11. New Addiction
Philip pulled up to red brick house in a newer neighborhood. It's no mansion, but I am sure he paid a lot of money for it. I took a deep breathe as he got out of the car. I watched him as he got out the house key and unlocked the door. He opened it for me and I walked inside looking around the house.
"Would you like a drink?"
"Do you have any wine?"
"Of course," He said smiling at with those golden eyes.
He brought me back a glass of white wine, and slowly took a drink. I thought drinking my calm my nerves. You shouldn't be here Andrea. Good girls don't have sex with strangers, I thought. You are acting like a slut. You know better.
"This wine tastes sweet," I said quietly.
"I bet you do too," Philip said whispering in my ear. His skin touching my skin caused me to tremble. I was going finally have sex, I thought.
"We should go to the bedroom," I said taking another drink of wine.
"Already?"
"Yeah I want to do this with you. This is going to happen. We are going to have sex. I am going to fuck the hot guy from the bar," I said taking his hand.
"We don't have to rush. And you don't need to be so nervous, Andrea. I promise I will be gentle with you. Nothing is going to happen that you don't want," Philip said rubbing my shoulder. He put his hands on my face and softly touched his lips on mine. I did want him. I wanted him enough to give up my beliefs. I wanted to know what it would feel like to have someone inside me.
"I want you," I said when he pull his lips away from mine.
"Let's go to the bedroom," He said taking my hand again. I followed his lead and took a deep breathe. I was going to find out what the hype was about. I would soon know what sex felt likw, I thought. I looked up and saw the big bed in the middle of the room. Could I actually do this? I mean I had dreamed about my wedding night forever. I would be in a beautiful white dress, and there would be roses petals on the bed. My virginity would be a gift I gave my husband. Now I was going to give it to stranger from a bar because I was tired of waiting? Don't over think it, I thought myself.
"Get on the bed," Philip commanded. Looking into his brown eyes I knew there would be going back now. This was going to happen. I got on the bed and laid down with no words. I turned over and Philip unzipped the tiny black dress I had on.
"You body is flawless. I am going to take such good care of you," He said unhooking my bra. He carefully removed my black lace panties, and I was there naked in front of someone I barely knew. Part of me wanted to run screaming. This should be Shane in bed with me, I thought. But you let Shane go. That was you.
"Please be careful with me," I begged him.
"I will Andrea. I'm never going to let you head hit the bed without my hand behind it. I will ease myself into you. It's going to be perfect, baby."
Philip started sucking on each one of my nipples. I watch as he closed his eyes, and licked my breasts all over. His moved his hands on to my butt and he continued kissing my body going lower. Finally he was there with his head in between my legs. I had done this before with Shane, I thought. Philip moved faster with his tongue then Shane did. His fast movements mad me orgasm quickly.
"You like that?" Philip asked grinning. I could see his erection, and I knew he was ready for me. He wanted me inside him.
"Yes," I smiled.
"Come here," Philip whispered moving his dick in my face. He undressed himself quickly, I thought. He laid on his back and moved me on top of him. I opened my mouth up wide and placed his dick inside of it. Philip moved my head up and down by pulling my hair.
"You're a natural at this," Philip whispered.
"Thank you. I am ready now if you are," I said after I finished sucking his dick.
"Let me get a condom," Philip replied reaching into his nightstand. I watched as slide the condom on his hard penis. He looked so huge. That was going to be inside me, I thought. How would ever fit?
He was on top of me again now kissing me. He slowly placed it inside me and started moving. He thrust himself inside me over and over. It a little hurt and I felt like I was going to cry. This was not how I pictured my first time I thought. To his credit he was moving as gently and slowly as possible.
"Are you all right?"
"Yes," I breathe. He starts moving deeper and deeper inside me. I feel myself getting breathless and covered in sweat. The pain has gone away and for the moment I am enjoying having him inside me.
"I am almost there," He whispers kissing my forehead. He thrusts himself inside me one last time. He then takes off the condemn and throws it in the trash. I look at his perfect body, and I think I can do this again. I mean the worst part has to be over now I think looking at his blood stained sheets.
"That was amazing," Philip said getting back into bed with me.
"I don't have anything to compare it too, but I enjoyed a lot. Probably too much, " I said as he put his arms around me.
"You can't enjoy something too much. That is impossible. I can't believe I am your first," He said sounding very pleased.
"You are," I said soft laying my head on his chest. I softly close my eyes, and think I can't wait to do this again in the morning. One time and I am already addicted to sex. No wonder Shane had trouble waiting, I thought. Suddenly forgiving Shane did not seem so impossible, but I knew it was too late for that.