Chapter Ten
A/N: I love fight scenes! They are fun to write.
I don't own Castle or Fix You (my twin sis Nik and I are saving up though ;) )
~Rose
"And ignite your bones"
Castle:
The look in her eyes made it hard for me to not grab her and kiss her. "Kate," I said softly, using her first name.
"Castle?"
It was one of those few times in my life when I couldn't think of something to say. "Can I come in?"
She looked hesitant bur finally mumbled, "Fine."
She clearly wasn't impressed that I was there. I didn't blame her considering the last time I saw her she was in the hospital and we had been fighting about her mother's case. I had told her to leave it alone and now I was the one who had been meddling with it.
After a few moments of silence Beckett finally turned to me and asked, "Where the hell were you Castle and what are you doing here now?"
I couldn't tell her the truth; she'd kill me. "I had to get away," I lied, "I couldn't stand it around here."
"And you didn't think to call?"
"I got the impression you didn't want to talk to me." I had seen this fight coming but I was far from ready for it.
"You just left Castle. You didn't even say goodbye." She looked hurt. Angry I had expected, but not hurt.
"I'm sorry."
"You think you can keep doing this Castle? You screw up then say you're sorry and expect everything to be okay. You leave then come back and expect me to act like you never left. I'm sick of it Rick."
I didn't know what I could say that would make her forgive me. She was rightfully pissed and anything I would say would just dig me further into a hole. "Kate—"
"Just stop Castle. You left, it was your choice; I don't care."
Hearing those words stung. I didn't know what made me do it, but before I could even think about it, I said the only honest thing since I got here. "I only left to protect you."
Beckett:
I had been right. He had left to protect me which could only mean one thing: he was working on my mother's case behind my back. The words I said three years ago when he first tried to reopen my mother's case came flooding back to me. "You touch my mom's case and you and I are done," I had said. I was so angry that he had dove into my personal business, yet without him I never would have found Coonan. He had been helpful with her case in the past, but now he had no business digging into it. Especially after he had told me to leave it alone. According to him I wasn't allowed to work on it, but he was; how was that not hypocritical? "Castle you better tell me the truth," I threatened, "have you been working on my mom's case?"
He looked like he was about to shake his head but I gave him a look and he softly said, "Yes."
"How could you Castle? You told me I wasn't allowed near it and now you're up and leaving your family to work on it. I want the bastard caught Castle but you shouldn't be the one to catch him."
"Is that what this is about?" he snapped.
"What?"
"You have to be the one to catch him have you ever thought that maybe it would be better if someone else tried to solve it because you're too close to it?"
"You're not a cop Castle! You have no right to try to solve this!"
"I may not be a cop but I know more about it then any cop other than you."
"Why are you doing this Castle?"
"Because those victims deserve justice and because I care about you."
I was half hoping when I asked that question that he would say it was because he loved me, but he didn't. I was pushing him away just like I had pushed away every other guy who had ever cared about me. I had pushed away Will when I said I wouldn't go to Boston with him. I had pushed away Tom and Josh when I realized what I felt for Castle. And now I was pushing away Castle too. "Don't."
"Don't what?" he demanded.
"Don't care about me."
"I will never stop caring."
"Just go."
He left slamming the door like a twelve year old. I watched him leave, angry tears stinging my eyes.