Renesmees P.O.V.

Once Jacob got there and I was ready everyone followed me outside to depart. This was the worst part, telling them how much I loved them then leaving. Jacob stayed in the rabbit while I said my goodbyes.

"We love you sweetheart and this is what's best" Edward said. He picked me up off the ground to hug me and kissed my head on the way back down.

They all walked up to me in twos. Emmett and Rosalie, Alice and Jasper, and Esme and Carlisle. The only one left was …mom. She was standing by Edward biting her nails, I never witnessed her being so….so human. I'd miss her most of all. She was my other half, my rock that held me to this world, my everything. How could I say goodbye to the woman who gave her life for me, who has sacrificed so much for me? I still needed her , with teary eyes I went to stand before her.

" Mom, can I stay, PLEASE?" I pleaded. She scooped me up in her cold arms and held her hand to my head, crushing me to her like she was trying to make us one person.

"No, you can't" She said, almost sounding like a sob. If vampires were capable of crying she would have been.

" I wish I could keep you with me but I can't, it's not safe for you, I love you more than my own life"

I was crying hysterically, I guess the ability hadn't left me completely.

"More than my own life" I repeated, putting my hand over my locket and she put her hand over mine, setting me on the ground

"I love you all" I turned to say to them. They each told me they loved me too and half smiled. Emmett told me how he wasn't going to have anything fun to do without me around and how they would send the Voltouri back to Italy with their tails between their legs, which eased the pain I had in my chest. Rose just smiled at me. Alice told me how she put something special in my bag just for me. Jasper, he made me feel the love he felt for me and the painfulness that this brought. I was overwhelmed and had to hug him one last time.

"Goodbye" I said

"Don't say that" Emmett said

"Goodbye is what you say when you're never going to see someone again, this is more like see you later" He added

I smiled but I knew that this could be goodbye. It was hard to believe anything else. I looked at my family as they stood by each other . This could be the last time I see their smiling faces. Hope had left me just as quickly as fear took over me.

"See you later" I corrected myself. I knew it was what we all needed to hear. I got in the car with Jacob while Edward put my bags in the back. He came to my window, lightly tapping on it to get my attention.

I rolled it down even though I knew I could hear what he had to say through the glass

"Take care of my heart, you'll be taking it with you" He said as he kissed my forehead one last time

" If you manage to put my heart back together take care of it too, I'm leaving it with you..Dad"

It wasn't long before I was looking at my family through the rear view mirror. Less longer than that before they all disappeared. It was just me and Jacob now. I hadn't even told him hello or anything when I got in the car. I couldn't imagine what he was feeling. I was tired from all the crying and I leaned my head against the window to rest my eyes.

"You can crawl in the back if you want, I'm sure it's more comfortable" He said

"I don't' want to" I whispered

"You look tired, just get in the back"

"If it's ok with you I'll stay up here, I don't want to be any further from you than I need to be" I stated plainly

He sighed ,I could tell this wasn't easy for him either. He reached over and pulled me closer to him and I rested my head on his shoulder.

"I know this is hard, leaving everyone like this but we all decided that it was not safe for you"

I had nothing to say

"I love you more than anything else in existence and I'll do whatever it takes to make you safe" He said

"THE VOLTOURI ARE THE MOST DANGEROUS THING IN MY WORLD" I yelled. Why does everyone think they'll be able to stop them?

"I know but they'll have to go through me if they want you"

"You're not as strong as you think you are"

"I'm strong enough to protect you"

I didn't want him to protect me, I wanted to protect him and my family. I'd turn myself over to the Voltouri in less than a heartbeat. Jacob believed he could protect me from everything and anything but when it came to the Voltouri I wasn't so sure. Rage was replacing that hole in my chest, I didn't want to run, I didn't want to be protected, I wanted the ones I love to be safe, it was my fault they were in danger in the first place. I put my hand on Jacobs cheek to show him memories of the last time we had to face the Voltouri. His frowned at me and took my hand in his.

"You think you can stop them" I accused

" I'd just like to be able to stand between you and them, if that's enough"

We drove forever. I had no idea where we were or where we were going. All I knew is that I was an emotional wreck. Seconds later I jumped at the sound of Jakes phone.

"Hello?"

" Yea ok" He replied to whoever he was talking to

"You're sure?"

"Alright then ,just tonight" He said and hung up

"Who was that?" I asked tying to make conversation

"Alice , she said it'll be ok for us to stop for the night but we need to leave early in the morning"

I exhaled in relief. I needed sleep. We checked into a motel two miles outside of Washington. I rested momentarily on the bed while Jacob got our bags.

"Jake, there's only one bed"

" Yea the man said they only had singles left, you take the bed and I'll sleep on the floor"

"That's ridiculous, we can both sleep in the bed" I said with more enthusiasm than I thought I was capable of at the time

"Ness….that's not a good idea" He said

" Why? We used to…"

"Things are different now" he interrupted me. He was right things were different. I hadn't slept in the same bed with him since I was a little girl.

"Fine if you'd rather sleep on the hard floor than next to me, suit yourself" I was playing the guilt trip. It was selfish of me but I knew just where to hit Jacob to get what I wanted.

"Ok" he sighed. Success.