Chapter 11 – Breaking The Routine

Another bad habit of hers was her constant worrying about how others viewed her, or what they thought of her. It was kind of bizarre when she really think about it. Imagining someone, anyone, out of the blue, thinking of her face. Like if something happened and because of that, they remembered her. They remembered her favourite song, how she dressed, the way she spoke, the look in her eyes when she was genuinely happy or angry. They remembered her, even if they hadn't seen or spoken to each other in years. Everything in life was a reminder of a person, a place, a moment. One may think that they had been forgotten, but they haven't. Not for a single moment.

That was the thought that kept running through Sakura's mind as her mother picked her up from school and she couldn't help but cringe every time it did because of how so many people would probably remember her.

It was Wednesday, so Sasuke would be coming over to her house after his after school practise. Nothing exciting happened since Monday except from Sakura now ate her lunch with Gaara on top of the school roof. Kakashi still stayed with her during classes, as she wasn't too sure she was ready for him to leave her around quite so many people just yet, and he didn't complain about it. Also, Sakura now took lunches to school to avoid the cafeteria at lunch.

On Monday, it had become apparent to her that she disliked large crowds. Whereas before she had rather enjoyed having everyone's attention on her, now it just felt like they were all staring, that they were all judging. It helped having somebody by her side, on her side. In fact it made the loneliness ease up, even if it was only by a little amount.

"Mom?" She didn't look away from the window as she spoke, but she knew immediately when she had Mebuki's attention. "Can I have my car back soon?" When there was no answer, Sakura looked up and rolled her eyes at the frown on her mother's face. "I feel like you don't even trust me."

Mebuki's hands tightened on the steering wheel as a pained look flitted across her features. "I'm just worried about you, Sakura. I don't want a repeat of–"

"That won't happen again," she interrupted her mother with a harsh glare before taking a deep, calming breath. "Look, Mom, I'm tired of being taken everywhere like I'm a child again. It's annoying and embarrassing."

She didn't take offence to the 'embarrassing' comment, for Mebuki could kind of understand how Sakura was feeling about that part. During her pregnancy, Kizashi hadn't allowed her to do anything that could possibly harm their daughter, including driving. She could still remember how it felt as an independent and proud woman such as herself was forced to rely on others. It had been agonising and at one point, Mebuki had hated Kizashi for his over-protectiveness. Now though, she could understand why he did it. Taking a deep breath, she looked down at her daughter before looking back at the road. "How about we wait until the New Year? It's November now, so you don't have to wait all that long. Besides, you will need to retake your test."

Damn. Sakura hadn't been aware that she would have to retake her test. She had barely passed it the first time. Maybe she should wait until New Year because that way, she would have time to study. "On one condition." Sakura smiled and when Mebuki glanced at her with a curious expression, her smile grew. "The car I want is a Volvo C30. We can sell mine to put money towards it."

"That's an old car though, isn't it?"

Shrugging, she looked back out of the window. "I still want it."

She and Sasuke were sat on her bedroom floor once again, but it seemed different this time. Her mother had trusted them enough to actually go back to work for a couple of hours and not only that, but he was acting differently. It was putting her on edge, if Sakura was completely honest. She preferred routine and knowing what was going to happen.

And then, Sakura felt her hair being brushed off her shoulder before lips were being pressed there. It annoyed her how quickly her body responded to his touches, how just a simple kiss was making a familiar heat pool in her stomach.

"Don't, Sasuke," Sakura said softly and pulled away.

Sasuke narrowed his eyes. "Why? I thought you wanted this."

Shaking her head ever so slightly, she looked down at their textbooks and started to read but he quickly covered it with his hand. With a sigh, she looked up at him and said, "I don't want to do anything when I know that you'll be doing the same with another girl by the weekend."

He rolled his eyes before leaning forward and pressing his lips to her shoulder again and between soft kisses, he spoke. "Sakura." After another kiss that brought him closer to her neck, Sasuke continued, "I haven't done anything with another girl since the moment I was with you."

Sakura's eyes widened as she gently lifted his head and stared him in the eyes. Was he telling the truth? Had he really not been with another girl since they had started seeing each other nearly two years ago, or when she had left nearly a whole year ago? Sakura could believe him a little, since he had been a completely different person when they were together and treated her well. But she also couldn't believe him because, well, because he was a guy. She shook the thoughts from her head. No. Not all guys were like that.

"Please tell me that you're telling the truth," Sakura whispered as she closed her eyes. "I won't be able to go through losing you again. You have no idea how hard it was for me."

The answer to her question was a kiss, a kiss that made her breathing shallow and her pulse quicken, especially when Sasuke lowered her onto the floor, quickly climbing on top of her as his hands moved over her body hungrily.

"Let's move to the bed," she whispered breathlessly as he moved his kisses to her neck.

He shook his head. "Too far."

As he cupped her through her underwear and teased her, Sakura could only agree. Her bed was indeed too far and she wanted nothing more for Sasuke to just hurry up and take her, even if it meant having sex on her bedroom floor. Showing him what she wanted, her hands went straight to the buttons of his pants, unbuttoning them as quickly as she could and pushing them and his underwear down just far enough to free him.

Leaning back on his knees, Sasuke pushed her skirt up and her underwear down, lifting her hips off of the ground and aligning them with his. However, he paused right at the last moment. "Are you still on the pill?"

She nodded, her eyes dark and clouded with lust as she told him, "Of course." It wasn't like she had started taking it because she was having sex.

That was all Sasuke needed and hearing her words, he entered her with one hard thrust, making Sakura's eyes roll as she lifted her hands over her head and tried to find something, anything, to hold onto. He was by no means gentle as he took her, making the sound of flesh smacking flesh fill the room as well as her moans. It was as though Sasuke was putting all of his anger at her leaving, his sadness, his pain, into his thrusts and she took it all without complaint. In fact, if he had been thinking clearly, he would have been surprised that she did. Sakura's nails dug into the floor, yet not hard enough to leave marks in the wood, as she let him take his frustrations out on her. There wasn't a single thought in her mind as she felt heat coiling inside of her, as she felt her mind drift from her body.

His hold on her was almost painful as Sasuke gripped her hips and pounded into her, causing Sakura's body to jerk as he did. Part of him was telling him, warning him, to ease up, to be more gentle with her, but he couldn't find it in himself to do so. Sasuke wanted her to see what her leaving had done to him without actually saying the words and like every other time they had been together, he felt his male pride soar as he heard her cries rise in pitch, as he felt her clamp down on him as she reached orgasm.

He didn't even notice that her eyes held a faraway look, one that would have told him that despite being there physically, she was most definitely not there mentally.

A/N - Probably not what you all would have expecting, since I said you would be seeing more of her past, but I also said that it would be slowly building or whatever.

I did have more to say, but I just got an alert that the latest Naruto chapter is out and I need to go and read it! I may be nice and update again either tonight or tomorrow.

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