We were at the hospital, in the room with Clara, Bill and their newborn daughter./p
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pBill was holding his daughter, he was laughing and crying at the same time. " Amelia Rose, 5 pounds'2 ounces". He smiled at the baby, Amelia was asleep with a happy look on his face. "Its true, we do carry on in our children. Look she looks exactly like me", Bill held her up proud and wide for everyone to see. Clara was asleep, with a beautiful smile on her face. Davy and Miles were just smiling and totally in awe with Amelia. "Thinking about having children Miles"?, Davy smirked./p
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p"Naa mate, though Rebecca keeps going on about it" Miles quickly assured./p
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p"So im guessing you don't want to hold her then", Bill said with a smirk on his face./p
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p"No, no ill hold her", Miles said straightaway./p
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pBill very gently put Amelia in Miles arms. Immediately Miles face lit up and an absolute awe filled up his face./p
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p"And you say you don't wanna have children", Davy lightly accused./p
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p"Shut up mate", Miles smirked "Though maybe having children might not be such a bad idea", he lightly added./p
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pLittle did they know that James was in standing next to me, a warm but sad smile upon his face./p
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p"She's beautiful", James whispered./p
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p"Aye she is", I answered./p
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p"What did you say"?, Bill asked./p
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pI took a deep breath./p
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p"James said that she's beautiful", I said carefully./p
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pAll of them looked at me, "What", they all said in unison./p
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p"James is here, he's standing next to me", I told them./p
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pMiles looked at me with utter disbelief, while Bill and Davy looked at me with amazement. "Really"?, they shouted. Amelia moved, "Shussh, you'll wake her up", Miles said in a angry but hushed tone./p
p"Cant you feel him"?, I asked./p
pAll of them paused. "I do feel him", Davy said first. "Aye me too", Bill agreed./p
p"I don't feel anything at all", Miles quickly said./p
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p"Because you don't choose too", I told Miles./p
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pJames was crying now, "How come you can see him and we can't"?. Bill asked./p
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p"Because I was the one he was closest too before he died, and I also believe too"/p
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p"Whats he saying", Davy asked with shock./p
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pJames was distraught, "Tell them, tell them I was wrong. Tell them that there is existence in life. Tell them I'm sorry for the hell I put them through. I thought there was nothing left for me, I thought that dying was the only option but now I look and it wasn't and I regret it so bad"/p
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pI couldn't keep it in any longer, I started to cry. I looked at the three of them, my voice shook. "He said that he now regrets the drowning and he's sorry that he put you through so much after that happened. "At the time, he thought there was nothing left for him but he sees now that it wasn't and he really regrets it"./p
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pMiles, Davy and Bill all had tears in their eyes./p
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pJames kept going, "Miles, I see how well you look after my sister and I'm so happy for both of you and you're going to be a great dad, Also write about us"./p
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pI looked at Miles, "He said that he knows how much you look after Rebecca and that he's happy for the both of you and that you're going to be a great dad, and too write about us". Miles, cold, heartless Miles was crying./p
pJames had a hand on his shoulder, "Its going to be fine mate"./p
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p"He's touching your shoulder right now", I tell him./p
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pMiles looks at his shoulder and touches it, "I can feel you James, Thank you and I miss you so much". Miles quivered./p
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pJames looked sadly at Miles, tears brimming in his aquamarine eyes. "Miss you too", James mumbled./p
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pJames looked at Davy, "Tell Davy he needs to keep helping people and that he needs to find his roots. His heart is so big and beautiful and I'm so thankful you were there for me that week, and that I miss him. James wrapped an arm around his back./p
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pI look at Davy, "James says that you need to keep helping people and find you're roots. He says that your heart is so big and beautiful and that he's really thankful that you were there for him that week and that he misses you"./p
pDavy's eyes were closed and tears were streaming down his face. "I can feel you James and i miss you too", Davy murmured./p
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pJames walked to Bill and put a hand in his hair. "Tell Bill that he's going to be an amazing father and that i regret now that i wont live on through my kids. So treasure her because she's absolutely beautiful and that i miss him too"/p
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pI look at Bill, "James says that you're going to be an amazing father and that he regrets that he wont live on through his kids, so treasure your daughter because she's absolutely beautiful, and he also misses you"./p
pBill is smiling with a twinkle in his eye, "I feel you James and that i miss you too"/p
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pJames walked over to the sleeping beauty in Miles's arms, he bent down and kissed her forehead. Amelia smiled."Shes special", James soothed. I then remembered something. "You know what day it is today, don't you", I asked./p
pThey all looked at one another and then realized, "Its James birthday today, 30 years old today"/p
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pJames smiled, "I have one final message for you, as its the anniversary of my birth. I now hold a morphine toast to you all", James holds an imaginary glass" and remember that you were loved by me and that you made my life a happy one and there's no tragedy in that", James smiled, whispered "Thank you" in my ear and left./p
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pI smiled, i cried, i laughed. "James has one final message for you, he says that as it is the anniversary of his birth, he holds a morphine toast to you all and remember that you were loved by him and that you made his life a happy one and there's no tragedy in that"/p
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pWe all looked at each other with shock, then we burst out laughing and we did that for a few seconds and soon after our faces twitched and we started crying. We talked about James, we talked about Amelia and we talked about the happy times in life./p
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pAnd i felt James there too, laughing and smiling and in that one moment life wasn't a tragedy. It was perfection./p
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