A/N: I Know. And I'm sorry. It's Been a while since I've posted.. This one has 3 songs. You probably know them. Probably don't. They Are: Crush- David Archuleta, The Mortician's Daughter - Black Veil Brides, and You Belong With Me - Taylor Swift. All of the lyics are there. Don't skip a song you don't know. Because the lyrics actually mean something. I Advise you to look them all up. Thank You. Enjoy(:
BPOV:
Sobbing, I made my way back to my friends. No wait.. they weren't even that. I was immediatly pulled aside by Tyler.
"Bella? Are you okay? What did Cullen do this time?" He questioned.
"Slow down. Take me home. I'm done here." I replied, wiping my eyes.
"Bella, what happened? Please tell me."
"Damnit Tyler! Take me home! Please! I don't want to talk about it!" I replied harshly.
Walking towards Tyler's car, I was sidetracked by Tanya.
"Haha. What happened? Little Swan realized she would never be enough for Edward? He doesn't like you. He never will. Didn't I tell you that at lunch the other day? Just give up already, because you're not good enough for him. You never will be." sneered Tanya.
"Yeah. Sure. Whatever. Think what you want. Go back to all your little 'friends' and make fun of me. Tell them how dumb I was to think Edward would ever want me. Laugh at me behind my back. Make fun of my clothes, my personality. The way I do my hair. Just go do it. Because no matter what, you're going to end up saying it all one way of another." I said as calmly as possible.
Running now, I decided to just call a cab. Fuck Tyler. Fuck Tanya. Fuck Edward. Fuck all of them.
"By the way Tanya," I began as the cab pulled to the curb, " you're right. But guess what? FUCK YOU!" I flipped her off.
Climbing into the cab, I allowed myself to break down.
I threw my keys onto the kitchen table. Taking the steps two at a time.. I walked into my room and slammed the door shut. Allowing the tears to fall once again, I walked to my desk and picked up my iPod.
Scrolling through the list of songs, ebery genre imaginable, I ended up listening to the playlist full of songs that remided me of my feelings for Edward. As the song "Crush" By David Archuleta filled my ears, I lie down on my bed and think about my situation.
I hung up the phone tonight.
Something happened for the first time.
Deep inside it was a rush, what a rush
Cause the possibility
That you would ever feel the same way About me, just too much, just too much
Why do I keep running from the truth?All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized And I just got to know..
Do you ever think when you're all alone. All that we can be, where this thing can go?Am I crazy or falling in love?Is it really just another crush?Do you catch a breath when I look at you?Are you holding back like the way I do?
Cause I've tried and tried to walk away But I know this crush ain't going away-ay-ay
Going away-ay-ay. Has it ever crossed your mind. When we're hanging, spending time girl? Are we just friends? Is there more? Is there more? See it's a chance we've gotta take. Cause I believe that we can make this into Something that will last, last forever, forever!
Do you ever think when you're all that we could be, where this thing could go?Am I crazy or falling in love?Is it really just another crush?Do you catch a breath when I look at you?Are you holding back like the way I do?
Cause I've tried and tried to walk away But I know this crush ain't going away-ay-ayGoing away-ay-ayWhy do I keep running from the truth?
All I ever think about is youYou got me hypnotized, so mesmerizedAnd I just got to know
Do you ever think when you're all alone. All that we could be, where this thing could go?Am I crazy or falling in love?Is it really just another crush?Do you catch a breath when I look at you?Are you holding back like the way I do?Cause I've tried and tried to walk away. But I know this crush ain't going away-ay-ayThis crush ain't going away-ay-ayGoing awayGoing away-ay-ayGoing away-ay-ay..
It isn't going away any time soon. 3 years aren't going to disappear like that. I notice that this song is so similar to my life at the moment, it isn't even that funny. Shuddering at the coincidence, I close my eyes again as the next song starts. "The Mortician's Daughter" by Black Veil Brides. Hmmmm...
I open my lungs dear
I sing this song at funerals, no rush
These lyrics heard a thousand times, just plush
A baby boy you've held so tightly
This pain it visits almost nightly
Missing hotel beds
I feel your touch
I will await dear
A patient of eternity, my crush
A universal still, no rust
No dust will ever grow on this frame
One million years, and I will say your name
I love you more than I can ever scream
We booked our flight those years ago
I said I loved you as I left you
Regrets still haunt my hollow head
But I promised you that I will see you again, again
I sit here and smile dear
I smile because I think of you and I blush
These bleeding hollow dials, this fuss
A fuss is made of miles and travel
Roadways are but stones and gravel
A bleeding heart can conquer every crutch
We booked our flight those years ago
You said you loved me as you left me
Regrets still haunt your saddened head
But I promised you I will see you
We booked our flight those years ago
I said I loved you and I left you
Regrets no longer in my head
But I promised you and now I'm home again
Again
Again
Again
Again
Again
I'm home again
..
What's with these songs? I'm going to go insane at the similarity.
'I sit here and smile dear, I smile because I think of you and I blush'.. Dead On. Correct..
Oopss here come the tears again..
Andy Sixx's voice fades into the background and Taylor Swift takes over.
You're on the phone
with your girlfriend ‒ she's upset
She's going off
about something that you said
'cause she doesn't get your humor like I do.
I'm in my room ‒ it's a typical Tuesday night.
I'm listening to the kind of music she doesn't like.
She'll never know your story like I do.
But she wears short skirts
I wear t-shirts
She's cheer captain
And I'm on the bleachers
Dreaming about the day when you wake up and find
That what you're looking for has been here the whole time.
If you could see
That I'm the one
Who understands you
Been here all along
So why can't you see
you belong with me,
You belong with me?
Walking the streets
With you and your worn out jeans
I can't help thinking
This is how it ought to be.
Laughing on a park bench
Thinking to myself
"Hey, isn't this easy?"
And you've got a smile
That could light up this whole town.
I haven't seen it in awhile
Since she brought you down.
You say you're fine -
I know you better than that.
Hey, what you doing
With a girl like that?
She wears high heels,
I wear sneakers.
She's cheer captain,
And I'm on the bleachers.
Dreaming about the day when you wake up and find
that what you're looking for has been here the whole time.
If you could see
That I'm the one
Who understands you
Been here all along
So why can't you see
you belong with me?
Standing by you
Waiting at your backdoor.
All this time
How could you not know, baby
You belong with me,
You belong with me?
[Instrumental]
Oh, I remember you were driving to my house
In the middle of the night.
I'm the one who makes you laugh
When you know you're about to cry.
I know your favorite songs,
And you tell me about your dreams.
Think I know where you belong,
Think I know it's with me.
Can't you see
That I'm the one
Who understands you?
Been here all along
So why can't you see
You belong with me?
Standing by you
Waiting at your backdoor.
All this time
How could you not know, baby,
You belong with me,
You belong with me?
You belong with me.
Have you ever thought just maybe
You belong with me?
You belong with me...
'I'm done' I tell myself. Too many similarities.. I'm going to go crazy.
Shutting off my iPod, I wish for a dreamless sleep that never comes..