Diary of a Rogue

Chapter 10

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Gambit sighed as he turned to the last page, his head swimming with everything he'd learned so far.

May 3, 11:00 am

Dear Diary,

Prof. Xavier is sending a few of us on a low key mission for a few days, I leave tonight with Logan, Storm and Cyclops. It's a simple mission just checking up on a few younger mutants whom decided not to join the team, but were still promised by Prof. Xavier that we would be there for them no matter what. You just can't not respect Prof. Xavier for that.

Despite how simple this mission is it couldn't have come at a worse time. I finally get up the nerve to talk to Remy about how I feel and of course every time I try to talk to him something comes up. Urgh, story of my life, right?

Oh well, I guess if it's meant to be it'll work itself out right? I mean I know he has some feelings for me, whether it's just lust or not is still lost on me but I guess I should just be thankful he even knows I exist after the way I've been acting around him recently. It still amazes me that he's put up with it for so long. I guess a part of me hopes that means he cares, maybe even….loves me.

Wow, never thought I'd ever say that. My naivety knows no bounds apparently. I guess we're all entitled to a few childish dreams every now and then right? I just hope this particular dream doesn't come back to bite me in the ass. Maybe….

May 3, 1:00 pm

Sorry about that, I got called down to the Professor's office for a last minute meeting on our mission. We leave in a few hours for Boston and then Florida. I'm kinda looking forward to the warm weather. Maybe if I'm lucky I'll get a few hours on the beach to work on my tan. God only knows how bad I need one. Lol. I wonder what Remy would think if I had a tan…..omg! Knock it off.

You know if I stop to really think about everything, I can actually pick out moments since I've met him, that I've chosen a way to dress of something to do or a way I look based on what I think he'll like. For example, back when I graduated and we had that summer party, that bikini I wore, I actually bought knowing or at least hoping he would like it. I'm assuming based on his really stupid move that day he did.

I even changed my hair and the way I wear my make up. All based on an off handed comment he made when he was flirting with me one day. Pathetic I know but I just can't seem to help it.

You know I bet if he were to read any of this his ego would be unbearable. It's like if he found out I would be at his stupid mercy. He'd never let me off the hook if he found out how charming and handsome and suave and sophisticated and gorgeous I really think he is.

Urgh! Stupid teenage angst!

Oh well, I've gotta get packing before they leave without me. At least I'll have some time to think about what I'm going to say to Remy. I really hope I don't sound ridiculously stupid.

Gambit closed the diary in his hands and stood from the bed. He then turned back to the bed and pushed the diary back under the mattress. Without second thought he turned on his heels and walked toward the door preparing to sneak back out. However, as he rested his hand on the doorknob he found himself stuck, a thought striking him like a heavy blow to the skull.

Gambit turned back and walked to the bed, pulling the diary back out from between the mattress and box spring. He looked over the cover of the book, running his fingers over the soft leather, before slipping it into the inside pocket of his trench coat and slipping out of the room without second thought.

A Few Days Later.

"This can't be happening." Rogue murmured to herself as she ran her hands between the mattress and box spring. She was sure she had slipped it back under here before she left a few days before, so where could it be. This diary was the one thing she never misplaced. There had to be a reasonable explanation for this. Maybe it just got pushed further under then usual. Carefully, Rogue lifted one side of the mattress allowing herself a full view under the mattress. It was clearly not here.

Panic began to set in as she tired to come up with some scenario that would explain the missing book. Unfortunately for her, the scenarios just seemed to make her feel worse. The only thing she could come up with was that someone had taken it. But who? No one even knew she had one, not even Kitty and she shared a room with her for over two years.

"Oh god, what if Remy has it?" she panicked as she spoke to herself.

"What if Remy 'as what, mon cherie?" Gambit's voice sounded behind her, she jumped, startled as she whipped around to the open balcony doors.

"Oh my god, yah scared meh sugah." Rogue said holding her chest as if to catch her breath.

"Remy sorry Chere, didn' mean t' scare yo'." Gambit explained stepping farther into the room.

"It's ok." she replied a small smile on her face. She was completely oblivious to the smirk that grew on his face.

"Yo' seem little upset petite, every'in' alright?" he asked as he walked over and set himself on the edge of her bed. She shook her head absently as she continued to look around.

"Yea, Ah'm fine darlin' Ah just seemed tah have misplaced something'." she explained never looking up at him. His smirk grew knowingly.

"Well 'dat's non good." he replied simply. "Anyt'in' ol' Remy can 'elp yo' wit'?" he asked nonchalantly. Rogue shook her head.

"No, thanks though." she replied still not looking over at him.

Gambit watched her, his smirk falling a little at the lack of attention being paid toward him. Well if she wasn't going to pay attention, he would just have to give her a better reason to.

Gambit stretched for a moment, before moving to lean back against the head board of her bed. He propped his feet up and got comfortable, still aware that she wasn't watching him. He then reached into his trench coat and pulled out the object he had no doubt she was looking for.

Gambit opened the book, pretending to read what he'd already read all the while watching Rogue out of the corner of his eye. He watched amused as she shuffled through books, papers and folders on her desk. Rogue finally sighed in exasperation and scratched her head turning around a moment later. She stretched before looking over to the bed where Gambit was lounging out.

Rogue froze in her tracks as she observed what he was holding. "Oh no. no, no, no, no, no." she recited in her head as she watched Gambit. She could feel the anxiety wash over her as said man looked up at her a mischievous glint in his eye.

"Swamp rat?" she questioned trying to keep herself calm. He looked at her in mock question.

"Yes mon cherie?" he replied. She took a deep breath, walking forward slowly.

"What are yah reading'?" she asked as she neared the best.

"What, yo' mean 'dis 'ere book? Well Remy don' know quite fo' sure, mais it would appear t' be a diary o' some sort." he explained as if it were no big deal. Rogue could feel her body begin to shake.

"Remy, Ah've nev'a asked yah fo' anythin' before in mah life, but Ah'm askin' now. Please tell meh that's not mah diary." Rogue said as she stopped next to the bed despite knowing very well whose it was. Gambit looked up at her an infuriatingly sexy smirk placed firmly on his face.

"What's wrong petite? 'fraid Ol' Remy might find out jus' 'ow much yo' enjoy 'is French lessons. O' maybe yo' just don' want 'im t' know what an effect 'dis ol' cajun 'as on such a naïve young femme." Gambit finally replied. He'd never seen her face turn so white.

"Oh god." she said turning away from him quickly. She put her hand to her mouth and the other on her stomach. "Ah think Ah'm gonna be sick." she said as she ran for the bathroom. Gambit watched after her amused as she slammed the bathroom door behind her. When he was sure she was gone, he took the opportunity to put part two of his plan into motion.

Rogue emerged from the bathroom about twenty minutes later, now dressed in her pajamas and praying that Gambit had already left. She peaked her head out into the bedroom and found him nowhere in sight. She sighed to herself relieved.

Rogue stepped out of the bathroom and into her bedroom, walking over to the bed where she found her diary sitting on her pillow. She picked up the book, running her hands over the soft leather. She took a deep breath trying to calm her frazzled nerves before her breath was stolen from her when she felt someone press up against her back. Her diary fell from her hands landing on the bed in front of her.

Gambit watched Rogue intently as she stepped out of the bathroom. It was quite evident to him that he had jangled her nerves considerably. He smirked to himself. The exact effect he had hoped to have on her.

Gambit waited until Rogue was standing next to her bed before he crept up on her. He watched her as she ran her fingers over the leather of the book he'd left on the bed. He wasted little time before stepping up behind her pressing as close to her as he could. He smirked as she stiffened at his touch, the leather book dropping from her hands.

"Yo' skin so much softer 'den 'dat old book." Gambit whispered as he ran his hands over the exposed skin of her shoulders and arms. She forced herself not to shudder as she enjoyed the feel of his calloused hands against her soft skin.

"Remy." she moaned as he leaned forward and kissed the juncture between her shoulder and neck. He wrapped his arms around her pulling her as close to him as he could. He then trailed kisses up the side of her neck, stopping just below her ear.

"One." he whispered softly, before kissing behind her ear and back down to her shoulder. Before she could reply, Gambit gently turned her around to face him, sliding his arms around her small body to keep her held against him. Gambit then leaned down and continued his trail of kisses from her shoulder and up her neck. He pulled his head back to look her in the eyes before leaning forward and capturing her lips with his.

"Oh my god." she thought to herself barely able to function as his warm lips soothed her into a passionate kiss. She moaned as his hands roamed her back sliding up under the fabric of her shirt to touch her skin beneath. Slowly Rogue ran her hands up Gambit's chest, eventually coming to rest them around his neck.

Finally, unable to breath, Gambit pulled away, both of them gasping for breath.

"Two." he breathed trying to catch his breath. Rogue looked up into his demon like eyes her brain trying to process what he was trying to tell her. It was then that it dawned on her. She starred up at him as everything sunk in.

He looked down at her noticing the smile growing on her face. He could soon hear a light chuckle emanating from her chest before it slowly turned into a light happy laugh. She leaned up as she laughed pulling him to her in a hug. She pulled back a few minutes later.

"And let me guess, yah hopin' tah reach number three." she said a suspicious look on her face. He smiled at her goofily.

"Well, honestly, Remy non holdin' his breath, mais he non against 'da idea." Gambit replied wiggling his eyebrows suggestively. She laughed again, laying her head on his chest.

"Horny swamp rat." she murmured holding him closer. Gambit smirked reaching down and picking her up. She squealed in surprise as he threw her back on the bed. He climbed on top of her, attacking her neck as he pinned her to the bed. Rogue laughed and squealed as his goatee tickled her. "Ok, ok, Ah give." she said through her laughs. Gambit smirked, kissing the juncture of her neck. He chuckled as he rolled them over so they were lying on their sides facing each other.

Gambit looked into her eyes and smiled lightly. She smiled back.

"Yo' see mon cherie. 'Dere's non reason t' hold back wit' Remy. Yo' 'da only one he eva' want t' be wit'." Gambit said. Rogue looked at him her smile widening.

"Ah'm glad tah hear that sugah." she replied. "But Ah'm still not sleepin' with yah tonight."

Gambit looked at her feigning disappointment.

"Bummer." he finally said a hint of humor in his voice. She laughed shifting to get more comfortable. She reached under her, pulling her diary out from underneath her. Gambit smirked taking it from her. He looked it over then looked at her. "So, Remy t'ink we should 'ave a little talk. Maybe somet'in' long 'da lines a Remy's unnaturally long, gorgeous eyelashes or his magnificent eyes." he said wiggling his eyebrows suggestively.

Rogue blushed a deep shade of red as she buried her head in the pillow.

"Oh or better yet, let's talk 'bout Remy's sexy accent. He hear from a reliable source 'dat his Roguey a sucker fo' accents." he held back his laughter as he heard her groan into the pillow. "An' a course Remy be mo' 'den 'appy t' teach yo' some mo' inappropriate phrases."

Without warning, Rogue sat up taking the pillow she was lying on with her and hitting him with it. "Stupid swamp rat." she grumbled humorously as she hit him repeatedly. Smirking in return, Gambit caught the pillow as she swung it and then tackled her to the bed, both laughing the entire time.

A/N: Chapter 10 done. And so ends our story. Please review!

-RED