A/N: Yay, I got a chapter out before new year's! Ok, I just have to say something. I understand that everyone is hating Edward right now, and for a good reason. But I ask of you, don't let your anger blind you. Really read what Edward is thinking about and how he feels. Because he has his reasons, he's not being an asshole just for the fun of it!

Ok well now that I got that out of my chest, here's some replies to reviews:

melissamary55: Yeah I know he's being stupid right now, but give him another chance ;)

AliciaCullenLove: Ugh I know right, Tanya disgusts me. I hate writing about her!

benna: Very selfish unfortunately =(

bookworm4evr: Haha, well I'm glad this story infuriates you, well kind of. It means you'll keep following! =) . And I'm not going to answer your questions yet, that would just ruin the story =P

TWIHARDalltheway: Awww don't worry, Bella's a tough cookie ;)

Sunflower2009: Thank you for your review, it was very perceptive. Yes, these are stupid teenagers. When you're in high school, you think the school and the students' opinion is all that matters in the world. Specially if you're in the popular crowd. But don't you worry, Edward's eyes will be forced to be opened very soon.

Jjxjx: OMG yes! Lol. Thank you and here's your chapter!

chanahope: Hmmm what would you want Edward's punishment to be? Should Bella kick his ass? ;)

pmk kelly: I'm glad that I could portray Bella's pain realistically. Judging by your review and all the others, I really succeeded. Like I said, I used my own experiences when I wrote that, and although it was painful for me to do, I'm happy it paid off.

lissM: Don't worry, Alice won't be able to stay quiet for much longer! She's a feisty one ;)

rocklesson86: Thank you. And yes, he is dumb.

kalgirl30: Yeah, I know right. He doesn't really love Tanya, just stays with her for comfort. Don't worry though, things are about to change… ;)

lauren cameron: Thank you and here's your update!

Gillis6: Thank you and here you go!

kaiwi10: I know =( . Don't worry though, she'll pull through!

sujari6: Lol, yes he is.

pinkygirl123: I updated, yay! =)

ADADancer: (Don't want to sound like a lame TV-presenter, but) here's what happens next… =)

I Loves Emmett Cullen: OF COURSE OF COURSE OF COURSE OF COURSE I WILL MAKE MOOOOOOOORE! =D

XxI heart Jasper and AlecxX: No need to be excused, this story has bad language anyway ;) . And NOOOOOOO, nothing has ended! This story will keep on going!

PatchsFallenAngel: Yeah it's hella frustrating! But when I think about it, a story with just pure fluff from the beginning to the end could not hold my interest as a reader. So I'm just trying to keep you all interested =) . Plus sometimes I feel like this story is not even in my hands, my characters "talk" to me and I just write it down. Wow, that sounds crazy. Don't have me instituted! Lol =D

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zdra8351: Well you will find out in this chapter!

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ammNIwriter: Thank you. And lucky for you, you didn't have to wait long to get more! =)

Koukla0223: Whaaat, Edward being an arrogant prick is sexy, nooooo! =P . Of course it is! Emily was Bella's best friend when they were kids. They weren't related, but they were really close. Emily practically lived with Bella and her family, because Emily's mother had a drinking problem. I'm not going to answer your other question, because it would ruin the suspense =P . You will get your answer when all is revealed about what happened to them. Which wont be very soon, sorry =P

Disclaimer: Twilight and all of it's characters belong to Stephanie Meyer. I do however own the plot and the storyline of this story, so no copying without my permission.

Ok, here we go!

Chapter 10

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BPOV

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A week had passed and nothing had really happened between Edward and me.

Most of the time we would just avoid each other like the plague. When we had to be near each other, we would pretend that the other one didn't exist.

I had stuck to my mantra, telling myself over and over again that I didn't care. But unfortunately, I would slip every now and then.

There were a few times a day when I would catch myself just staring at him. Either just appraising his good looks, or being caught up in memories of our kiss. I would shake myself off of it as soon as I realized what I was doing though.

The funny thing was, I would catch him staring at me too. As soon as I would notice and give him a "what the fuck you looking at"- look, he would turn his head away quickly. Sometimes he would look angry after I caught him, but sometimes he just looked embarrassed.

My brain wanted to analyse the reasons behind that, but I wouldn't let myself do that. Whatever his reasons were, I didn't care.

Jacob asked me about Edward a few times, but he gave up after I nearly bit his head off. I didn't want to think about him, let alone talk about him.

So everything was back to normal I guess. Things were just the way they were before Edward and I kissed. Back to normal…..

Except that it wasn't. I hated to admit it, but a part of me knew that things could never go back to the way they were.

Because I had changed. Well actually, Edward had changed me, something deep inside me. I wasn't the same and never could be. I hated that part, I hated it so much.

But what are you suppose to do about it? There's nothing you can do. When someone changes you, for better or for worse, the change is permanent. You can't change back, no matter how hard you try.

And I have to admit, most of the change was good.

I had begun to defend myself more. I wouldn't let Tanya or Rosalie push me around anymore. If they yelled at me or called me names, I yelled back at them just as much.

I had even been in a fight with Tanya once more. I was beating that bitch's face in, but unfortunately the teacher saw it and pulled us apart. Needless to say, my dad wasn't too happy when he got the call that I had been in a fight.

But I didn't even care, I liked the new me. I wasn't the shy girl who sat at the corner anymore. I took care of myself and other people had begun to notice it too. People respected me more, didn't talk as much shit about me anymore.

Even the popular crew had backed off, at least for now. Tanya was still sporting a black eye that I gave her, which made me smile every time I saw it.

I had even started talking to Alice again. It's not like we were friends or anything, but we would talk to each other every now and then, she even asked me to go shopping with her. I told her I would think about it.

I really wanted to go, because the truth is that I really missed Alice's friendship, but I was still too paranoid. I was afraid that it was just another plan by the popular crew to humiliate me somehow.

Currently I was sitting at the cafeteria with Jacob and Leah like usual, eating my lunch. I was chewing slowly and staring down at my food, caught up in my own head again.

I was startled when suddenly I heard a loud screech. I lifted my head and saw Jacob standing up.

I realized the screech came from Jacob's chair as he had pushed it back with force.

I frowned as I stared at him. What the hell is he so upset about now.

Realization hit me when I saw a person approaching our table. I froze on my spot and gulped.

Edward.

He was walking towards the table, his eyes fixed on Jacob.

"You better turn around right the fuck now" I heard Jacob hiss at him.

Edward stopped on his tracks, crossed his arms over his chest and rolled his eyes. "Sit down guard dog, I just wanna talk to Bella"

"Oh yeah? Well she don't want to fucking talk to you, so back off" Jacob spat at him and cracked his knuckles.

I was fuming. What the hell was going on?

A part of me was mad at Edward, why the fuck would he want to talk to me all of a sudden? To torture me some more?

But mostly I was mad at Jacob. I knew that he was just trying to look out for me, but I am not a goddamn child! I could take care of my fucking self. I specially hated the fact that he had spoken FOR me, not even caring about what I wanted to say.

I stood up slowly, keeping my icy glare on Edward.

"Jacob. Let him say what he came here to say"

Jacob turned around and glared at me.

He opened his mouth, obviously about to say something, but when I turned my furious glare towards him, he quickly snapped his mouth shut.

Mumbling something to himself, he finally sat down, but kept sneering at Edward.

I turned my glare back to Edward and raised an eyebrow at him. He just stood there with his hands stuffed deep into his jean pockets and stared back at me.

But his stare wasn't angry, not even condescending. It was almost… desperate.

"What the fuck do you want?" I sighed.

He flinched back a little upon hearing my harsh tone and I smiled inwardly. He deserved it.

"I umm…" he was mumbling something as he kept staring at his feet.

I sighed again. "You need to speak the fuck up. I can't hear you."

He snapped his head up and glared at me.

I smirked. Now there was the Edward that I knew. I decided to coax him on even further.

"If you came here to demand that I apologize to that slut of yours for beating her ass up, you're wasting your time. I enjoyed doing it and I would gladly do it again. Which I'm sure I will get the chance to"

He narrowed his eyes at me and huffed. "That's not why I'm here. I couldn't give a fuck about that. I came here to talk to you about the assignment we're suppose to work on."

That caught me off guard and the cold look melted off my face. Unfortunately.

"Oh."

That's all my that my genius brain could come up with.

"Yeah. It has to be done in 3 weeks and we haven't even started. I don't want to fail the class and I don't think you do either, so we have to work on it" Edward said with an indifferent voice and shrugged.

He couldn't fool me though. He tried to look and sound like he didn't care about me, but I could tell he was holding back.

"Well I guess we better get started then" I sighed in defeat.

"Yup. How's today?" he asked.

"Today's ok. After school?"

"Yeah sure, we can meet up at the library"

I snorted. "The library is being renovated, it won't be open until in 2 weeks"

Edward looked really uncomfortable all of a sudden as he shuffled his feet. "Well uhh… Your place then?"

I snorted again. "I think my dad will shoot you if you come near my house"

"Well my house then I guess" he shrugged.

"Yeah I guess there's no other option. I'll meet you at the parking lot after school"

Edward just nodded at me, then turned around and walked back over to his table. As soon as he sat down Tanya leaned towards him and started bombarding him with questions.

I shook my head and smirked. Dumb hoe.

As I sat down, my nerves finally caught up with me. I can't believe I was so cool and collected around Edward. I even managed to sound condescending. It was good that I didn't crumple, but the way I felt now was different.

It was like it just hit me that I would be spending time with him again. I would see him again, be near him. Go to his house…

A chill ran down my spine as I tried to collect my nerves.

How the hell am I going to survive this?

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EPOV

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I was smoking on a cigarette as I leaned against my car. The last class had just ended and I was at the school parking lot, waiting for Bella.

My hand did a nervous twitch when I thought about the fact that I would see her soon. She would be in the car, sitting next to me. I could see her beautiful face from up close again. I could smell how delicious she smells again…

Fuck, this was going to kill me. Not that this past week hadn't done that already.

Avoiding her and pretending like she didn't exist was killing me slowly.

Because pretending was the key word here. I knew she existed. Fuck, how could I forget.

Every time she was even in the same room as me, it was like my whole my body recognized her presence. I could feel electricity in the air and it was like my head and my whole body turned towards her without my permission.

I stared at her a lot, I couldn't help it. The fucked up thing was, she noticed. It was as if she could sense that I was looking at her, and she would turn around and sneer at me.

When that happened, I usually reacted the same. I would either get mad at myself for staring at her again, or just be embarrassed about being caught.

Most of the time it was both.

Tanya was fucking mad at me because of this studying session with Bella, she wanted me to cancel it.

I just laughed at her face. If the bitch thought that I would delay my graduation because of one class, she was fucking stupid.

Unfortunately, this meant no pussy for me for a while. Oh well, I'll live.

Tanya's black eye cracked me up too for some reason. I don't even know why, I guess as her boyfriend I should be mad.

But I couldn't help it. It was fun to watch Bella start to come out of her shell. She didn't take shit from anyone anymore, she fought back. I was there when she had the fight with Tanya and although every cell in my body screamed at me to go and stop it in order to protect Bella, I knew that I couldn't. In the end it would have been useless anyway, Bella was clearly winning.

Too bad the teacher called it off, I would of liked to see what kind of damage Bella could really do.

I realized I sounded fucked up. Being proud of someone for being violent wasn't really a good thing. But it wasn't about the fact that she was violent, it was the fact that she was finally sticking up for herself.

Sure, she was being a mean bitch right now, but who could blame her. After people learned their lesson and left her alone, she would show her other side to the world as well. But right now she needed to be a bitch, and I completely understood it.

I snapped out of my thoughts when I heard someone clear their throat. Bella was standing next to me, with her arms crossed over her chest and a mean look on her face.

"Ok, you go first. I'll follow you in my car" she said and started to turn around.

Before she could take another step though, I grabbed her wrist and stopped her. "What do you mean you'll follow me in YOUR car. I thought that I was driving you"

She raised her eyebrows in bewilderment and then smirked at me.

"And what are we suppose to do with my car? And how would I get home?"

I just stared at her, not being able to get any words out of my mouth.

She was right of course, why hadn't I though of that.

Oh wait, it's because I was too fucking eager to have her sitting next to me, like the fucking pussy that I am.

I sighed and let go of her wrist. She smirked at me one more time and then walked over to her car.

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20 minutes later I had parked my car in our yard and was now waiting for Bella to show up.

Her fucking piece of a shit car couldn't go fast, so I had to drive slowly all the way over here. I finally got fed up when I got to the drive way, and just hit the gas with full force.

I tapped my fingers against the steering wheel as I stared at the rear-view mirror, waiting for her car to show up.

I got out of the car and stood next to it as soon as I saw Bella's truck pull up. She parked her car behind mine and got out.

"Thanks for waiting asshole" she quipped at me while grabbing her backpack from the passenger seat and slamming the car door after her.

I just shrugged and walked inside the house. I went straight to the kitchen and asked Bella if she wanted anything. She shook her head no, but I grabbed two water bottles anyway and then headed for my room.

As soon as we got inside my room, I closed the door and locked it. I knew that there really was no need to, since dad was sleeping because he had a nightshift the next night and Emmett was with Rosalie at her place.

Bella threw me a questioning look as she saw me lock the door.

I shrugged and handed her one of the water bottles. "I like my privacy"

She took the bottle from me and rolled her eyes. "Whatever"

She sat down on the coach and started digging through her bag. She got out 2 books, a note book and some pens. I sat down on the opposite end of the coach and took a big gulp of water.

"So, I think you should take this book and start writing down the important facts" she told me as she handed me a book, some paper and a pen.

I just nodded at her, got a comfortable position on the coach and started reading.

We read in silence for an hour, neither of us speaking a word. I would write something down and so would she, but that was it.

I would steal glances at her every now and then and luckily she didn't seem to notice. She was concentrating on the book so hard that her eyebrows would furrow a little. She would also unconsciously chew on her bottom lip, and fuck if she didn't look cute.

Suddenly she snapped her head towards me. "What the hell are you looking at?"

I narrowed my eyes at her. "Nothing, fucking nothing" I grumbled and returned my attention back to the book.

"Yeah right, whatever you say"

I looked back at her and snorted. "What are you talking about?"

She smirked at me and then just shrugged.

She grabbed the water bottle and got a look of mischief on her face.

"Hmmm, it's hot in here huh?" she looked at me seductively and winked.

She was wearing tight jeans that made her ass look phenomenal and a simple white tank top.

She pressed the water bottle against her chest, threw her head back and sighed. She moved the bottle over her breasts slowly, while letting out sighs of contentment.

I gulped and fisted my hands. Every fibre in my body was screaming at me to lean forward and just grab her and pull her tight against me.

Instead I just sat there hypnotized. She kept repeating the routine and I could see her nipples puckering from the cold. I pressed my eyes shut, that was almost too much for me to handle.

I re-opened my eyes when I heard a laughter. I looked at her puzzled and she shook her head at me while putting the water bottle down. "Oh Edward, you're too easy"

A low grumble rose from deep within my chest. So this was her game huh. Fuck her, no-one plays Edward motherfucking Cullen!

Without saying a word I leaned forward and grabbed her by her neck. I pulled her close to me and smashed my lips against hers. I started kissing her with a passion, but she wasn't returning the kiss.

She just sat there, apparently frozen in her spot.

All of a sudden she seemed to regain her senses and she put both of her hands against my chest and pushed me. She put so much force into the push that I actually fell backwards a little.

We both just sat there staring at each other, trying to catch our breaths.

I could see tears starting to form in her eyes and I was struck with quilt. What the hell was I thinking?

"Edward, what are you doing?" she asked me.

I hung my head. "I don't know" I whispered back to her.

"I thought you didn't want me. That's why you treated me the way you did. The kiss with Tanya in the cafeteria…."

I snapped my head up and looked at her with wide eyes. She bit her lower lip and nodded her head. "Yes, I saw it"

I sighed and ran my hands through my face.

"Fuck, it's just too complicated Bella, you have to understand. It's not that I don't want you, I mean… I fucking want you so much! But…. I can't…. WE can't… Can't you understand that? Everything and everyone are against us!"

"I have to go." she stood up and hastily put all of her things back into her bag. She then grabbed the bag and headed for the door.

"Bella, wait! Fuck, I'm sorry!"

She just shook her head, opened the door and ran down the hallway, slamming the door shut after her.

I let out a loud grunt and then ran after her.

Somehow I got a feeling of deja-vu.

I caught her just as she was opening the door to her truck. I grabbed her by the hips and turned her around.

She tried to squirm free so I pushed her against the car door, pressed my body against hers and held her there tightly.

"What the hell do you want me to say Bella, huh? I fucking want you, you know that! But it's just too complicated!" I realized that I was yelling loudly, but I couldn't help myself. This situation frustrated me to no end.

"It is not complicated you fucking prick! The only reason it's complicated is because YOU make it that way!" she yelled right back at me.

I looked into her eyes and saw the hurt in there. The raw hurt and sadness in her eyes brought a big lump in my throat and suddenly it got hard to breath. I felt a stinging in my eyes and I realized I was about to cry.

That was fucking unbelievable, because Edward fucking Cullen never, and I mean NEVER cries!

I looked at her in desperation, trying to think of something to say that would ease her pain. Something that would ease MY pain…

I opened my mouth to tell her how much I cared about her, but never got the words out. Because at that second the porch light was switched on and my dad walked out of the door. He stood in the porch and glared at us.

His hair was a mess and his clothes had wrinkles, we had clearly woken him up.

"What the hell is going on in here?" he yelled at us. He eyed me and Bella sceptically, specially my hold on her. I realized how it must of looked like, so I immediately let go of Bella and took a step back.

As soon as I did that, Bella turned around, climbed in her truck and slammed the door shut. With one last look at me she started the car and drove away.

This time I let her go, I wasn't even planning on chasing her.

I knew I needed to let her go, she needed time to think and to calm down.

"Edward, what the hell are you doing? Who's that? You better not be in trouble again!" my dad yelled.

I sighed and slumped my shoulders as I started walking back towards the house. I guess it was time to come clean.

A/N: Well there you go! Leave me your thoughts in reviews! Thank you in advance!