"Hey everyone! So here is part 1 of next chap. I'll try to have ready part 2 for today late or if not, tomorrow . Thank SO much for your comments and for reading!

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CHAPTER 9 – 'Vive la Vida' (Part 1)

Jacob's POV

After she left I started to wander around the house, my head filled with random thoughts. I tried as hard as I could not to think about the feeling in the pit of my stomach that hinted something wrong. I decided that the best way to distract myself was a good meal. So I trudged to the kitchen and started to prepare a couple of dozen of scrambled eggs. They weren't the same as Emily's famous eggs but they'd do. Yeah that should be enough, a subconscious voice agreed.

I wonder if Leah heard voices too. Surely she wasn't as paranoid. I shook the thought away and started frying the eggs. Suddenly my mind slipped and the memory of Leah as she cooked filled my mind. She was so good at this, she would make this perfectly… Jacob, don't think about her! Come on, you big baby! the voice complained.

Desperate to clear my head I started singing 'Don't go away' by Oasis. My singing was hardly in tune as I sung as loud as I could. It was an unbearable shriek, almost an infants cry for help but I didn't care.

"Don't go away, say what you say but say that you'll stay—" I stopped abruptly realizing what the lyrics reminded me of. Jeez, everything seemed to have some kind of connection! Argh Jacob, just cook and eat already! My mind commanded me again. I obliged and when I was finished cooking I scoffed the eggs in mere seconds. A lot longer then what Emily's had lasted.

After finishing I decided the best thing to do was go to bed. Unconsciousness was probably the best way not to think about Leah and the awkwardness of our situation. I lay down in my bed and started counting sheep to fall asleep, but I soon found I couldn't. I started tossing from side to side unable to slip into the slumber I desired so much. Jeez Jacob, Leah went to the Badeys house. Nothing is wrong about that, just fall asleep! My little voice commanded. It was right, nothing was wrong about that… just that something could be wrong.

My mind started coming up with scenarios of what could happen and what I could do to prevent them. I refuted them all in the same instant. Besides, it was her life and her choice to work on a Saturday night.

There was nothing wrong with that in the slightest…. I thought turning in my bed. I couldn't interfere with her decisions and her work. Another turn. I shouldn't… no, I couldn't. I sighed in frustration and rolled over again. Could I? I stared at the wall in front of me. Maybe…

Oh what the hell! I was on my feet in a second. I grabbed a pair of pants and a t-shirt and decided against all the rational reasons to go look for her.

I left the house in such a hurry I almost broke the door when I slammed it shut. I started running in the direction her scent was lead me in. I knew I was crazy but she'd taken the car which meant she'd driven along the streets. This meant the only way to find her was to run in human form. People would get suspicious if they saw a giant wolf running through Mexico City's streets. Luckily the mixture of her citrus and woody scent was still in the air, almost intoxicating me. I didn't know why but it ached so much inside when I smelt it, as if it physically hurt me to know she was so close but not within my reach. I kept running nevertheless, turning and going straight when it was necessary. Luckily the streets were almost empty and just a few couples were present, their hands intertwined. Ugh, how much I hated love.

I focused only on my pace and speed, trying not to think of the irony of this situation. How much it resembled other situations in the past. I always seemed to be chasing after love as if I was never good enough for it and it would never chase after me. It seemed as if everything I did was wrong and I'd never be good enough to have someone like Leah. As if I never was good enough to have someone like Bella… My body shivered when I remembered the last name. I had a feeling I only shivered because I could say her name without the noise of my heart cracking this time. That was new…

Maybe I was an idiot for chasing Leah like this but it was only because she made me so happy. It had been a while since I thought of Bella last and I hadn't dreamt about her in more than two weeks. That was amazing considering I had been dreaming about her since the day we left Forks – Hell! Since the day I'd met her!

The dreams always pondered on similar topics. Topics like the time I'd kissed her in the clearing before Victoria's attack. Or when I'd told her goodbye after she'd decided to keep that hideous monster inside of her. Or maybe the worst was the day Sam had told me she'd turned into a vampire and the monster inside survived. He'd said it was a girl…

**FLASHBACK**

Leah, I smell something. Something…familiar. I cautioned her as I wandered around the woods that were close to Forks. It had been a month since we left and we missed everyone and everything. We needed to get a bit closer to our own personal hell which had once served as our home. We were too masochistic.

I-I think I'm gonna go Jake. I-I'll meet you at the border. Leah chocked and started running at an incredible speed. Why was she in such a hurry?

Leah, is everything alright?

Yes, yes. Just… I have to go. Meet you there.

In that second a huge black wolf came to my sight. Sam. It only took me a moment to remember why I couldn't listen to his thoughts; we were both alphas. And in that same moment I understood why Leah so impatient to get away from here.

Sam phased back and waited for me to do the same. As I phased I though about what I wanted to say in that split second. I was going to complain how he found me and tell him I didn't want to see him or anyone else when his rigid expression stopped me abruptly.

"Sam is everything alright?" The tone of my voice clearly stated what I was really referring to. Well, who I was referring to.

"Yes Jacob, everything is alright." He eyed me with understanding in his eyes. He couldn't tell me anything else? I was dying on the inside to know more but also too scared to ask. I held both hands to my chest in an attempt to stop the pain that was starting to emerge form every pore of my body. Taking a deep breath to work up the courage but only managing a whisper I asked; "Is… is she alive?"

"Yes, she is…" I breathe a sigh in relief, "Well, she… technically, she isn't alive ." Sam's voice said slowly. I could tell he doubted whether I could to handle the information. I couldn't.

"Oh," Was all I could say as my trembling legs gave way and I collapsed limply to the muddy ground. What happened to me then was something I'd never experienced before. I trembled and shook so hard I couldn't phase. The hole in my chest was so deep, so strong it didn't let me phase so I could rid myself of the pain.

"Jacob?!" Sam's voice sounded too distant to completely reach my intense hell. The only thing that implied that I hadn't died was the weak echo in the back of my head. It was the only thought my mind seemed to be able to conjure up. Bella's a vampire.

"Jacob! Listen to me! She is alright. It was a close one but she's fine now. Bella had her baby, her baby girl. The girls name's Renesmee and even she's perfectly fine-"

"I DON'T WANT TO HEAR IT! JUST SHUT UP, SHUT UP!" I easily found the words that were screaming to be said. I spat them out, fighting against the salty torrents of water that were running down my face. I couldn't handle it. I was going to die right there if I kept listening to this. The words and the images were sinking into my head like a million knifes stabbing my heart simultaneously. The pain was too much, too unbearable. The thought of accepting that the one I loved was a vampire was repulsive to me, almost disgusting.

"Jacob, please wait!" I didn't realize I was running away until Sam begged me to stay. But I couldn't listen, I couldn't see, I couldn't even breathe. I tried to move my legs as quickly as I could through the forest, focusing on my animal instinct in hope that I would phase. Finally, I was just so angry and devastated that the russet wolf broke free. I vowed I would never go back I would never see her like that; without the familiar blush in her cheeks, without her delicious scent. Though my heart screamed for me to turn around and run to her, I refused to give in. Not if she was a disgusting leech. For the second time that day I vowed I would never spare a thought for the repulsive monster she gave birth to. To me she never existed. She'd died along with my Bella.

**END OF FLASHBACK**

I continued running but what caught me by surprise was that Leah's scent was leading me to the town center. I clearly remembered when Leah had told me the Bradeys' was far from the town centre. That made me more anxious and I ran as fast as my legs could take me, determined to figure out the truth. I was almost all covered in sweat but I didn't care, I kept running and running concentrating on keeping my inhuman pace.

After a while the scent disappeared. Leah's scent disappeared in front of a huge bar in the main street. Vi-ve l-la V-vid… Oh well, something like that. Jeez, if they were going to make night clubs, at least name them something one could actually pronounce.

What the hell? The little voice interrupted.What would Leah be doing here? She was supposed to be taking care of those two kids! After taking a deep breath, I decided to enter the club, just to see what she could be doing here. If she was here that is. I wrinkled my nose at the strong smell of alcohol as it burned down my throat and walked inside.

As I stepped inside I noticed the blaring music and the millions of colored light rays flickering on and off as they inviting you to dance. Tons and tons of people moved on the dance floor, their bodies swaying in rhythmic beats. This place was unbelievable. But there was just one person that caught my attention. There, on one side of the large bar, stood a brunette girl with a very short dress. Irrationally, I started walking to where she was standing, as if hypnotized.

I wrinkled my nose and was surprised at what I smelt; nothing. The smell of alcohol had completely invalidated the power of my smell thus I couldn't smell anything. But I didn't care, I just continued walking like a zombie to where she stood and when I was only a foot from her, without thinking it, I whistled at her. She slowly turned around…

WHAT THE HELL?!

"Leah?!" I shouted, astonished. "What the hell are you doing here?!"

The expression on her face as she looked at me was indescribable. She looked so surprised I could have sworn she wasn't breathing.

"J-Jacob," She stuttered, unable to continue. But she was going to continue, oh yeah, she was!

"Yeah, Jacob! What are you doing here Leah? Weren't you supposed to be working?" I snapped, confused and angry over her betrayal.

She didn't answer immediately. Instead she tilted her now crimson face down to gaze at her hands, bent in thought. "Technically I am working…" she mumbled over the music.

"Oh yeah, I can see that! Where is Kath? Oh, is she the one over there dancing in the middle of the dance floor?" I said sarcastically. "Do you really think I'm that stupid?"

"No! I really am working. I mean, I'm here with-" Before she could finish a guy took the seat beside her; a little too close for my liking.

"Sorry, the bathroom was really crowded," the guy shouted through the music and grabbed Leah's hand. WHAT?

My hands began to tremble. I was a bit too shocked, too angry. Leah wouldn't meet my gaze and looked to the floor instead, ashamed. The dumb ass looked at me with a 'frightening' look. You think you look so scary, don't you? You don't know how easy I can crash you, the little voice growled. The oh-so-scary guy was a bit muscular but he was nothing more then an ant up against me. He finally noticed me.

"Hey dude, get lost. She's with me!" he interfered.

"What?!" I snapped at him, "Who the hell is he Leah?" I demanded, looking at her so intensely that she had little choice but to meet my furious eyes. Her eyes were filled with a sorrow I couldn't understand. I was so angry, so jealous that my mind could be lying to me without me knowing.

"Chill out, she is with me!" Mr. Idiot repeated again, with a capitol 'I'. Oh, he was really getting on my nerves.

"Well, he is sort of my job. He is the Badeys' son; Max. I needed to look after him tonight." Leah murmured under her breath, too low for a human to hear. She was kidding me, wasn't she?

"So you do think I'm stupid!" I laughed bitterly. Now the tremble started to spread through my arms, but I managed to control it breathing deeply.

"Jacob Idon't think that, I just-"

"What? Jacob who? You know this guy?" The M-ass guy cut her off. Leah looked between the both of us.

"Yes, she knows me! Can you get lost already?" I snapped at the guy, irrationally. My mind was screaming for me to take her out of there, take her home with me. Home where she would always be safe, where she would always be loved. But I couldn't listen to it. She'd lied to me, she'd hurt me.

The M-ass guy was going to shout a come back at me but Leah restrained him, putting a hand on his chest. "Max, do you mind getting me tequila shot?" she suggested, eyeing him attentively.

He looked like he was going to complain when she interrupted again. "Please, Max?" Leah's eyes were as pleading as a puppy's. He nodded unwillingly and after shooting me another 'frightening look' he walk away.

"Tequila shots?" I snapped, arching an eyebrow. "Since when do you drink, Leah?"

"Since I want to drink, Jacob. Really why are you so pissed? Why do you even care? It's my life!" she shrieked, pointing to herself madly. But in her eyes I could see deep down the sorrow that overcame her so easily. I could see how her eyes silently pleaded for me to answer that question. Why do I care? Because I care about you, because I'll always protect you no matter what. Because I could just rip that M-guys head off for simply touching your hand. Because… because I think I'm falling in love with you, you silly girl! I spoke the answer to her question through my eyes but I kept my eyes locked on the ground. I didn't want her to see it though. Not after what had happened. Though I could see how she really was faking this bitter and careless Leah, she wasn't going to slip up and let me see behind her careless mask. So I wasn't going to show her either. She wanted to play the tough one? I would play along with her little game, after all… what harm could it do?