As Erin stood on the beer covered living room floor in Logan's arms, she was completely at a loss for what to say to Kurt and Blaine, who were standing in the doorway with angry looks upon their faces. "I asked a question!" Blaine roared. "What the hell happened here?"
'T-there was a party." Erin squeaked out. "But, please, y-you have to listen to me. It wasn't my idea."
"She's telling the truth, sir." Logan spoke up. "She wasn't even home all day. She was out at the park with me."
"And who are you?" Blaine asked angrily. Erin and Logan looked at each other. They didn't know whether or not to tell them. They were already angry. What if this news only made it worse? Before they could say anything, Seth jumped in for them.
"He's her boyfriend." Seth said. "And he's a very good one, so don't get mad at her. The party wasn't Erin's fault. It was all Lily's idea. She invited all the people and got them to bring alcohol."
"And where is she?" Kurt asked.
"S-she went upstairs." Erin told him. "After she finished yelling at me…" Blaine and Kurt looked at each other before abandoning the living room and walking up the stairs. Erin, Logan and Seth all did the same thing before following the two adults upstairs. Once upstairs they discovered that Lily was not locked up in her bedroom. Instead, she was sitting on the floor in the bathroom hovering over the toilet. It was clear that, like her father, she couldn't really hold her alcohol.
"Lily, is what Seth and Erin saying really true?" Blaine asked. "Did you really throw a party and have alcohol?! You're seventeen. That's illegal." Lily scoffed.
"Not surprised that she told you." Lily sneered. "She has no problem with lying or stealing."
"I did not lie or steal anything from you!" Erin retorted.
"Yes you did, you slut!" Lily yelled.
"Girls! Be quiet right now!" Kurt yelled. "What on earth are both of you talking about?" Lily remained silent and glared out into the hallway at Erin and Logan.
"Lily had a crush on Logan." Erin said. "But, he liked me...not her."
"Only because you stole him!" Lily yelled.
"That's enough!" Logan yelled. "Erin did nothing wrong. We fell in love and that's why we're together. I'm sorry to break this to you, but I don't feel like that for you, Lily. So, you really need to stop blaming Erin for this!"
"Fine." Lily said. "You didn't steal him. That still makes you a snitch and a liar. You're so comfortable telling my secrets. Why don't I share one of yours?" Erin tensed up. She hadn't told Lily any of her secrets.
"I-I don't know what your talking about!" Erin insisted.
"Oh really?" Lily growled. "You don't know anything about the food under you bed that you were supposed to have eaten. I hear you every morning puking your guts out. I know you're anorexic or bulimic or whatever!" Erin felt like her world was crumbling underneath her. She broke from Logan's grasp and ran down the hallway at full speed. Once inside, she collapsed on her bed just sobbed. How had Lily done something like that? How had she just so willingly told her secret? Down the hallway, Logan was so pissed off at Lily.
"You knew!" Logan roared. "You knew about her eating disorder and you did nothing to help her. You knew she wasn't getting better and you didn't tell your parents!
"It wasn't my problem." Lily retorted.
"She could kill herself! Don't you get that?" Logan roared. "This is why I chose Erin over you. I could never like a selfish bitch who is willing to watch her own foster sister kill herself. That is just…!"
"Logan, I think it's time for you to leave." Kurt said cutting him off. "We're not mad at you. It's just time for you to go."
"C-can you tell Erin to text me or call me?" Logan asked softly. "I just want to make sure that she's okay."
"Yeah." Kurt replied. "I'm make sure that she calls you." Logan nodded and then Seth led him back downstairs. Blaine looked at Kurt with sadness in his eyes. How had they both not realized that something was wrong with her?
"You stay and deal with Lily." Kurt said. "I'll go and talk to Erin."
'Okay." Blaine nodded. Kurt turned away from his husband and walked down to Erin and Lily's room and knocked on the door.
"Erin?" he said softly before walking in. Erin was lying face down on her bed sobbing. Kurt took a seat on the bed next to her and began rubbing circles on her back. "Sweetie, why didn't you tell anyone?"
"What was I supposed to say?" Erin cried as she picked her head up from the pillow. "That I feel worthless and ugly! That since I was a child that was all I ever felt."
"Honey, you are neither of those things." Kurt told her. "Believe me."
"How can you possibly understand?" Erin asked. "You can't possibly know what this disease feels like, unless you have it."
"Which I do…" Kurt told her. Erin stopped talking and looked directly at Kurt.
"What?" Erin asked.
"It started in middle school." Kurt told her. "I was bullied because I was gay. Even before I came out, people knew. Or...maybe they didn't. But, I was different and that was all that matter. I remember feeling so ugly and...fat. I remember not eating for days and throwing up in school bathrooms. Anything to lose those pounds that I thought made me so ugly."
"How-how did you get through it?" Erin asked. "How did you convince yourself that you weren't ugly or fat."
"I got help." Kurt told her. "But, just going to therapy or talking to someone isn't going to fix you. You need to be the one to do the need to discover how beautiful you truly are. This recovery won't completely be by yourself, but a lot of it will be." Erin nodded to show that she understood Kurt. "And honey, we're going to get you better. I promise." Kurt told her. Erin dove into his arms and gave him a hug. Kurt held her tightly and rubbed soothing circles on her back.
"Thank you." Erin said softly.
"Don't mention it honey.' Kurt told her. "Now, why don't you call that extremely cute boyfriend of yours. He wanted to make sure you were okay." Erin nodded.
"I will." Erin said. Then, Kurt stood up from the bed and left Erin alone to call walked back down to bathroom where Blaine was currently holding Lily's hair back as she threw up yet again.
"Now for you missy, you are grounded for two weeks." Kurt said.
"At least!" Blaine chimed in. "Having a party when we're not home is bad, but a party with alcohol and underage teenagers is even worse. What were you thinking?"
"I just wanted to have some fun." Lily spat out. "Little miss eating disorder ruined everything."
"Stop that right now!" Kurt said. "What Erin has is a disease and a very hard one to get over. So, you need to stop with the eating disorder insults. Did you know I have anorexia?" Kurt asked his daughter.
"I-Dad, I didn't know." Lily said.
"Well, next time you'll think before betraying a person's trust and judging them." Kurt told her. "You can sleep on the couch tonight. I don't think Erin wants to see you tonight." Lily nodded. After that Kurt and Blaine went back downstairs.
"How could this happen?" Blaine asked. "I thought we could trust her."
"She's still a good kid." Kurt replied. "She just made a bad decision. How could we not realize that Erin had an eating disorder? How couldn't I see that?"
"We were busy." Blaine said. "And...she hid it well."
"That doesn't make me feel any better." Kurt replied.
"Well, we can't dwell on the past." Blaine said. "We can only help her get through this in the future. Knowing is the first step in actually helping her." Kurt nodded. He knew Blaine was right. They had been too busy and hadn't spent enough time with their kids. Now, it was going to be different. They were going to spend more time as a family and get Erin help. Hopefully, things would get better in time. That was all that they could hope for.
