Chapter 10 – Waking up
Johanna's POV
Bull shit, bull shit, BULL SHIT.
Stupid rebel!
I feel how his knife finds mi back.
It is not a real weapon, then why the hell I feel like if someone was burning my back!
The pain wets worse, all the world is fading and nothing makes sense anymore, all I can feel is the bloody pain.
I am now on the floor, I can't get up, it hurts too much. I groan of pain. What is happening? I try to breath but I can't, it hurts too much. I am feeling desperate.
Why I can't breathe? Please someone help me!
I open my eyes, I think that someone is near.
"I can't breath…" I whisper, and everything turns black. I am so dead.
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I try to open my eyes, I can´t. Where I am? There is no pain anymore. I'm dead? No way, I can't be dead.
Or am I?
What a perfect irony, I survived two Hunger Games, a rebellion war and now I am dead because of a Simulator? No way!
I try again to open my eyes and finally I see something that isn't the darkness, what is this place?
I stand up and admire. This is a forest, the most beautiful forest in the world, this looks like home…
"Hi there troublemaker" I turn around, that voice is so familiar…
"Dad?" I almost do not recognize him, he is so young, fresh and clean.
"It has been a long time Johanna" His arms are wide open, I run to hug him.
"Dad…" Good lord, I am crying, I am really crying! His chest is warm, just as it was. Wait. Wait a second. My father is dead. This means I am dead too?
"Am I dead dad?" the question gets out of my lips, I close my eyes for the answer. I am so dead.
He realizes me from his hug and looks me in the eyes "No my dear, you are not dead"
What? If am no dead, the why is he with me? "I am dreaming…"
"No Johanna, you are no dead and you are not dreaming. You had an accident that got you pretty bad, I am here to be with you while you wake up." He sounds so confident, could this be truth?
"I don't want to wake up…"
"Johanna, you have still much to live, all you have to do is open your heart, you don't have to show your strong face anymore."
"Since you and mom were gone…" I start, but he interrupts me.
"Johanna, listen to me and listen very carefully. None of what happened was your fault, you don't have to punish yourself."
"Yes it was! I should've never said no to President Snow, you paid for my mistake." Tears are falling down my face, guilt is now the sea in which I drawn.
"Honey, you did what it was the right thing to do. I am proud that you said no to prostitute yourself to the Game Makers"
"But- but- that cost your life…"
"Sweetheart, I am proud to say that my son is a fighter and if your freedom cost my life do not doubt that I would give my life for you again."
I see into my father's eyes, I missed him so much…
"I love you Dad…" I cry
"We love you more Johanna" he hugs me tightly "Come sweetie, let's take a walk" I take his hand and we start walking through the forest, I was right, this is home.
I don't know for how long we have been walking, all I can do is admire the greatness of the forest, the smell of pine and wood. I have no longer track of time, I am lost in this paradise.
"Johanna, please give yourself a chance to be happy, you have still a long way to walk and I don't want you to do it alone." I roll down my face, I don't want any more friends, it hurts so much when they die. Finnick…
"I won't do that Dad, we are still in war and I don't want to lose a friend again…"
"Johanna… do not be afraid of death, everyone will die someday, the point of living is to love those around you and under the present circumstances, is to fight for the safety of those who you love."
"I have no one left… You are gone, Finnick is dead, Katniss is in her District very far away and well… I liked Annie and everything, but she was never that deep in friendship with me…"
"Johanna, give the ones around you a chance to be your friends, just as you did that with Finnick and Katniss." I rise my head to look at him, my dad smiles and the forest behind us begins to disappear. "Your mother and I are so proud of you, keep fighting for what you believe in and remember to open your heart."
"Come on Johanna, I now you can do this, you are strong, you are a fighter… please wake up" that voice sounds so clear and near, but there is no one here besides my father.
"It is time my dear" what? No!
"Father no, please stay with me…" The light and my father are beginning to fade and darkness replaces all.
"We are always with you" He is gone, I am alone.
"Please Johanna, wake up, I now you can do it, come back to us…" that voice… it is so familiar…
I try to fight against the darkness. Where is that voice coming from?
Wait a second, I feel that someone takes mi hand. I grab the hand and do a last fight to open my eyes… and I succeed.
Please REVIEW! I feel so alone if no one tells me what they are thinking about my story… So, I gave you Johanna's first POV, what do you think about it? Do you love it, hate it? Please review and tell me your opinions and wishes for my story. Thank you for reading, Gabriela.