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Chapter 11
I wasn't a demon or a grim reaper, I'm just a human. Did Ciel and Sebastian just lie to me about this? Sure I'm a girl but I have feelings too, I can handle the truth just like anyone else. Even if it's painful. They both lied. Ciel and Sebastian both lied to me. Yet Sebastian was ordered to lie to me. He couldn't help it. He wanted to tell me. I know he did. They should've told me and I wouldn't have been shot in the side by that angel...
Now here I am, in bed. I almost died. It's like a cycle that goes round and round it never stops and I don't think it will never stop.
Why me? I have always been a good kid. I did what my parents asked of me. I did good deeds for the homeless and animal shelters. I was a good kid. I never did any bad. Sure I got into lots of fights after my parents died but I couldn't help that. People would pick on me and I had to stand up for myself because I knew, I knew nobody else would. Nobody cared. Nobody gave a damn about me or my broken family. My broken life. Nobody cared. That's the thing in this life nobody cares about me.
My room was lit from the sun shining in through my window. I winched as my eyes opened, it was kinda bright for them. I slowly and carefully got out of bed. Sebastian wasn't around I figured he had something to do. I walked over to my full body mirror. I looked at my reflection.
I saw a girl with a clean blue shirt and black trousers on. She had long dark brown hair that went down to her waist, she had dark purple eyes and if you looked closely to her left eye you could see a pentacle. She had porcelain skin. She was 5'1.
I stared at my reflection just thinking.
Why? Why did all of this have to happen? My parents dying. Being left alone with my Ciel. We didn't deserve any of this.
I was pulled away from my thoughts with a knock on my door. "Alice dearie? Are you awake?"
It was Undertaker. I walked over to the door and slowly opened it. I stepped out into the hallway. I looked up at Undertaker.
"Yeah I'm awake. Why what's up?"
He grinned at me, "He he he I was just coming to talk to you about working in my shop and seeing if you still want to do it, even if you're not a grim reaper or a demon you are a great help."
I smiled at the compliment, "Undertaker I would love to continue working with you. Besides it's fun and gives me something to do."
He grinned at me.
"Lady Alice I see you are awake now. How do you feel?" Sebastian joined us.
I smiled at him, "I'm quite well I don't even feel the pain."
He smiled at my remark. "Hey guys I need some alone time right now, I just need to think of something's. So I'll catch up with you later okay?"
Sebastian looked concerned, "mistress are you alright?"
I nodded, "Sebastian I'm fine I just need to think something's through."
Undertaker smiled at me, "Alice go ahead. We can go whenever you want to."
I nodded in appreciation. I started to walk away and as I turned the corner I heard undertaker say, "now now let's hear a joke from the funny butler?"
I giggled and kept walking. Those two. I loved them both. I always have. Sebastian was my soul mate I loved him. Undertaker was my best friend and I kinda did have feeling for him. Hey I couldn't help it! He is pretty damn attractive for a old man.
I walked until I entered one of my favorite rooms. The music room. I loved this room because I loved music! I loved to sing and sing and sing. I could be free when I sang. I was only shy when I was in front of crowds. In the room was a small stage that was big enough for a grand piano to sit on. On one of the walls was a big window that looked out over the mansions grounds. There was a wall with string instruments, and other instruments. I write some songs and I compose music sometimes but it's never the best.
I entered the room and walked to the stage. I slowly walked up and sat on the piano bench. I ran my fingers along the keys, just thinking.
I suddenly started playing a sad melody. I kept playing it until I thought of some lyrics to go with it.
(A/N: She's the kind of person where they can play music from there mind and lyrics just come to their mind. I don't own Say Something, a great big world does.)
Say something, I'm giving up on you
I'll be the one, if you want me to
Anywhere I would've followed you
Say something, I'm giving up on you
And I am feeling so small
It was over my head
I know nothing at all
And I will stumble and fall
I'm still learning to love
Just starting to crawl
Say something, I'm giving up on you
I'm sorry that I couldn't get to you
Anywhere I would've followed you
Say something, I'm giving up on you
And I will swallow my pride
You're the one that I love
And I'm saying goodbye
Say something, I'm giving up on you
And I'm sorry that I couldn't get to you
And anywhere I would've followed you (Oh-oh-oh-oh)
Say something, I'm giving up on you
Say something, I'm giving up on you
Say something...
By the end of the song I had tears streaming down my cheeks. Why did my life have to be screwed up? Sure I had a demon as a butler and I loved him! But still... It's messed up. It can never be fixed.
A couple hours had passed and I was was walking through the manor making sure everything was in check. I had checked the library, and the entertainment room. All I had to check was the music room.
I was nearing the music room. As I got closer I could hear music flowing freely from the room. I listened intently. I didn't have to strain my ears because of my demon hearing. I heard a sad melody and a sad, beautiful voice along with it. It went on for a couple more minutes until it stopped. I entered the room after a moment of silence.
i saw Alice sitting there at the piano. Her face was red and her eyes were puffy from crying. Oh how it hurt me to see my young mistress hurting. I didn't want her to feel this way. It kills me to hear her cry. I want her to be happy even though with the short amount of life she has left. One day I'm going to have to feed on her beautiful, precious, fragile soul. When the day comes will I be able to? Will I be able to feed on her soul?
i walked up to her and knelt besides her, bowing my head, "mistress, please don't cry. I'm here for you. I am at your services till the very end. I will never leave you."
she sniffles, "Sebastian... It's not that. It's just... I don't know. I try to be strong. But I am to the point where it doesn't matter because I know that I can't be strong forever and that eventually I will break, whether or not I like it. I just can't handle it anymore. Sometimes I question myself. Why me? I've almost died like how many times now? Three? Five times? I don't know. But it's like a cycle Sebastian. I supposedly almost die then I come back as a survivor! How many more times will this happen until one of these days I don't survive and I'm six feet in the ground!"
Her voice cracks on the last word. My dear Alice...
"Alice you are strong! And you will make it. It may seem hard but you can do this! Don't give up and don't talk like that! You act like you're already giving up! I-"
she she stands up suddenly, "Sebastian, I have given up. That's all I can do. Is give up! I'm done! I don't want to be here anymore. Why couldn't I have gone when my parents perished in that damn fire!"
she he ran out leaving me there.
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