Chapter 11: Wrong things

'Mom!' Cho yelled desperate.

'And you won't ever get to see her again, you have been such a bad example already for years!' The Chinese woman yelled to a man who should be Cho's father.

'You have no right to deny me my daughter you little…'

'Dad!' Cho called out. Cedric's chest was stinging. She tried to hush the fight, the big fight. Such a tiny girl, and they fought about her. He just couldn't handle it, trembling in anger and he did something which wasn't like him. Totally not like him.

'WILL YOU TWO SHUT UP ALREADY?'

Cho turned around slowly, he saw in her eyes that she almost forgot he was there and somehow that hurt him even more. He realized to late she never saw him angry. He wasn't a lot. Only very rare, when they hurt people he cared about.

But he wasn't yelling to her, he was yelling to her parents.

'Don't you think Cho has a say in who she wants to see and who not? You are fighting constant over her but you don't even see her or know anything about her or even let her finish when she talks or take the time to actually see how unhappy both of you make her!' he yelled in anger.

He saw he should shut up but he wasn't able to, he just called along, it hurt him so incredibly much, that they did not see how they killed their beautiful daughter from the inside.

He expected the father to shout at him, hit him maybe but they did not and they both turned to Cho, with a disappointed look he knew too well from his own father.

'Is that really true? Didn't we always took care of you? Gave you everything your heart desired and now we have to hear this? from a complete stranger?' her father asked.

Cedric noticed how that made Cho angry, those words.

'If you would have paid attention, you would know Cedric isn't a stranger but my boyfriend.' Cho said harsh. Her father gazed at her and then looked at his almost ex-wife.

'Well maybe I don't even need to see her in that case.' he said and walked out the door, Cho standing there frozen as if she just got hit. Cedric cringed when also her mother walked out of the door and he wrapped his arms carefully around her. He only made it worse! He started to hate himself, the pain stinging his chest.

'I'm sorry,' Cedric mumbled.

'Maybe you should go home!' Cho replied half crying. He tensed and trembled, chewing his lip while watching her.

'Cho…' Cedric started.

'No really maybe you should go home!' she pushed him gently away. He stood there, looking to the ground as if he just got beaten up and at one hand he tried to get closer, at the other hand her pushing him away hurt him so. Though he did understand, she needed someone to yell to, to enforce the example the parents constantly gave her. And he could yell at him because he had been a total jerk but he only tried to help her!

'Cho I only wanted to help…I didn't mean to…you were so sad…honey, please…'

'Oh I know…' Cho gasped. 'I'm sorry, Cedric…'

The little girl sobbed and he blinked a little clinging on to her, holding her in his arms as if he never would let go. But what if she wanted him to, what if she meant the words he should go home and didn't want him anymore?

'For crying out loud Cho, can you just….stop it?' Cedric was angry, or not really angry but hurt. The last few days of the holiday had been a disaster. They fought about everything, and not even because they wanted to. He tried to stop it, hush it, going away when she told him to but even those things got wrong. In his eyes it was all his fault in the first place. He wouldn't like himself either. Cho pushed him away and she pulled him back, but he was ashamed of himself. He told himself, he deserved it and he should not whine. But she just pushed it so far!

'Cho…' Cedric said again as if he tried to ease his temper and breathing. 'You just have to stop it.'

Most of the time it calmed her, now it didn't and he cringed.

'Well you just should have told me where you went!' she yelled back.

'You told me to get out yourself, so what do you expect me to do? Leave a note for when you anger ebbed away telling you where I went in my fury? You have been impossible the last days Cho! What do you want from me?' He only tried to make her see, that he didn't got anywhere wrong. He only ran into the forest near, hiding under the trees and bushes for almost two hours and his face got dirty and his clothes black. She had no right to be angry like this!

'Well in both ways you shouldn't have stayed away so long! I was worried alright? And I only sent you away cause you were in obvious need of some fresh air, because you were being unreasonable!' Cho said angry. Cedric looked as if he was about to strangle something. Why did she blamed him? She told him to go away!

'I wasn't unreasonable! You told me to get out! So I got out! And I came back! I could have gone home too! I'm not some doggy you can throw out and call back whenever you want Cho Chang!'

'Don't you Cho Chang me, Diggory! Well why don't you go home in that case? Then I won't have to worry anymore either!'

'Fine! Why don't you just send me my stuff?' Cedric said and stormed out of the same front door he just came in. It was enough. She didn't wanted him here and he wanted to tell her, that he wished to stay. But his cockiness did not allow him and he stepped outside in the snow, slamming the door. Now he was angry. Really angry. Though when he was outside he kept standing before the front door, sinking down on the ground. The snow kept hanging into his hair.

It took a couple of seconds, or minutes, before he could not bear it anymore, crawling up and ringing the bell trembling. She opened the door slowly, still standing in front of it. He wrapped his arms around her, then held her face with his hands and he kissed her. Cho and Cedric both stumbled backwards until she hit the wall and he pressed her against it. She lifted one of her legs and he moaned, almost painful, as the snow melted and dripped over his face. He pressed a little against her, his lips moving over hers. Tears streamed down over her face and once Cedric broke the kiss and watched her, his face darkened and prompt started crying too. What did he do to her? What did he do to this brilliant, perfect, beautiful and gorgeous girl? What did he do to Cho Chang? Why did he always hurt the thing he loved more than anything, anything else in the whole world! There they stood, crying opposite of each other.

'I won't become as them! We won't become my parents! Don't let me!' Cho wept.

Cedric sobbed, wrapping his arms around her and they both sunk into the ground like that. He felt so weak. Why couldn't he help her? Why couldn't he caress her face and tell her it would be all okay?

'I won't honey…Sorry…I'm sorry…'

'No, I'm sorry…'

'I love you…'

'I love you too,'

The two teenagers left the support from the wall for what it was and both laid down flatly on the floor in each other's arms while crying loudly over one another's pain.

Christmas eve

Cho Chuckled. It was her nice chuckle, a happy one.
'Who would ever thought we would celebrate our first Christmas together at such a young age? Don't you feel a little mature now too?' she asked Cedric. Her parents left to work and actually he did not mind a thing. Being alone like this with her, sitting under the Christmas tree and with the lightened candles. It was just beautiful.

'Very mature. Almost as if you were my wife.' He grinned, kissing her forehead

Cho tensed at that comment. He took a deep breath, knowing that might had been such a comment she would grow angry about. He meant it sweet, but it seemed to give her unpleasant memories. She smiled, kissing him softly and Cedric just had to kiss her back victorious once she didn't burst out in one of her silly drama's and it was a good sign that this would be indeed a wonderful night.
'Love you.' he whispered and stroked over her shoulders. And he did love her, oh how did he love her.
'Mhh…' Cho mumbled loving against his lips.
'You want your first present, love?' Cedric asked.
'Alright?' Cho gasped softly.
Cedric wondered a moment with his hand over her leg, to tease her and then took a package from under the tree and gave to her. In the meanwhile his hand still laid there, on her upperleg. Cho smiled, opening it. She seemed to be curious. He loved her so, seeing her like this with the happy smile on her face. He loved her so much, he could not leave her, never. She took off the wrapping and when she took out a little music box her face got something sad but happy at the same time.
'How did you know?' she asked hoarse.
'Marietta told me, what you liked the most. She said you had a collection of these?' He stroked her hair and a warm feeling spread inside of him. She liked it. Though then her look turned thinking and a little scared and he frowned, wondering if it was wrong after all.
'I thought, you liked it?' he asked less secure now.
'Oh, I do!' Cho smiled quickly. 'I do it's beautiful!' And she meant that, he could see it. But he smiled at her still worried and then suddenly realized, what could be the problem.
'I asked Marietta per owl, you know.' he said then, knowing her better then she could think but she seemed almost to react uninterested. Even though there got a slight look of relieve into her eyes.
'Oh…'Cho said if she didn't think about such thing at all. But he knew she did and somehow it hurt him and made him insecure.
'You shouldn't think that away about me…' Cedric said softly.
'I never said I did!' Cho started angry.
He cringed, and they stared at each other for a moment.
'I love it.' Cho said then. 'Thank you.'
Cedric carefully smiled again, kissing her lips. She seemed to smile at ease and he brushed his lips over her cheek.
'Now yours?' she grinned.
'Hmm which one to open first, the one of your mother of yours?' He asked teasing, knowing her answer.
'Mine!' Cho stuck out her tongue. Cedric grabbed it between his thumb and finger. He didn't know what he was doing but it felt good, somehow. She muttered something, and he smiled looking and then started to licking her tongue while holding it. Cho made a surprised peeping sound once Cedric got all caught up in his little game. He slowly released her tongue but Cho didn't pull it back inside of her mouth. Thankful he got on, both their tongue twirling around each other outside their mouth. Cedric pressed his beloved Cho softly on the couch, crawling a little on top of her.
'Will you be my present?' he whispered longing and passionate in her ear.
Cho smiled gentle not sure if he was meaning it, but Cedric realized what he just said and gazed down ashamed. He released her. Smiling as a real gentleman he was trying to hide the little bump in his pants.
'Alright, sorry, moment of weakness. My present?' he muttered swiftly to get it on another subject.
Cho, who seemed a little bit dreamy, handed over a package some bigger than what he gave her. Cedric opened it, taking out a book with the title: Quidditch through the ages and he smiled widely.
'Cho, little angel of mine!' he smiled pleased and kissed her cheek. 'Thank you.'
'You're welcome,' she smiled gently and he was so happy to have her.
They grinned at each other, unwrapping the other present, laughing at the hideous sweater her father bought her in an attempt to buy her something without her mother's fashion advise. They got so giddy they ended up singing 'Jingle Bells' and it was sowing outside. After having made some funny pictures Cho chuckled and looked at Cedric. He stared back suspicious.
'I dare you to go outside in your bare chest and roll through the snow,' she said.
Cedric laughed. Silly girl, it was freezing!
'What will I get when I do it?' he asked. Nevertheless.
'Than we will do….Magic cards.' Cho said with a little mystery in her voice.
Though Cedric frowned by hearing that boring game.
'Well my shirt is staying on,' he replied.
'I wasn't done yet!' Cho interrupted him. 'You didn't hear which version yet,'
'So which version?'Cedric asked, getting curious and played with her hair.
'The strip version,' Cho wiggled her eyebrows.
'You want to play strip cards with me?'Cedric tried to ask. A million fantasies rushed through his head even though he knew it was wrong.
'Yes. If you run out in your bare chest and bare feet rolling through the snow.' She clearly thought he would never do that thing, but he was not such pussy and before she could say something he took off his shirt already.
'Oh no Cedric!' she said.
Cedric laughed.
'Oh are we butting out?' he asked.

'Well…' Cho mumbled insecure.

Cedric grinned and pulled her on his lap. Poor Cho, looking so tiny and fragile and insecure when she sat like this.

'Don't you worry my little fragile Cho, I would never keep you to that promise,'

Cho pressed herself against his bare chest. He shivered a little.

'What will I get when I do it?' she asked.

Cedric blinked and looked thinking. What could he give her?

'If you do that, you will get… Hot chocolate?'

Cho shook her head.

'You have to give me something better to see me stripping in the snow,' she grinned.

Cedric smiled, excited. He knew exactly what she liked.

'I will get you a cat.' he said.

Cho raised up a bit.

'A kitty?' she asked.

'Than I will give you a kitty, a sweet baby kitten.' Cedric said.

'Promised?' Cho asked standing up.

'Err…Yes?' Cedric said while he watched how Cho took off her shirt and shoes. This he did not expect and he would have given her this cat anyway. If she got outside or not.

'But honey isn't it a bit….cold.' Cedric added when Cho ran into the snow.

Freezing it was. He saw how she cramped and he stood in the doorway, again a million things rushing through his head but now it were no pleasant things at all and he started to walk towards her worried. She jumped up already, shaking.

'Is it good like this?' she asked when she looked up, but Cedric was already coming to get her. Why was he so stupid! Doing such thing to your girlfriend! She could have become sick or hurt! Cedric dragged her inside where Cho stood with Goosebumps over her entire body and chattering teeth.

'Oh Cho! You crazy woman!' Cedric made known while he pulled her shirt over head and rubbed over her arms. 'You wouldn't have to do that, I would have gave you a kitten if you just asked for it,'

Cho tried to smile but almost bit her lip while shivering, the shirt not heating enough and when she sneezed Cedric got pale. What if he made her really sick and what if she would die or such thing?

'Oh….You need warm milk and a hot water bottle and a bath!' He said swiftly.

'I-I I'm f-fine!' Cho tried to say.

'Your lips are blue! Oh gosh your lips are blue!' Cedric said and lifted her off the ground carrying her upstairs to the bathroom. He felt how Cho leaned content against his warm body. He put her on her feet and put on the bath. Next thing he did was staring around a bit uncomfortable. He did not want to leave her alone, but she had to undress. He didn't want to come over like some impatient guy who cared only about seeing such things. Cho's eyes sparkled a bit, while the bath was filling itself and she was still shivered in cold. Somehow she seemed to made a decision and he looked asking, but laid his hand on the doorknob doubting ready to leave, but Cho stumbled towards him in protest and closed the door with her hand. She locked it determined with trembling hands. Cedric breathed a little unsteady and smiled relieved for a moment but the next thing he was all tense again, the bath wouldn't let itself wait any longer while it streamed fuller and fuller. Cho shivered and stared at Cedric. He saw how she suddenly doubted. Not about the fact if she wanted him here, but such a typical girl doubting look. She was scared he wouldn't find her beautiful.

'Cho…' He whispered softly.

Her look changed. He muttered it loving, and respectful and a little timid because he didn't want to scare her away, but he did want to see her. Only because he loved her, because he loved her so. Not because it was the only thing he cared about.

She took of her shirt which was wet with snow and then her pants and once again she stood before him in her underwear as he had seen her before. He wondered how on earth she could breath this calm when he was half choking. And he looked at her, struggling with his man being and being respectful towards her. He did not want to make her insecure. She unlocked her bra, reveling her breasts and he gasped.

'Cho,' he said her name again, peeping and apologetic and he hid behind the sink a little. He felt sorry, clearly showing through his pants how turned on he was. Now Cho's breathing got unsteady as well. He wanted to tell her she did not have to do it, she shouldn't feel forced, but she didn't seem to feel like that.. Her hands took place on her slip and Cedric looked at the ceiling for a moment as if it would become too much for him but then also the last piece of underwear got stripped off. Cho stood there, a little helpless and still shivering in cold. He tried to get himself back together. He had to put her in the bath. She seemed so little and cold and so… perfectly beautiful and he walked to her, unsteady on his legs. Then he watched her again, carefully measuring how he should lift her in order not to make her uncomfortable. Nnce he lifted her carefully though, he carried her to the tub.

'Cedric keep your eyes open,' Cho whispered softly as he closed them while walking. He shocked a little, never realized she actually wanted him to see her. So he opened his eyes slowly.

'Hmm…oh yes sorry sweetheart,' he said tender. He carefully put her down in the warm water after checking it not being too hot. Cho closed her eyes clearly enjoying and he dared to look at her now.

'You're so beautiful…' Cedric mumbled as he stroked his wet hand through his hair which was all jumpy and messy now. Cho smiled thankful at him. They both tensed less now and Cedric moved with his hands through the water. Watching her body parts.

'May I wash you?' he asked hoarse than, a little ashamed.

Cho smiled slowly, handing him the soap. 'You may,'

Cedric soaped in his hands and trembling laid them on her shoulders, but once he touched her his nervousness wasn't gone completely but he did relax and started soaping her body, her back, massaging her neck. And Cho lifted her knee a bit above the water in enjoyment and leaned back with her head on the edge of the bath and seemed to enjoy He was happy she couldn't see his pants because he was really turned on. It made him feel ashamed, somehow. Then his hands slid down and he touched one of her breasts. He could not resist. She was just so perfect! She flinched a little when he did that and he took a deep, trembling breath.

'Sorry,' Cedric whispered hoarse. 'Sorry…I just couldn't…'

Cho smiled a little while opening her eyes and took his hands carefully placing them on her breast again. He held his breath when his fingers touched her soft bare skin. He never even touched them through her shirt. What if he did something wrong?

'It's alright,' she said and Cedric softly started massaging both of them then, not really knowing what he was doing. But a content feeling spread through his body.

Yes, it was alright.