Chapter 10
I can't promise you anything.
Hey baby, when we are together, doing things that we love.
Every time you're near I feel like I'm in heaven, feeling high
I don't want to let go, girl.
I just need you to know girl.
"I still don't get it" Serena sighed "So you and Lance broke up?"
"Yes" Blair sighed
"But you guys were only together for a few days!"
"I know, but you miss genius –
"Wait? What did I do?"
"He asked you about me and Chuck-
"I didn't say anything!"
"No maybe not directly, but he said that he saw it in your eyes."
"Saw what?"
"That you thought Chuck and I were something more than friends" Blair rolled her eyes. "Or something,"
"Sorry" Serena said awkwardly.
"You guys just can't stop messing with my life can you?"
Serena laughed "So, have you talked to Chuck?"
"About what?"
"That you broke up with Lance"
"And why would I do that?"
"Well…"
"Serena," Blair sighed "Don't you understand that this doesn't change anything. Chuck and I are – I think – trying to be friends."
"Friends?"
"Yes! If your memory doesn't serve so long, Chuck and I were first just friends,"
"More like scheming partners – He was Nate's best friend, and you were Nate's girlfriend. Chuck really just tagged along." Serena rolled her eyes.
"What ever" Blair said and narrowed her eyes "Lets just go to your place and do something,"
"You are not afraid off running into your friend?"
"Why would I be afraid off my friends?"
Serena sighed "Okay, lets go then"
I don't wanna run away, baby you're the one I need tonight,
No promises.
Baby, now I need to hold you tight, I just wanna die in your arms
Here tonight
Chuck sighed, he wasn't doing well. He wasn't doing well at all. She'd gotten into his head again, he shouldn't be letting her get into his head. But she just did! Somehow, someway he just couldn't stay away from her. He was thrown from his thoughts when his phone went off.
Nathaniel, it read. He sighed before deciding to answer his best friend. "Hello"
"hey, man" Nate said "Are you up for some basketball or something man?"
Chuck sighed "Not really, I've got a really bad headache"
"Hangover?"
"Maybe," Chuck answered.
"Oh, okay" Nate sighed "Anyways, I take it that, you've heard about Blair?"
"What about her?" Chuck asked, curiously - No, he was defiantly not curious about Blair, he did not care about Blair. He didn't…
" - Her breakup with Lance?"
"Wait, what?" Okay, he cared.
"So you didn't know?" Nate asked
"Yes, I knew Nathaniel. That's why I'm asking" Chuck rolled his eyes "When?"
"Yesterday" Chuck smirked happily
"Chuck?" Nate asked when Chuck didn't answer
"Yes, Nathaniel?"
"You and Blair are over right?"
Chuck sighed, were they really going to have this conversation once more? "Yes, Nathaniel." He sighed "she just got out off a relationship with some other guy, didn't that tip you off?"
Nate laughed a little "yeah, I guess. But you don't … you know like her anymore or anything?"
Chuck swallowed "Why are you asking?"
Nate sighed "I don't know…"
Both boys went silent. Nate cleared his throat "Anyways… I call you later I'm going to go and run a little."
"Okay, Nathaniel" Chuck sighed
"Bye"
Chuck sighed again and threw the phone back on the table. Why was everyone messing with his head?
Hey baby, when we are together, doing things that we love.
Everytime you're near I feel like I'm in heaven, feeling high
I don't want to let go, girl.
I just need you you to know girl.
Blair sighed. She really didn't know what she was doing. Why was she running around telling people that she and Chuck were friends? They could never be friends. She sighed again, she didn't want to be friends with him. She couldn't be friends with him. She was in love with him. It was too hard for her to watch him, watch him with other girls. Or just, just watch him at all. It killed her to be near him, because she couldn't just be with him. But how do you get Chuck Bass to love you? The answer is simple; you can't. He doesn't love anybody. He is unable to love. She'd really hoped that couldn't be true… but it was the only explanation. He simply just couldn't love anyone.
She winced when her phone went off.
Spotted: C kicking two blondes out off his suite. Isn't he getting tired off threesomes yet? When do the foursomes kick in?
She scrolled down, only to find a picture off Chuck and two tall blonde girls.
She felt her stomach twist and she threw the phone on her bed, before walking towards the bathroom and closing the door, for a moment she just stood there and watched her reflect in the mirror, tears had started to run down her cheeks and ruin her perfectly maked-up face. Her eyes then trailed over her body. She studied herself from top to toe and wondered why she didn't look more like those girls in the picture? Why wasn't she tall, thin, blonde and beautiful? Why wasn't she like Serena? Why was she petite, chubby and brunette? Her eyes fluttered around the room, until they set on the porcelain toilet bowl. Petite, brunette and chubby, the words played over and over in her head until she fell on her knees beside the bowl. Chubby.
I don't wanna run away, baby you're the one I need tonight,
No promises.
Baby, now I need to hold you tight, I just wanna die in your arms
I don't want to run away, I want to stay forever, thru Time and Time..
No promises
Eleanor Waldorf – now, really Rose - had been having a really busy day, and all she wanted when she came home was just to lay down and rest. What she had not expected was what she got instead. When her phone had starting ringing, she first thought off not answering and just lying down on her bed instead and sleep. But she decided on the last minute to answer. When she finally disconnected the call. She wasn't able to move, she just stood there in the middle off the room, phone still in hand and stared at the wall in front off her. She really didn't know what she was supposed to do now. How was she supposed to deal with the news about her ex husband, that she deep down inside was still a little bit in love with. She was yanked back in reality when her current husband Cyrus Rose walked towards her with a smile on his face, it quickly disappeared when he saw his petrified wife.
"Eleanor?" He asked slowly "What's going on?"
"Harold called," She answered and looked straight into Cyrus's eyes "He has cancer."
I don't wanna run away, I don't wanna be alone
No Promises
Baby, now I need to hold you tight, now and forever my love
No promises
The news about Harold Waldorf's illness traveled fast around the Upper East Side.
"Serena" Lily said when the elevator opened and her daughter stepped inside the van der Bass penthouse.
"Yes?"
"Sit down" Lily said and Serena looked at her confused before sitting down on the couch next to her mother. "Eleanor just called me,"
"And?" Serena said tiredly "mom, I have to go study for this-
"Blair's father is sick."
Serena froze "Harold is sick?" she repeated
"He has brain cancer"
Serena was lost for words "I've… I've got to go to Blair –
"Eleanor wishes that you wont" Lily interrupted her "Blair wants to be alone."
"No, she doesn't!" Serena argued
"Serena, I know you want to go and see her, but you can't. You have to respect Eleanor's wishes."
Serena opened her mouth to object but her mother cut her off "You can go study now,"
"But mom – "
"Serena, you can talk to Blair tomorrow."
Serena stood up angry before she stormed away.
"Watch out blondie," Chuck muttered when she almost ran into him. She turned around to face him with red eyes,
"You watch out!"
"Serena?" he asked "What is wrong?"
"Like you care!"
He sighed, "I'm not sure why, but for some reason I do. What is going on?"
Serena vacillated before she decided just to tell him "Harold's had cancer"
Chuck stood there for a moment, frozen to the floor, before he turned around and almost ran out the doors.
I don't wanna run away, baby you're the one I need tonight,
No promises.
Baby, now I need to hold you tight, I just wanna die in your arms
When he arrived to the Waldorf penthouse, he didn't know what he was going to do. He just knew that he needed to see her. He had ignored all off Serena's text and calls. He didn't care what Serena had to say, he was going to see Blair. And she was going to let him.
When the elevator opened he was surprised to see Dorota cleaning the dining table. "Mister Chuck?" she said when she spotted him "You hear about Mister Waldorf?" she asked and he could see few tears in her eyes.
He simply nodded and turned his head at the stairs.
"Miss Blair doesn't want see anybody" she said and he looked back at her, "But Dorota think you should go up. Miss Blair need you Mister Chuck"
Chuck smiled at her with one off his softest smiles, he had. "Thank you" he said before he headed up the stairs. He hesitated for a moment before he opened the door to Blair's bedroom.
Blair was lying on her bed, on her right side staring at the wall in front off her with empty eyes. She didn't even move when he walked inside and closed the door. He stumbled, trying to find the right words. But what could he say? Suddenly she sat up, very very slowly and looked at him. She opened her mouth but before she could say anything, tears started running down her cheeks. "He, he has cancer" she sobbed and stood up, she almost fell but he quickly caught her before she fell and wrapped his arms around her. "I know," he whispered and slowly he moved them towards the bed and helped her lay down. She continued crying so he laid down beside her and again surrounded her with his arms. She cried harder and harder and her tears left mascara stains on his thousand dollars shirt, but he couldn't care less. He just pulled her closer to his chest and kissed the top off her head.
"My… My mom just… just told me" she cried
He didn't say anything just brushed her hair away from her tear soaked face. "He… He called… h-her … N-not me… She… She had to tell me" She whispered and clenched to his shirt.
"It's going to be okay Blair" he promised ,"He can get treated, he will get better." She looked up at him, and suddenly her lips were on his. He felt chills run down to his spine, he loved how her lips melted against her and how she fitted him so perfectly. But then her hands started tucking on his shirt, and he knew he had to stop her. "No, Blair." He whispered "You don't want his" She stayed silent but stopped, so he bent down and kissed her forehead "You are tired, you can sleep, its okay." She looked at him and saw the soft smile on his face. She then let out a last sob before burying her head into his neck. He smiled sadly and kissed the top off her head and buried his face into her beautiful chocolate curls. She slowly started to drift to sleep. She wished that she could just lay here in his arms forever, then her life would feel perfect. But they both knew he wasn't going to be there when she woke up. And she knew it would hurt, but still she just decided to savour the moment and enjoy having him next to her. Even though the moment wouldn't last forever.
I don't wanna run away, baby you're the one I need tonight,
No promises.
Baby, now I need to hold you tight, I just wanna die in your arms
Here tonight.
Song: No Promises
Artist: Shayne Ward
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Haha. So my computer came back, thank god! And I was able to finish this chapter. It took a lot off my precious time! So I would really appreciate if you could take so time to review and tell me what you thought. Because I only got one review last time, and that really sucks … It only takes you about a minute to write few words about this chapter off mine, so I hope you will (: I know it's a little short, but I have this decease called Writers Block -.- " *sighs* anyways, now my story is going to get more interesting, because in this chapter you got to see how much they really do care about each other (: I think I went a little dark on this chapter, and I tried my best to write everything right and well, but I'm a little blind on my own mistakes so there might be a few off them. Anyways, please sound off on what you think (: So much love. RainbowDust.