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Chapter Nine: Feeling Again

What would it take for things to be quiet

Quiet like the snow

I know this isn't much

But I know I could be better than this

-Louder than Thunder by: The Devil Wears Prada

"It's all over now Atsuko your body is mine." Aoi hissed happily and I stared at her scared. I didn't want this if what Aoi said is true I don't want this! I was blinded by own agony of losing Arata and Aina that I didn't notice all of the good things in my life. I want to fight for Itachi because I really do like him…but like isn't a strong enough word for what I feel for him…I love him. I stared at Aoi who moved closer to me when something swam right through Aoi making her reflection disappear and I looked into a pair of bright red eyes.

"Fuck you Uchiha! I will have Atsuko's body!" I heard Aoi's voice echo angrily through my mind. I watched as Aoi's reflection formed again in front of me and Itachi.

Itachi just stared at Aoi's reflection, "You won't always be around to lock me away with your stupid genjutsus! Atsuko's will start to breakdown again and when she does I will take over her body!" Aoi hissed angrily.

I looked at Itachi weakly when I felt him wrapped his arms around my waist and pulled me up to the surface. Once we reached the surface I started to cough spitting all of the water out of my lungs I was still a little disorientated about what happened. Once we reached the edge of the lake I crawled out of the lake coughing taking deep breaths of air. I tried to stand but I was too weak when someone helped me up and I looked at Itachi surprised his arm firmly wrapped around my waist keeping me in place.

"Why did you do that?" He questioned seriously and I just looked at him. I was feeling so many things right now one of them was hope, something I haven't felt in so long, hope that maybe this look of fear and concern he was giving me was sincere.

"When I feel strong negative emotions…Aoi has the ability to influence my decisions in negative ways. I guess after last night I just decide to give up on everything…I was too blinded by my pain of never being loved as a child and losing the only people who I thought loved me…I just wanted it to end." I explained softly not looking at him in the eyes since I felt real ashamed about what I almost did. I almost killed myself…I'm such a coward killing myself wouldn't have solved anything. "But then when Aoi conformed that you really were the one in my head during the preliminary exams and when she mention Ryouta…Junko and Kaede sensei…I knew I had been so absorbed in my own pain and didn't notice anything like…" I turned and looked at Itachi straight into his onyx colored eyes when I felt something strange in my stomach. It felt like butterflies in my stomach…it was so weird to have that feeling in my stomach again.

"Like what?" Itachi urged me to continue.

"Like you…I didn't notice how much I actually genuinely cared for you and that just because I was scarred…just because I was useless…just because I was a liar…I thought you couldn't like me. So my question is could you care for someone broken like me?" I asked seriously I was starting to think clearer now that I wasn't feeling so negative now that Aoi's evil aurora wasn't affecting my mind.

Itachi just looked at me and I figured his silence meant something bad. Maybe Itachi wasn't for me but I wasn't going to let that bring me down…I'm tired of feeling sorry for myself I don't want to live a lie anymore. And I understand why Itachi won't return my feelings he has a girlfriend someone he loves and I'm just a girl he met from Kirigakure who could be the enemy for all he knows. I tried to pull out of his grip but he tighten his grip around my waist and I looked at him surprised when he caressed my cheek.

"You think you are broken but you are not…you are perfect. But if you still believe you are broken I'll fix you…" He stated tucking some of my wet hair behind my ear and leaned forward. I felt my heart start beating faster when his lips softly touched my forehead and I felt a rush of warmth run through my body at the touch of his lips.

I closed my eyes taking in the touch of his lips on my skin they were so soft and warm, I opened my eyes when he pulled away and I looked at him when a small smile formed on my lips, it was a genuine smile.

"I will see you tonight don't go off doing something life threaten again." Itachi warned me caressing my cheek one last time as he made sure I could stand on my own first. He then turned around and walked away and I smiled at his retreating back.

I stood there and I touched my forehead when I remembered what had happened at the hospital with Junko and Ryouta and I was starting to feel guilty about what happened. Because technically I was being a bitch and Junko had every right to call me that. I ran off to the training field we were assign I knew they would be there training for the third exam. I ran through the forest when I slowed and noticed Ryouta and Junko laying on the grass.

"You know she is probably pissed because of you Ryouta. She probably snapped because from how fucking lazy you are." Junko hissed angrily as she lay on the ground with her arms behind her head with her knee up.

"Yeah always my fucking fault. But she is probably pissed at you because you're a heartless bitch." Ryouta growled angrily and I just watched them fight.

Seriously they did not understand that were something wrong with me not them. Some friends they are, but still I gotta love them.

Junko sat up angrily, "I'm not a heartless bitch you fucking perverted bastard!" Junko hissed angrily and Ryouta just scoffed placing his arm over his eyes.

I burst out laughing and Junko turned around looking at me shocked and Ryouta slowly sat up and looked at me just as confused.

"Are you laughing?" Junko asked shock, "Are you genuinely laughing?" She questioned shocked.

"I'm sorry I just couldn't help it!" I spoke in between laughs trying to control myself but I couldn't.

"Alright bitch who are you and what have you done with Atsuko?" Junko hissed angrily about to throw me a kunai when Ryouta stopped her grabbing her hand.

"It's Atsuko I doubled checked." Ryouta assured Junko. "What happened that made you…" Ryouta traveled off and looked at me weirdly and kind of shrugged when he spoke, "Like this." He simply stated and my smile grew bigger.

"It's a secret." I spoke softly and they eyed me weirdly.

"Does this secret happen to start with an i and end with an i?" Junko questioned smirking at me and I just smiled.

"Who knows." I said shrugging and walked over to them and sat down between them. "So what were you guys doing?" I asked laying down and they laid down beside me.

"Nothing." They both answered at the same time and I looked at the sky sadly.

"I'm sorry about earlier Ryouta…Junko." I apologized softly I turned to look at Ryouta who had his arm over his eyes and then I turned to look at Junko who had her eyes closed.

"We all go through that before getting better Atsuko…and don't worry about it." Ryouta spoke bluntly.

"Soon you won't even have nightmares anymore and you will be back to normal…if you could call this normal." Junko spoke emotionless and I just sighed softly looking at the passing clouds.

Junko is right things are slowly going back to normal but still I don't feel like my old self I can't even force the smile anymore. Does this mean I'll become rude, bitter and quiet like Junko and Ryouta not caring about anything or anyone? Except for a few people. Could Itachi fix something so broken like me? What did those words even mean? Does that mean he likes me, that he returns the same feelings? So many questions and no answers. But tonight I will get my answers no matter what.

"I'm hungry let's go get something to eat." Ryouta spoke yawning and I sat along with Junko who looked at me.

"Did you sneak out of the hospital?" Junko asked confused.

I laughed softly and the back of my head nervously and just gave them a sheepish smile.

"Sorry?" I stated questioningly.

"Good girl." Junko said smirking as she ruffled my hair and we stood up walking back to the village I walked in between Ryouta and Junk hearing them argue and I smiled softly looking at them. I really was missing out on so much but not anymore I'm starting to feel again and I won't let anyone take that away from me.

I sat on the roof of the hotel gazing at the moon, it felt so peaceful. I brought my knees up to my chest and hugged them while I rested my head on my knees. I looked out towards the quiet village studying how peaceful it felt here. I wanted to live somewhere like here so quiet and nice where the sun shines and everyone is outside walking happily about. I broke out of my thoughts when I felt Itachi's chakra appear behind me he walked over to me and sat down beside me.

"Konoha is a lot nicer place to live then Kiri." I stated softly looking out to the village. "Must have been nice growing up here?" I questioned turning to look at him and I noticed he also just stared out the village.

"It was. My village means everything to me." He stated softly and I smiled at his words spoken like a true shinibo.

"Then is it wrong for me to hate my village? My clan?" I questioned softly and he turned to look at me and our eyes meet. "Do you hate your village? Your clan?" I questioned softly.

"I love my village. I love my family." I noticed how instead of clan he used family and realized that his clan means a little less to him than his family does. I looked up ahead trying to think about why I hate my family, my clan, and my village. "Why do you hate it, your village and your clan?" He asked.

"Kiri took my innocence, my clan took my body, and my family took my love." I spoke softly and looked at Itachi who looked at me blankly and I softly smiled at him. "Seems we are the same…what did Konoha take from you Itachi-kun?" I questioned softly standing up while he also stood up and we looked at each other.

Itachi walked forward and caressed my cheek softly while he removed some of my hair from my face. I felt a faint blush creep onto my cheeks as he leaned down I felt my heartbeat start to speed up.

"Nothing yet…but soon…very soon." He whispered and I looked at him confused but slowly closed my eyes when I felt his lips on mine and the butterflies in my stomach intensified I grabbed a fist full of his shirt standing on my tippy toes returning the kiss while his remind on my face. I felt how the shockwaves of warmth and electricity ran through my body as we kissed for the first time. This felt so right, I never wanted to pull away from his embrace, his lips...I never wanted to pull away from him.

I feel again and it's thanks to you.

I have pieced my heart back together.

I have wrapped it and given it to you.

I have placed a small note on it.

"Careful I just fixed it don't break it so soon."