Rachel's POV. Sorry for not posting last night, I promised I would post everyday but I had personal problems to take care of. This chapter will not have a memory. Enjoy!

Chapter 9 – Home

Rachel was in her room, she decided to take advantage of this day to 'better' herself. The only way she thought of 'bettering' herself was crying uncontrollably and listening to sad music. She was about 1 minute into the depressing song she heard a knock at the door.

Who the heck could that be? My dads left to work. She thought as she wiped her tears. She waited to hear another knock, and there it was as if on que. She began to get out of bed and heard the knocking continue. She peeked out to her window and saw a red beetle parked across the street. She walked toward the stairs, she felt like her house was spinning. She needed to hold onto the railing while she took a step at a time. Her heart raced once she got to the last step and walked towards the door.

It can't be

Rachel began reaching for the door knob but continued pulling away. If it was Quinn she didn't want her to see like this, or let alone break her down again. She finally gathered her courage. You're Rachel Berry, you stood your ground when she broke up with you and now you'll do the same! She thought grabbing the door knob and opening the door cautiously. Yep, so much for standing my ground.

"Quinn?" Rachel spoke, it was the only thing she managed to get out of her mouth.

Rachel watched as Quinn examined her for a second and her stomach began to churn, she then saw Quinn look in her eyes, they were the same exact eyes Rachel fell in love with.

"Can I come in?" Quinn said apologetically.

What does Quinn want? Oh my…the notebook!

Rachel didn't say anything she just opened the door wider and stepped inside. Quinn walked in, Rachel saw her look around and sigh in relief.

Maybe this always was her home. Rachel thought as she closed the door. She began walking to the living room where they could sit. She knew Quinn would follow, she knew this house perfectly. Rachel sat on the couch and motioned Quinn to sit down, she watched as Quinn sat down and looked around, she then noticed something that made her smile a bit, she saw a tear slide down Quinn's cheek.

"Hey" Rachel said comforting putting her hand on Quinn's arm, "I'm not sure why you are here, but remember among these walls you could always be yourself. I would never judge you" Quinn smiled.

"You weren't at school today" Quinn whispered, "And after I saw what state you were in yesterday, I wanted to make sure you were okay..." Quinn looked up to meet Rachel's eyes. Rachel saw nothing but concern and love.

Maybe Quinn did come around, I wish she would just admit her love to me and we could go back to normal.

"I'm fine Quinn, but are you?" Rachel said kind of harshly and before she could let Quinn speak she continued. "I mean how could you be okay, having to lie to yourself every day? Having to pretend to be a person you obviously aren't? Don't you just want to be happy and not care what anyone thinks?" Rachel said as her tone went from being harsh to sounding like a concerned loved one.

Quinn began shaking her head. All she managed to saw is "I know, I'm sorry"

Rachel scooted closer; she knew they both needed each other. She knew Quinn still loved her, if she didn't she wouldn't be here.

"Quinn, uh…I…hmmmm" Rachel stammered "I know you're here to see if I'm okay, but is that really why you're here?"

Quinn shook her head, she looked up and met Rachel's eyes. "Coach Sue is putting me as captain next year" she smiled. Rachel couldn't help but smile, she knew Quinn wanted that more than anything.

"Are you happy?"

"Of course I am, but…" Quinn looked down "She brought you up"

Coach Sue brought me up? Why would she do that? I thought she hated me; she was always so mean to me after I quit. Wait…. She was mean to everybody…

"Well what did she say?"

"That if you were still on the team she would have offered it to you" Quinn said shyly.

"Oh" Rachel tried sounding confused but she remembered the day she quit, Coach Sue was talking about how she wanted her to be captain her freshman year. "Well, you deserve it. You do it for the love of the sport, and well I did it to…. Never mind"

Quinn looked up puzzled. "You did it for me" she then whispered.

Rachel nodded. Rachel was about to speak and she just felt a warm embrace. Quinn had thrown herself on Rachel and held her in a tight hug not wanting to ever let go of her. Rachel couldn't help but return the smile, she knew the only thing she wanted ever was Quinn. Quinn is the only thing that mattered to her.

"I love you" Quinn whispered very quietly. Rachel had ears like a hawk and heard her.

"I love you too" Rachel said back. She heard Quinn sniffle. "You can cry if you want to" Rachel spoke. As soon as Rachel said that Quinn let out everything she was holding in. Rachel couldn't help but do the same. They were both strong girls, they acted like they could handle everything, but at the end of the day they couldn't.

After a good 10 minutes of crying together Rachel pulled back. She cupped Quinn's face and looked at her. Rachel wiped the tears and kissed her forehead.

"I know when we go back to school you are going to act like you hate me. But at least I know now that you love me" Rachel smiled.

Quinn shook her head violently. "I'm so sorry I've been mean to you, I just I needed to push you away somehow. Get you to stop loving me"

"I would never stop"

The girls shared a smile. Rachel knew that this was a one-time thing and Quinn would go back to being mean, but she was kind of okay with it. She just wanted to hear Quinn say I love you one more time.

Quinn is beautiful, even when she is crying, or yelling, or doing anything.

"Can I kiss you?" Quinn asked. Rachel's heart was about to explode, she didn't know what to think; she simply nodded and prepared herself. She felt Quinn's nice warm lips; this kiss was full of passion, love, hope, sadness, and desire. Rachel tasted Quinn and remembered every single time they kissed.

Blueberry Rachel thought, she couldn't help but smile while they were kissing. She loved Quinn, she loved her always. Quinn was a part of her and that's how she wanted it to be… always. Although she knew she couldn't have her right now, she knew she would be able to hold her like this in her arms once again when Quinn was ready.

Quinn and Rachel pulled out of the kiss in unison and smiled.

"I should get going" Quinn said.

Rachel understood, Quinn wasn't ready and she wouldn't mind waiting. "Of course" Rachel said standing up. They walked to the door and smiled at each other. Before Rachel opened the door she turned to face Quinn, "I understand you aren't ready. Just know I'll be here… waiting. But please promise me something" Quinn nodded. "At school, don't act like you hate me. You don't have to talk to me or act like I exist, just ignore me. Also like I said, when you want to talk, I'm always here"

Quinn smiled and kissed her delicately on her cheek and reached for the door knob and walked out.

"Rach, by the way, thanks for the notebook" Quinn said before turning back around to her car. Rachel nodded and smiled and closed the door. She stood leaning her back on the door smiling. She could not believe this happened. The girl she loved admitted her love to her. Rachel felt amazing, she then remembered the kiss, she put her fingers lightly on her lips, and she could still feel Quinn's warm soft lips. Rachel Berry was in love with Quinn Fabray, and that's the way it should be. Rachel finally walked towards the stairs and went to her room. She made her bed changed into her workout clothes and began using her elliptical. She felt motivated to be the Rachel Berry she always was. She felt like she can take on the world again, and no one was going to stop her.