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Cinian

I had thanked her for something that she obviously didn't think she needed thanking for. She had looked surprised but just before the call shut down she had said my name once more.

I was still smiling when my official called to ask me how it went. I didn't mention she had asked me what I had wanted to choose, that was probably never even supposed to have happened. When your sibling becomes an abboration everything stays the same for you, at least that's what society says. There is no denying that you can still do whatever anyone else does, but that doesn't mean you're still equal to them. Everyone you know kind of decides that it's best to stay away, if they don't decide this themselves, their parents will decide it for them. First you're ignored by everyone, then insults are thrown at you by your former friends. You end up alone and there is nothing you can do about it. Secretly decisions you could first make are taken from you, the choices they had given Lucy was just an example.

I had no idea about what other choices had been made for me that I didn't know about, and I didn't want to know either. Ignorance is bliss at times.

Lucy had been ignorant about it, at least that's what her reaction had suggested. I still didn't understand quite *what* she thought about when thinking of me as family of an abboration. I wanted to know and at the same time I'd rather not. I was scared.

I remember the first time I was scared. My brother took me for my first swimming lesson, outside the normal 'swimming areas'. He told me there was nothing to be scared of and I believed him. It didn't stop me from being scared though. He had been so confident all his life. He had known so much about everything and decided for himself what he wanted and what he didn't want.

The day he came home and told my parents he didn't want to get matched was the day he slipped away. I knew why he did it, but only thinking about it makes me angry and I didn't want to get angry. In a way I started understanding though, somewhere deep inside I understood his decisions.

"Because of the mistake we made we have decided to give you the chance of two face to face meetings before the official meeting." My official said, interrupting my thoughts and pulling me back to reality. I had to refrain from laughing at the way he sounded proud of 'his' decision. "In two weeks time your match will be coming your way in the morning. You do not have to go to school, instead you will spend your time with her, have lunch, then an activity given to you by us will be done, dinner and two more hours of free time."

I was amazed by this. I never expected to have a whole day with her. Not that we would be alone, at least one official would be coming with us,but still it was longer than I could have ever imagined.

"She will be brought to your house and meet your parents so don't worry about that."

Don't worry? My parents? Now I was getting nervous. I wasn't afraid of them not liking her, but if she didn't like them...

"Thank you." I told the man, knowing he'd had no say in this at all but not just about to ruin everything by letting that show. The smirk he had on his face though at the control he had over what happened to me made me want to hit the screen.

Do I have anger issues? Sometimes yes... I try to keep them at bay though, and mostly that works out just fine. Especially after hearing she was coming here, nothing to be angry about. This would be one of the best days of my life, the other one would be our marriage, but maybe I was being too quick by thinking about that.

In the following two weeks we talked for half an hour every day. We talked about a lot, school, training, evaluations. She was having hers in a few weeks, mine would be two months out. She told me how she loved the prospect of being a medic and I listened to her talking about the training. It wasn't like I was particularly interested in medic training, but I *was* interested in her, so that evened itself out. We also discussed our coming day together. I told her I had a surprise for her, but she had to take her swimsuit. She laughed nervously but at the same time seemed excited by the idea.

I was planning on learning her how to swim, mostly because that would require a lot of touching. I felt evil for using that reason but knew that I didn't care how evil I was during that hour in the ocean. We would be swimming in the areas that had been cleared though, with the official being there and all, so it wasn't like we could do anything that we weren't supposed to.

During our conversations she asked me questions, all kinds of things. Even why my favorite color was purple, which I didn't really have an answer to. She seemed satisfied with every answer she got out of me though and I asked her things in return. The time flew by whenever we spoke, the time to wait wasn't that long either and those two weeks were over in a blink.

At the moment I was waiting at home for her to arrive. My parents couldn't be here, they said that they would be there during lunch. So I was alone, which I normally didn't mind at all, but right now I couldn't help but feel jumpy. I was excited, more so than I had ever been in my life. Since the match banquet I have found myself happier than ever, something I would've never even thought possible.

The moment the doorbell rang I actually jumped up from the chair I'd been sitting in and sprinted to the door to let whoever it was in. I thought it to be her and the moment I opened the door I found myself staring.

She was really here, in front of me. She was wearing a white shirt and black pants. It was the usual outfit for medics in training in every district but she looked amazing in it.

"Hi" she said with a grin and a small wave. I grinned right back, "Well hello there." I said.

"Good morning Cinian." My official said. He had probably picked her up from the station and walked her here.
"I heard your parents couldn't make it?" I didn't see the point in the question because he knew my parents couldn't make it. "They'll be here for lunch." I told him coldly, never letting my eyes wander from Lucy's face though.

I had found that I disliked my official a lot in the past week, luckily he disliked me just as much so we only talked when it was neccessary, or when he thought it was neccessary anyway.

"Where are we going first?" He asked.

I glanced at Lucy who seemed to find him as annoying as I thought he was. "We wanted to go swim, right Lucy?"

Her eyes sparkled in excitement as she grinned and nodded. The official frowned at that, "Isn't it too cold for that?"

I wanted to tell him to shut up, and I might have if Lucy hadn't interrupted.

"It's never too cold to swim." She told him.

I knew she had never swam before, so she could not have known, my official didn't seem to know though, which was good. I grabbed my bag with my swimming trunks in it and closed the door behind me before leading the way.

Lucy and I walked side by side in silence. It wasn't an uncomfortable silence however, quite the opposite. The official trailed after us, too close for us to really feel alone but to far away for us to usher him away with our glares. That trouble soon vanished though as the water came into view. Her eyes widened and sparkled as she watched it.

"It's beautiful." She whispered.

I smiled, "Race you to it?"

She looked up surprised and for a moment I thought she didn't understand. Then suddenly she grinned and started running, how cunning. I ran after her at full speed with a laugh. I hadn't expected her to be this fast but after about 10 seconds I had finally passed her. She stopped dead as the accessible area was just about a yard away. The place was empty, as most people were at work or at school, and shimmered in the sunlight. She stared at it and I smiled, walking back to her. We were both out of breath from our little race but she was grinning widely again as she looked at me.

"What do you think?" I asked her, not entirely sure if my heart was speeding because of the race or the breathtaking glint in her eyes.

"It's amazing, even better than you described it." She said through breaths.

I winked and grabbed her hand, "let's go." I told her, taking the bag she'd brought with her from her shoulder and swinging it over my own. In truth I thought it was a shame that I couldn't take her to the forbidden swimming areas, those were even more beautiful. With the official here however I had to be careful, and most of all be glad with what I had as I was more than aware of the fact that I could lose all of it.