ready for the recital?"

"Yeah, Alexis and I are doing something together." I explained. "So I figured out what I'm going to be doing next semester."

"What?" She asked.

"I'm going to teach a children's ballet class and help choreograph the senior recital." I answered. "So how does your mom feel about the engagement?"

"She's the one that suggested it to me." She replied. I looked at her. "But I didn't do it for my mom. I did it because I love you."

"So, Rachel is going to be coming to town to see the recital." I stated. "I'd like to introduce you to her and I'd like to tell her about the engagement. I know I want her as a bridesmaid, but I don't know if I want her or Alexis to my maid of honor. How do we do that anyway? Are there supposed to be two sets of bridesmaids?"

"We can figure all of that out as the date draws closer." She remarked.

Tuesday was the winter recital. Alexis and I were representing the sophomore class, so it was kind of a big deal. We were dancing to an up-tempo number that was also going to be in the musical.

Hot and dangerous if you're one of us then roll with us
Cause we make the hipsters fall in love when we got our hot pants on and up
And yes of course we does we running town just like a club
And no you don't wanna mess with us got Jesus on my necklace

Got that glitter on my eyes
Stockings ripped all up the side
Looking sick and sexy-fied
So let's go oh, oh Let's go

Tonight we're going har-har-ha-ha-hard
Just like the world is our-our-our-our-ours
We're tearing it a par-par-pa-pa-part
You know we're superstars we are who we are
We're dancing like we're dumb-dumb-duh-duh-dumb
Our bodies feeling numb-numb-nuh-nuh-numb
We'll be forever young-young-ya-ya-young
You know we're superstars we are who we are

DJ turn it up-up-up-up-up
DJ turn it up-up-up-up-up
DJ turn it up-up-up-up-up
DJ turn it up-up-up-up-up

The audience clapped and I went off the stage and took some deep breaths. I was feeling hungry.

Once everything was over, I went out into the lobby to find Callie and then Rachel. My sister was dressed like a star in a designer dress. She had grown a lot stylistically, at least according to the pictures of her when she was in high school that my mom showed me.

"You were great out their Beth." She told me as she gave me a hug. "So when were you due? I want to make sure that I can be in town when you my niece is born."

"It'll be a little bit after my birthday." I answered. "So there's someone that I want you to meet. This is Callie Hayes, my fiancée."

She seemed to be a little bit surprised.

"Oh, Mom never told me that you were a lesbian." She admitted. I couldn't help but wonder how that information managed not to be transmitted.

"So are you going to stay in town for the play?" Callie asked.

"I really wasn't planning on it, but I guess I can stay a little while longer." She admitted.

"You know if you want to go back home to Jesse and the kids, that's fine." I pointed out. "I don't even have that big of a role."

"She's being modest." Callie explained. "She has the biggest role of them all. She's the voice of Gossip Girl."

"Which means I'm not really going to be on stage very much." I pointed out.

"I think I'll stay for opening night." Rachel remarked. "This is going to be a lot different than when I was in high school and I was the lead in West Side Story."

"That's the thing from Teen Beach Movie, right?" Callie asked her. Rachel just looked at her in shock.

"No, that's Wet Side Story." I corrected. "Forgive her. She didn't have any parents that taught her to appreciate Broadway."

Of course my understanding of Broadway was different than hers. I preferred stuff like Spring Awakening, Hairspray, and Shrek: the Musical. I also idolized Sutton Foster, particularly on her show Bunheads, which made me want to dance, despite the fact that I didn't wear buns often.

During the show, Callie and Anthony were onstage as Blair and Chuck performing their big duet. The song that they were singing actually originally featured the actress who played Blair.

I make them good girls go bad, I make them good girls go
Good girls go bad

I know you're type yeah you're daddy's little girl
Just take a bite let me shake up your world
Cause just one night couldn't be so wrong
I'm gonna make you lose control

She was so trapped
Till I drove her wild

I make them good girls go bad, I make them good girls go bad
You were hanging in the corner with your five best friends
You heard that I was trouble but you couldn't resist
I make them good girls go bad,I make them good girls go
Good girls go bad

I know your type, boy you're dangerous
And you're that guy I'd be stupid to trust
But just one night couldn't be so wrong
You make me wanna lose control

She was so trapped
Until I drove her wild

I make them good girls go bad
I make them good girls go bad
I was hanging in the corner with my five best friends
I heard that you were trouble but I couldn't resist
I make them good girls go bad
I make them good girls go
Good girls go bad

Oh she got a way with the boys in the place that she don't like and don't stand a chance
And he got a way with the girls in the back acting like they're too hot to dance
Oh she got a way with the boys in the place that she don't like and don't stand a chance
And he got a way with the girls in the back acting like they're too hot to dance

On Thursday, in school, I noticed that everyone seemed to be whispering whenever I walked by. I walked over to Alexis and Tim.

"Let them talk." She told me. "Remember the line from the show. You're nobody until you're talked about. This way people will know who you are."

"Besides, I happen to think that you still look great." Tim added. "I think all of these girls are jealous of you."

The following night, I prepared to head onto the stage for my first. I was wearing a blue maternity tank with a black miniskirt and blue knee socks with black flats and a blue overcoat. I had been practicing my bad girl strut backstage for when I didn't need to talk.

My scene involved really messing with Serena. We basically used to be best friends before Serena became good.

I then began my song. It didn't make a lot of sense since I was more threatening to expose her secret than one of my own.

I need another story, something to get off my chest
My life gets kind of boring, need something I can confess
Till all my sleeves are stained, from all the truth that I've said
Come by it honestly I swear, thought you saw me wink no
I've by on the brink so

Tell me what you to hear, something that'll light those ears
I'm sickened by the insincere I'm gonna give all my secrets away
This time, don't need another perfect line
Don't care if critics ever jump in live I'm gonna give all my secrets away

Got no reasons, got no shame, got no family I can blame
Just don't let me disappear I'm gonna tell you everything

Tell me what you to hear, Something that'll light those ears
I'm sickened by the insincere I'm gonna give all my secrets away
This time, don't need another perfect line
Don't care if critics ever jump in live I'm gonna give all my secrets away
All my secrets away All my secrets away

After we were done with the scene, Rhea came up to me backstage.

"You know I'm sorry for being such a bitch to about what happened with Jackson." She declared.

"You know if you want to date him, you can." I explained.

"I don't even want to date him." She admitted. "I was just looking for someone to lose my virginity to and don't worry, we used a condom and I took the pill. I'm not going to get pregnant like you. Sorry…"

"I think I'm okay with having a baby." I stated. "It's a bit earlier than I would have wanted to, but I'm excited about being a mom."

Towards the end of the show, we all went out for the big group number. It had a part for everyone to sing in it.

We could just go home right now
Or maybe we could stick around for just one more drink oh yeah
Get another bottle out,
Let's shoot the breeze and sit back down for just more drink oh yeah

Here's to us, here's to love, all the times that we messed up
Here's to you fill the glass cause the last few nights have kicked my ass
If they give you hell, tell them go screw themselves
Here's to us, here's to us

Here's to all that we kissed and to all that we missed
To the biggest mistakes that we just wouldn't drink
To us breaking out without us breaking down
To whatever's coming our way, here's to us

Here's to us, here's to love, all the times that we messed up
Here's to you, fill the glass you the last few nights have kicked my ass
If they give you hell, tell them go fuck themselves
Here's to us, here's to us, here's to us, here's to us

Here's to us, here's to love, all the times that we messed up
Here's to you fill the glass cause the last few nights have kicked my ass
If they give you tell go screw themselves
Here's to us, here's to us

Here's to us, here's to love, here's to us
Wish everybody well
Here's to us, here's to love, here's to us
Here's to us

A few weeks after the show was Christmas. Rachel brought Jesse and her kids to see us and we also invited Callie and her mother over.

Most of the presents that I got were maternity clothes because I would wait until the shower to get the other things that I needed for the baby. I had to say that I was actually glad that I would be able to eat as much as I wanted at dinner without any real consequences. Of course, I also wanted some alone time with Callie, which I was glad that I got. It was at that time that I really learned what it was like to be with a girl.

I could tell it was going to be interesting when I got back to school.

So we got to see Rachel for the first time and Beth and Callie also had sex for the first time. The songs are "New York State of Mind" by Billy Joel, "We R Who We R" by Kesha, "Good Girls Go Bad" by Cobra Starship and Leighton Meester, "Secrets" by OneRepublic and "Here's to Us" by Halestorm. Please don't forget to review.