Running…just keep running. BOOM! No no this can't be happening…I need to get out of here. The mess of trees should be perfect to use my 3DMG. Swinging through the trees, the wind hit my face at incredible speed, drying the tears that poured down my cheeks. BOOM, BOOM, BOOM…oh no…I turned around just in time to get caught by its mighty grasp. It was for sure going to eat me. I screamed as loud as I could, the titan just squeezing harder. Gritting my teeth, I braced for my fate. Warm liquid poured from me as the titan squeezed more. I could barely breathe, and I'm pretty sure he just ruptured all of my internal organs. Before I knew it, I fell. Staring up at the titan's face getting farther away, I hit the ground hard, blacking out on impact.

Am I dead? I groaned trying to sit up.

"Stay still." Hange? Is that you? My eyes fluttered open. Where am I? Hange stared down at me, tears in her eyes. "I'm so glad you're awake!"

"Wh…what happened?" My voice cracked, sounding raspy as hell. I lifted my bandaged hand, brushing the hair from my face.

"You got hurt. Bad." Her voice was soft, as she sat at the edge of my bed. She grasped my hand gently, holding it in hers. "I have to tell you something…I didn't want the doctors speaking to you, I figured it'd be best if I was the one that told you." I stared up at Hange confused.

"Where's Levi? Can't he tell me?" She shook her head no, a slight angered expression appearing on her face.

"We can't find Levi. I'll explain why though…" She took a deep breath before continuing, "While you were attacked by that titan, you…miscarried." Her voice was low and soft. I stared at her like she just grew a second head.

"What do you mean I miscarried? I'm not pregnant." She shook her head, a couple of tears escaping her eyes. I kept staring at her dumbfounded.

"You were pregnant. You were 8 weeks pregnant. The doctors confirmed it when we brought you back." I opened my mouth to speak, but words wouldn't form. "When Levi found out, he up and left. That was two days ago. None of us have seen him since." Tears started to form in my eyes. I was pregnant with Levi's baby…and I didn't know it? 8 weeks pregnant? How come I showed no signs?! All questions I wanted so desperately to ask, but couldn't get past the frog in my throat. Why hasn't Levi come back? Did he hate me? The tears poured down my face as Hange was now hugging me gently, rubbing my back. "I'm sure he'll come back." She whispered. "Lie down and get some rest…you need it." I nodded as she stood up, tucking me back in and leaving the room. My lip quivered again, Levi was going to come back…right?

Days past….still no Levi; only Hange and Erwin to keep my spirits somewhat up. I was finally allowed to sit up, and move around a little, but not much past that. Poor Hange had to help me in the bath constantly. I stared down at all the scars on my arms and legs from the constant fighting. It was horrifying. It was ugly. My lip began to quiver again, only this time I fought back the tears. The bedroom door swung open slowly, as Levi stepped into the room. I almost jumped up happily, until the smell hit me; the smell of alcohol. I stared at Levi as he swayed into the room, shutting the door behind him.

"Hey…" My voice was small, and quiet. His eyes never met mine as he took his jacket off, tossing it to the floor. The rest of his clothes hit the floor in a complete mess, as he made his way to the bathroom, starting a bath. I stared down at my hands confused…He didn't want to see me at all. He spent over an hour in the bath, not even saying a word to me while in there. I sat up against my pillow, clutching the blanket to my chest, waiting patiently for him to appear. When he finally did, he looked exhausted. Like he hadn't slept in god knows how long. I stared at him with a worried expression as he climbed into the bed, turning his back to me as he covered himself up. I reached over, my fingertips brushing his skin ever so slightly. He grunted, moving a bit farther away. Silently, the tears finally pushed their way down my face as I stared at Levi, completely dead asleep. Maybe he just needed rest.

The next morning wasn't any better…

"How'd you sleep?" I asked, as he shuffled around the room, putting his uniform on.

"How do you think I slept?" His voice was cold as ice. Deep, rough, and distant. I frowned as he sat on the bed, his back facing me, as he slipped on his boots.

"Levi…talk to me please….why are you being so cold?" He scoffed standing up.

"I don't know Ahna, maybe because YOU lost our baby." He growled, grabbing his green cloak, throwing it over his shoulders and striding out the door, slamming it behind him. I buried my face in my hands crying hysterically. Levi…why would you say such things? Weeks started to pass, as I was now able to move around. I bustled around, cleaning up the room that Levi kept messing up. This wasn't like him. He barely ever spoke to me, and when he did, it was get up, get dressed, or go to sleep. He was changing, and it was scaring me. He constantly came home trashed, and when he was able to slur out anything that made sense, he would blame me for miscarrying the baby. I was getting fed up with his shit.

Levi slammed the bedroom door as he entered, walking straight to his book case where he kept his most expensive bottle of scotch. It was a gift from Commander Pixis himself. He popped the top, grabbing a glass and pouring some in. I glared at him as he tossed back the drink with ease, pouring another rather full glass.

"What?" His voice was still cold as ice. I rolled my eyes.

"Drink your problems away, that's the best thing to do isn't it." He chuckled sarcastically.

"Anything to numb the pain." I scoffed as he sat in the chair, setting the scotch bottle down, pouring a 3rd glass.

"Wish I had the luxury of drinking my problems away. Oh wait, I'm an adult and handle them at face value. You on the other hand, are acting pathetic and immature." My voice began to rise. I didn't want to pick a fight with him, but he wasn't changing back to his old ways.

"Look at you acting all tough for once in your life. Why don't you get pregnant again and kill another baby." He growled. I grabbed his bottle of scotch, throwing it against the wall shattering it instantly. If looks could kill, I'd be dead a million times over with the glare coming from Levi.

"Grow up Levi. I didn't kill our baby. We had no idea I was even pregnant! That titan was crushing me…and I couldn't get out. Would you rather I had died?" He stared at me, standing up slowly so now we were nose to nose.

"Yea I do. At least I would've still loved you if that had happened." The scotch on his breath disgusted me completely as he spoke. I shook my head, tears forming in my eyes. "Go ahead Ahna, keep crying, it's all you ever do. You're always unhappy, always fucking crying. Go fucking cry elsewhere." He growled again.

"Fuck you Levi, if you think I'm going to tolerate this, you better think twice before I walk out that door, because if I leave, I swear to God I will not come back." He laughed mockingly now, nudging me toward the door.

"Go for it, I definitely don't want you here." I stood by the door in utter shock, staring at the mess he had become. He rummaged through another bookcase, finding another random bottle of alcohol, pouring himself another glass. I grabbed a couple of my belongings before walking toward the door and opening it. I looked back at Levi, his head in his hands. He was worse than a mess, he was a destroyed man. I bit my lip as the tears slid down my cheeks. Goodbye Levi. I turned and walked out the door, walking past every soldier in the Survey Corps. Hange and Erwin stared at me completely confused as I walked with a small bag over my shoulder, right out the front door. If Levi wanted me gone…so be it.

My eyes fluttered open. I had to blink a few times to adjust to the darkness. Sitting up in the bed, I stared around the room. The table had a single tea cup on it next to a book I had read the other day. My eyes scanned the entire room slowly. The bookshelves where Levi kept his alcohol, was now filled with books and different trinkets. I looked to my right at the other bookshelves and night stand…seeing only the picture of Levi and I…in a new frame? I hadn't noticed it last time…but there was a new frame around it. It was really cute, not something Levi would have picked out. Hange maybe? I picked up the frame, looking at the picture and smiling. Levi of course wasn't smiling, but staring at me in the picture as I was laughing. Erwin took the picture while we were on one of our expeditions. I bit my lip remembering how much fun that day was. As I stared at the picture, my finger felt something weird behind the frame. Turning it over, a paper was sitting out of it. Opening the back of the frame, another picture fell out and a letter. I stared confused, as I had never wrote letters to Levi. The picture was of Levi and another girl…they were each on horses. She was smiling at Levi, whose eyes looked like he was trying to avoid her. She was cute, with short light hair, the Survey Corps emblem on her jacket and the traditional green cloak wrapped around her shoulders. Who was this girl? I opened the letter, holding it towards the moonlight to read it.

Captain Levi,

I just wanted you to know how thankful I am to be one of your soldiers. I'm not trying to suck up or anything, but I love our squad so much and I'm so happy you are the captain. I couldn't imagine being anywhere else but here. My father always tells me I should marry a guy like you, or you exactly, but I keep telling him he is nuts. Hopefully he never approaches you, I would die! Thank you again also, for listening when I needed someone. You have always been there and I will forever be grateful. If I ever die could you do me a favor though? Could you not tell my father the details of what happened to me? Just make sure I am cremated and give him my ashes. I know it's an odd request, but it would make me feel better if you just agree to it. Also if I ever die, there's a lock box in my old room I want you to have. It has my mother's wedding ring in it from when she was alive and married to my father. He passed it on to me, but if I ever go before you, please give it to the girl you love. I know you never talk about it, but I know about her. More than you think. I'd like to know that if I don't get to wear it with you, at least she could. Well…before I continue rambling…see you on our expedition!

Love always,

Petra

I stared at the note surprised. So Levi had another girlfriend? I wonder what this Petra girl was like. I wonder…if he loved her like she clearly loved him.

"Enjoying the read?" Levi's voice was calm and quiet. I looked over at him as he lay on his side, staring up at me.

"Who is Petra?" I asked quietly.

"Who was Petra, you mean. She was a girl that died long before she should have." I stared at the slight pained expression in Levi's eyes.

"Did you love her?" He sat up with me, grabbing the picture and letter from me and staring at them for a moment.

"No. But I did care for her greatly. Kind of like you and Damien, except we weren't actually together." I nodded gently taking the picture and note back. I set the picture of Levi and I up on the nightstand no longer in the frame. I placed Petra's picture and note in its place, placing it on the night stand next to ours. Levi stared at me surprised. "That won't bother you?" I shook my head and giggled.

"No. She was someone important in your life, Levi. You can't just hide her like that. She seems like she was a nice girl." He nodded, pulling me down into the bed with him, holding me close.

"She was extremely nice. She makes you look mean." I giggled again, staring up at Levi. "So why are you up so late? I sighed loudly, remembering my dream.

"I dreamt about our last few months together." Levi stiffened, staring at me cautiously. "I dreamt about the miscarriage…and how you didn't come home for weeks…and how much you drank…" My voice trailed, frowning at the thoughts.

"I wasn't myself. I'm so sorry I put you through that." Levi clearly looked upset.

"I know…that's why I don't hold it against you." He relaxed a little, both of us laying quietly for a few more minutes.

"I promise I won't ever do that again, under any circumstance." I reached my hand up, gently stroking my fingers through Levi's hair.

"I know you won't." I reassured him. His gaze softened as he leaned towards me, kissing me softly.

"I hated being without you. I honestly wanted to drag you back from the Garrison the moment the papers showed up." I chuckled lightly. "I'm serious, I thought I had died and gone to hell. When you showed back up, it took everything in my power not to take you on the floor right then and there. Hange beat me to it." I giggled lightly smacking his chest.

"I probably would have let you." He smirked, kissing me again, this time deeper than before. His arms wrapped around my waist, pulling me on top of him. I leaned down, resting my upper body on his as we continued to kiss, his tongue seeking entrance into my mouth. I gave him access, letting our tongues wrestle for a while. His hands slid up my sides lightly, sending shivers down my spine. His hands continued to caress my sides gently, making me moan quietly against his lips.

"I love you Ahna, don't ever forget that." He whispered, pulling away from our kiss.

"I love you too Levi, forever and always." He smirked, flipping me onto my back as he crawled on top of me. Leaning down he kissed me softly, resting his arms on either side of my head. Our bodies were pressed tightly together as his expertly slid himself inside of me making me gasp. He thrust slowly and gently this time. My arms wrapped around his neck as he kept his steady pace, not forcing us into the rough sex we had been having. This time it was passionate, loving…sensual. He was making love to me, something Levi never does. I moaned as he thrust a little faster, both of us panting heavily while holding each other close. I could feel that familiar tingle down south yet again, though this time Levi groaned lightly as my back arched; my body pressing into him harder. We both moaned against each other's lips as we came together, both of our bodies tingling and a little damp from the sweat. Levi leaned up after a few minutes staring down at me.

"Don't ever leave me again." He pleaded quietly, making me smile.

"When did you become so damn irresistible?" He smirked kissing me.

"I'm always irresistible." I rolled my eyes as he slid off of me, turning me to face away from him before pulling me against him. His arms held me tightly, making me feel completely safe as I fell into a dreamless sleep.