Ok, so it's been a while. But a friend of mine wanted to know what happened to Paul and Jamie. So this part is dedicated to her. It's actually even going to turn into another plot line all it's own. The first part isn't really too important to the plot, but the end of the chapter is.
Also, for the first part I'm going to rate it as a tad bit R (not really T but not really M) But after that, at least for a while, it will stay T. ((This chapter has been slightly updated.))
To say Paul was perfect would be an understatement. The way he looked at me they way he made me feel when I was in his arms, there was no comparison. We were engaged. Unfortunately, I was only 17, and my mother, even completely understanding our bond, made me promise to wait until I was 18 to be married. Silly, I know. There was no possible way that I would ever find anyone else.
"What are you thinking about?" A strong, but gental voice that had me in his large arms whispered in my ear. When he spoke, I swear even after a year, my heart skipped a beat. My face reddened as embarrassment washed over my face.
"What am I always thinking about?" He looked at me with questioning eyes. Come on, like he didn't know. I rolled my eyes. Looking down First beach into the sunset, I tired to focus on anything so he couldn't see my eyes. "Oh, you know, just some boy that I kinda pretty much love." I paused for a second. "You know, Kim is one lucky girl. Jared's basically a hottie." I sighed. "Think, umm, maybe he'd…well you know…go out with me sometime?" I tried to make my voice sound like I really did want Jared, but it was hard. He was nothing next to my Paul. I tried not to laugh.
From behind me, I felt him tense and let out a growl. I couldn't hold in my laugh anymore. I picked up his hand and kissed it. Entwining our hands, I kissed them once more and breathed. "Perfect fit." Looking up at his face, trying to read his expression, I could tell that even though it was a joke, I'd hurt him ever so slightly. I looked into his eyes. "You, Paul. Always you." I smiled, and press my lips to his, parting his lips with my tongue. His tension shifted from worry to passion.
This was the best feeling in the whole world. It was just me, him, and the most beautiful sunset I'd ever seen. Slowly, as not to break the kiss, I turned in his arms putting on leg on either side of him. Both of my hands locked into his beautiful hair. This kiss was different than all the other ones. How, I wasn't sure yet, but I knew it was different. Slowly he layed in the sand, my hands not letting go. He moved his lips from mine and moved to the soft spot below my ear. To say it felt good, that too would be an understatement. I moved my right hand to his, already bare chest.
It suddenly dawned on my why this kiss felt different. This would be our last night together for a long while. I was also pretty sure, that if either of us had anything to say about it, kissing would in fact, right here on this beach lead to something much more. As he kissed me, I became nervous. Really nervous. Actually to be quite honest I thought I may puke. But I wasn't going to let him know that.
From the edge of the woods I hear someone clear their throat. You have got be kidding me!
"Jamie, dear, if you would, could you please get off of Paul." I looked up. Standing in front of me was Kellie, and Emily. Crap. My face went so red, I'm pretty sure it would never go back to it's original color. I stood slowly, pulling Paul up with me. He placed himself perfectly behind me…and I could tell why. My face was still beat red, and Paul being right behind me didn't help. Emily, and Kellie were walking closer.
"Sorry dear, but you're Sam and your father…um…Jacob, I mean, are calling a meeting soon, and it'd be best if, well you weren't like, well, that." Kellie smiled as she softly spoke the words.
"Umm, thanks. I like Paul, and well, having Jacob kill him, that would, well, be….hmm…really bad…" I smiled, still in complete embarrassment. Knowing Paul couldn't move from behind me, as a unit, we slowly walked towards the woods.
Once we were concealed by the forest, I turned and looked him in the eyes. "I'm really, Really, sorry that happened. I honestly have no clue what came over me." My eyes were pleading for him to forgive me. Though, we both knew I'd done nothing wrong.
"This." He paused, and I completely understood. "Is not your fault, not at all. I mean possibly it's Jakes fault for having such a beautiful daughter. Or hell, maybe it's my fault for neglecting…umm…things." This time it was his faced that reddened, then turn to confusion as I looked up at him in shock. "Come on. I mean you're beautiful, and when you're away…" He didn't know how to finish that sentence without grossing me out.
"Well, so I mean…we could go take care of it…" My voice trailed off at the end. This time he looked at me shocked.
"No." Was all he said. I could tell my facial expression was hurt. To this he smiled, and I felt my eyes begin to water. I looked down at my feet. He didn't want me. He may have been my imprint, but he didn't want me like that. I felt his warm hand pull my chin up, so he could look into my eyes. "You silly over sensitive girl." He paused. "Jake is going to call a meeting, and soon. Your first time, well, it should be more special than some quickie for your boyfriend to get down." He smiled that perfect smile at me, and the words made me melt inside. I stood on my toes and pressed my lips to his and he pulled slightly away. "Love you, Jamie, but that may not be the best idea right now…" There was a long pause between us. "I should go, take care of myself, before the meeting."
Nodding, I reached up and gave him one last kiss. "I love you, Paul."
He smiled, "You say that, but wait until you see Jared." He ran off into the woods, towards his house.
Sitting on a nearby rock, I couldn't believe how much I already missed him. I'm not a gushy girl or anything, I knew this time he'd be back for the meeting. But the summer was over, and so was my visit to La Push. Tomorrow, I was flying back home, to be with the Cullens, for my senior year of high school. I missed them, I mean other than that stance with Leah and Ali, I'd never been away from home for so long. Though now the word "home" seemed wrong. Paul felt like home, and I was leaving him behind.
Standing, I began to trudge toward the beach. I have no idea what look was on my face, but I'm sure it wasn't a pleasant one. I began to make the climb to our meeting spot on the ledge. I could hear Kellie and Emily talking as they walked up the trail. I wanted to be alone, so I decided to just climb right up the rock face. I'd done it a few times before. It wasn't difficult. Hell, I even beat Kellie and Emily. Though, once they reached the top, I wish I had waited for some of the guys to show before I had.
Emily walked over towards me, and I flet my face automatically flush. "Dear, it's nothing to be embarrassed about, really. The love you share, the passion, and the need we understand." She smiled at me.
"If you could, not tell my Jacob about this, that would be super." I looked into Kellie's eyes pleading.
"I would never." She paused for a brief second, and bit her bottom lip. "But you do know that he will find out... God, save us all, but Paul, he's always thinking about you, and it's going to come…up." My face, though I thought it was already bright red, had somehow gotten redder. I honestly hadn't thought about that. Jacob would find out. Then so would my father. I'd never be allowed here again.
"He'd understand right? I mean, I'm a teenager, and it's not like its some random guy. It's Paul, my Paul. I mean, we're going to get married as soon as we can…" I began to ramble, I couldn't help it. Was it getting hot up here? Was it just me? I then stood, and turned towards the cliff. I needed to cool off. A quick dip in the cold water always made me feel better."If you ladies would excuse me."
Without looking back I ran full speed to the edge of the clif. I went to jump, as I had many times this summer , but unforunately because I wasn't at all as gracefully as the other wolves, thanks mom, I tripped over a large stone I hadn't seen. With the speed I'd been running, I'd cleared most of the rock face. Most of being the key words there. I hit the jagged ones down at the bottom. I heard a crunch, and I screamed, not only out of pain, but mostly out of pure shock. Looking back up, I saw Kellie leaning over as fas as she could screaming something I couldn't hear. Soon, the pain of being thrashed into the rocks became rythmic, and soon enough my world went black.
Did you like it? Hate it? Do let me know. ((Didn't mean for it to sound like she forgot about the Cullens. She's only staying with Jake for the summer, but is planning on going back with the Cullens.))