Chapter 11:

And now I can't get you out my mind

A/n: The poem in here I wrote by myself! And it was accidental; who knew an accident would end up being one of the best poems I ever wrote in my life?

So what am I suppose to do? There he is being a host and I feel…cheated. I know how weird it is but sometimes I think to myself how I hate that I love him. But he was a host before I even came into the picture. And probably always will be, but it didn't bother me before because I knew I wasn't going to just be another faceless person in a crowd. I thought I mattered to him.But now…I feel like going and yelling "I hate that I love you!" in his face. Not that I'd ever do that or anything. Sometimes I feel like he goes and starts practically flirting more then usual with his customers just to see if it bothers me. And then I find my self watching and thinking about what use to be…what could have been.

"A rare flower like you could not always be found everywhere" He said with his signature grin to the circle of girls around him. Yup he's playing them, how do they know he didn't say it to the girl next to them? And tada he gets the benefit without having to say the name of the girl just being vague gets him what he wants.

"Kyouya, I love you too" I mumbled sarcastically but with a hint of truth behind it under my breath. Sighing I looked back down at the poem I was writing for class.

"Remember that girl, who everyday would dream,

Of her darling Prince Charming, upon a white steed?

Well she began to grow up, as time went by

Her expectancy low, but her hopes still high.

Thought one faithful day, luck was in her favor

As it was destined, they were finally brought together

And year after year, they let not their love die,

For that Prince Charming was you and that girl was I."

I mumbled the poem aloud to myself. It still seemed that something was wrong. Oh yeah I know, the thing wrong was the characters in this poem! Not all females need a Prince Charming!

"Hmm?..." Hikaru said over my shoulder.

"And what might this be?" Kaoru finished. Taking my poem they each read the every other line out loud.

Feeling my cheeks burn I turned away.

"It's for a homework assignment" I mumbled under my breath.

"That's not bad" Tamaki said walking over from his seat. What was this? Did it look like it was a poetry slam?

"Could I please have it back?" I said threw my teeth. I couldn't handle this any more, they practically read everything I was thinking out loud! Okay, they probably didn't mean it or anything it's just that…

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The worst day of my life. Yup, I classified it as the day in chemistry I was partnered up with Tamaki for this project that's worth more then half of our semester grade! I wished it would just be another one of my daydreams and a bad one at that, but nope it was reality.

Hearing sigh's come from the other girls in the classroom I picked up my supplied and walked over to the back of the room to sit next to him. More sighs came from the classroom.

You'd think we would be talking about chemistry and whatnot but here's how our conversation went.

"So, what happened between you and the low blood pressure creature?"

"I don't want to talk about it, I thought this was chemistry?"

"It is chemistry"

"Then why are we talking about my personal life?"

"Well, it is a form of chemistry"

"Well I don't want to talk about it"

"It's not like you still like him or anything"

Then was the longest pause that seemed like years to me.

"I said I didn't want to talk about it" I replied numb

"So, what happened before the whole breakup?"

"Do you not know when someone doesn't want to talk about something?" I replied poring some of the chemicals into the beaker.

"I'll take it that you guys were happy, yes? How long did you guy's date?"

"La, la, la, la. I'm not listening if it has to do with anything other then chemistry" I retorted.

"Why are you getting so worked up about all this in the first place?"

"Because I don't want to talk about it, period! If you want to find out anything just go ask Kyouya, it's not like he can keep a secret in the first place" I replied slamming my palm's onto the desk.

"How do you know it just wasn't an accident?"

"Because, because I know him a lot better then he thinks I do. He won't do something without thinking of every little thing that could happen. He looks before he jumps and I know he had to have got something out of it. I thought I was wrong, but he doesn't do anything unless he gets something he wants. I'm guessing I'll just have to find out what it was in the first place.

Even that one actually got Tamaki thinking. Really who wouldn't want to stop to think and collect their thoughts after someone just told you something you always knew about one of your closes friends but never really took the time to pay that much attention to.

"Don't even think of telling me that I'm naïve" I added sitting down resting my head on my palms. Maybe I still do miss him. Oh, the way he talked to me, the way he walked. God, I think I'm actually head over heels for him. His walk, talk. I miss his hugs! I miss him so much! But it's not like I'll ever be able to admit that or anything it's just a matter of too much pride. God am I pathetic or what?

With a weak sigh I looked over at him.

"I'm sorry for getting practically barking at you" I said letting out another sigh.

"So, are you gonna go with Haruhi to the Fairytale ball thing? I heard it's a masquerade so you really don't have to worry about anyone find out the secret or anything" I added under my breath.

Daydreaming he nodded his head yes, think of Haruhi all dolled up.

Back at the club me and the twins were in an extremely animated argument.

"I am not, repeat not wearing that dress!" I replied to the twins who kept on telling me to wear it.

"Unless…" I added. I had the perfect I idea. I think I as actually going to like this whole dress thing.

"Unless? What?" Hikaru asked.

"Just hand over the dress, I'll have it fixed" I answered smiling. I could tell the twins were a bit hesitant of handing the dress over, but hey! Negotiation in the key to everything…or at least to the start of everything.

"Where am I?" I said aloud to no one in particular.

Looking around everyone was in ball gowns and masks. Turning around I locked eyes with a stranger. What am I doing here? Why am I even dressed like this? I thought to myself as I noticed I was dressed like everyone else.

"Care to dance?" asked the stranger in a voice a bit too familiar. Those onyx eyes it's like they could see past everything…

Before I could answer, it was as if my legs had a mind of their own. I was dancing with the stranger. About to say something I couldn't. Why? Why can't I speak? My feet are killing me but I can't stop!

"Consider yourself under my spell" He replied as he looked down at my panic stricken face giving me a soft kiss.

"Kyouya…" I mumbled under my breath.

Waking up I was screaming. Rolling over I looked down at my self. Thank god I'm not in a dress! But, that…. It was just a dream. Gazing around, I tried to breath at a steady pace. My heart was racing my body was sweaty and I think I just had the worst nightmare in my life, or the best dream.

"Kyouya…" was all I mumbled pushing back my hair as I let my hands fall to my face as one of my fingers traced my lips.

How come the first words I spoke was Kyouya's name? That kiss, that dances…his arms around me like that. Those onyx eye's, they where the first thing I saw. His lips pressed against mine, it felt like nothing else mattered. But what was that "Consider yourself under my spell"? So many things are running threw my head! Why can't I just say "I love you, okay happy now? You finally broke me down!"

Sighing, I picked up my phone. Scrolling down the list his name. Right there. But why couldn't I just press call? Looking back at it I called Tamaki.

"Yes?" he slurred into the phone.

"I-I think you where right" was all I could reply.

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Lol, I think this chapter is pretty funny but sad...Thankies for posting your oppions! I love'em and they keep me on track to make them better! So heres the songs! I honestly have to say listen to these songs! They practicaly tell you excatley how Yuri fells expecially 1, 2, 3, and 5. If you just pay attention to these lyrics...

Songs:

1) Everywhere- Michelle Branch

2) Shake it- Metro Station

3) Pieces of Me- Ahsley Simpson

4) All around me- Flyleaf

5) Believe- Britt Nicole