A/N: Ok, one more. lol

Disclaimer: I own nothing.

Warnings: Drug use. Alcohol use. Angst. Language. Mentions of sexual situations.

Chapter 10: Need You Now

Picture perfect memories

Scattered all across the floor

Reaching for the phone cause

I can't fight it anymore

And I wonder if I

Ever cross your mind

For me it happens all the time

He couldn't help it. He was worried. Matt hadn't been to the office in a week. After he left, Mello had gone and gotten himself a motel to stay at until he wrapped up this last case and head back to the states, or anywhere else he felt like. It was taking a while to tie up lose ends as the guy had given them the slip and made things a bit more complicated. He was told Matt was working from home when absolutely needed. He was told a lot of things. Did he believe them? Not a word. He would catch himself hovering over Matt's name in his contacts before he'd close his phone and get back to work. It was one of those moments. He was in the break room attempting to enjoy his coffee and chocolate. Traitors. Even those didn't calm him down anymore. He had just stood up to make his way back to L when his coffee was smacked from his hand, his shirt grabbed, and his body shoved against the wall. Hard.

"YOU! HOW DARE YOU!" Mello looked up into the infuriated crimson eyes of none other than Beyond Birthday.

Another shot of whiskey

Can't stop looking at the door

Wishing you'd come sweeping

In the way you did before

And I wonder if I

Ever cross your mind

For me it happens all the time

Matt lay in his bed, cuddled to a pillow. Mello's pillow. Or at least, the one he had been using. B had just left after making sure he ate something and discretely, or so he thought, checked Matt's arms for new cuts. He had been enraged to find a few fresh ones. He begged Matt to stop, but he could do nothing but stare almost lifelessly back at his friend. Eventually he let Matt go back to his room. He needed to get back to work. Matt could care less that they were close to catching this guy. Once they did, Mello would be gone. Far and for good. He didn't want that. No matter how much he hurt. If Mello left for real, he was sure he wouldn't survive. He sat up against the head board and reached for the bottle of whiskey and his pack of cigarettes. Nothing could numb the feeling anymore. Not like they used to. Today he had taken a new habit. One that would make him numb. Resting the open bottle between his legs, and the cigarette in his lips, he reached over and grabbed the needle from his nightstand. He rolled up his sleeve and tied of his arm with a rubber band tightly, smacking at his arm a few times waiting for the veins to raise. Once he could clearly make out a blue vein, she slid the needle in, and flooded his veins with the drug, in turn filling his body with the numbness he so craved. He only put his cigarette in the ash tray to burn out when holding it became a chore. He placed the whiskey down after a long swig, and scooted back down with his pillow once more. Why couldn't Mello just come home? Why couldn't he see how much he needed him?

'Because you're worthless' the voice in his head. A lone tear fell from his eye as he slipped into unconsciousness once more.

"What the hell, Beyond?" Mello gestured to his ruined work shirt. Beyond just snarled at him.

"I just saw him, Mello. I just came from his place. I could fucking kill you for doing this to him, again! And it's worse this time around! He doesn't want to move. He just holds onto a pillow you used and stares into space. It's like he's dead inside." Beyond let go of Mello who was glaring back at him with just as much heat in his eyes.

"I left so I couldn't hurt him anymore. And he'll be better in time. How is that worse when he could be hurting himself again?" He challenged. Beyond lost all anger to his sadness and Mello stopped, afraid for what he'd hear next.

"He has 6 fresh cuts on the arm I was able to see. One of them was still bleeding." Mello looked away.

"So stop him like you did before. You're a better friend than I am. Than I ever will be."

"He doesn't want me you selfish asshole! For some God forsaken reason, he wants you!" Beyond was growling in anger again. Mello's heart clenched at the words.

"He doesn't want me. He may think he does, but he'd get tired of me. I'm no good. He deserves better." Mello had turned his back on Beyond. He didn't want him to see how weak he was.

"Ok, listen here, Princess! Since it's so obvious that you're acting out of your own selfish fears, I'm going to tell you something you need to hear, and it isn't pretty. Matt is a genuine guy. He is lazy and doesn't like to do much unless it really matters to him. But when it does matter to him, he fights like his life depends on it. He's loyal and faithful. He could go out and have the pick of the lot, and for some reason, he chose you, Mello. You are the only person I've seen him let hurt him. And not only once! You take advantage of him, and yet, he still wants you. How do you not see how good you have it? Get your head out of your ass and save him for once in return. Be the man he sees in you. Be better for him." Beyond's chest was heaving up and down. He adjusted his shoulders to loosen to pull his gun holster had on his while shirt. Mello slowly turned to him, and amused expression.

"Did you just call me Princess?" Beyond rolled his eyes.

"Focus, Mello!"

"Matt has this idea that I'm this great guy, and I'm not! I can't be someone I'm not."

"Do you want him?"

"Huh?" That had taken Mello by surprise. Crimson eyes deepened.

"Do you want him? Do you want to hold him? To touch him? To protect him? Do you love him, Mello?"

"Of course I care about him." Beyond knew he was avoiding the questions in his uncertainty. And evil smirk plastered on his face. He stepped forward, backing Mello against the wall. He leaned in to speak lowly into his ear.

"I can see it Mello. You want to know so badly. You want to know what it's like to have your naked flesh against his. You want to know if you see fireworks when he kisses you. You want to map out his body with your hands, eyes, and mouth. Memorize it while he memorizes you. To know every little noise he makes when you do different things to him. You want to know how it feels o be inside him and him in you. You want the explosion of a climax you'd get with no one else." He pulled away slightly to look into Mello's hooded eyes. His smirk grew. "I know all of these, Mello." Blue eyes widened and rage flared. Beyond was thrown away from him followed by a burning in his jaw. He looked back at the enraged Mello and smirked again. This only pissed him off further, but before he could attack, Beyond's words cut through the haze.

"Are you jealous? I haven't know the feeling of loving him or him loving me. His heart has always been yours. So now that you know your reaction, I will ask again. Do you love him?" A million thoughts ran through Mello's mind. Everything was blurry. But one image stuck in his mind and made his heart beat faster. Matt. His face was smiling as his laughter played in the air. Mello had sworn he would do anything to keep that smile and laughter in place, deciding he liked no image or sound more. He doubted he ever would.

"Yes." He whispered and blue met crimson once again. Beyond's smirk morphed into a light smile.

"Then go to him." He whispered in reply. Mello stood for a moment before nodding and racing from the building. Beyond stood there a moment longer before a light sound of clapping reached him.

"It's about time someone could reach him in the mind of his." Near spoke as he played with his little toy robot. Naomi was approaching him, winding her arms around his neck.

"Does this mean you'll move in with me now?" Raito was asking L, who nodded.

"You did good, Beyond." Naomi was beaming at him and he couldn't help but smile as he pulled her in for a kiss. "Though in the process of making Mello jealous, I think you got me as well. I may need a lot of reassurance that you don't want anyone but me when we get home tonight." A wicked gleam was in her eye and Beyond couldn't help buy groan.

"That can be arranged" He said before capturing her lips once again.